| A convo... I'll post another one tomorrow |
[12 May 2003|09:30pm] |
YWSMC: Hi, it's Audrey
Gender1632: hi audrey
YWSMC: how are things?
Gender1632: alright i guess and you
YWSMC: good...
Gender1632: good
YWSMC: Yeah, it's been a trip *laughs*
Gender1632: huh?
YWSMC: oh, nothing...
Gender1632: why would you say something like that, then follow it by"oh nothing"
YWSMC: I'm just staying with Josh...
YWSMC: And we are sort of engaged (unofficially)
Gender1632: WHAT
Gender1632: THE
Gender1632: HELL
Gender1632: there is no face on this aol window to picture mine
YWSMC: why?
Gender1632: nothing can compare to my faces
Gender1632: but what the fuck
YWSMC: what's that supposed to mean?
Gender1632: youre kidding right
YWSMC: no, honestly, I'm not
Gender1632: what the hell,...
YWSMC: I've been here since Easter, living... and we decided Sunday about the Engagement... Though it won't be official until probably October
Gender1632: why october
Gender1632: and what the fuck
YWSMC: Because it's not now... I don't know why October, we just decided that...
Gender1632: OMG
Gender1632: .................*no words to describe the facial expression*
YWSMC: we might be moving out together soon too
Gender1632: ahhh, AHHH,,,, AHHHHHHHHHHHH...ALRIGHT
Gender1632: audrey
YWSMC: yeah?
Gender1632: stop
YWSMC: ok
Gender1632: just stop
YWSMC: I'm just telling you what's going on
YWSMC: that's fine
Gender1632: One
Gender1632: thanks for telling me
Gender1632: BUT
YWSMC: yeah?
Gender1632: i rather have heard it from josh
Gender1632: and not you
YWSMC: okay...
Gender1632: two,..
Gender1632: lil rushed and what the fuck are you thinkin...my opinion
Gender1632: dont answer that
Gender1632: just dont do it
Gender1632: wow i need a cigarette
YWSMC: I'm thinking I love Josh and I don't have to defend myself to anyone, ecspecially when I have my family and friend backing my decision...
Gender1632: not asking you to defend yourself
YWSMC: yet, you are telling me my decision is wrong, without even knowing me, correct?
Gender1632: but jesus, this is what i would say to anyone of my friends
Gender1632: listen audrey
Gender1632: im not going to start with you
YWSMC: okay I'll listen
Gender1632: i didnt say anything
Gender1632: all im thinking in my head
Gender1632: is yes
Gender1632: these have found each other and are happy
Gender1632: okay
Gender1632: but its only been a couple months
Gender1632: and things are always wonderful and always beautiful and it seems so soon
Gender1632: i know your feelings are strong
YWSMC: yes, but we aren't going out and getting married tomorrow
Gender1632: i know
Gender1632: but an engagedment is just as big of a committment
YWSMC: at the very earliest it will be spring next year
Gender1632: OHH
Gender1632: AHH
Gender1632: *lights up*
Gender1632: im trying to be happy, its not working at this moment, let it all sink in
YWSMC: you know, you should be happy... I will treat Josh with the upmost respect and give him everything I possible can, and I know he'll do the same for me, and if we are happy, why can't you be for us?
Gender1632: you just told me
Gender1632: gotta give me a minute
Gender1632: seriously
YWSMC: Yeah, but you are like, "don't do it." No, hey, think about it first... It's don't do it... Fine, take your time... It's not like it's going to go away...
Gender1632: i dont want you to hate me, i really dont, not because i cant rejoice at this minute
YWSMC: I don't hate you... And if I did it wouldn't have anything to do with this moment in time
Gender1632: what does that mean
YWSMC: Nothing
Gender1632: yeah
Gender1632: is josh there at all
YWSMC: okay, i'm saying that if i wanted to hate you, I think you telling me you love my boyfriend would have done it...
YWSMC: he's here...
Gender1632: joy
YWSMC: he's in the shower
Gender1632: i love him as a friend
Gender1632: i love alot of my friends
Gender1632: im protective of them
YWSMC: Yeah, well you told me you loved him like I do...
Gender1632: not in the way you do my dear,,love has many levels
YWSMC: okay... Sure...
Gender1632: im sure you know that if not,..you have a lot to learn
YWSMC: Yes I know that, but that's not what you said...
Gender1632: what were my exact words
Gender1632: ?
YWSMC: You're exact words. "I felt the same way you do before, but now I'm not so sure."
YWSMC: then we discussed it, and you said you will always love Josh... You told him that
Gender1632: BEFORe key word
Gender1632: i will
Gender1632: our relationship is different now MUCH different
YWSMC: yeah, I know..
Gender1632: not like what you two have
YWSMC: yeah, I know that too
Gender1632: awesome
YWSMC: yes, yes it is
YWSMC: fucking awesome
Gender1632: yea there you go
YWSMC: Josh needs a best man for our wedding, are you available?
Gender1632: and that means what
YWSMC: it was a perfectly innocent question
Gender1632: when you two do evetually get married
Gender1632: yes i want to be there
Gender1632: i would love to see him so happy
Gender1632: and to find love and find someone who sees so much more in him than everyone else does
Gender1632: that would make me happy
YWSMC: eventually? whatever...
He's already that happy or he wouldn't have talked about it with me...
Gender1632: evetually meant...next spring
Gender1632: like you said
Gender1632: like its going to ahppen..eventually,..in the future..soon..nottomorrow though, liek you said
Gender1632: its alright, nothing bad about that sentence, its okay
YWSMC: Well, you know you'll be invited to our wedding, I just have some major planning to do, and I've already started...
Gender1632: especially in a yr
Gender1632: its alot
YWSMC: Yeah I know, and I can't wait. I'm excited, and my family is excited and they are helping..
Gender1632: thats good
YWSMC: yeah...
Gender1632: i know im up here
Gender1632: but anything and i mean ANYTHING
Gender1632: you guys need id love to help any way i can
YWSMC: sure...
YWSMC: but I doubt we'll need that kind of help...
Gender1632: and what kind of help are you referring to
YWSMC: don't worry about it, since I won't be needing it anyhow...
Gender1632: ohh,..wow youre a,..
YWSMC: I'm a what, come on, say it...
Gender1632: i wont
YWSMC: why, I won't tell Josh, do you think I'm like that? I wanna know your true feelings, let it all loose
Gender1632: ....no......
YWSMC: see, now, that's where we differ, I have no problem telling people what i think of them, unlike you, just insinuating it...
Gender1632: no im not going to
Gender1632: i have no problem with it
Gender1632: i just dont think its right soo im not going to
YWSMC: why isn't it right? Sorry but I have no respect for people who have something to say but won't say it...
YWSMC: it's not the way I was raised
Gender1632: because i dont want bad feelings here thats why,....so back off
YWSMC: it's kind of late for that, and sorry, but I don't back down... You got something to say about me, you need to say it, or else it's bad feelings... Because I can take someone who will call me a bitch, but I won't even talk to someone who is gonna do it behind my back... Fuck that shit
Gender1632: im nto going to do it behind your back
Gender1632: im nto going to do it at all
Gender1632: and i wasnt going to call you a bitch
Gender1632: so calm down
YWSMC: whatever, and how do I know what the fuck you were gonna say? If you can't fucking say it, I gotta think the fucking worse...
She got offline then... That's Josh's friend... Ew, I know I lost a little bit of control, but that was pretty F*cked up...
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