||blondie~oh mickey you're so fine
and so i have proven my will power by returning to this wretched hellhole to update in which i promised i wouldnt.. oh well. ive noticed that ive only been removed off the friends list of two people. ive been added to the friends list of one person.. i added them back.
so whats been happenin'? i got to talk to erik on the phone awhile ago. may i say that he has a quite sexy voice? :) we really didnt say much, but i guess i was nervous and stuff. i admitted my feelings to him. everything else is in fate's hands. anyway, a lot of crap has happened. my summer has been crap. i havent gone anywhere, but i just began getting in shape.. or not yet, just trying to. also lifting a few weights to tone my biceps and such. ah yes, yesterday, the whole family went out. we were out all day. i got some new clothes. :D i am so ready for the new school year.. not clothes, accesary, and such-wise, but mentally. i think i can let the world see my beautiful personality. ;P ah yes, i looked quite well yesterday. yknow, i have(had) a low self-esteem. but its changed. ive been feeling very selfconfident lately. i wore two low pony tails, baggy jeans, a blue shirt with a monkey on it(i love monkeys <3), and icy grape lipstick. it looks fabolous on me. ;D simply fabulous. unfortunately, there are no attractive young bois around here. D:
but i discovered otherwise on my way home!!!! there he was.. the boi with the shaggy hair. BOY HOWDY! he was so cute, adorable, sexy, HOT.. shaggy hair on the right boi has to be the sexiest thing ever. he was walking in this way that you could tell he was a humourous guy; just what i need. ;D i stuck my head out of the car window, looking at him. i did not take notice of him looking at me if he did, but man oh man. i said to myself.. "ohhh.. the boi with the shaggy hair.." it was quite suprising to see one of his kind around my neighborhood. im not being racist or anything, but he was well.. white? and this is the ghetto? but he was probably the cutest boi i have ever seen.. oh.. how sexy you are.. i fantasized about him before i went to bed. oh, what i wouldnt give to lay on a bed of silky sheets, trace my fingers along his back, plant tender kisses around his neck, run my fingers through his soft, somewhat curly hair, and engage in passionate, loving kisses as i twirl a lock of his beautiful hair around my finger.. oh, but i digress.. im ahead of myself, yes.
but i am sickened by the old, ugly, mentally challenged, balding, fat man that lives on the first floor of my apartment. hes a perv. this isnt the first time he lies his eyes upon me in such a way, like he wanted to gobble me up! this isnt the first time an old man looks at me in such a way.. arent there any bois out there!? like the other night.. it was raining, i was wearing a white shirt, but i was out with my mom.. i was wearing a black bra!! and still, he stares at me. yesterday, he kept staring at me.. eyes bulging out his sockets, as i passed by him.. "whats up, ma?" silently, he spoke. i shuddered... and almost barfed! -shudder- oh, old man, how i loathe thee...
and again.. boi with the shaggy hair,how i love thee.. or lust.. either way.. ;P -giggle, giggle-
p.s. ...i have a new screen name. shame on you if you cant guess what it is. lets just say its right under your nose.. (and no, its not literally "under your nose"..)