I wanted to be...giving you everything...she's not giving   
06:35pm 22/10/2003
 
mood: cold
music: invisible- Clay Aiken
I write mostly on hotel paper
knowing that my thoughts will never leave this room
I'd be out of line teling you, "leave her"
so I lie lonely surrounded by you
by you
lately I can't be happy for no one
they think I need some time to myself
I try to smile but I can't remember
and I know tomorrow there'll be nothing else

And I wanted to be
giving you everything that she's not giving

and I wanted to see
cause I don't believe what I'd been hearing

you turned out to be more than I bargained for
and I can tell that you need to get away
forgive me if I admit that I'd love to love you
we both realized it way too late

and I wanted to be
giving you everything that she's not giving

and I wanted to see
cause I didn't believe what I'd been hearing

maybe this wind blowing in just came from the ocean
I wrote mostly on hotel paper..
 
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one of these days   
12:50pm 21/10/2003
 
mood: frustrated
music: Clay Aiken- I will carry you
One of these days..Michelle Branch

I didn't notice
but I didn't care
I tried being honest
but that lead me nowhere
I watched the station
saw the bus pulling through
and I don't mind saying
a part of me left with you

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
waiting to find a way back to you
cause that's where I'm home

did I make you nervous?
did I ask for too much?
was I not deserving one second of your touch?

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
waiting to find a way back to you
cause that's where I'm home..

what would you do if I could have you?
oh if I could
I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking
wouldn't that be nice?
one of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you..
 
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Don't say goodbye...slide away into the dark...take with you my heart   
02:02am 19/10/2003
 
mood: something is missing...
Bic Runga~ Close The Door, Put Out The Light lyrics

Close the door, put out the light
come sleep till tomorrow comes creeping
Talk some more, till I grow tired
don't leave till you know that I'm sleeping

Don't say goodbye.. just slide away into the dark
and take with you my heart

Close the door... put out the light
come sleep till tomorrow comes creeping
Down the hall they're talking lies
don't speak of the troubles you're keeping

Don't fall behind, just know that everything is fine
knowing that you're mine

Close the door... put out the light
this day leaves me tired and heavy
Waking hours will always fall a w a y
when you feel you're ready

Don't say goodbye... just slide away into the dark
and take with you my heart



Thanks Matt!

That song is really pretty. I really like Bic Runga's music. I liked her song 'Sway' and now this song and another called 'Heal.' Which are two that Matt put on a cd that he made for me.

When I get my computer back, I'm gonna try to dl some more songs by her..or maybe buy a couple of her cds.
 
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I live to be...deep inside of you   
01:27pm 16/10/2003
 
mood: confused
music: TIB
When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said you've got something
Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sound, sway of your hips round rings true
Echo's deep inside of you
These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems
Fall breeze blows outside, i don't bring stride
My thoughts are warm, and they go deep inside of you
Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright, alone...alone
Till I met you
Friends say I've changed
I don't listen cause I live to be
Deep inside of you

Slide of her dress, shouts in darkness
I'm so alive I'm
Deep inside of you
You said boy make girl feel good
But still...deep inside..
ive never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
Till I met you

And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming
I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my own people if I could find them,
And I would say that I'm sorry to you,
I'm sorry to you, but I don't want to call you,
But then I want to call you cause I don't want to crush you,
But I feel like crushing you
and it's true
I took for granted you were with me,
I breath by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
But we were broken and didn't know it
Right...oh, what's right?
Something's gone you withdraw and I'm not strong like before I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me, starts to bled
I've lost my self there's nothing left, it's all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you



~Deep inside of you- Third Eye Blind
 
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I've never been so alone and I've... never been so alive..   
01:07pm 13/10/2003
 
mood: refreshed
music: radioo
Motorcycle Drive By- Third Eye Blind

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside
in lower Chelsea and I don't know
what I'm doing in this city
the sun is always in my eyes
and it crashes through the windows
and I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you
that's when I knew...
that I could never have you
I knew that before you did
still I'm feeling stupid
and there's this burning...like there's always been
and I've never been so alone... and I've
I've never been so alive
visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
cigarette ash flies in your eyes and you don't mind
and you smile
And say the world it doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you.. you're so serene
careening through the universe.. your axis on a tilt
Guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you
And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in
I would like to build something..
you know it's never going to happen
And there's this burning..
like there's always been
and I've never been so alone..
And I've I've never been so alive
And there's this burning, There is this burning
Where's the soul... I want to know
New York City is evil
The surface is everything
but I could never do that
Someone would see through that
And this will be the last time
We'll be friends again
and I'll get over you
and you'll wonder, Who I am
And there's this burning
Like there's always been
I've never been so alone
and I've never been so alive
I go home to the coast it starts to rain
I paddle out on the water ..alone
taste the salt and taste the pain
I'm not thinking of you again
Summer dies and swells rise..
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this rolling wave
Darkly coming to take me home
And I never been so alone
And I've never been so alive

I love the lyrics to this song..I love this song period.
 
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got to hide your love away   
03:36pm 12/10/2003
 
mood: bored
music: cant stop loving you- phil collins
You've Got to Hide Your Love Away (Lennon/McCartney)

Here I stand head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If he's gone I can't go on
Feelin' two-foot small

Everywhere people stare
Each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away

How could I even try
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in

How could he say to me
Love will find a way
Gather round all you clowns
Let me hear you say

Hey you've got to hide your love away
Hey you've got to hide your love away
 
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Love this song...and love heather nova   
11:25pm 10/10/2003
 
mood: exhausted
music: like lovers do- heather nova
I love this song!

Like Lovers Do- Heather Nova

There is a paradise that can be found
A better life to bring us round
And all we really need to do
To see the world like lovers do

I wanna take it easy
Take it slow
To catch a fire
And let it go
I wanna give myself to you
So we can live like lovers do

Like lovers do
I wanna feel that way
Yeah Like lovers do
They lose themselves for days
And I need to feel, I need to feel that way (e ay) x 4

I can hear you thinking what I feel
I know that what we've got is real
And all we need to get us through
Is just to live like lovers do

Just like lovers do
I wanna feel that way
Yeah Like lovers do
They lose themselves for days
Yeah I need to feel, I need to feel that way (e ay) x 4
Like lovers do

Give me the strength to give myself to you
Like lovers lovers do-oooh-ooooh

(whispering)
Yeah all we really need to do is see the world like lovers do

Like lovers do
I wanna feel that way
Yeah Like lovers do
They lose themselves for days

Lovers do
I wanna feel that way
Like lovers do
They lose themselves for days
Yeah, I need to feel
I need to feel that way (e ay) x 4
Like lovers do
 
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Heal   
10:58pm 10/10/2003
  Fall for me, my southern cross, my star
Shine for me when love has gone too far
I've got you belly-deep in me.

Just a little breath on the water is all we need
Just a little strenght in our hearts -
Enough to heal,
Enough to heal.

Dig me out, can't leave this love for dead
Hand to mouth we're picking up the thread
I've got you belly-deep in me.

Just a little breath on the water now is all we need
Just a little strength in our hearts,
Enough to heal,
Enough to heal.

And the sea g l i s t e n s,
And the waves p u l l us in
There's something rising up and up.

Just a little breath on the water now,
Just a little strength in our hearts,
Enough to heal,
Enough to heal.


Gotta Love that Heather Nova ^_^

HN~ Heal
 
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Love is something I don't understand..can't hold in my hand   
12:49am 09/10/2003
 
mood: okay
Let's Not Talk About Love~ Heather Nova!

I don't know if i love you
Or if it's all in my head
I don't know if i love you
Though i know it's what i said

I don't know
'Cause love is something i don't understand
Can't explain, i can't hold in my hand


But i stay here tonight
And i keep the flame alight
Let's not talk about love

I don't know if i love you
Though i feel some pain
I don't know if i love you
Or if i'm playing again

I don't know
Because love is something i don't understand
Can't explain, can't hold in my hand


But i stay here tonight
And i make you feel alright
Let's not talk about love

Yeah, i stay here tonight
And i make you feel alright
Let's not talk about
Let's not talk
Let's not talk about love
 
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Too numb to believe in anything   
01:33pm 07/10/2003
 
mood: sad
music: water dripping
I know how it feels to be on your own
In this cruel world where hearts are bound to turn to stone
Where you are alone
And tired of breathing
It's all going wrong
And you just can't stand the pain any more

You're too numb to believe in
In anything


Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Darling don't let me down

I know how easy it is to let go
Surrender to despair lurking at your door
To lose your soul and all your feelings
Strength all gone
And so many things left unsaid
And deeds undone
You've stopped caring
'Cause it's all in vain

Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Darling don't let me down

You are so alone
And tired of breathing
It's all going wrong
And you just can't stand the pain

Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Baby just don't close your heart
Darling don't let me down
Don't let me down
Don't let me down
Just don't let me down
 
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break your heart   
05:57pm 06/10/2003
 
mood: sad
music: radio
Break Your Heart- Natalie Merchant

Oh, people downcast in despair
See the disillusion everywhere
Hoping that their luck will change
It's a little harder every day

People struggle, people fight
For the simple pleasures in their lives
The trouble comes from everywhere
It's a little more than you can bear

I know it will be hurt
I know it will break your heart the way things are
And the way they've been
And the way they've always been

People shallow self absorbed
See the push and shove for their rewards
With nothing nice on their minds
You can read about it in their eyes

People ruthless, people cruel
The damage that some people do
Full of hatred, full of pride
It's enough to make you lose your mind

I know that it will hurt
I know that it will break your heart the way things are
And the way they've been
Yeah I know that it will hurt
I know it will hurt
I know that it will break your heart
The way things are and the way they've been
Don't spread discontent, don't spread the lies
Don't make the same mistakes with your own life
You know it will always came back

Yeah, I know that it will hurt
I know that it will hurt
I know that it will break your heart
The way things are and the way they've been
Don't spread discontent, don't spread the lies
Don't make the same mistakes with your own life
And don't disrespect yourself, don't lose your pride
And don't think everybody is gonna chose your side
Oh no... Oh no... no..


I like this song..it's good
 
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weird   
05:46pm 06/10/2003
  wow I just realized that in the entry before the last, the title of the song was 'seven days' and in my last entry the song was called 'seven years'

heh that's weird...
it wasn't done intentionally.
 
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good lyrics...good artist   
05:42pm 06/10/2003
 
mood: tired
music: commericals on radio
Seven Years- Natalie Merchant

Seven Years
How did I love you?
there was no measuring
far above this dirty world
far above everything
in your tower over it
you were clean

so warm and insightful
were you in my eyes
I was sure the rightful
guardian of my life
damn you betrayer
how you lied

but for seven years
you were loved
I laid golden orchid crowns
around your feet

for seven years
I bowed down
to touch the ground
so wholly your devotee

you were
all I could see

I've got my sight now
I see everything you hid
so don't you try to right now
all the wrong you did
I might forget you
but never forgive

but for seven years
you were loved
I laid golden orchid crowns
around your feet

for seven years
I bowed down
to touch the ground
so wholly your devotee

for seven years
you were so revered
I made offerings of
anything and everything I had

you were
all I could see
 
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safer holding back?   
10:16pm 05/10/2003
 
mood: contemplative
music: I'm still here~ Goo Goo Dolls
They're seven days below us
That keep me hovered above the ground
And nights just blend into the morning
Definition is the first to go down
If i were to stay here between us
I might forget where i'm bound
So i can't stay in between us
I guess i'll walk away
And here to read the future
But forced to breathe out the past
And too many conversations
To uncover what was purposefully lost showing the guidance that we lack
And we used to be so wistful
I guess we feel it's safer holding back
If i were to stay here between us
I might forget where i'm bound
So i can't stay in between us
I guess i'll walk away

Azure Ray- Seven Days
 
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hope..is not in what I know ..   
12:50pm 05/10/2003
 
mood: sad
music: If you believe- Rachel Lampa
Switchfoot .~. You


There's always something
in the way

There's always something
getting through
but it's not me
it's You, it's You

sometimes ignorance
rings true
but hope is not in
what i know

it's not in me..me
it's in You, it's in You

it's all i know
it's all i know
it's all i know


i find peace when
i'm confused
i find hope when
i'm let down
not in me ... me
in You
it's in you

i hope to lose myself
for good
i hope to find it in the end
not in me ... me
in You
in You

it's all i know
it's all i know
it's all i know


in You
in You
its in You
in You

there's always something in the way
there's always something getting through
but it's not me
it's You
it's You
it's You ....
 
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Someday we'll know   
12:15pm 05/10/2003
 
mood: lonely
music: dancing in the moonlight- toploader
Someday We'll Know- Mandy Moore and Jonathan Foreman

Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years and later
You're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God one question (one question...question)
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
 
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Breathe   
07:12pm 30/09/2003
 
mood: tired
music: fleetwood mac
Breathe- Michelle Branch

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
and its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
in saying things we never meant to say

And I Take it just a little bit
I, hold my breath and count to ten
I, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I Give you just a little time
I, Wonder if you realize
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper and I'm,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

I've been drinving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
 
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You are Everything.....   
02:41pm 30/09/2003
 
mood: crappy
music: lifehouse everything
Find me here
speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
I find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are Everything
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
everything
you're all I want
all I need
everything
everything

and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better
oh any better than this
would you tell me how could it be
any better than this?



Lifehouse~ Everything

So beautiful..
 
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I will sing you a lullabye   
07:10pm 28/09/2003
 
mood: contemplative
music: Marybeth Maizarz - I will be there
Golden Slumbers
The Beatles

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye


I love The Beatles.
 
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03:33pm 25/09/2003
 
mood: crappy
Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton

Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven ?
Would you feel the same
if I saw you in heaven ?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven ...
Would you hold my hand
if I saw you in heaven ?
Would you help me stand
if I saw you in heaven ?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven ...
Time can bring you down , time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart , have you begging please ...
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven ...
Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven ?
Would you feel the same
if I saw you in heaven ?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven ...
 
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