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Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
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12:48p - So, mornings suck
Well, I started a second job recently. Tan Pro. I figured I would save money on tanning (yes, Kritsen I know it's bad for you...) and then get paid at the same time. I had to work this morning at eight, and left at nine-thirty because we were slow. Needless to say, I could've slept in a LOT more than I did since I spent half the night coughing because I'm still sick.
But that's my own damn fault because the medicine that I'm taking won't let you drink anything (alcoholic that is) when you take it, and during one week I had a date party, a birthday party, and a bunch of other things and just put off my medicine. That's the last time I'll do that...
The past couple days... have been odd. Since I'm now a part of the Over Thinkers Anonymous, Co-Vice Prez at that, I've definitely been overthinking. But, what else is new? I am excited about the holidays, yes. I love Christmas, I love the lights, and I love the spirit of the season. But this year, it different. In the past years, I've been in relationships. I've learned that I don't need a relationship, much less a boy to make me happy- just friends and family that love me and some sort of support structure to fall back on when I'm not able to pick myself up. Yet, there is that void- the void of not having that person there. And I wouldn't just want anyone, so I'm not just going to settle for a holiday hook-up. I'm worth more than that. Other than that, I'm looking forward to the holidays.
I think another reason that I'm not happy is because I didn't get the position that I wanted in the sorority. I really wanted external social because I feel that I am the most qualified for the position- I know people, I know places and I think I'm a lot more outgoing than the person that go it. I'm not happy with the position of historian- they can't give me what I want to make it a real position, so I'm just not happy doing what the position entails right now. I guess it's my start in politics, even though it's a pretty measly start. However, if I could have learned anything from Colleen, it's to realize that sometimes the person that isn't the most qualified gets the position, and gets it in the most unreasonable (my word choice is off today) circumstances- but it's because we're meant for something bigger and even better. In some respects, it's a good thing that I didn't get it because it would save me time for my internship, my two jobs, my 20 credit hour schedule next quarter, as well as pursuing the city government on fighting for more rights for the disabled, as well as maybe volunteering for the Bush/Cheney campaign with Colleen and the rest of the Ohio Republican Party. Next year I'll be sitting in the position of external social, you'd better believe it. I've got some major ideas, and I will use them at some point. :-)
I would like to thank Maria for giving me roses in her profile. :-) That made me smile.
And to my soulmate for making me the cutest card and supporting me with the boy situation.
Time for class!
current mood:  cold
current music: Erin's Christmas Music (1 comment |comment on this)
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