| 11:34p |
George Eliot: Falsehood is easy, truth so difficult.
Thomas Jefferson: He who permits himself to tell a lie once, finds it much easier to do it a second and third time, till at length it becomes habitual.
Well with that being said I am going to discuss lying. What does one do finding out there husband lies to his wife? Yes, I am speaking about my husband in this. I just wish I knew his resoning to why he lies to me on a consistant basis.
I found out the latest lie last night. And what it was about doesnt even really bother me at this point. Howevenr what really does bother me is this: If he lies to me about this particular thing... Then how am I supposed to know when or if he's ever telling the truth? I find that hard to swallow.... VERY HARD. I looked him square in the eyes on this and he just blatantly lied about it. When I caught him in the lie yesterday, all he did was laugh out loud (Which a word to any guys out there reading this- You dont do!) So I told him that "boy how stupid I am to actually think he could be telling me the truth"... He said its not your fault. But I feel it is becuz I was stupid...Sososo Stupid to believe him. He' s lied to me before and honestly I think this is my breaking point. I had an appointment today at the hospital and told him I didnt want him to go. Good thing he did anyways.. They wanted a $50 payment up front. The whole entire time we were gone the only thing I said was "pay the lady". I feel that he can lie to me about anything now...absolutely anything. I am very disturbed about this.
I have no faith, no trust and almost no love. I have NO tolerance for this kinda crap with a 42 year old. We are supposed to goto Michigan this weekend and I told him that I was gonna stay after he left and he said why? I said Why not? He didnt say anything then later asked when are you gonna come home then? I said well I dont HAVE to be home until Febuary first to hopefully babysit the baby. He let out a big sigh... But in all honesty I dont know if I want to even come back here then- I may just babysit Jazzy at Lauras. Then I dont know what I want to do.
I think that I want to move back to Michigan. I doubt any of the kids will want to come with me. I have no job, no money, no car, and life has just seemingly sucked for the last 20 years. I just can't believe I actually stayed here for 20 freaking years!
I just want to find my happiness.....
I dont think its in Indiana..... I think its in Michigan.
Guys dont lie to your wives.... it's wrong and sometimes you do get caught in the lie.
I've not heard any results on my tests from the hospital yet. When I do I will post them.
Love to my blurtylicious friends! Linda |