| Sometimes...I want to die... |
[26 Jul 2004|12:50am] |
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I feel so unloved and hurt...this is why I don't let people in...because (not all)...but people that I have let in...have hurt me...ever so bad...I can't do this NE more...don't you see?...I've already given up my happiness for you......................................you'll never understand...
...it hurts...
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| Things are weird... |
[26 Jul 2004|04:23pm] |
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I can't forget...
but I don't want to remember...
Tears for days...
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| Okie...last chance... |
[26 Jul 2004|10:43pm] |
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Santeria - Sublime |
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I believe in our friendship too much to just through it aside like you have...so...I put this all to belief...and since I believe in my "if" game...I leave it to that...if I talk to you...with in 3 days...and this means you getting ahold of me some how...then...I'll forgive and forget...know that our friendship is still alive and worth keeping...but if by the sunset of that 3rd day...I still haven't talked to you...then fine...you weren't the person I thought you were...and I forget the you ever exsited...{tear}...this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do...and I've been through some tough shit...but this pains me the most...you've put me through so much...but yet...I still give you one more chance...why?...because we've been through too much and lasted for me just to through you aside the way you have me...all I wanted from you was the truth...but that was too much for you...I don't get it??...I have no other stress in my life other than losing you...and that's not even my fault...you're the one who left me...but I still hold on...because...I love you like family...you are still my best friend...but only for 3 more days...here are my terms...I think they are fair...{tear}...I think our friendship is worth trying to hold on to...why?...I dunno?...I just won't let go...
I miss you so much...but you don't even care...
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