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i've been craving my blades...and i'm not sure exactly why...i think mainly because of stress...but it also could be because he doesn't want me to...it could also be just because i can't find them...i wouldn't be surprised if he really did flush'em...like that was all i ever used...i don't know exactly why i don't either...i just want to dig something into my skin and pull across until it spells something out that relieves me for that moment...the burn, the pain as a constant reminder that there is something more real than mental anguish...actually, it's more like something to take my mind off the stress...fuck it...i really should just do it...let me go find my tools...
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