| 11:05p |
Is it REALLY spring yet, or is it just the calander telling us it is???
Well let us see...
Today was kind of a long day for me. I dunno why, I didnt do much- maybe thats why. I did get the livingroom vacuumed, and did yesterdays dishes. I also did the laundry for Tim and I. I will once in awhile do the kids' laundry but I dont like to. I want them to do something around here and they are old enough to be able to do that, at least.
I saw the guy who lives a ways in back of our property rototilling his garden today. I so want to start my gardening! I cannot wait. I don't understand why he was rototilling this soon though. Its freezing out there. Snow was on the ground just the other day. The sun was out but it sure was cold. I dunno but is it really spring yet? I don't think it is. Seasons should be re-done with the calander...The global warming should make the seasons not go with the calander anylonger. Or it should be updated and changed. Just my opinion.
Emily has given us some problems the last few days. Last night it was until about 12 midnight. And it was all about something that had nothing to do with her. I had caught my son looking at porn on my pc. For that he's gotten his x-box cord and his cable cord taken away by me. Last ight she asked me how I knew it was him that was looking at porn. Well aparrently some time back she had walked in on my hubby who was getting flooded in porn pop-ups in our room on our pc. He'd been trying to close all the windows and 5 more would pop up and I guess my daughter was standing there. So (back to last night) I told her she was being terribly disrespectful by saying that and that I was saw what her brother was doing. I said why do you think he isnt argueing with me? Its becuz he knows he's in the wrong. Then she went off yelling and screaming about how we done respect her and becuz of that she wont respect us. Then tonight she started it all over again by saying she didnt do anything wrong. And she doesnt have to respect us when we dont respect her. I'm gonna ask her what she thinks is disrespecting to her...maybe - if she can talk calmly. We ended up both conversations yelling and screaming at each other. I'm getting so tired of this. I'm almost at a point where I'm done. I dont want to send her away from the family but I cant live like this anymore either. I dont even want to be here anymore. I dread when 3pm comes cuz I know whats coming. I love her so much . She does'nt understand what she's doing to us. She's so spoiled but if you say anything remotely close to sounding like your telling her she's been spoiled she fights back. She honestly doesnt think she's been spoiled at all. I wish I knew what I did wrong. I totally blame myself for this, but dear God , what did I do? I'm scared to goto bed when she's asleep becuz I'm afraid at what she would do to me in my sleep. Iv'e asked her to goto counseling and she says if we force her to go she refuses to talk to anyone. I dont know what to do... I miss my mom.
Current Mood: bored, aggravated, helpless
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