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Saturday, September 13th, 2003

Subject: Junior Years so Far Time: 8:22 am. Mood: moody. Music: Top 40 Countdown on 101.3.

Long time No type! haha! Well there isnt much to say right now... umm i still HATE ms. peters.. no wonder shes like 50 and NOT married! She's friken crazy i did everything right for my Current Events and then she yells at the whole class me and eric did it wrong! WHAT THE HELL?! My plan is to egg her house on halloween(by egg.. i mean hand grenades(sp)) Lets see.. yeah im on JV soccer. We lost 7-0.. haha I ADMIT IT unlike the rest of my team. lol. Buh its funny cause a Varsity soccer guyasked me how the game went and i told him we lost 0-7, and now he thinks we suck cuz Bethel is an easy team... yet last night me and Ali asked a varsity soccer player what the score was and they lost by 1 pt! ha... and we have their warmups! =p The bus ride was so fun on the way home tho. We were just singing and dancing and screaming cause we had SOO much energy it was crazy. We were waving to every1 around us, and like getting people to dance in their cars.. it was hilarious! Then this super hott guy was behind us...... WITH his girlfriend in the car. And so me, Elise, and Eliza and Morgan were blowing kisses to him haha! He was trying hard to ignore us cause his girlfriend was getting annoyed! hehe. Then me and Liss take a piece of paper out and write.. YOUR HOTT and hold it to the window then Ryan comes back, and moons him. haha... then the girlfriend takes out a cigarette... i think she was trying to relieve her stress, cause she was bout to shoot us! muahahaha What else is new? Nothing at all... Oh we had our frist fotball game this weekend. I HATE THEM. i mean, i never have any1 to talk to during them cause every1 goes off into these "groups" "cliques" that i am not in and im all alone. =( I guess i should just start watching the football game, it'll give me something to do at least. Well TOO many different people want to get together with me sometime this weekend and i dunno if i can fit them all in. I have to write an essay this weekend too.. so i dunno... all i DO know is that im tired about typing about nothing interesting in this blurty. So later

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Time: 10:44 pm. Mood: determined.

I havent been on blurty in so so long! Lemme start off by saying that school has started and my classes arent all that bad. I can tell that there is going to b alot of projects and essays this year, but nothing that i cant get thru with some effort. I really hate ms. peters she is the worst teacher i have ever had. omw! And i have only had her for 3days! Band isnt that bad i just need tfot in some time to practice but its so hard because right now my life is all about soccer! I ACTUALLY DIDNT GET CUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so proud! I have a chance to b on varsity.. again! lol.. So tomorrow i have a tourny so i HAVE to prove myself to every1 that i am varsity material.. its gonna b hard because all the freshman have "connections n shyt" with the coach and they r gonna make it.. it isnt fair at all. But then again from my expierence here at nmhs, for the last 3 yrs tryouts have not been fair once... i could tell u sum stories... but that would take up too much time right now cuz i got to b getting to bed. I just wanna say that i lucked out getting some classes with some super hot guys.. ;) haha score! But now i guess i hear that one of my friends is spreading shit around.. i mean its nothing bad, unless some1 isnt telling us something... whatever. im just pissed cuz when u think some1 is ir friend and then they totally ditch you, then say stuff(and ppl like me take what they say the wrong way) then i just feel.. unloved. haha i dont know.. i just wonder if he really meant everything he ever said to me, or if it was just bs. oh well i dont care so much anyways im over that! woo hoo! hmmm i really hope i will b able to wake up tomorrow and kick ass in a soccer tournament that is all friken day long. ok well i am going to sleep nowz later

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Time: 9:10 am. Mood: sore. Music: i hate everything about you.

Hello. I just got back from MA yesterday afternoon. Soccer Extreme was alot of fun, but im glad to b home! We were busy doing something from 7-11 at night. Im more in shape now, and i pushed myself alot this past week. Our dorms were okay, altho every1 hung their smelly sweaty socks and cleats(boots) out in the hall, so wallace blake ALWAYS smelt like sweat. We only had 1 shower and one toilet for all us girls to share. But it was all fun in the end.. while i was there i couldnt wait to come home, and now that im home i want to go back. haha.. thats the way everything always works out tho, eh?! So one night there was a talent show and my team re-wrote 'i will survive' and its awesome. I wrote half of it in my aim profile. I think from this expierence, not only have our indiviual skills increased, but i think as a whole.. we as a team became closer. We have so many jokes and times from this past week.. but they would take forever to name and to explain. So yeah.. oh the coachers were hilarious! haha and three of them wetre hott.. and only 18. im gonna miss the accents! ive gotten so use to hearing them, and understanding them, and now they are gone. =( arg.. oh well. So today im just going to b reading cannery row, and writting at least one essay and then packing.. for vaca tomorrow. Then when i come back l8er in the week i HAVE to memorize songs for band. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i cant do this. Oh well. im gonna go eat breakfast. much love. -jess

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Subject: buh bye Time: 12:47 pm. Mood: crushed. Music: eve 6.

Maybe my friend is right... maybe i am just jealous. Also i REALLY dont understand this.. haha im gonna use a score board.. first it was 0.. now it is 3. Why the change? arg, idk. I just wish that something good would come out of these 3 tho, a trophy would b nice ;) If ya know what i mean.. which ya probably dont because most of the time i dont make sence. Oh well, there is NO point in even letting this stuff cross my mind, i just need to forget about it all. Neway the RENT ME pictures came out awesome! Maybe i can figure out a way to put one up in here. HAha.. it is the bestest pic eva! Well.. not really.. but it is funny! hehe. Let's see tonight i have to go to a party.. i mean i want to an all.. but not really. Plus there's only going to b about 6 people there and only 1guy! haha Oh well.. 7hrs what a waste of my time.. at least we are going to the movies im pretty sure of. Then tomorrow im away to soccer camp! woo hoo.. im happy about it, but im not at the same time. I dunno.. Well i gotsa go now. I wont b back until saturday! So l8er all. MUUUUAH

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Time: 5:01 pm. Mood: stressed. Music: Bringing on the Heartbreak.

http://www.jumpoffent.com/104-0468_IMG.JPG (guy in red shirt is hott)

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Time: 10:00 pm. Mood: sad. Music: Bring Me to Life-Evanescence.

this sucks A L O T ugh why why why?

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Subject: the top 15 Time: 4:15 pm. Mood: refreshed. Music: shaggy-mr. loverrrr.

I want to improve things in my life.. so what better way then to start a goal list. In this magazine Mandy Moore made a list of 60goals she wants to complete b4 she turns 30. Im going to make a list of 15goals i will accomplish b4 this summer ends-the first day of school. 15) LEARN THE NAMES OF SOME ACTRESSES/ACTORS: i'd have to say besides spanish.. the next thing i can;t remember if my life depended on it would be actors and actresses. I have no idea who anyone is, you name them, i dont know 'em. I know a handful but that's about it. So this summer Im on a mission to know at least two handfuls of actors. 14) READ AT LEAST 3 BOOKS: i have not read a book on my own since... forever. Therefore this summer i have choosen to read at least 3 books on my own(that means nothing that was required for school... lol) 13) GO TO AN AMUESMENT PARK FOR A WHOLE DAY: and this includes riding EVERY ride that i possibly could! The last time i went to an amuesment park was in 8th grade for the Six Flags trip i think.. or actually it was Hershey Park.. but that was still 8th grade.. it has almsot been 2 years that means. So im overdue. 12) LEARN A NEW SONG EVERYDAY: i love music. I think music is a way of expressing your feelings without you even noticing half the time. And i hate it when a song comes on the radio and you just want to sing to it, but you only know the chorus or somthing. So i have decided to learn a new song everyday.. maybe by the end of the summer, next time i turn on the radio i wont have to search for a song i know... but i'll have to search for a song that i DONT know. lol. 11) TRY SUCHI(sp?): i love seafood.. what's not to love about it? So im up for trying some raw fish.. 10) PRAY: I use to attend Church every Sunday morning and now i go about once a year. I also use to pray and now i tell myself i'll pray before i fall asleep but then i end up being too tired and fall asleep forgetting to pray. I DO believe in God. And over the years our relationship hasn't been so good because of me.. so this summer Im hoping we can improve that. 9) PRACTICE MY FLUTE: Yes, i play the flute.. and this summer im dedicating 30-90min of my day to playing it, hopefully this will help me gain confidence for it and improve my skills. (haha credit to sarah m!) 8) GET MY LISCENCE: i failed the first time i took it, which was 1 week ago from tomorrow actually. Im taking it in 2weeks i think and im really hoping i pass.. but if i dont, i've learned it's not the end of the world, i can just try again and again until i get it. When u fall off the horse, hop back on it! 7) GET RID OF "BUTTERFRINGERS" FOR GOOD: i know your wondering, what's butterfingers? Well it's the name of the problem i had in gym when we played Ultimate Frisbee. You see, i was terrible at catching and throwing the frisbee.. so they said i had butterfingers lol.. and i did. I have become very attched to the game U.F. and i really, i mean REALLY, want to become good at it. So this summer.. im saying BYE BYE BYE to Butterfingers! 6) GET A JOB: to tell the truth, i dont want a job. lol but my mom is making me.. and i need money cuz seriosuly i have 1$ .. i swear that's all i have! errrr im applying at the IGA.. some1 save me! 5) DYE HAIR: i hate blonde hair. I mean it looks good on some people, and im just not one of them. So im dying my hair brown.. im really going to do it as soon as i get a job and get 6$ lol.. im poorrrr... but hey im gonna be a brunette! yay! i was mean to be a brunette not a blonde. Blonde doesnt fit me.. hair or personality.. haha or so i LIKE to think. 4) EXCERCIZE DAILY: Every morning, for a half hour to begin and then later in the summer an hr.. i will be outside excercizing. I have it all planned out too.. so that it's body buliding and also fun and relaxing. Hopefully i will be in shape and have some nice muscles by the end of summer! lol. 3) GROW NAILS: of course, i have the shortest and ugliest nails in history and im fed up about it. So im growing them out long and hopefully when i get back from Maine, i can go to the saloon and get them all pretty.. yes, for the first time eva! lol. 2) BECOME AN OVERALL BETTER PERSON: this means to treat others the way i want to be treated, to believe in myself, to give a 100% in everything i try, to live life being serious when needed and being a goof when it's a time to have fun. Just to become a better person that i can be proud of. 1) DEVELOP CONFIDENCE: i must be the person known for having the most insecurities and for having no faith in themself... and i hate it more then anything. Once you learn to believe in yourself, you love yourself, and once you love yourself, you love life.

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Subject: blah blah Time: 3:54 pm. Mood: annoyed. Music: my brothers loud stupid stupid eminem music.

How evil are you? **im not always evil.. just sometimes. lol. What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla **how cute... im lil ol' NEMO! haha What rating is your journal? brought to you by Quizilla **my journal rating... PG... that isnt bad, see im a good girl.. not evil.. DONT U SEE THE DAMN HALO?? Ok so this week sucks major.. my mom is making me find a job. I dunno where i want to work.. i have no idea. I applied for one today, but they arent hiring... so i have to go out tomorrow and find one. ERRRRRRR i dont have patience for this stuff. So then my brother has a girlfriend. Yes, the brother that i thought was so disgusting, hes a friken slob, who eats everything and wears the rest on his clothing, pretends to shower and always lies about brushing his teeth... the one who thinks he's black half the time and idolizes Eminem 180days of the year and the other 180 becomes a skater over night hanging food-blotched pictures of New Found Glory and GC on his door. The brother that says his fav. movie is "too fast too furious" when he hasnt even seen it yet. The boy who tells me that his gut hanging out is all muscle, and the boy who sits on my living room couch everynight either with the remote in his mouth or has taken the batteries out and got food all over the buttons. YES THIS FAT DIRTY NASTY LIL KID who gets me in trouble all the time.. THE ONE THATS ACTS LIKE LOUIS STEVENS FROM "EVEN STEVENS" ON DISNEY... ONLY 300lbs. HEAVIER... HAS A GIRLFRIEND. haha ok im done now.. im annoyed right now... not about above but about 100000 other things. errr life is so stressful. im ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut.

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Subject: errrr Time: 11:31 am. Mood: bitchy.

my mom pisses me off when she does things like this...

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Time: 4:12 pm. Mood: irritated. Music: Cover Me-Candlebox.

Just run away from everything... and nothing, or no1 would follow me. And i would just keep running and i would run out west somewhere where the sun is out shinning, and its the perfect day. Not too hot, not too cold. Not too humid, not too windy. Not many clouds out, not many bugs out. JUST PERFECT. I would end up in a small little town where every1 knows one another, and where the people are so friendly and generous. I would gain so much confidence, and i would just feel great. I will be smart, pretty, athletic, and just talented at numerous things. Rarely could u find something that i coudlnt do. I would make many close friends, and i would never feel left out or alone again. I would fall in love with a guy, and he would take my breathe away. I don't think i would ever cry a tear, or even let my muscles move a lil to make the slighest frown. I would be the girl who always smiled, the girl who always brihten everyones day. Life would be perfect. Everything would be perfect.

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Subject: my day and night Time: 10:03 pm. Mood: disappointed.

ok well let me update ya. So the relay for life thing was so much fun. Even tho i could only stay for 3hrs(long story) it was the most fun i've had all year. Ok so me chrissy boa and brenda walked around Canterbury looking to meet some people who went to school there. We walked all around the dorms, and met alot of people, but not many our age. Then some1 left the door to a roomopen, so we snuck in. As brenda, me and chrissy got ahead, lol boa stayed back without us knowing so as we were walking around the building(that was like a maze) we hear someone yell WHAT R U DOING HERE!!! and all 3 of us scream and like jump onto each other. But it was just boa. lmao. We then went walked down to town and just hung out there. We watched everyone get high.. even the lil eight graders. Then Brenda walked up back and me and chrissy went looking for Edison. After we found him, we walked back up to Canterbury, but we got tired and went to take a rest, and 2 black cats ran out right in front of us!!! AND IT WAS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!! haha great. Once we got back, me and chrissy wanted to play ultimate frisbee.. so we found brenda and asked her to ask these hott guys if we could play. They came off as "rude boys" or so we called them, but then after a while they were cool. In a game of Ultimate frisbee, me and travis won!! woo hoo! NO MORE BUTTERFINGERS!!! haha They also taught me how to punch hard.. im working on it. ;) haha. Anewayz so i dunno y, or anything. But this year i have been so so so so so so times ifinite so so insecure. And friday night, i gained a lil more confidence in myself. I think it was because we were just talking to anybody we saw that night, and usually i have been so.. shy and insecure. But anewayz i just gained a lil more confidence.. and it was great. So then i couldnt stay there but before i left i saw some guys playing the guitar and its a GOOD THING lol. Since friday night i would talk to anyone, people i didnt even know, i would have SOOOO talked to the guys playing the guitar. Haha then when i was walking with Nicole and Erin we were singing "hey baby.. i wanna know it u'll be my guitar guy." But i couldnt find them.. UNTIL.. i was walking back and i heard a guitar and i was gonna pretend i was walkjing in the relay and just kinda walk near them and tell them that i liked them playing and start a conversation with them. But i saw my moms van and it was midnight, so i knew i had to go to the van and it sucks because i will never have confidence or anything to ever go up to them, or anyone else... I WILL NEVER HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF like i did friday night. I mean usually i have 1% confidence in myself out of 100%... friday night i had 18% maybe. I mean i kno its a lil but it was something. uhhh. I couldve had a good 7more hours to try to start a converstation with them that night if i stayed. im pissed. but im over it. hah. I just wish i could have confidence. Well today i went to the mall with Alisa. I got a halter top at Weathervane but thats it.. i need shirts. Ok well i have to go now. later. *JesSicA*

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Time: 5:33 pm. Mood: silly. Music: Crazy in Love.

hey.. i dont have much to say, except that theres only 7more days until schools out! woo hoo then all the stressing will finally be gone! ...hopefully. Well tonight is the cancer walk. IN THE PORING RAIN AND THUNDER STORMS!!! Im not sure if im going, i mean im already tired and to have to stay up all night.... thats gonna take some major caffiene. Where's the mountain dew candy and coffee?? haha im not even sure if that could do the trick seeing how lazy and tired i am. Then tomorrow im going driving in the moring in Danbury in my grandpa's car!! Ok me tired behind the wheel.. geez im dangerous not being tired!! I should probably get started on my will. Anewayz then after that im hoping my mom will drop me off at the mall so i can hang with some friends. And then im gonna come on and hope that the "even stevens movie" is on because i wanna see it so badly!! But if im not going to the cancer walk then i will just watch it tonight. Ummm then sunday i will do homework and write my un essay. Sound like a plan?? haha good. I have nothing else to say really.. so im gonna go and call someone now. im outzzzzz *JeSsIcA*

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Subject: my day Time: 6:57 pm. Mood: dorky. Music: my love is like whoa-mya.

i cant wait until JUNE 26... because right now i am just really stressing and im so use to being the LAZIEST person ever, and right now its just all too hectic! So once June 26th comes around, IM HOPING AND PRAYING everything will be okay! ...only if i pass my driving test that is... if i fail then my stress level will go up ...ALOT. alright well i have no fuggin idea what im doing for this UN project, i havent done anything yet... its due thursday and i dont even know what im suppose to be doing.. all i know is my country is Malta and umm thats it. lol.. can u say F?? oh well im so tired and i just wanna lay down, listening to my music put me to sleep. Its only 7.. and im freaking falling asleep as im typing. uhhh Oh today Chet took me on i84.. omg i still cant believe im alive! haha.. its so crazy!! No cars use thier blinkers and if u go to slow, or another vehicle is going to slow.. (slow meaning like 62mph with the speed limit being 65mph) .. well u will be in a crash. Lemme tell u its way too easy to kill urself on a highway like i84. lol. You really have to be paying attention.. oh and then like my driving instructor is like look at the tuerkeys... haha im like.. well im trying to drive on i84for the first time ever! But i did good... seeing as im still alive. On my test tho, im probably going to fail parking. lol i cant park!! DAMNIT... i can with Chet because he tells me like "go up ok now turn" and its easy.. but hes not gonna be there. ohh well, i fail, i fail.. its not that big of a deal.. except for that i want my liscence soo badly on june 25th!! Do u know how awesome that would be?? Well i hadda pick SOMEONE up after my driving time was up.. and hes like soo funny. Dont get me wrong, its not like i have a crush on him. But its like.. i just wanna hug him or sumthing. lol. it sounds wierd but.. yeah thats the truth, i just wanna like cuddle with him. But i would never "like" him. lol. Alrighty i guess i should go now that i've completly sounded like a jackass. haha. later good night lol muuuuuuuuuah

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Time: 4:24 pm. Mood: hopeful. Music: Miss Unafraid, Miss Out of My Way.

today i realized that you really dont know what tomorrow will bring. I think you just have to remember that everything happens for a reason. My best wishes and prayers to M.C. I became friends with her last year, and all i can say is that i am lucky to have known a person like her. I wish the best. Then theres T.D., i never knew him but he is in my prayers too along with S.F. and his family. Im out.. 143 *LIVE LIFE LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW... FORGIVE...LOVE.. LAUGH..LIVE..*

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Time: 4:50 pm. Mood: rejected.

whats up? im bored.. i wanted to have sum1 sleep over tonight, but i have a huge headache. And im just not in the mood. Altho im really really bored. So i dunno.. i'll just be super bored with a headache, by myself. And hopefully get some homework and cleaning work done with!! I should be getting ready for the concert right now but i just cant seem to stop typing and move away from the computer. OK im going to now! lol.. i've updating like almost everyday for the last week.. well probably not, but i have updated alot. Or at least a lot more then usual. haha. i know i know... in my last entry i said that i wouldnt complain anymore or whatever.. but i just had to add this.. why doesnt anyone invite me anywhere?? am i that boring and annoying?? Time for me to go... im out like a fat girl in a dodgeball game. xoxo muahz

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Subject: Weekend Time: 1:58 pm. Mood: hungry. Music: Kelly Clarkson.

So yeah.. im trying real hard not to be how i was. I mean, not to come on this blurty and type about things that bother me.. and about how alone i feel and stuff like that... all that sad depressing, and probably boring for others to read stuff. So let this be the last entry with anything about being sad or angry in it, ok?! haha So I slept over a friends house who lives in Warren, and i just got home a lil while ago. Im waiting for my ice cream to thaw so i can eat it. lol.. and then im thinking i will clean my room super fast, get ready for the concert, and then go to it. Im so tired and i dont have like any friends in band, and i really dont wanna go!!! ..i mean if i had someone to talk to i would actually not mind, but seeing as im alone there.. it is just gonna drag on and be soo long and boring, and lonely. Oh Well. i will have to deal. Then im gonna come home and maybe start my Kenya project. Then watch tv, go online and thats bout it. lol.. then tomorrow i will finish my kenya project, and my other homework, pratice the flute and then just chill for the day. The monday im off to school. haha There we go i just planned out my weekend. woo hoo. Ok i needa go eat ice cream be back later. Also.. i really need help. I needa think of an email at earthlink.net and i have no idea what. I was thinking Soccergirl but my sister has Soccershorty and i dont wanna have the same as her. And i dont know but i need a new email because netscape sucks. ALOT. So idk.. if u have any ideas at all... im TOTALLY open for suggestions!!

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