| Grammy's Hope |
[12 Mar 2005|02:21am] |
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I knew my Grammy for 16 years of my life. She watched me go from an infant to a teenager in what seemed like a short period of time. She saw me happy and glad; mad and sad. If there's one thing I learned from her it was do the simply best you can even if you fail. You see, she gave me a lot of gifts over the years; everything from cards to cash. Yet, the most important gift she ever gave me was hope. She gave me hope that everything in my life is going to be OK. She gave me hope that even when I failed I would succeed in something else. It's been almost two years since she passed away that warm, sunny day in May. As I watched her pass away slowly from January to May that horrible year of 2003 I realized just how special I am. I am special for getting the chance to know her for 16 years of my life, and even as I will be turning 18 I am still special in her eyes. She loved Veronica and I endlessly no matter how we acted. We were very special to have those years with her.
I wear a bracelet everyday with the word "HOPE" on it. It's the color purple which is the color for all cancers. The word "hope" means many things to me. It means that there is HOPE in the world that one day there will be a cure for ALL cancers. It means that there is HOPE for me finding that special boy. It means that there is HOPE that one day I will see my grandma again in Heaven.
I'm not exactly the queen of succeeding. In fact, I used to be known for failing. Whether it be classes or competitions I seemed to always fall short of the goal. Now, it seems as though I can't stop succeeding, except when it comes to boys. It's weird really. For the 16 years of my life that Grammy was alive I failed at a lot of things never really knowing success. Now that she is gone, I have succeeded at school and continue to succeed in life. She had hope that one day I would make the grades I deserve and succeed. Her hope is slowly coming reality.
I know that my grandma is gone, but I know that her hope for me will always live on. Now, as I remark on my 18th birthday I will always have her hope in my heart that one day everything will work out. The hope that I will find a boy, the hope that there will be a cure for ALL cancers, and the hope that I will one day see my grandma again in Heaven when it is my time to go. All these and many more hopes will come true because hope is all about believing. Believing in what you can't see, but that you can feel in your heart.
Until next time, God Bless! -Olivia
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