oh what an april fools day..
Last night was something else.. i didn't expect this .. well not from "him" He was different. Or at least i thought he was. He texted me.. if he could come over.. sure i said why not we haven't hung out in awhile.. harmless.. Turned into something else.. One thing led to another and the next thing i know.. my toes go numb. I care about him so much. I don't know what to do.. we're still really good friends but do i want something more?? I don't know.. i'm not ready for that yet.. well at least i dont think so. He's so different.. then again.. so am I. Who's to say whats normal nowadays.. everyones a little off. RIGHT?? ugh.. i hate this.. Among my friends he's known.. as the goofy weird kid. Yet most of my friends dont take a liking to him very much. Everyone would Freak if they found out.... It wasn't about the sex.. it's about what it ment.. I think... no i'm positive i was his first. Which takes this to a whole other level. I'm not sure what i'm thinking anymore... or if it even makes sense. I think i'm gonna call him..... LATER