Please...forget me not.'s Blurty

My blurtylicious friends.....

First of all the baby I am going to talk about is now my blurty icon for now. This way you can get a visual on whom I am talking about.
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On March 11, 2007, this baby (my nieces baby- whom I baby sit for, every time I can) will be a mere 5 months old. A few weeks ago, not more than 3 or maybe 4 at the most Sara (my 20 year old niece) met a guy, on the internet. This past Friday she got her tax check and spent it all on buying greyhound tickets to Tennessee. She took a friend of hers and the baby to meet this guy. The friend of hers is pregnant but not very far along. They left at 5 pm Friday evening and got to their destination (Gatlinburg, TN) at 6 am Saturday. I have since heard that the baby had a hard time and was crying a good portion of the way. Through this friend that she took is how we've heard about what has been going on. The mother of the friend called my sister becuz I guess the girls didnt leave a number where they were going to be at and she called my sis to get it. Well apparently the mom was told by the girls that they were going to a relatives house -which they were not. For the record this friend is also over 18 years old. well my sis told the mom everything and she was very very upset that she was lied to. The mom then called the police down there and had then tell this girl to call home ASAP! The friend called and was given an ultimatum of coming home right this minute or being permanently cut off from the family. Needless to say she came home yesterday (Sunday).

My sister was then told (by the friend) that this guy lives in a very bad part of town (seedy was the word the cops used). He's in his mid 20's, named Michael, and works at KFC. Mike lives in a hotel, that he rents a room from. So its one room and a bathroom (you get the point). Apparently within 5 minutes of the girls getting there Sara was asking her friend to watch the baby so that she could take a shower with this guy. The friend said that while she was there, she tended to the baby becuz no-one else was. Something was also said about the baby being put in the bathroom alot.

Apparently this guy also has 2 dogs and the friend said theres "dog shit all over the place". Sara also had no money left after buying the greyhound bus tickets. No money for anything that comes up or for even any food. I hope she at least took enough baby food. So the dilemas now are since the friend is gone whom is caring for the baby? Is she being fed? Is she clean? The baby has no where to sleep but in her car seat. Sara doesnt even know this guy, is he a rapist or another sex offender (the babys father is a registered sex offender)? Is he a serial killer? A baby killer? You get the point. I have the hardest times thinking about the what ifs or what could the baby be going thru? My niece is clearly not thinking of anything but herself. She does use the baby as a trophy, if you know what I mean. My Sis and I believe that Sara would let anyone watch the baby at this point. And at that point all those questions start again on that person. Apparently Sara is now talking about marrying this guy she doesnt know. So anyways my sister and the friends mom both called CPS (in Tenn.) on Sara. Baby Jazlynn needs to be taken away from her. Shes obviously NOT responsible enough to have her. And who knows for all we know there could be another one now on the way...........

Tonight Emily was really telling me alot of things about Sara. Apparently she went out with a 50 year old (he wanted sex, she gave it). From what Emily says Saras been really busy and pretty much tells my 16 year old everything (I feel Sara thinks it bragging- I AM PISSED). Emily said Sara has had sex with many many guys that shes met online. Some she doesnt even know their last name. She just has sex with them and leaves. If they call her again she goes back again. Its all totally disgusting to me. I didnt have the heart to tell my sister this tonight but I do think she needs to know about it eventually.

This afternoon, my sister emailed me and asks if I think a family intervention would help. That maybe she needs to hear how we all feel. I wrote back that it wouldnt work because she doesnt give a shit at what anyone thinks, thats part of the problem. I dont know what my sister was thinking. I told her if Sara had a drug or alcohol problem then it would be different but she wont listen to any of us.

Tim Sr has lost another Aunt. She passed away on Friday. Tims (my hubby) poor father. In 7 months his Dad has lost his wife and 2 sisters. Its been a rough road. So we have a funeral to go to sometime this week.......***sigh***

Mark (Tims brother that lives with us) his daughter is in the hospital. She was put in on Sunday, but it took 4 trips there for them to finally admit her in. ( thats so stupid!!!!) She has Rotavirus and now I heard tonight there are some other complications. Some things are not right within her blood.

The Dr. upped my effexor (depression meds) and my xanax. I have been feeling better since he did that. That was about Friday or Thursday of last week. I do feel its helped me. I need it right now.

Everyday we wait to hear if CPS has taken the baby away but tonight Emily was talking to Sara on the PC and Sara put on a web cam and we DID get to see the baby. I took screen shots but it wasnt very good lighting at where she is. We are hoping that Laura or I (my sister, the grandmother of baby Jazlynn) will be able to tke custody of the baby. If not I will be heartbroken along with everyone else but, at least, no matter what baby Jazzy will be in a better place. I am also saving all conversations with Sara. Just in case.

Please keep on praying for this sweet little innocent baby- who doesnt deserve this. I just want the baby to come home where she belongs. As for Sara, shes not aloud to come home at all. She's made her bed now its time for her to lie in it....Its gonna be a very lonely place for Sara in time.....You may want to say a prayer for her too.

I am already heartbroken.......
Thank God for Xanax.
Tearfully,
Your friend,
Linda

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