So today being another day, I'm another person. My mood has been changing radically, from morning to midday to night...it never quite balances out. I don't know what it is, but personally, I think that someone has been casting spells on me. You can never be too careful about that shit. There's nothing in this world more dangerous, than a woman scorned. But as for who I've scorned, I couldn't say because I radiate only kindness...the kind of kindness followed by three periods...So I was thinking today about myself. You know, I say I'm not the jealous type, and that I don't often get upset, but I think those are simply lies I inundate myself and others with, hoping that if I drown in them, they may come true, but the fact is, I do get pissed off sometimes. Like today, this girl I like told me she may or may not be going out on a date this weekend. In my mind I turned into a little kid when something doesn't go his way. I don't think I'm mature enough to be in a serious relationship. I'm impatient, jealous, quick-tempered, scornful, reactionary, fatalistic, insecure. I'm 25, and still act like a 13 year old girl when it comes to the opposite sex. Will I ever learn?
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