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[19 Jul 2004|10:40am] |
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I try to keep the tears back...but it's sooo damn hard...I get a pain in my chest just thinking about it...IT'S MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!...and you make me want to cry...I won't though...not on this day...stressed out on my fuckin birthday...how more terrible could this be...I FUCKING HATE YOU!...why didn't I see this b4??...of course you fucking chose her...if you had chose me...then she wouldn't still be in the picture...I can't believe I actually believed you...makes me look like a fucking ideot...well at least now I have a fucking reason to hate you...we've been through so much together...but I guess you don't fucking care about that or else you'd be here...and she wouldn't...I FUCKIN HATE YOU!...who the fuck pics their fuckin first high school girlfriend before their friends!?...I know I sure as hell wouldn't...why didn't I see this b4 though??...I didn't think about why you weren't here...or why you don't call...or NE thing like that...I didn't want to...I didn't want to know...why didn't I see it?!...I'm fuckin trying to fight the tears on my birthday because of you...what the fuck kinda friend are you!?...I sit here hating you...and you don't know that I am...and you don't know why...
Why didn't I see it??...that's why you're not here...that's why we don't talk...that's why you don't care...
I had always said...that we can't be enemies...we always just end up friends again...but now I see...we can't be friends...all cuz you don't care...
Friends are suppose to be there for you...so care about you...to just be a friend...in your time of need...or when ever...and you just toss me aside...as if I'm nothin important...as if all the shit we've been through doesn't mean a thing...
You hurt me in a way...that I never though possible...but my heart still hurts...all becuase of you...
These tears for you...on my birthday...
It's times like these that I wish I were never born...
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