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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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| 5:35p | *OkAy* im okay..alot of people have been asking me whats wrong lately..i haven't been myself and i know that..but i think im changing and thats why i dont have a best friend. im not gonna write things about people in here because that would screw things up but i need a best friend thats at my level and who i can relate to..its not that anything is bad about any of the people i hang out with i love them all..but some people areen't willing to tell me everything and do everything together..like they wanna have 5 best friends and i just want 1 and i think thats why its hard to find one this year. its sounds gay "looking" for a best friend but im starting to worry why i dont have one yet this year. i want someone who considers me as their ONE best friend not ONE of their best friends..and i want someone i can be so close with and that would be there for me through everything and that i could tell EVERYTHING to. you have no idea..having a bestfriend is like the most important thing to me right now and dealing with life without one is so hard and i've never experienced this before because through all the years i've always had somone. so im tired of just talking about this everday in my journal people probly dont even read this anymore its so broing so im gonna stop talking about it and just try and work trhough everything without a BF but in the end i hope i get one. i really hope.. ok off that subject and on to my day. it was ok as usual same thing over and over nothing different. dramas kinda cooling down but there still is some. im glad im good with everyone for now. we had the best weather today it accually wasn't freezing butt cold as usual. ahh im sounding old talking about the weather..i swear all those prigles :) are getting to me. well i must be going i love you all i love all my friends and if i can't even process without a best friend i have no idea what i'd do without all of my friends. i <3 you all so much thank you for always being there for me and i hope i can always be there for you. <3 jewel Current Mood:  worriedCurrent Music: get busy--sean paul |
| 8:08p | *WhAt Is HaPpEnInG To Me* what is happening to me..im starting to scare myself how im getting all caught up about how i dont have a best friend at the moment..and i dont knwo why i mean who cares i've got so many good friends that why should i even need a best freind..but for some reason i can't get over it..school is getting worse and worse as the days go on i have so much work and theres way to much pressure..i feel like im dying slowly..deteriorating in to nothing.. im starting to wonder if anyones even reading this..thats kinda a wierd though..what if im writing all this for nothing..we even if nobody does look at this it help to write my feelings down i feel like im talking to someone..ahh getting all spiritual..anyways i <3 whoevers reading this because they accually take the time to care somewhat about my life..well enough to read about it..thank you Current Mood: deteriorating Current Music: toxic--britney spears |
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