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[25 Nov 2003|09:18pm] |
Sickness. I hate it.. Just to give you a taste of what I've been feeling since Sunday here's a list:
1) Off and on headaches
2) Runny nose
3) Above average temperature
4) Stomache
5) Stomach cramps
6) My period
7) Period cramps
Okay, I feel like hell. I don't wanna talk. People reading my profile think I'm depressed. I'm not. Believe me. I really don't think I'm suffering from depression, I just write here when I feel an extreme, so leave me alone. >P
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[24 Nov 2003|06:03pm] |
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This freeform poetry that will probably be total crap is how I feel right now.
You'll never know me
I hide from reality
I take refuge in my mind
I won't escape it
I can't escape it
People's torment
Turns into rage
I need someone
But no one's there
Not a friend in the nothingness
I'm alone
So alone
These temporary ectasies
Won't get me very far
I'll still be dark inside
So dark
So confused
So alone
Oh well. Gee, shucks, I'm about to cry. I hate life. I hate myself.
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| I haven't updated in close to FOREVER!!! |
[11 Nov 2003|02:04pm] |
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BOO!
Yeah, that's right. I haven't updated in a while. You have a problem..? DEAL!
Just kiddin'! I haven't had the time and didn't feel like it. I'm bound to upload Halloween pictures for your enjoyment. I'm going away tomorrow for THREE FREAKING DAYS!! HORRAH! ^-^ The Marli is happy. For once in her pathetic life, the Marli is truly and thoroughly happy. Three days away from it all. Away from stress, daily living, school. Oh my gosh. I need some deep breaths here..
The NJHS Induction Ceremony is next week. I met all the new lackees -coff- I mean inductees. They are TINY!! I mean truly minute. I haveto rewrite my speech, read my biography. Smurf! I have so much to do!
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[23 Oct 2003|07:39pm] |
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Okay...
I officially am not liking school. Everyone freaking makes my life hell. Seriously. People complimenting you insincerely, wanting to still be nice when they compliment you, so that they don't get in trouble. Hipocripcy. I seriously can't wait until high school. MES isn't that bad. All the teachers know you. You can get help easily; it's a small school and all. It's just.. being stuck with the same people for 8 years gets to you. There's practically no diversity. I'm stuck in the middle. It's like nobody accepts me. I really don't have many good friends. Like people you can count on. I just need a break. I need a break from it all. >_>
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[22 Oct 2003|04:28pm] |
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There's somthing about being a female teenager.. Mood swings.. They suck. I'm serious. I was bawling my eyes out two seconds ago for no apparent reason. I always am feeling depressed and crying and such. I'm like never happy and energenic. I mask my energy at school. I hide my feelings, you know? I would break out in tears half the time if I didn't want to be a crybaby. I cry all the time, and I dunno why. My life seems to slowly going down the drain. Oh, I'm so tired. I can't stand it.
I hate horomones.
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[21 Oct 2003|02:03pm] |
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Hungry... Sooo hungry....
Computer class... Sllooowww cooommppuuuttterrrss.....
I finished my project on the cellular phone before any and everyone else, so I'm kinda just bored, y'know? I have a haunted house meeting thingamabob after school and crap. oO; I won't get home until later. I'll get a brownie after school from the monarch butterfly thing.
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| Sorry.. Long time, no update |
[20 Oct 2003|07:06pm] |
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Okays. My week sucked. I'm not going into detail because I'm lazy and don't feel like it.. e_e;; I went camping and threw up in my tent. Fun, I know. Okay I was sick today. I need to do current events. That's all. Goodbye.
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| FWEEE |
[14 Oct 2003|10:58pm] |
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No One's Looking- Tsunami Bomb |
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No one would really know your name. You would be
called by what you do. For example, if you burn
your victims to death all the time, you would
be known as The Arsonist, or if you knife them,
you would be known as The Slasher. You would be
the mysterious killer who strikes at sporadic
times, and would be very difficult to catch.
You might dress up and mask yourself when you
perform your horrible killings. Your identity
would really be a mystery. Obviously you would
be wanted all over the place, and authorities
would desperately try to capture you. Even if
you were caught, you would not say much. The
public would greatly fear you because you could
just strike unexpectedly.
What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
brought to you by Quizilla
WHOOOO!!! All unknown-ish and mysterious.. I'm a UNICORN! Now, I'm a heart surgeon! Wh00t!
I don't like Happy Bunny exceptionally, but oh well...
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse
which happy bunny are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Onwards...
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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"When Doves Cry" (by Prince)
How could you just leave me standing,
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe you're just too demanding.
Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold.
Maybe you're just like my mother.
She's never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like,
When doves cry.
Which 80's Song Fits You?
brought to you by Quizilla
o-O I haveta download that...
Okay, 'tis all. I'll posteh more later!
Ciao
<3 Marli
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| Bite My Tongue Lyrics |
[14 Oct 2003|10:04pm] |
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Okay.. I have this song stuck in my head...
And I'll post them if my computer hurries up -.-;
What can I say?
I'll bite my tongue again today.
What can I do when I feel so stupid over you?
I wish they'd just go ahead and cut it off.
And, I don't wanna work anymore
cause sometimes I just can't ignore
the way I feel when I see you smile.
And someday I'll just shut my eyes
and maybe then you'll realize...
I'm just a fucking geek in love with you.
When's the right time to use a stupid pick up line?
"So how's the weather?
Do you wanna spend the night together?"
I know that you are just a girl
but in my eyes you rule the world.
I just thought I'd let you know...
you're my best friend and that's ok,
but I wanna see you night and day.
When I'm holding you right by my side.
I've said my peace so now I'll run and hide...
I'd bring you candy and flowers,
sit by the phone for hours...
sing a song outside your window
just if you would let me know.
No more waking up lonely,
will you be my one and only?
Please let me know right now cause I'm not gonna live forever.
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| Beach Day; Day off; Life isn't good.. |
[13 Oct 2003|05:20pm] |
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Okays, I went to the beach yesterday ^-^ 'Twas fun. I am practicing using poetic license to annoy my English Teacher.. I handed out water to the marathon runners in the '18 Mile Run' and I got a green shirt out of it. We had lunch and the soup was good. Mmmm Chicken nood n_n Susan and Kala were there. We hung out on thwe beach for a while and my pants, from the knees down, were soaked. I lurved it. The sunset was purdy. I could see every colour of the rainbow in it. I'm serious. The sky was red at the bottom and faded into blue. My mom got some pictures and I will scan them =D
Today was pretty good. I did nothing productive. I'm serious. I roleplayed and watched TV, y'know.. Okays.. 'Tis all. FWEEEEE!!!!! -gets more soup-
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| My life is rated.. |
[10 Oct 2003|11:50pm] |
My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?
O_o I guess it's accurate.. I dunno, whaddyah think, you people who are reading this. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE OUT THERE!
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| Deep breaths, Marlana.. Deep breaths |
[10 Oct 2003|05:16pm] |
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I seriously just jumped out of my skin. I thought my heart stopped.. completely. I got goosebumps... It creeped me out a lot. Steve just said I looked hott. That is a fucking first. I am not that. I am far from that. I would never consider myself that in a good.. say thousand or so years. Even more so, he wants me to wear my hair down -shudder- My hair looks of total crap down. I dun know why he wants me to wear it down.. o_o I could've had a freaking heart attack. That is crazy. I am calming myself down. Deep breaths, Marlana,.. Deep breaths..
Why couldn't he keep that to himself..?
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[09 Oct 2003|08:25pm] |
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Okay you people. If you are randomly exploring blurty and happen to come across this journal... INSTANT MESSAGE ME!!! I need someone to talk to. IM MEEE!!
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[09 Oct 2003|04:31pm] |
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I am Awesome
My kitty died. I am sad T-T I can't stand death. I don't fear it or anything, but I just hate it. Immortality is aweful, too. I am beginning to hate everything; I can't wait until high school. I don't care what my teachers say about how we'll "be begging to come back" I won't. I'm serious. I need more friends who understand me. I have aquaintences at school, this I know, but I only have a couple really good friends. I want more. Yes, that MAY be selfish, but what more can one ask for? Maybe someone who thinks that it's horrible when yur cat died, or someone who respects your opinion. Maybe someone who thinks guys aren't the most important thing on the planet..
Okay, I AM being selfish, but not as horrible as some. I don't want someone to love me or a significant other; I just want some more good friends who share my intrests.
WARNING GOOD CHARLOTTE FANS: Please note that the next portion of this entry will be devoted to how horrible I think Good Charlotte is..
Okay. I hate Good Charlotte. I could care fucking less if they fell down a hole. They are stupid and their songs don't have potential meaning. So what if they grew up as white trash? They are fucking rich and famous now, which also makes them hypocrites. They sing a song about how rich and famous people always are complaining, well in that song, they are complaining about complaining people xX
Also, who gets tatoos on their legs with their famous bands? A fucking moron, that is who. That would make Benji a fucking moron. In five years no one will know what 'NFG' stands for or who 'NOFX' is. They won't even care.
"Oh, hey a New Found Glory song came on! Daddy has a tatoo of them on his leg!"
Now that's something that will make your kids proud. Also, Joel was smart for getting tatoos of tears permanently marked on his face. What kind of serious moron tatoos their face? Let me think....
Okay. Rant over. Go home. Seriously. Go home.
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| -.-; I hate Mrs. Lane with a passion |
[07 Oct 2003|03:45pm] |
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I don't know what it is about her. But I just don't like her. She is ALWAYS on everyone's case, and today, she was trying to prove me wrong for freaking RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS. Whenever I get pennies, nickels, dimes, or sometimes even quarters (only sometimes) I either dainitly place them down on a window sill, on a paved sidewalk in a commercial area, or in the mall heads up to make someone's day and give them good luck. She gets on my case about how it's littering and how it could kill someone if a lawn mower ran over it. Like there are lawn mowers running on Park Avenue and on Maple Avenue or in the mall or in Pathemark's parking lot or on the walkway in a shopping center. She needs to get a grip. She hates technology and she always is talking about typewriters and how she never had computers. She obsesses over how its unfair about the technology and then she goes on and on about how life isn't fair. Just because her only, and probably spoiled, son, Johnathan, is a teenager she thinks she knows how we talk online. I DON'T use fucking chatspeak so she shouldn't lecture us about how aweful our grammar. I think that using chat speak won't get you anywhere in life, so that's why I barely ever use the abbreviation "ppl" for people. Yes, I do use poetic lisense online, but I like to express myself using it. She goes ON and ON ENDLESSLY about Nora's "excuse me'd" part of her narrative. She has the most annoying voice. I probably left something out. Oh yeah. She thinks she knows all about our personal lives and thinks she's sooo smart. Okay. I probably missed other negative points about her.. I'll report back later with more rant-age. xDDD
Ciao!
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| My weekend = Total crap |
[05 Oct 2003|08:07pm] |
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I did not do one thing that was productive this weekend. Accept, maybe the homework I'm doing now. It's on Italy's Rugby team. Rugby is a tolerable sport. It is actually pretty awesome. The shirts are cooler than American football jerseys, and they play in the mudd and crap. It is awesome :o
I went to karate yesterday. Nothing special. Steve wasn't there and I was agitated e_e Wally Hussonmg just called my house. Gay fag. :P
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[03 Oct 2003|03:21pm] |
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Today was total crap. Nothing exciting happenned except.... I got a 65% on my Chemistry quiz T_T Good thing I can retake it on Tuesday. I gave Mr. B the music for Once Upon a December. Haven't seen Steve all week. I hope he comes Saturday to karate.. That is all
Ciao
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| XDDD Funniest thing happened |
[02 Oct 2003|04:01pm] |
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Today in Language class, our pinkie-less teacher, Mrs. Lane, was talking about Lance Armstrong. He was the Tour du France (She says it like such an inconsiderate American) winner 4 times and crap. Well, he had testoculiar (I'm not quite sure how to spell it), but penis cancer and recovered. Some kids didn't know what it was and asked. It was the most akward thing to explain for her. It was really funny for her to explain it without the words "penis" and other "slang" words for one. And then her reason for him going against all odds and having a child was that he had a bunch of "chemicals punped into his body" which was hilarious because.. you know o-O. Art class was also pretty fun. :D Today was purdie good.
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