||Ben Folds Five - Eddie Walker
Ok, this is going to be a long post, so brace yourself. I'll leave all the boring long bits at the bottom so you can just stop reading when you get to them! :) Wait, what am I saying, they're all boring bits... Whatever
Well, it's Friday night, and Binghamton is official DEAD! It's nuts, the dining halls closed at 1:30PM, half of my classes were cancelled... and nightfall everyone had left for home. I almost typed homo, but that was a typo. Probably my repressed sexuality surfacing.
Anyway, I'm not sure if this sucks or is great. I get to feel more alone than I have in a while, and that's cool... But my roommate is still here and so is Laura's, so I don't really have privacy... oh well. It's interesting at least.
I was locked out of my room before, and I don't know who closed it on me, but none of my suite-mates were home....hmmm.... I also just typed sweet mates by accident - definitely my burgeoning homosexuality there.
Well, nothing's really happening this weekend as far as I know... AND HERE COMES A STUPID BIO-READ-ALL-ABOUT-ME-LIST! WOOHOO! (stolen from Sara who stole it from Al) Ok, this is officially the long boring part... have fun!
-1- What's your name? David Mattews, unfortunately
-2- What does your first name mean? Possibly 'beloved'...
-3- What does your middle name mean? Apparently it means "Who is like God?"
-4- What does your last name mean? I have no idea, leave me alone!
-5- Would you want to change your first name, if so to what? Probably... something that isn't so connected to my past
-6- Were you named after anyone? Nope! :D
-7- Which of your parents named you? My mummy
-8- What origin is your last name? Probably English or Irish...
[ Current Clothes ] Light blue t-shirt thing, tan pants, white socks
[ Current Mood ] Confused, complacent
[ Current Music ] Ben Folds Five
[ Current Taste ] In my mouth? nothing. In clothing? shrug. Stupid question.
[ Current Make-up ] None
[ Current Hair ] My own.
[ Current Annoyance ] The social construct of gender
[ Current Smell ] Once again, stupid question.
[ Current Favorite Artist ] What kind of artist? Umm, your mother.
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Some forest sunshine with birdie picture
[ Current Favorite Group ] Too hard to answer, so I'll say Stevie Ray Vaughan
[ Current Book you're reading ] I'm reading a bunch of books..
[ Current CD in CD Player] Um... I think I still have a SRV CD in my CD-player from last night
[ Current DVD in player] ok, no DVD player here
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] um... nothing.
[ Current Refreshment ] Your mother
[ Current Worry] that I'll die sad and lonely. no, just kidding...
[ You Touched ] Apart from myself, Laura O'Hanlon
[ You Talked to ] Same
[ You Hugged ] Same
[ You Instant messaged ] SAME
[ You Yelled At ] I don't even know
[ You Kissed ] Your mother... Wait, no that was last night. Laura.
[ Food ] Your... father! I don't know... Ice cream.
[ Drink ] Orange juice for taste, vodka for fun. (screwdriver? hmmm :D )
[ Color ] Greeeeen
[ Album ] oh my goodness, I don't know... something by Stevie Ray Vaughan
[ Shoes ] My new-ish brown Reeboks that look like Laura's... :o
[ Candy ] Peppermint Patties!! :D probably..
[ Animal ] oh sheesh... Gorillas!
[ Show ] hmmmm.... your mother? no.. Queer Eye for the Straight Guy! at least right now
[ Movie ] uhhm.. I don't really have favorite movies, I like them when I see them and then I forget if I liked them or not. but I liked Dark City a long time ago
[ Dance ] FREAKDANCE! I don't know... I don't dance
[ Song ] so hard! um.. possibly Eric Johnson - Lonely in the Night
[ Vegetable ] Hmm, carrots? probably
[ Fruit ] Pears
[ Cartoon ] Family Guy or Simpsons
[ Understanding ] To the best of my ability..
[ Open-minded ] yeaahhhh
[ Arrogant ] no.
[ Insecure ] yes.
[ Interesting ] in some ways.
[ Random ] sometimes..... :o
[ Hungry ] When I don't eat.
[ Friendly ] yeah
[ Smart ] in all the unimportant ways
[ Moody ] not so much anymore! ;D sometimes..
[ Childish ] ooh yeah, at times
[Independent ] now that I'm at college, a little more so... but not emotionally
[ Hard working ] sometimes yes, sometimes verrrry no
[ Organized ] sometimes very yes, sometimes very no
[ Healthy ] more healthy than un-healthy, at least
[ Emotionally Stable ] stable, yeah..
[ Difficult ] not for other people (usually)
[ Attractive ] no
[ Bored Easily ] no.
[ Messy ] when I don't watch myself... yeah, I guess so
[ Thirsty ] often
[ Responsible ] mostly, but sometimes very no
[ Obsessed ] sometimes
[ Angry ] sometimes
[ Happy ] occasionally
[ Hyper ] yeah, sometimes
[ Trusting ] a bit
[ Talkative ] not usually, but sometimes with close people
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Slap ] people who are utter assholes and break social custom by cutting in line, being rude to someone undeserving, etc
[ Get Really Wasted With ] anyone.... :o
[ Get High With ] Laura
[ Look Like ] Brad Pitt (1, 2) or Kate Moss
[Talk To Offline ] Stevie Ray Vaughan
[ Talk To Online ] Stevie Ray Vaughan
-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] laura
[makes you smile] laura
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] laura
[who do you have a crush on?] laura
[has a crush on u?] laura
[is easiest to talk to] laura
-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] nope
[save aol/aim conversations] no, but I did log IRC when I used it... I don't really use AIM
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] all the time.
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yeah.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] yeah! :D
[been rejected] by colleges? yes. not relationship-wise, but I've never given myself the chance to be
[rejected someone] not formally "No" but yeah, by not returning advance
[used someone] no, not emotionally.. or that I can think of
[been cheated on] not as far as I know
[done something you regret] no, I'm perfect... of COURSE I have, that is the stupidest question.
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[do you smoke?] not cigarettes ever, or anything often
[could u live without the computer?] yeah
[color ur hair] no
[ever get off the damn computer] yes, often
[habla espanol] enough to know what that means, and that's about it
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] um... like 30? not a lot.
[drink alchohol?] as often as a) I get to or b) is reasonable
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yes
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] they're not comparable... but emotional pain lasts the longest, plus it can cause physical pain, so oo..
-N U M B E R-
of times I have had my heart broken? zero
of hearts I have broken? hopefully none.
of guys I have kissed?: hmm.. probably like 4-6. it's hard to remember when you're drunk
of girls I have kissed?: probably like 6 or 7? see previous answer
of tight friends?: a bunch
of cd's that I own?: maybe about 150, very approximately
of scars on my body: about 6 or 7 I know of
of things in my past that I regret?: that's impossible to say... it's not so much individual actions as behaviors or mindsets that I regret
I KNOW: very little
I WANT: to feel full of life
I HAVE: difficulty with happiness
I WISH: I had what I want
I HATE: not much, but most often of anything, myself
I MISS: Blixt (my online Swedish friend.. no, that sounds funny, but he was my best friend ever)
I FEAR: death and failure
I HEAR: many unimportant things...
I WONDER: what the future holds........
I REGRET: it's hard to say I regret being depressed, because it isn't my fault, but I regret the actions that stemmed from it
I LOVE: Laura, my friends, Laura, and simple pure un-thinking happiness
I CARE: about the things that I love
I ALWAYS: am who I am
I AM NOT: motivated
I DANCE: when I'm drunk or feeling prideful
I SING: when no one can hear
I DO NOT ALWAYS: have my mouth closed
I FIGHT: Alexander Graham Bell
I WRITE: out of a need to let out what I feel
I WIN: valuable prizes
I LOSE: my pants
I CONFUSE: myself, by FAR above all else, myself
I LISTEN: to everything that I can
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: in my/laura's dorm room, or class
I NEED: love
I AM HAPPY: when I'm close to Laura and just feel, not think
I SHOULD HAVE: done more with my life before now