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Brittany's Blurty:
| Thursday, January 8th, 2004 | |
| 11:27 am | Its like a wave. A wave that know shows you why you were wrong all those other times and scares you but somehow brings calm. When I first met him it was like wow hes so hot hed never want me. Then we became friends and I found myself doing the crazyest things just to maybe catch a glimpse of him. Then that day when he asked me out was like I had fallen and now was caught. Although at first it seemed a regular relationship between to teenagers. It soon became more. Now not even 6 months in we live together and do everything together. I am still not bored of him and cant even fathem being bored of him. Everyday something new. Every moment a new kiss or new look. Everything is so freash between us because we are both so natural. He has done things that other guys would leave you for. He is my world. We sit and do nothing yet we both are still having fun. I love him. Untill you are in love you will not see. when you are you understand and it is almost like you are born again. Nothing matters but that person. I love u morgan and always will!!!! |
| Monday, November 10th, 2003 | |
| 7:42 pm | I think this has to end but Im not! I really dont want it to. It's getting too big to handle way to big for either of us to handle and Im not sure that I can take all the responsibility! Its too huge to egnore but Im still all alone and affraid! I made some very bad decions and now they are comming back to bite me in the ass......big time... IM affraid this is the way it will be for the rest of eternity! Current Mood:  confused |
| Thursday, November 6th, 2003 | |
| 8:37 am | why do we get scared? I think its our bodies way of telling us what we are about to do is unnatural and shouldn't be done but we are taught that to feel fear is wrong. Well I am scared! Scared that I may never wake up friday and maybe even if I get home I may never wake up after that just like the little soul I am about to put to rest! The world isnt right nothing is! so I must leave. Current Mood:  worried |
| Tuesday, October 28th, 2003 | |
| 10:08 am | Tip Toe Tiptoeing through the used condoms strewn on the piers off the west side highway sunset behind the skyline of jersey walking towards the water with a fetus holding court in my gut my body highjacked my tits swollen I'm sore the river has more colors at sunset than my sock drawer ever dreamed of I could wake up screaming sometimes but I don't I could step off the end of this pier but I've got shit to do and I've an appointment on tuesday to shed uninvited blood and tissue I'll miss you I say to the river to the water to the son or daughter I thought better of I could fall in love with jersey at sunset but I leave the view to the rats and tiptoe back - ani difranco This is exactly how I feel with all the decisions I have to make, They surround me and dont let go of my neck......They just keep whispering its all you its all you. I have to choice but to surrendor one day and I know Ill miss everyone! Current Mood: numbCurrent Music: skinny puppy |
| Tuesday, October 14th, 2003 | |
| 3:15 am | Its empty everything is empty, why we do this is unknown to the people closest but from afar you can tell everything. Everything that is nothing!!! Current Mood:  high |
| Monday, October 6th, 2003 | |
| 4:21 am | why do the people in society try to change the healthy people.... I think that Im not sick they are. Humanity is one big circle of lies. They tell the only people that can see what they are doing is wrong that they are crazy, so that the people on the outside cant hear. When in truth we are the only people who make sence. The public makes hitler out to be such a bad guy ( and dont get me wrong he was) but on the same hand they are doing the exact same thing only worse, just slower. The people who decide whether or not we are sane are just victims of there own head and they use society to make them feel better. if they can fit in they feel better. Nobody should fit in everyone should be free to be who they are, if someone has a problem taking showers or eating or sleeping, then let them figure out why and I bet they ll get better, and way faster too..they wont end up being addicted to meds that just hide all those feelings away. But anyways Im just ranting NITE Current Mood: discontent |
| Saturday, October 4th, 2003 | |
| 12:54 pm | Well I dunno somedays you know everything is going right but it still feels wrong. I wish the past would just curl up and die. Im sick of being reminded by myself of the shit that Ive delt with. It makes me not want to look up anymore and just let go of his hand. It takes all the security away from being with him and only brings fears and insecurities, like he doesnt need this he should be with someone doesnt need him to always be strong for her....... |
| 12:26 am | I am so lucky that I have found what I was put here to find so early. Some people spend their whole lives looking for the kind of love I have found in only 17 years. Some people may look at it and say awww isnt that cute its puppy love but those people are a pain in my ass because they have no idea what the feeling is like to know that you cant do anything to turn that person away...sorry Im just rambling |
| Friday, October 3rd, 2003 | |
| 2:01 am | Standing in total darkness,scared and alone you look out for something that I know is there but cannot touch. I take a step and realize that there is now nothing beneath me but a twig that bends with every breath I take. Finally where else is there to look but up. I raise my head and hit it on what seems to be a light, I look in amazment as he walks toward me with his hhand out. He says I love you and nothing will ever change that. Now as I grab his hand there is grass green green grass beneath me, a sun has apeard and everything is gone now its only him and me. The world is a horrible place untill you find what you were put here to find. In my case it was morgan. I love you Morgan I always will! Current Music: ani difranco |