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| Saturday, November 21st, 2009
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7:18 pm - Saturday
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i really have been terrible at updating this thing. my 20 most recent entries reach back to JULY.
*stretch* so yeah, i think i covered the aaron thing well enough. just told my mom. i think that makes me a terrible daughter, but yeah...
um...it was really good to see brandin again. it's so weird, seeing him so little, but getting along so well. if someone had told me we'd be friends like this now back in high school i would have laughed.
mommy's birthday tomorrow, which means her and dad will be up in lincoln. i'm supposed to track down nate and invite him. ...speaking of i should probably tell him about the break up too.
i'm really a bad communicator, haha.
i'm pretty excited for thanksgiving. my boss asked me what my favorite sidedish is. frankly, it's impossible to choose. that holiday is nothing but comfort food. BEST DAY EVER.
it's also gonna be great that pretty much everyone is home. :D i'm excited, haven't seen people in a while.
um...playing catch up now. i got pretty behind that week i was sick, then that week brandin was home. trying to get everything in by thanksgiving so i dont' have to worry about it and can start thinking about my next research paper. thank christ for awesome profs and small classes.
schedule for next year is going to eat my face. i'll be having 3 research papers if i choose to stick out. insane? maybe. but you already knew that.
alright, i'm gonna hop in the shower quick. i feel gross. laters.
current mood:  blank
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| Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
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10:23 pm - tuesday
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hi.
i need to update. it's been a while.
but there's a lot to cover, n'est pas?
brandin's been here and left. miss him. D: he's going to be in an active war zone before much longer. there is nothing right in the world.
...aaron and i broke up, although i contacted 2 of the people who read this, i suppose i should get that out there. it's okay, we're both fine. it was mutual. things just weren't working between us anymore and we didn't have the time to dedicate to fixing it. i mean...we were normal for an 'old couple' i guess. we'd sort of hit that long-term stage or whatever, which is what's supposed to happen i guess. but not to 20 year old college students who don't even live together. it just wasn't working. officially we were together for 5 years, 10 months, and 5 days. i could wax philosophical here, but i think i don't really need to say anything.
we're...friends. it's weird. it'll be weird for a while. but that's that.
um...i'm busy with school and such. like always.
and i'm gonna run a long, but that's my update for now.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Feel Good Drag-Anberlin
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| Thursday, November 5th, 2009
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9:43 pm - thursday
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BEING SICK SUCKS. antibiotics pwn, though. maybe it's just cause i never use them, but when i had these for strep and now, i take the first dose and like a couple hours later feel almost 100%.
also, i gets request since i hopped into this game AFTER everyone's found pictures? i want to see a ferret on a cieling fan.
i has shit to do. this sick thing just fucked up my whole week. ugh.
and i just remembered i have to write a paper for tomorrow. oops.
so i'm gonna run along and do that shit. MORE UPDATE TO COME. MAYBE.
current mood:  busy
current music: Just Another Star-Bullet for my Valentine
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| Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
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6:29 pm - wednesday
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it's a little odd that i update on wednesdays. it's such a long day. but whatever.
workshopped one of my poems today. awesome, considering i finished it at 3:00 AM. HA. oh well, i liked the way this turned out. they made a suggestion i'm debating over. see, i intentionally didn't introduce a persona until the very end of the poem. it's basically casting a mosh pit as a religious experience, and i figured you kind of do lose yourself in that kind of thing until the 'come down' period. but they (okay, my prof and this one guy, aaron, who talks about every poem because he's awesome) suggested i put the "I" in at the beginning to make the experience more personal, so other's can indulge in it. i don't know which way to go with it. argh.
coming up on the worst two weeks of my life (excepting any and all deadweek/finals week). this weekend i need to read through at least 5 of my research books, because Love wants them back by the 3rd now. i guess it's motivation at least.
wednesday i have another poem due. this time we actually have to stick to an established form for a change. of course, he blabbed on about how hard a sestina is to do (OH MY GOD THE INSTRUCTIONS MAKE MY BRAIN HURT) so you can bet your sweet ass i want to try it. if it comes to be 3:00 AM that day though, i'll just crank out a set of haikus and call it good. XD
friday the 6th i have my next paper for brit lit due, this one requiring us to write a fucking sonnet and then analyze it in reference to shakespeare's sonnets. WARGH.
budget hearing at 3:10 on sunday. damn it. so not looking forward to that.
sometime next week i want to meet with Jake to inquire about study abraod. KGU doesn't send out it's applications until like april anyway, but yeah. i want to plan my classes.
speaking of, i need to plan my classes and meet with my advisers. fack.
thursday the 12th 'rough' complete draft of nazi germany research paper due.
friday the 13th OH THERE IS A SHOCK book report for asian history again.
oh, a side note, brandin is going to be home from like the 7th to the 14th. he's going to HATE me.
god, it's already 6:45. it really eats your day when you don't get out of class until 5:30. wtf.
now, tonight. i have some reading and writing for nazi germany. need to finish my keypal messege for japanese. study to make up a japanese quiz. i'd LIKE to get a jump on some other reading, then.
toss me a subject for an epic huge poem. sestina's are 6 sestets (six lines each) and a tercet (3 lines). epic huge. :D i probably won't end up using it. inspiration strikes randomly and all that.
anyway, time to go for foods and to return my library books to the library on this campus.
current mood: busy
current music: (*Fin)-Anberlin
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| Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
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5:52 pm - wednesday
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i am failing at this whole updating thing. bah.
you know what is not cool? skipping a class to write a paper, only to have the prof from said class be sitting in on a LATER class that you show up too. oops. FATE HATES MY GUTS.
poetry workshoping is a surprising ego boost.
i have shit to doooo.
yeah, that whole 'gonna get shit done over break' thing? DIDN'T HAPPEN I'M FUCKED YAY. c'est la vie. je suis une idiote. oui.
time to dive back into some work. 'byes.
current mood: busy
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| Sunday, October 11th, 2009
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1:52 pm - sunday
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paranormal activity ftw. wow.
i'm actually kind of depressed that i know it's going to end up being made fun of.
this has been a crazy weekend kind of. snow. wtf snow. and walking 20 minutes in it. i mean, it was BARELY freezing (30 degrees according to one of those clock/temp signs we walked by) so it wasn't a horrible walk or anything. really quite pretty actually. BUT IT IS TOO EARLY FOR SNOW.
last night paranormal activity. omg. julie, don't watch it. i'm sure you'll never sleep again.
now..midterms and other fun things. >:( boo.
current mood:  intimidated
current music: Hold Me Down-Motion City Soundtrack
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| Monday, October 5th, 2009
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5:44 pm - monday
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so maintenance won't turn on the heat until there are "3 consecutive days of cold weather" or some shit. who defines what's cold? besides that, people in this building are opening their windows to warm it up. BRICK HOLDS COLD.
bleh.
so midterms are next week. 2 actual defined take-home midterms assigned so far, plus one paper that i ASSUME is functioning as a midterm, but i don't know for sure.
blessing or a curse on japanese, which is apparently doing it's 'midterm' thing this week with a test and a speaking activity. of course, that means i have a lot of japanese shit to do this week. *sigh*
little over a month until draft one of nazi germany paper is due. meep. i am going to have a PRODUCTIVE fall break, damn it.
need to get going on homework for tomorrow. boy wants me to go over there and watch a movie at 10. *facepalm* i love you, but i have class before you're even out of bed and probably far more going on that you do right now. *flail*
off to do 50 pages of reading and a writing assignment because hayden-roy is a sadist and i didn't start it sooner. WHAT THE BRIT LIT READING PLUS WHAT I HAD TO MAKE UP TOOK ME FOREVER. 'bye.
current mood:  cold
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| Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
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5:32 pm - tuesday
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urgh. need to write paper. which doesn't make sense to me. it's following the theme of justice in economy...and we've been reading religious documents from around the middle ages. don't gimme that look, i know how they CAN connect. :P problem is that didn't really show up in the readings. TIME FOR SOME GRADE A BULLSHIT. *cracks knuckles*
at least it's only 2-3 pages. HA. i scoff at you, short paper.
so i was kinda excited that i wasn't gonna have a draft REQUIRED for my history paper. turns out he just forgot to put the date on the paper guidelines. d'oh. eh...it's good for me. it means i won't be starting it at midnight december whatever-the-night-before-that-class's-final-is. like i'll end up doing for my ENGLISH research paper.
y'know, SOMEONE, namely my advisor, told me that the only real distinction between 100 and 200 level classes here is that 200 level requires research paper. I BEG TO DIFFER. (seriously though, 100 and 200 don't mean shit here. i've taken 100 level that were just as hard as 200 level. it's kind of just whatever the prof wants it to be.)
on the plus side the questions for nazi germany that he was gonna have us do for thursday are scrapped. because he realized he'd assigned 3 writing assignments in a row, and 2 next week. *facepalm* i'm beginning to think he works the same way i do, he's just a lot better at winging it. yeah...so far we've done...4 writing assignments, plus the 2 next week is 6 by october 8th. he only assigns 10 a semester. NOT THAT I'M NOT HAPPY WE'RE GETTING THEM OUT OF THE WAY EARLY. but still. oy. i just wanna READ this shit. it's interesting.
btw my nine source bibliography earned me a 90%. HA.
i totally should not be going home this weekend, but it's sounds so nice.
need to get to love library. before fall break. i'll have PLENTY of reading time over fall break. or i intend to. if nothing else i'll probably have time to read at work because there is NO WAY there is going to be that much to do.
fuck. midterms. i forgot about midterms. fuck.
ANYWAY. off to poke this paper. and maybe do some poetry. laters.
ps: wow, this was an extremely self-serving entry. i'm just thinking out loud.
pps: dry air is the bane of my existance. my eyes, sinuses, lips, and skin on my back HURT.
current mood:  aggravated
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| Thursday, September 24th, 2009
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2:05 pm - thursday
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week from hell is almost over.
i'm tired. and hungry. and pretty damn excited about this research paper for nazi germany. did you know that the leader of the SA (precurser to the SS) was allegedly gay? now if only i could find some solid documents on it. OHAY THIS'LL COME AS A SURPRISE YOU GUYS THE NAZIS WERE WISHY WASHY ON YET ANOTHER OF THEIR SO-CALLED POSITIONS.
it's chilly in my room and i'm hungry. not a good mix.
i'll be working over fall break. i think i get like 20 hours over three days. :D it's really pathetic that that's a lot for me, but...well.
fack. i need to write a newspaper article on a speaker WHO WAS FULL OF SHIT. and i'm supposed to be unbias. and it was due...yesterday. :B i thought the date said the 27th but it was 23 AT 7. oops. faulty memory.
i also need to write a poem BECAUSE I APPARENTLY MISSED THE PART WHERE MY PROF CHANGED THE SYLLABUS AND BUMPED THE DUE DATE UP A WEEK. fiehpirhapuirhe
shit to do this weekend.
anyway, i'm offs. later.
current mood:  tired
current music: A Stranger Moment-The Cruxshadows
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| Monday, September 14th, 2009
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7:24 pm - monday
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haven't updated in a while. life is busy, holy shit.
for whatever reason, the fact that less than a year ago we all went to a christmas party at bates's is fucking with my head.
a LOT can change in a year. wow.
so, reading. if it weren't for the various research papers and projects i have, i'd be totally on top of anything.
as is, i'm fucked. *headdesk*
dude, you guys, BEING A CLUB OFFICER IS HARD. i'm pretty glad we're a newbie group, because i feel extremely inadiquet. of course, if we were a big, established group, i wouldn't be secretary/treasurer.
time to be off and do things they keep telling me are important. later.
current mood: busy
current music: Feel Good Drag-Anberlin
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| Wednesday, September 9th, 2009
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6:00 pm - wednesday
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i'm really effing hungry. someone in my lit class had this amazing smelling pasta dish, and that was way back at 1:00. *eats hair*
the thing i miss most once i'm living in a dorm. you'd think it'd be like having readily available food, or bare-foot showers, or having a private bathroom, or, you know, TV. but no. i really miss having some cushy seating to sprawl in. this desk chair ain't doing it for me, although i CAN curl my legs well enough. settling on my bed makes it far too tempting to sleep. so i'm thinking about bringing in MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF PILLOWS so it's tougher to sleep on the bed and i can still lounge about, lazy cat that i am.
also, i really want one of those chairs like the one at scc, in the computer lab. i know julie knows what i'm talking about and maybe em does? that great erganomic chair that you kinda kneeled in. great for posture and honestly awesome for being on the computer.
alas, expenses.
um...i wanna see 9. maybe sometime this weekend. also want to see gamer, but i need to find someone to go with for that because i don't know which aaron will rather see. and i know he has to pick and chose.
although he has a job now. i hope this works out. *worried*
i have 60 pages of reading plus a mini paper thing all for one class tomorrow.
japanese continues to be hopeless, although i'm getting better at faking it. regardless of the fact that cute independent study boy sat next to me today I HELD MY OWN. also, caroline joined us and melted my class's collective brain when introducing herself. goddamn they talk fast.
TO READING.
i really need some nookie *squirms*
current mood:  hungry
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| Saturday, September 5th, 2009
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10:32 pm - saturday
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i'm sleepy, which is really odd. but i feel kind of crappy.
dorm is clean, but i really need a broom. which of course i forgot when i was last home, despite my list, because i'm awesome.
i can see my hands typing reflected in the screen and it's kinda tripping me out.
final destination was pretty...standard, but the 3-D was amazing.
being accosted by a guy from amsterdam was pretty amusing, though.
oh epic spine pop. wow.
i don't really have much of interest to update about. so i'll be off. laters.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Dismantle. Repair.-Anberlin
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| Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009
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7:26 pm - wednesday
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we're going to do the general grouping update again. i don't know why, perhaps becoming a habit, perhaps not.
things that rock:
the food continues to be impressive. :D
way interesting subjects.
adding a few extra books and food really made my dorm look homey.
having a tbs poster. \o/
getting out of class 2.5 hours early today. WHEW.
things that suck:
being behind in reading. oh my god.
my japanese. still.
having an at least partially liquified brain.
so much illness going around.
break outs.
the standard mail not coming in until 11:00 today when it usually comes at 9:30
lawnmowers. i know you guys have a job to do, but the classroom is so stuffy it's hard to breathe BUT WE CAN'T HEAR IF WE OPEN THE WINDOWS.
things that are just plain weird:
having a random guy sit with me at dinner, but too far away to talk. yet he still said 'see you later' when i got up.
the weather. it continues to be cold enough at night that i have to shut my window and wear a robe. it's just the beginning of september.
seeing a tshirt that combines the air force symbol and a prairie wolf. why?
in other news, i dunno if i ever mentioned it on here, but one class is including twilight in its readings. it's the masterpieces of sexuality. i'm getting genuinely upset at how many people continue to gush about it. lit class is my salvation. i'm a little concerned at what kind of backlash there will be if the prof says anything against it.
oh. and i totally thought things would calm down after this week. i forgot how much stuff i've tried to be involved in on campus. *headdesk* how the fuck did i get conned into being secretary/treasurer for CSI club again? i'm SO getting out of this at the end of the semester.
final note on illness. it's not really clear how much of what's going around everywhere is H1N1, and it probably will never be clear since i costs over $100 to test for it. but, rapidly spreading or not, it remains to apparently be no more deadly than any other flu. that said, part of me wonders if it isn't better to LET people get it and get over it. i mean, that's how you get immunity, n'est pas? and if it's only dangerous because of how fast it moves, wouldn't it be better if everyone builds up some natural defense against this and similar strains?
also, it's likely that much of what's going around here isn't H1N1. i've heard a lot of sinus complaints and some stomach and throat. i've heard H1N1 is supposed to be more chesty but i could be wrong.
current mood: tired
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| Tuesday, September 1st, 2009
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9:33 pm - tuesday
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i am so totally screwed this year.
no, seriously.
i don't know how i'm supposed to do this much reading. i'm already behind.
AND MY JAPANESE IS JUST TERRIBLE.
i'm going to be such a hermit.
tomorrow is going to be a looooong day. yay 9:30-5:30 with no break!
also, i'm breaking out on my arms, of all places. (well, elsewhere too, but yeah.) i blame carrying armloads of mail? (totally almost typed 'male')
side note: one of the cute twin boys is kind of douchey and obsessed with twilight. o.O; no, really, breaking dawn is his favorite. he's read the series 3 times. he's also read the host 4 times.
time to be off and read another 40 pages ABOUT writing poetry. then however many pages i can get to for asian history (no big since we're about a day behind in lecture anyway). also read something like 30 pages of canterbury tales. ALSO SOMEWHERE I NEED TO READ A 200 SOMETHING PAGE BOOK AND WRITE A PAPER ON IT BY THE END OF THE WEEK.
laters.
ps i need canned air. this keyboard is disgusting and flouresent light shows it all.
current mood:  rushed
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| Wednesday, August 26th, 2009
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5:10 pm - wednesday
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whew. weeks half over. recap. monday: work 9:30-12, class 12-3, work 3-5 tuesday: class 10-1, work 1-5. today: worked 9:30-12, class 12-4:30. normally my wednesdays are gonna run 9:30-5:30, no break, but we got out early from poetry since it was the first day.
quick overview.
things that suck:
FIRST WEEK BACK AT THE MAIL CENTER. stop asking for copies. you might get them by friday. fuck.
working with someone today who did NOTHING. she disappeared TWICE during the hour that overlapped for our schedules, and once was to go to the involvment fair. "what should i do?" NONE OF THE MAIL HAS BEEN DELIVERED. DUH.
wednesdays. they will probably be heavily catagorized as sucking by the end of the year.
my japanese.
sore feet.
the massive amounts of research i'm going to end up doing.
humidity.
being constantly paranoid of my car.
forgetting so much stuff.
things that rock:
my japanese CLASS. the people are awesome.
being in lincoln.
my boss. XD
realizing that HOLY SHIT I'M ON SPEAKING TERMS WITH A LOT OF PEOPLE ON CAMPUS.
waking up to a thunderstorm.
my dorm. (i really like it.
EMILY. even though she is GOING TO THE Q WITHOUT ME. HATE.
my classes. they are going to be hard, but really interesting.
cute twin boys.
things that are just plain weird:
being hit on by people out of nowhere.
ghost shrimp.
sodexho having good food so far.
my boyfriend.
inexplicably being able to get myself up in the morning.
the best students in my japanese class are ones who studied independently.
having a crappy hole-in-the-wall feel like home.
so that's my week so far. i'm off to do homework. byes.
current mood:  complacent
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| Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
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7:42 pm - saturday
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moved in. *pants. i'm bloody tired.
BRIAN HAS A FERRET. I AM JEALOUS. IT'S FREAKING CUTE. *hates*
there was epic drama with the crappy brothers. well, drama with justin, nate's just an idiot. haven't heard from nate since, though. ha.
my room seems bigger this year. woot. i need to decorate, then this place will feel more like home. i have a sweet view of a tree 'cause i'm on the other end of the building this year.
i forgot a lot of stuff. *sweatdrop* soooo i might go home next weekend.
i need to buy like 5 more books yet, too. DAMN IT. bleh.
i'm going to hang my posters tonight i think, then probably spend the night chilling. then crash out fairly early. maybe. 'early' being like midnight to 2 am. hee.
laters.
current mood: tired
current music: Frank Morris-Capital Lights
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| Saturday, August 15th, 2009
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11:19 am - saturday
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happy birthday to rachel.
brady and julie are back for some super fun packing. apparently they have some pretty sucky neighbors and one really awesome one. balance? i suppose so.
going back to help more today (i think).
my dad woke me up at 8:30. which is FANTASTIC. only not. the last three days before that i slept like the dead, which is unfortunate, because the dead have no regard for comfortable positioning or limbs that are wont to fall asleep. i woke up one morning in just about the exact same position i remembered falling asleep in and that NEVER HAPPENS. my arms were both asleep.
unfortunately this coma-like rest hasn't been very restful. i wake up tired, especially since 3 days in a row i woke up in the midst of a dream and that just screws up my entire day. i can't kick the drowsiness, even after half a pot of coffee.
i'm woefully unprepared for school, but i can't bring myself to be concerned about it.
plus side, it seems nice out today. yay for thunderstorm last night.
i MIGHT be moving up the saturday before school. there is a bigger window of opportunity to move in that day than sunday, and they start serving food that night. we shall see. it pretty much depends entirely on my parents.
um...not much else to chat about. life goes on.
time to be off, i think. laters.
current mood:  calm
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| Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
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12:35 pm - tuesday
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been a few days since my last update. NOT AS LONG AS IT'S BEEN FOR MY FRIENDS THOUGH. lame.
slowly getting around to doing all the necessary things for school. books ordered, an additional 5 ordered for my poetry class SINCE THE PROF FINALLY POSTED THEM. i need to buy a few on campus. one book i couldn't find a new enough edition, another two the prof said the bookstore was selling bundled, and another two were cheaper through the bookstore if i counted shipping. woo.
i own a japanese dictionary. THANKFULLY they included the hiragana AND kanji where applicable. so i can actually know how to PRONOUNCE the damn things.
i have been craving sweets non-stop. we're gonna blame stress.
i don't have class until noon on the first day. NOON. and i don't work until AFTER all of my classes. what the hell? i didn't think i'd scheduled nothing for the morning, but that will make monday's nice. i plan on getting up to help at the mail center early though. MONIES FOR ME.
it'll be nice to be back in lincoln. seriously, i love my parents, but summer is too long to spend with them in one go...heh.
it's looking a bit doubtful that i'll have a car. mom keeps talking about giving me their car, and they just go get a new one, but truth be told i don't even WANT it. it's too...big. i mean...i'm not coming home more often than every third weekend, i think. i'm getting busier and a trip home really does just suck everything out of you, you know? besides, there is no one left in beatrice now. or there won't be, in a few days. i could get by with a bus pass, i think.
i should be doing something. besides just sitting here drinking coffee.
i'll be off now. i have a lot of books for school. they're mostly single-focuse books, too, so i'll probably be reading them all. FUN YEAR AHEAD. laters.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Sunday, August 2nd, 2009
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11:19 pm - sunday
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i have no where to put all my books and movies. i joke that, when i actually move into my own place, i'll be living out of boxes for a week at least. fact is, i live out of boxes NOW. THERE IS NO WHERE ELSE TO PUT SHIT.
yeah, it's time for the annual cleaning again. bleh.
i have a dentist appointment thursday. at 10. and i have to bike (i think?). NO FUN.
i think i have an eye appointment on the 15th too. which i'll have to bike too. at least court street is easy to bike up.
i need to study for japanese. ordered books today OH HAY WE ARE USING A DICTIONARY NEXT SEMESTER, FUCK. *headdesk*
also, my classes are weird. five books for one history class, SIX books for another history class. jesus, history profs, really? then, for my lit class...two books. FOR MY LIT CLASS. TWO. anthologies, which i should have expected since it's brit lit to 1800. but yeah. and NO BOOKS listed for my poetry class. they have to require SOME text, don't they? i guess the prof i originally signed up with is no longer there...so maybe the one who took over is still planning. DOES NOT MAKE BOOK BUYING EASIER. DAMN IT.
i'm actually really pumped for my nazi germany history class. and the asian history class looks really interesting because the books span the region. we're going to cover A LOT. and no research paper. :D (at least there had better not be. i PLANNED my schedule so i wouldn't be required multiple research papers in one go.)
emily is moved. as is chris, obviously. MY CIRCLE OF FRIENDS GOT CUT IN HALF IN THE COURSE OF A WEEK WTF. oh well. time to concentrate on cleaning and packing and organizing and all that end-of-summer stuff.
time to go read. because i won't be doing enough of that once school rolls around. laters.
i'm randomly missing aaron hardcore tonight.
current mood: busy
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