||Follow Me by PNAU
It's kinda wierd. I am VERY straightforward. I think, well I know, that it bothers some people. I want to, and expect to, hear the truth, and I will always do the same. Well, this IS leading somewhere.....though it often doesn't with me, I'm very good at ranting. I did it again.....and I hope he's being completely honest with me.....I told Zach what I needed to get off my chest....and so this is how the convo went.*Follow Me by PNAU*
LuV mY oRpHeUs: hello
LuV mY oRpHeUs: waz up?
Zam2121988: wassup w/ u?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: ehh I dunno........nothing important i guess
LuV mY oRpHeUs: How was your weekend?
Zam2121988: it was ok, boring but, ok
LuV mY oRpHeUs: yeah
LuV mY oRpHeUs: me too
LuV mY oRpHeUs: Are you busy?
Zam2121988: but i'm gonna leave at like 10:45
LuV mY oRpHeUs: ok
LuV mY oRpHeUs: We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic cords of memory will swell when again touched as surely they will be by the better angels of our nature
LuV mY oRpHeUs: Eden sent me that, isn't that nice?
Zam2121988: she wrote that?!?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: no she's quoting Abraham Lincoln.....I'm so inspiring though.....:-D
Zam2121988: it is good thought
LuV mY oRpHeUs: yeah
LuV mY oRpHeUs: Can I ask you something?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: well actually a couple things.....first, why is it that you can talk to me online but not on the phone?
Zam2121988: i can rarely have real convos on the fone
LuV mY oRpHeUs: Are you being honest with me? Cuz honestly, I remember (and i doubt I am that crazy that I would be having dillusions) before I told you......a couple hour long conversations, online AND on the phone with you. I myself hate talking on the phone and am not good with it, but we seemed to do well then.....answer that and.....
Zam2121988: still, i'm more comfortable online
Zam2121988: brb in like 1 minute
LuV mY oRpHeUs: second would be....Are you as uncomfortable around me as i am around Jason? If so, why? (being that I don't like confess my undying love to you like he does to me lol) as a matter of fact I feel as though I don't act any different around you........Do you think I act differently? How so? Or is it just you? Either way......what is it going to take for this to be different like it was before or just plain different.....because in many ways this doesn't feel like friendship to me, does it to you?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: Please answer all of those questions
LuV mY oRpHeUs: I coulkd be a lawyer.....:-D
LuV mY oRpHeUs: or a psychiatrist
Zam2121988: i don't feel different about you or act differently (conciously) around you, i don't hink you act differently either per-se, i just think the friendship has chinged, why? i dunno
Zam2121988: it feels like a weak friendship, yes
LuV mY oRpHeUs: What do you think makes it a weak friendship? How does one change such a thing, would you say......I would say if you were in my position, but then you're part of this friendship too
Zam2121988: i honestly don't know, i think at this point things are weak, maybe it'll come around, maybe it won't
Zam2121988: i can't say, i don't know what one of us can DO
Zam2121988: it's 10:45
LuV mY oRpHeUs: I suppose I can agree, however, psychologically, we both obviously have.....I don't know if issues is the right word......with each other. Now as Mr Paveglio said when you like someone, the mirror will eventually break.....well it's broken and I've begun to move on.....but I still love you....however as a friend. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but isn't that honestly what this all leads back to? Things WERE going fine before, if you don't remember I do. When I am completely over you......where will you stand? And where will we stand?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: ok you can go......after this question.....do you completely dislike how straightforward I can be?
Zam2121988: i think thing will resolve themselves at that point
Zam2121988: i like the straightforeward
LuV mY oRpHeUs: I will know it, will you know it when it comes?
LuV mY oRpHeUs: ok good
Zam2121988: it makes things easier
LuV mY oRpHeUs: it bothers some people
Zam2121988: yes, i'll know it
LuV mY oRpHeUs: I hope you do......bye
LuV mY oRpHeUs: adios
BTW I am Luvmyorpheus....if you didn't already catch that. ;) Well.......I know Kara as usual won't be commenting, though I would like it but I can't expect much from her anymore now can I? But, well, any of you out there....What do you think of this conversation? Be brutally honest.....if you must.
*Follow me.....we'll take it one step at a time....you and me....we'll make it further down the line.....distantly....intertwined.....follow me....we'll take it one step at a time.....step into these shoes of mine....*