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*walks into living room, finally alone after another day of the usual photoshoots, interviews and lack of privacy. In fact, no privacy at all. I go into the bathroom and spend the next hour there taking a bubblebath in hope of releasing stress. Once done with the bath, I walk out of there in a bathrobe and walk into the bedroom, lie down on my queen-size bed and pull the laptop up to me and flick it open, clicks the dial up button, logs onto my journal and starts typing as I let out a sigh*
Dear Diary,
Hee. I think I should start doing that from now on.
As usual I've been a busy girl. After five.. was it five? Five years in the music business, I learned to cope with it, you know, but still a girl needs time to herself. I've had time to myself.. but still the tabloids tend to ruin it for me with "juicy stories" on my love life. It's my life but it's the price you have to pay when you have fame.
And ugh, damn Chuck Klosterman. I was trying to be nice to him at that interview we had before for Esquire magazine, but then he goes out and tells this reporter things that make me sound like.. not me. Like I'm a shallow and self-centered.. it just hurts me how people try to ruin me. Not my image, not my reputation. To be honest, it's the people around me that mold my image, people have their thoughts on me, so my reputation I could care less of. It's just the looks. And someone comes and tries to break past the reputation and just break in me, like, you know just ruining who I am. Calm down, Britney.. calm down.
Now. Jared Leto and Miss Britney Spears get spotted together at Dolces Club and are immediately claimed a couple, all because their exes Cameron Diaz and Justin Timberlake "got together". I actually know it's a rumor. It just is. But not that I care about them, no.. I mean it's been over forever, just.. no. Jared's a sweetie, that he is. We went to Ben Affleck's birthday bash together Saturday, I spoke with Ben, he's a cocky bitch but he's got a cute ass. Spoke to Jennifer (Lopez) too, she's.. well she's certainly different from when I spoke to her at the VMAs a couple of years ago. And the night before, I went to Madonna's birthday party the day before where.. once again, Miss Lopez and Ben were. They seem to be everywhere together even though they're said to be over. But this weekend was fun, I really enjoyed myself for the first time in what seems to be forever.
So I've had many more photoshoots to do. I can see the Elle magazine photos already are controversial.. I did a photoshoot which was supposed to look classical but I admit it sort of was slutty. But it was meant to be artistic. Sort of Moulan Rouge-y Cabaret-like. I was amused by the costume changes, I admit it.
Yawn. I'm heading to bed as I can barely keep my eyes open any longer. Click!
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