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Friday, February 7th, 2003
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2:50a - Stuff
I decided to create a picture album online like Abby and Kare- here's the URL:
http://www.picturetrail.com/luckycorvettegrl
Glenn is complaining that his picture in my album looks "gay". It's old. What should he expect?!
I'm listening to Justin Timberlake. His CD is actually not that bad. I really do think he has some talent, at least as far as promoting himself and distinguishing himself from the other members of his band N'Sync, cause he has a little bit of a different sound that the rest of his bandmates. And not to be mean the the other bandmates, but he will probably succeed more than them.
I took Hannah and Sarah down to the sorority house tonight to watch friends. Despite Morgan attacking me because I smelled like vanilla, I think they were impressed! I love my sisters. :)
I'm also happy because Jenn, my bid buddy, and I are probably going to hilton head together!!
It's late. Listening to Toto now. What an oldie! But a goodie. :) Bio quiz tomorrow. To bed I go. :)
current mood:  chipper
current music: Toto- Africa (comment on this)
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5:16p - REALITY CHECK
I guess for the most part, I'm really pissed off right now. I don't really know why. I didn't have a bad day, I'm not doing poor in school- in fact, I think this is going to be one of my better quarters now that I've dropped accounting. I have a solid A in biology, and good grades in stats and my poli sci course. I think it's just college people in general, the entire college population that can literally go out every single night, get drunk and then pass their classes. That right their pisses me off because I know sooo many people that work their asses off to get to where they are and get an A, and no matter how hard they try they don't get the grade. I was talking about this last night with my friend Hannah, and then later with my friend Julie and James.
I don't get it. I don't understand what the fucking point is to get completely trashed, and then feel like shit in the morning. I don't get what people like about the taste of beer, or the fact that they seem to think that they'll be perfectly peachy fucking keen driving after they've been drinking. I guess it's the fact that I was talking to my friend James who lives in Texas, and I guess he heard from an old aquaintance from our past, Bryant. He was pretty much an alcoholic by the time he was eighteen, believe it or not. Those cases that you see on the television about kids that drink too much and then get into trouble because of it, well he is the epitomy of the cases, and if that much worse. If you could picture a kid who had the chances for everything, a college education, money that was just handed to him, and despite the affectionate parents and parents that were actually there, he had it all going for him. He was one of those brainy people who, if he applied himself, probably could have gone to an Ivy League school, or at least Emory. Well, he has wasted his life into a fucking bottle of alcohol. Every damn penny that was just given to him, he put towards that, and I guess he's doing the same thing right now. It pisses me off so much, and it made James upset to see his old best friend ruin his life. It's not like we didn't try to help, but at the same time, what were we supposed to do? I guess it was weird for James to actually hear from Bry, and the it not only upset him, but got me thinking about my college experience in general.
Do people in college actually know what it is like to live on the streets? I'm not saying that I know what it's like because my family has basically given me the enormous gift of going to college without having to pay a penny (except for the sorority). But I can see first hand through my friends and family. My Dad had to pay for college himself. He went to school for 20 hours a quarter, and any extra time was put forth for work. I guess the initial fact that college students spend soo much on alcohol and other entertainment purposes is just starting to hit me. Why? Why waste that income? Why not save it? Put it towards a car? Do most college students, like me, know what it's like to pay bills? I sure as hell do. I know the feeling of what it's like to be in debt, and to then to get out of it, and it's just one hell of a rollercoaster. I think a lot of kids my age just don't see the value in their money. That it's worth a lot more than what they seem to put forth, and especially the value of their parents' money. We didn't earn that. I see it in my brother- he takes it all for granted. We never once earned a single penny of that! It's just handed to us, and the fact that he never says thank you or appreciates the many things my parents do just pisses me off. I guess I see that in my acquaintance, JL. He has no concept for anything. I think he's lied to his parents about his grades, re-taken courses, gotten the same marks, and he thinks he's going to make it through college? And then when I see his naive parents at the mall and they have the nerve to say, "Well, you're gonna help my son through college..blah...blah..." I just want to smack them. It's not my responsibility that their dumbass kid can't pass his classes. He could if he put forth effort to open a book and study, but the only effort I've seen him put out is to shell out his parents' credit card for his new 2002 Jeep, and then his tuition and textbooks.
And I guess it just makes me sad. I understand that drinking might be a main thing to do in college, but I guess I'm just not the mainsteam college student. I guess I just don't think like others out there.
And you know the other thing that pisses me off about kids my age?? At least at the campus where I go to school at, kids seem to think that they're not in college- that grades don't count. I don't quite understand how in my Bio 102 class, where everything is pretty much spoonfed to you with a review guide and everything, the mean for the test could be a 69-70%. That's just absurd. I got a 90%, and I could've done better if I would've went back and looked at certain questions because I marked off stupid answers. But there are these two girls in the class that seem to think that college is just a place to get dates. For instance, the first day of class, they sat at the table with me and Holly, and then when Holly's boyfriend Nick showed up, one of the girls questioned whether Holly was dating Nick. When she said yes, they *both* got up and moved to the next table with the next so-called available man. And I love him to death, but my best friend Jake is kinda like that. When he complains about not feeling good after a night out, or after not doing well on a midterm that he obviously didn't study for because he was out, I don't feel bad for him. I have no sympathy. He chose to do it, and it bugs me that he thinks he's going to be able to graduate that way.
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND! I wish someone would explain to me why my point of view is just rejected by half of the other kids' my age out there. Are they really going to look back at their college years and reminisce on drunken past? How... how... stupid. I know I've been drunk like once or twice in my college career, but I don't look back and say, "Hey, that one time when I was drunk the day of my midterm..." It's one thing if you have school. That should be a person's priority, and that only. I'm pissed. I shouldn't be typing anymore, because I'm probably offending everyone out there.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Big Eyed Fish- Dave Matthews Band (1 comment |comment on this)
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