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Friday, August 15th, 2003
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1:08a - Confused.
This past week can be summed up in one word: confusing. There are a lot of thoughts running through my head- well, hey, what else is new with that one? But this time it's different. I've never actually really analyzed these thoughts that intensely, and it's gotten to the point where other people are starting to notice things that I haven't noticed, or paid attention to.
Yes, vague, but at the same time it's better to be aloof. I think. Between being told that I should be a fashion major (hell no) and then a lecture from best friend, it was grand. Basically, I got the normal lecture from Jake about everything, down right to his blunt opinion. I have to respect his opinion, because he respects mine- that's what best friends do. But at the same time, I wasn't happy with how it was presented. It was to the point where he was snippy with me, which I do not appreciate, especially from him. I guess that's the main reason I'm in a pissy mood- because I don't necessarily like what he says all the time, yet I've gotta give him something- he's always honest. One-hundred percent honest. But I've gotta love him anyways- he's been there through the thick and thin and respects me for who I am, not what he wants me to be. He doesn't envision me as something that I'm not, and doesn't expect anything from me other than equal respect and courtesy. And he's real- he doesn't present a fake image towards other people, or a different personna based on who he's with. Out of all my friends, he's real. I can say the same thing for Sarah, who will always give me her blunt opinion as well, just a bit less snippy. :-) She's nothing more or less than what she says, and that's awesome. I love people that are able to just be themselves, no matter who they're with. And I love the fact that despite our age difference, she treats me as an equal. We went to a movie premiere tonight of the movie with Brittany Murphy...(my mind is drawing a blank to the name though). We both cried through it, and then enjoyed Queer Eye for a Straight Guy in the later half of the evening.
On a happy note, James is much better!!! I'm thrilled to actually be able to talk to him on the phone and on the internet, since he's at home from the hospital. It's so comforting to hear his voice, and not have to worry about what the doctor is going to say next. Oh, Trevor is better, too. Lots of love to you both, bbg. ;-)
Well, I'm off for the night. Hopefully the weekend is better...It's muggy and foggy, which makes wonderful driving weather. *sighs* Finally no Osbournes! I think I've seen the entire season one... yikes. Season two is on tape. I sure as hell hope that's not the movie marathon I'm in store for... we'll see.
current mood:  confused
current music: In the End- Linkin Park (comment on this)
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