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Lizzie's Journal
Dear Friend,
I want to be an exchange student to Germany. AND I WILL BE! Whatever it takes, i will study abroad for a year in Germany.
I was hoping to go my freshmen year. Maybe not 'cause I need to take all my basic classes. unless i take them my sophmore year...
hmm..
~Lizzie
Dear Friend,
I can't wait until the party. It will be so much fun, I know it. Maybe not as fun as last year 'cause it won't be in the same place, but I am very optimistic. Tiffany wants me to help her plan it. w00.
I've been reading Cosmopliton alot lately. that stuff is kinky. "Men unzipped," "3 things men want in bed," "sex horoscope," "Guys on sex," etc.
I figured out um...whatever it's called...
50%- sex
20%- fashion & makeup
5%- celebrities
10%- Life tips
15%- other
taht is what cosmopoliton magazine consists of. wonderful.
I was invited to this pool party- it sounded like fun, but i decided not to go. I just didn't feel like it. I'm not hiding anything, just i felt like relaxing---it was sunday, day of rest anyway.
stuff.
Oh yeah, school would have started TOMMOROW if i had moved to plano. lo and behold, i have extra summer 'cause i didn't move. how cool. School starts August 16th....I haven't gotten my uniforms yet...
wait..i feel a rant coming on...
Oh my god, i can't believe school starts in only like two weeks. Summer went by SO FAST. I totally wasted it...except when i went to massachusetts..but whatever. I'm wasting my summer! Holy freak! it's like, GONE. I will soon be sitting in a cramped little classroom in my ugly uniform filling out "about me" sheets and seeing some of the same faces from last year. I will be in 8th grade....looking back at the 7th and 6th graders, vaguely remembering being one of them. I will be one year closer to highschool. Everyone will wonder why i still go to this school, didn't i move? NO, I DIDN'T FREAKING MOVE.
hmmm...
~Lizzie
Current mood:
blank.
Dear Friend,
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Went shopping at a thrift store today. I discovered the wonders of discount clothes. There was a helluva lot of crap, but if you look hard enough, you'll find something GREAT...
Mickey is the sweetest lady ever...buying me and mom clothes and stuff...wee!
~Lizzie
Current mood:
cheerful.Current music: rock music everyday, all the way.
Dear Friend,
There's supposed to be a "blue moon" tonight...
http://www.obliquity.com/astro/bluemoon.html <----about the blue moon. If it turns blue, I'm going to sneak out and look at it. But, that's rare, and i might not see an actual blue moon until i'm 46 or something.
not much to write about...just the usual stuff.
~Lizzie
Current mood:
awake.
Dear Freind,
We have nothing to eat, unless you count leftover chicken, leftover rice, shredded wheat and a slice of nasty health bread. I'll die. My dad gets paid every two weeks, and by the second week, we're out of money and waaaaay low on food. I want chocolate badly. I want a hot dog and some taquitos. buffalo wings, too. yea, and then some brownies and a thing of yogurt. and then an apple juice to wash it all down.
I'll make a shopping list....*eats an icecube*
Brownie mix
taquitos
hot dog buns, New England style
hot dogs
buffalo wings
those pizza square things
Reeses Puffs cereal
Bananas
Apple Juice
Ritz Chips
Cheez-its
yogurt
provolone & meunster cheese
White smoked Turkey
wheat bread
icecream
pop-tarts
Ovaltine
Toaster Strudels
corn
oreos
Goldfish
strawberries
**and anything else i happen to find appetizing...
Me is hungry
~Lizzie
Current mood:
hungry.
"No Rain," Blind melon
All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
And speak my point of view but itts not sane, its not sane
I just want someone to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that theres no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
It rips my life away but its a great escape...escape...escape
All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
You don't like my point of view
Ya think that I'm insane
Its not sane... its not sane
I just want someone to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
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I don't want to go outside because Kyle might be there. I don't feel like doing anything, either. He'll try to get me to smoke weed. Only a week or two until school starts, August 16. August 14th is the party.
Oh yea, and school. I heard the uniform pants are not hip huggers. I'm not comfortable in any other pants but hip huggers. Low-rise. damnit. and we have to tuck our shirts in?
That's shit. The only school in garland without uniforms is Sam Houston, and i don't know where that is. I didn't even want uniforms. stupid crap headed school board. I'll wear my usual ammount of jewlery, but i'll get my lobes and cartilage pierced and i'll wear red lipstick and write things on my shirts and decorate my skirts with saftey pins. Infact, i'll only wear skirts. fuck pants. I will not tuck my shirt in. never. oh yea, and i'll have red tipped hair. I will individualize my uniform as much as possible. Oh yea, and I don't have P.E. this year. yay! 'cause i had Athletics last year, which was two semesters. So I don't need to do a semester this year. :))))
And i can't wait 'till i'm 14. I'm tired of being 13. 13 is too young compared to all my friends. they're all 15. wah.
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Yea, and i noticed most of my journel entries are ranting. I guess this is like my exhaust pipe...
yea.
~Lizzie
Current mood:
awake.
"Take Me Out," Franz Ferdinand
So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered, I lie
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot, then we can die
I know I won't be leaving here with you
I say don't you know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out!
I say you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say... take me out!
If I move this could die
If I move this could die
I want you...to take me out!
I say you don't know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out!
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you
I say don't you know?
You say you don't know
I say take me out
If I wink, this can die
If I wane, this can die
I want you to take me out
If I move, this could die
If I move, this could die
Come on, take me out
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here with you
Dear Friend,
Today was also a good day. Tiffany came over. we hung out, swam at the pool. Alona and her little boyfriends are bastard. What's-his-name is a bitch. Anyway, story.
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Swimming at the pool, tons of little kids are clinging to me. "He is checkin' you ooooout" says tiffany. She rants on about hows he staring at me and stuff. I tell her to shutup, 'cause i already know. Stuff happens. i get thrown in the pool with ALL my clothes on. Stupid Chris. Later i find Tiffany talking to this guy and his friends. His name is Kyle.
It's later, dark, and we're sitting at the pool. Everybody is swimming 'cept for me and jennifer, she has an ear infection. That damn kyle keeps asking me to smoke weed with him. that bastard. But i think he does like me... So we hang out till 11:00. My dad got mad at me and my new curfue is 9. another bastard.
When Kyle was sitting there asking if i wanted a joint, i was thinking of Jonathon. He isn't like Kyle. He wouldn't ask if i smoked. He wouldn't want to meet me just to get me high. I miss him. seriously. Oh yeah, and chris sat on me. damnit.
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People to Kill
Tiffany(200 x)
Jonathon(20x)
Kyle(40x)
Chris(60x)
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~Lizzie
Current mood:
awake.
Dear Friend,
I like making lists.
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People To Kill List[warning: this is not a serious list, and i have nothing negative against these people]
Tiffany(150x)
Jonathon(10x)
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eh, i'll finish my list later.
Anyway, I've been weirded out ever since last night.
Like, I feel like i'm in some sort of strange movie, living out the in-between scenes that they don't show. I like to imagine alot. I like wishing. I've been in a strange state of mind lately. And i noticed how the dates in my journal jump from the 23rd of Febuary to July. And i've been writing everyday. Almost twice everyday. And I'm glad i have this journal, I need it. I don't know. I just don't know. This is a very strange summer. I can't wait until school starts. I want school. 'cause it's the only definate thing in my life. wake-up. get dressed, go to school. Though i like living with flexible schedules and guidelines, something definate would be greatly appreciated right now. I don't really know what i want.
I don't get it..
~Lizzie
Current mood:
apathetic.
Tiffany said I'm very wantable. it's been proven, too.
*feels special*