10:24pm 25/02/2004
  Hello! I'm in a good mood, for once in a life time. We had our first volleyball games and they were a blast. I was super nervous at first but once we started playing it was fun. We played 4 games but only 2 teams. We won every game! Yippie! Go us! I did better then i have been doing which is wonderific! (Lol, I love that word).

I just got done watching The O.C.! It was soo good! I love that show. Ryan and Seth are wow! HOTT! Very! I don't think I can wait until next Wednesday to watch it again. lol. Oh well, I guess I will just have to.

Colleen is okay, I guess. She was telling me about her moms reaction. Not good. She won't let her do anything. And yea. It's not good. It's like she is grounding her. And like that is going to help. Yea Right. Colleen seemed sad in the morning and afternoon. But at volleyball she seemed almost happy. I know she's not though. She is probably just acting because she doesn't want anyone to know. Well she is doing a good job.

Well nothing else really happened. So I will go. Ta Ta! --I LOVE PAT--

*Julia*
 
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10:24pm 25/02/2004
 
mood: okay
Hello! I'm in a good mood, for once in a life time. We had our first volleyball games and they were a blast. I was super nervous at first but once we started playing it was fun. We played 4 games but only 2 teams. We won every game! Yippie! Go us! I did better then i have been doing which is wonderific! (Lol, I love that word).

I just got done watching The O.C.! It was soo good! I love that show. Ryan and Seth are wow! HOTT! Very! I don't think I can wait until next Wednesday to watch it again. lol. Oh well, I guess I will just have to.

Colleen is okay, I guess. She was telling me about her moms reaction. Not good. She won't let her do anything. And yea. It's not good. It's like she is grounding her. And like that is going to help. Yea Right. Colleen seemed sad in the morning and afternoon. But at volleyball she seemed almost happy. I know she's not though. She is probably just acting because she doesn't want anyone to know. Well she is doing a good job.

Well nothing else really happened. So I will go. Ta Ta! --I LOVE PAT--

*Julia*
 
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wow.   
10:02pm 24/02/2004
 
mood: crappy
Hey. Geez, a lot has happened since the last time i wrote an entry, which seems to be a long time ago. Well, it kinda was. Anyways... first of all... School Sucks Ass! I hate it so much. I hate almost all the teachers and just everything. We got a lecture on P.D.A! It's soo fucking retarded. Well that's not the worst thing. Colleen told Pat about her. Him and I were talking about it and he said I should tell Mrs. Pena about it. Well if I were to try I would have no idea what to say! So then he asked if I would like him to and of course I said yes, please, because I don't want to see Colleen get hurt. Well him and Sean talked to Mrs. Pena about it today and she made them tell her names and so now Mrs. Scibienski knows and so she probably talked to Colleen about it. And Colleen wasn't at volleyball and I haven't talked to her since before volleyball when her mom was in the office talking to Mr. McGonigal.. oh dear. I know I should feel like I helped her but for some reason I feel like shit. Like I made the wrong choice in telling Pat to talk to Mrs. Pena about it. Idk Andrea says not to but why else would I feel like a shitty friend unless I really was one. I just want to blow up. Maybe if that was even possible! I'm so lost right now. :(

I'm so frustrated and annoyed with myself. Not just because of the whole Colleen situation but because all my friends are depressed and hurt themselves and I can't do anything to make them stop. It's like I just have to sit there and watch them hurt themselves more and more everytime. It makes me feel like a failure. I'm helpless. I would go do something to hurt myself because I feel so depressed and shitty lately. But I can't do that when I tell all my other friends not to hurt themselves. I would kinda be a hypocrite if I did.

One good thing is Pat. I love him so much. He makes me feel all happy and stuff inside. Which is the one thing that isn't making me have a total breakdown. It's odd. Everytime I talk to him or see him I feel all giggly and weird. But good weird. I don't think I have ever liked a guy this much. I just wish I knew if he felt the same.. highly doubtful. But I can still pretend.

Tomorrow we have our very first Volleyball game. I am excited but nervous. Today we thought of a cheer and I was wearing my old Nsync T-shirt so David and Mr. Simon were making fun of me so David said that our cheer is Let's get Nsync. Go Panthers. Hopefully it was all a big joke. I am #5! Whoo Hoo! not.. What kind of # is that! 5! Come on! out of all the #s I get stuck with that one. Oh well. I guess I will have to deal with it now won't I.

Well I am gonna go talk to Andie, and watch Bad Boys 2... ttfn.
ANYONE WHO READS THIS SAY A PRAYER FOR COLLEEN!

Love ya -- Julia
 
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im a penis   
08:36pm 13/02/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: fe fe- everything
hellow. haha. god i hate when people say hello like that. its like hallow but with an e instead of an a.... anyways, today was pretty good. i went shopping with colleen and kristie. I got bev and brandi their b-day gifts a cute shirt for myself and a card for pat. i still havent got him his gift... i have no idea what to get him! so... we didnt have school today and we dont have it monday either! thank god! sleep! Thursday school was... uh.. *shrug of the shoulders.* i made up a name for myself. i was writing in my lit notebook and i signed it lonely and loser so then i just decided for it to be lonely loser yea so that and penis are my new names. my sister has problems. we were in AE and she was like no your a penis. it was kind of odd. and she got mad at me because colleen and i were downstairs and werent playing cards with her so i told her to go find some friends. oops. that was a mistake.

today we had volleyball.... fun fun fun is what that mean. i love it.. haha i cantget my surves over more then half of the time but oh well. mark and matt said the first practice did better then the second which is good because i was at the first practice lol. our first game is next saturday... hm... excited but then nervous. oh well as long as i come out alive i will be proud of myself.... dooo dooo dooo.

colleen is over. yea we are just sitting here. i do that a lot. like pretty much all the time. that and sleeping is something i do a lot which is pretty much the same thing... well not quite but yea.. ya know what i mean. we made cupcakes! they should be ready for eating soon. like real soon. i havent had cupcakes in forever. seriously FOREVER. i begged my mom to let andie come over too... i finally got her to say yes.. but andie cant. colleen and i will have to have a aprty by ourselves.. im sure we can manage lol. i mean come on its colleen and i. the 2 funniest people lol that find the weirdest and dulllest things interesting..

5 more days... oh god that like forever. i am not gonna be able to go to school for 2 more days! ahhh. kill me and bring me back to life on wednesday!! i wish u could do that. it would be great. yea... hmmm... what am i gonna do for 5 more days. the only good thing about me sitting were andrea sits at lunch (we switched spots becasue she HAD to sit next to mark) is because i can stare at the back of pats head haha. its kinda funny..but i have to sit by kevin and look at all the ugly people that sit at the people at the other table.. i like looking at the wall better but oh well. i can deal with it until andrea and mark break up.. oh god who knows when that will be. they are literally obsessed with each other. andrea says she likes mark more then she ever liked john. i didnt know that was a possiblility. but yea.

well the cupcakes are ready. must go eat and get fat! haha.. yay! well ta ta.. I LOVE PAT!
Julia
 
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doo dooo dooo dooo   
09:05pm 10/02/2004
 
mood: crappy
music: Come Clean- Hillary Duff
Hello there... I just got back from dance! Definetly not fun! My toe pad was all screwed up so my tow started bleeding like crazy and I had to sit out almost the whole part of ballet because of it! urrgg it made me soo mad. But I got to do jazz and tap which was good. Our jazz dance is to J.T. Rock your Body! It's a sweet dance! We do this like jug thing lol... it sounds kidish but it's not what you think. Tap is sooo much fun! It's soo fast which is why I love it. :)

Pat leaves for Colorado and isn't coming back until next Tuesday around 10ish.. so I won't see him again until Wednesday at school :( It sucks terribly! Especially because it's Valentine's Day this weekend.. Andrea and Colleen give me their sympathy and said we will go see Lord of the Ring's: Return of the King. Since I haven't seen it yet, and if I dnon't see it soon I will die. But I'm not quite sure it will happen. They will want to be with Mark and John for Valentine's Day and stuff like that. But who knows. I just want it to be next Tuesday! lol

Okay, I'm really starting to get annoyed! Why the hell does Colleen think Pat is gay. When she says he's gay , she is pretty much saying he doesn't like me, because if he was gay he wouldn't like a girl, which makes me feel liek shit. And everything she says about him is about him being gay which is rude. I don't care if she thinks he's gay or likes him or anything... but does she have to say it in front of me? I haven't told her not to say it but when every she says something of the sort I just don't talk and go out in my own world.. So she sould notice I am getting annoyed. And then at Genesys she was like he looks like he could be your dad! OMG! I wanted to have a gun to either my head or hers. And ever since then she mentions him being my dad on top of him being gay. I don't think I can handle it anymore. And then not only does Colleen make rude comments but Pat's friends do too. Like I was getting my lunch and Phil was behind me and he was like yea Pat said he was going to take the babysitting classes so he can babysit his girlfriend. So I turn around and he's like oh hi Julia! what an asshole! who does that? yea. so I am just piised about the whole thing. Why is it so much a big fucking deal? And urrg I'm sure Colleen wouldn't want me saying shit like that about her and John. I know she wouldn't but yet she doesn't put herself in my position to think of how I feel. She just does it to give her and everyone else a laugh.

Well enough of that... think happy thoughts lol. Tomorrow for once we don't have volleyball! But I have to admit I am kind of disappointed! I love volleyball! Eve though I suck ass at surves... oh well. Hopefully I'll get better.

But I am going to go study some more for Religion! We are studying the beatitiudes one by one! What Joy! To Da Loo! Love you all bunches....
Julia
 
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04:22pm 08/02/2004
 
mood: bored
music: everything - fe fe dobson
Hello... I am bored. Like usual. Colleen just left. I think something was in our pop last night because we were drunk or something. oh well it was fun lol. I want to go to borders really bad! I don't have any good books to read!! ahh! But no one will take me. My parents are bitches and my sister left to go somewhere. she scares me. Colleen and I went downstairs this morning and there was a 24 back of beer down there all gone! and she had only had 4 friends over. oh well.

I feel like shit. I suck imaginary dicks at being a good friend. I make everyone feel like poo. Especially Andrea. I don't mean to. I just idk. It's weird. I guess I'm not there for her. Well now that I know what I do wrong I am going to do it right! Well try as hard as I can to make it right. I hope we have recess outside so her and I can talk! I feel that we haven't really talked about things in forever. Like since last year before we got in that huge fight. urrg that fight was soo pointless. we weren't friends for so long because of that. well at least we worked things out and are friends again. thats always a good thing.

Tomorrow is Monday which means we have school. I'm not quite sure why but I want to go to school. hmm... school makes me happy for some odd reason. We have volleyball practice tomorrow! Which I am excited for too! I like volleyball a lot. I'm not bad but I'm not good. Which is fine with me. I am better at it then I am at bball tho. Well at least I think so. We have it 4 days this week. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday! Eevryone is dragging it. Besdies me! lol I hope I get on Mr. Simons team just because I know he will be a tough coach so I will improve. But with my luck I won't be on his team.

Well I am gonna go.. Too Da Loo! By the way Andrea I love you so much girl! Please don't ever think I don't!
 
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04:22pm 08/02/2004
 
mood: bored
music: everything - fe fe dobson
Hello... I am bored. Like usual. Colleen just left. I think something was in our pop last night because we were drunk or something. oh well it was fun lol. I want to go to borders really bad! I don't have any good books to read!! ahh! But no one will take me. My parents are bitches and my sister left to go somewhere. she scares me. Colleen and I went downstairs this morning and there was a 24 back of beer down there all gone! and she had only had 4 friends over. oh well.

I feel like shit. I suck imaginary dicks at being a good friend. I make everyone feel like poo. Especially Andrea. I don't mean to. I just idk. It's weird. I guess I'm not there for her. Well now that I know what I do wrong I am going to do it right! Well try as hard as I can to make it right. I hope we have recess outside so her and I can talk! I feel that we haven't really talked about things in forever. Like since last year before we got in that huge fight. urrg that fight was soo pointless. we weren't friends for so long because of that. well at least we worked things out and are friends again. thats always a good thing.

Tomorrow is Monday which means we have school. I'm not quite sure why but I want to go to school. hmm... school makes me happy for some odd reason. We have volleyball practice tomorrow! Which I am excited for too! I like volleyball a lot. I'm not bad but I'm not good. Which is fine with me. I am better at it then I am at bball tho. Well at least I think so. We have it 4 days this week. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday! Eevryone is dragging it. Besdies me! lol I hope I get on Mr. Simons team just because I know he will be a tough coach so I will improve. But with my luck I won't be on his team.

Well I am gonna go.. Too Da Loo! By the way Andrea I love you so much girl! Please don't ever think I don't!
 
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blah blah blah   
04:17pm 07/02/2004
 
mood: blah
music: I promise- Stacie Orrico
Yo! Yesterday was the lock in. It was pretty fun. I mostly hung out with Lisa, Christina, Lindsay, and Michelle. Well not really Michelle. And Lindsay not the whole time but yea. Colleen and Andie were in there 4 people world with Mark and John. Oh well. Christina, Lisa, and I did pretty much nothing. We mostly just walked the track. Pat was there. :) Yippy. But Merry didn't go!! urrgg. She sucks. Lindsay and I are going to die from the pizza! It was eating our stomaches! lol And Justin was there. He was looking pretty fine lol. But I didn't talk to him. He said he didn't see me. Either he is lying or didn't remember what I look like. Everyone got mad at me because i forgot my bathing suit. So they all got me soaked. Especially Mike. He poured water all over me! Luckily Andrea had another shirt I could wear. But my ass was wet the rest of the time. Yesterday Colleen was very odd. But only when we were at Genesys. Like she wasn't acting herself. But I wasn't around her much so who knows. I feel Blah like. I kinda feel left out too. Maybe I'm imagining it lol. Colleen and Andrea are closer and buddy buddy now because their boyfriends are best friends. And then here I am.. Lonely Julia. lol. It's kinda how it was when Colleen and Amanda were best friends because their boyfriends Kevin and Spencer were. Who knows.

Tonight Pat wants me to do something with him, Sean, and Bev. And Andrea just said that her, Colleen, Mark, John, Pat and I should see a movie. Hmmm.. I'm suprised they invited me along. I doubt Pat wants to go to a movie with a bunch of 7th graders though. Nothing is for certain yet though. I asked Colleen if she wanted to come over tonight amd she kinda just ignored me. I think she doesn't want to or something. She would probably have a better time going to Andrea's. They would have more to talk about.

Well I am going to go get some food. ttfn.. ta ta for now.
 
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BOO!   
05:20pm 05/02/2004
 
mood: energetic
music: White Flag- Dido
HAHA! I'm happy and in a good mood. Not quite sure why. I like volleyball a lot! It's really fun but really tough too. Practice today was much more easier than Tuesday. Hopefully it stays this way. We are going to split the 28 girls up and have 3 teams. As long as I have one of my friends on my team, I will be glad. :) Well, tomorrow is Friday... Which means Lock In!! yay! I'm super excited. I am riding the bus with Colleen and we are going to get all cute and go. lol... not sure about the cute part since its at Genesys but yea. Pat is going!! Yippy Skippy! haha.. And Justin is too.. i haven't figured out if that is good or not. Since Colleen thinks Pat is gay she said that he is going to fall madly in love with Justin. Especially because he's a blonde lol. But I think not. It's going to be awkward with Justin there. What if he comes up and starts talking to me. hmm.. oh well Colleen will be there to help. hah i hope. John said to have Pat beat him up. lol. But that's to mean, and plus I guess we are friends. But anyways... I have a science test tomorrow! Pooey. I don't want to study! urrgg.. I don't want to do homework either. But of course I have too. I will just do it at like 9:30 or in the morning. That always works. lol... I like putting things off to the last minute. Well I shall go loose in a game of minesweeper and wait for Pat to come back from sitting and watching his game. Poor him... he broke his foot. Not sure how you can break your foot playing basketball but he managed too. Too Da Loo!
Much Love,
Julia
 
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BOO!   
05:20pm 05/02/2004
 
mood: energetic
music: White Flag- Dido
HAHA! I'm happy and in a good mood. Not quite sure why. I like volleyball a lot! It's really fun but really tough too. Practice today was much more easier than Tuesday. Hopefully it stays this way. We are going to split the 28 girls up and have 3 teams. As long as I have one of my friends on my team, I will be glad. :) Well, tomorrow is Friday... Which means Lock In!! yay! I'm super excited. I am riding the bus with Colleen and we are going to get all cute and go. lol... not sure about the cute part since its at Genesys but yea. Pat is going!! Yippy Skippy! haha.. And Justin is too.. i haven't figured out if that is good or not. Since Colleen thinks Pat is gay she said that he is going to fall madly in love with Justin. Especially because he's a blonde lol. But I think not. It's going to be awkward with Justin there. What if he comes up and starts talking to me. hmm.. oh well Colleen will be there to help. hah i hope. John said to have Pat beat him up. lol. But that's to mean, and plus I guess we are friends. But anyways... I have a science test tomorrow! Pooey. I don't want to study! urrgg.. I don't want to do homework either. But of course I have too. I will just do it at like 9:30 or in the morning. That always works. lol... I like putting things off to the last minute. Well I shall go loose in a game of minesweeper and wait for Pat to come back from sitting and watching his game. Poor him... he broke his foot. Not sure how you can break your foot playing basketball but he managed too. Too Da Loo!
Much Love,
Julia
 
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BOO!   
05:20pm 05/02/2004
 
mood: energetic
music: White Flag- Dido
HAHA! I'm happy and in a good mood. Not quite sure why. I like volleyball a lot! It's really fun but really tough too. Practice today was much more easier than Tuesday. Hopefully it stays this way. We are going to split the 28 girls up and have 3 teams. As long as I have one of my friends on my team, I will be glad. :) Well, tomorrow is Friday... Which means Lock In!! yay! I'm super excited. I am riding the bus with Colleen and we are going to get all cute and go. lol... not sure about the cute part since its at Genesys but yea. Pat is going!! Yippy Skippy! haha.. And Justin is too.. i haven't figured out if that is good or not. Since Colleen thinks Pat is gay she said that he is going to fall madly in love with Justin. Especially because he's a blonde lol. But I think not. It's going to be awkward with Justin there. What if he comes up and starts talking to me. hmm.. oh well Colleen will be there to help. hah i hope. John said to have Pat beat him up. lol. But that's to mean, and plus I guess we are friends. But anyways... I have a science test tomorrow! Pooey. I don't want to study! urrgg.. I don't want to do homework either. But of course I have too. I will just do it at like 9:30 or in the morning. That always works. lol... I like putting things off to the last minute. Well I shall go loose in a game of minesweeper and wait for Pat to come back from sitting and watching his game. Poor him... he broke his foot. Not sure how you can break your foot playing basketball but he managed too. Too Da Loo!
Much Love,
Julia
 
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BOO!   
05:20pm 05/02/2004
 
mood: energetic
music: White Flag- Dido
HAHA! I'm happy and in a good mood. Not quite sure why. I like volleyball a lot! It's really fun but really tough too. Practice today was much more easier than Tuesday. Hopefully it stays this way. We are going to split the 28 girls up and have 3 teams. As long as I have one of my friends on my team, I will be glad. :) Well, tomorrow is Friday... Which means Lock In!! yay! I'm super excited. I am riding the bus with Colleen and we are going to get all cute and go. lol... not sure about the cute part since its at Genesys but yea. Pat is going!! Yippy Skippy! haha.. And Justin is too.. i haven't figured out if that is good or not. Since Colleen thinks Pat is gay she said that he is going to fall madly in love with Justin. Especially because he's a blonde lol. But I think not. It's going to be awkward with Justin there. What if he comes up and starts talking to me. hmm.. oh well Colleen will be there to help. hah i hope. John said to have Pat beat him up. lol. But that's to mean, and plus I guess we are friends. But anyways... I have a science test tomorrow! Pooey. I don't want to study! urrgg.. I don't want to do homework either. But of course I have too. I will just do it at like 9:30 or in the morning. That always works. lol... I like putting things off to the last minute. Well I shall go loose in a game of minesweeper and wait for Pat to come back from sitting and watching his game. Poor him... he broke his foot. Not sure how you can break your foot playing basketball but he managed too. Too Da Loo!
Much Love,
Julia
 
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kjsh   
05:13pm 02/02/2004
 
mood: crazy
music: bounce -- sarah connor
Hi! last week was definelty a long one. But very fun! Friday was the best! Pep rally! Colleen and I were losers and had polka dotted faces and my little pony visors! haha! Then that night Colleen and I went to Andie's! Fun fun! Yea... Volleyball starts tomorrow. yay! its gonna be a very humiliating season! anyways.... i must go study for math! what fun! much love! or as colleen would love much! lol... bye bye

Julia



Best book ever-- the giving tree!! haha -- andie and colleen!
 
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snow!   
04:05pm 27/01/2004
 
mood: confused
music: my love is like whoa remix- mia
It snowed a lot today!! During Math Mr. Simon let us go outside because the snowflakes were coming down about the size of golf balls! It was fun... but cold. Anyways, today I have dance, and to tell ya the truth I'm not very excited to go. Maybe it will get canceled. I really want school to be closed tomorrow. But I highly doubt it will happen. But there is always hope. Well.... I am having some troubles, with Pat. It's not good. I like him a lot a lot a lot, but idk... Colleen said of whats going on that if she was in my position she would break up with him, Leigh Ann and Rachel both say don't break up with him just forget you ever found out. Merry words exactly.. "French the damn boy." And Andrea has nothing to say. I have no idea what to do either! And urrgg it just gets me so frusterated because I like him so much. But oh well I guess is all can say write now. Well, Nothing else worth writing about really happened today... so bye bye.
Jools
 
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Hey There   
10:58pm 24/01/2004
 
mood: cold
music: Janet Jackson - Again
Heyy Friends! I am so excited! Andie just made this blurty for me! yay! Joy! Well, Today was real boring. I had to go to a confirmation retreat for 5 hours! Omg! I wanted to fall asleep so badly! Then I went to din din with my sister, mom, and meg at Apple Bees. Ever since then I have been sitting here on line, bored out of my mind. haha at Apple Bees there was a cute little girl behind us singing Joy to the World! I wanted to sing along, but didnt. But I am going to go talk to Andie (my boobie friend) and play snake! ttfn! Much Love!
Julia


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