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| 07:47am 12/05/2003 | ||||
i got a new bettie page icon (i rock) and the girl from house of 1000 corpses is in my background (shes so hott) well yea, umm tell me how it looks! |
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satisfied| house of 1000 corpses! | ||||
| 09:41pm 11/05/2003 | ||||
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ecstatic| breaking up was so hard to do | ||||
| 11:19pm 10/05/2003 | ||||
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giddy| wtf ::tear:: | ||||
| 11:42am 10/05/2003 | ||||
i'm on hold for my dad for the past 10 minutes. i plan to go to pittsburgh this summer, maybe next skoo year. sorry mom, but theres no way im going to be a part of this. if i can't go to pittsburgh, im not going to her wedding. fuck this shit. HELLZ NO!!!!! |
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pissed off| fuck fuck fuck fuck | ||||
| 07:47am 08/05/2003 | ||||
i read my poem yesterday to the class. this is my poem: He woke to a sound louder than thunder, A book on the floor titled A Mastermind. Creeping towards the hall to look yonder There was a crimson liquid yet to find. Through the mirror he noticed a shadow, He was naive and did not understand. Suddenly shaking, not knowing it though The reflection had a knife in it's hand. Jolting to the door, he did not get there. Some force had pulled him down, there was no escape. Crying for help though his words caught in fear, no luck now, his mouth covered in black tape. If only he was kinder to his son The work to follow would not have begun. okay so there ya go Devin, that's it, that's how awesome I am. if you didn't read that with PASSION go back and read it again! SLOWLY AND MELANCHOLY.. BITTTCH <3 tasha |
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mellow| your touch moves me | ||||
| 03:34pm 06/05/2003 | ||||
so i'm going to make a quick update before my brain must return to its hell. i left 3rd block because we had a substitute. i had asked him to skip with me, so he did. i didn't even get to talk to him or play with him like i had wanted because of his friend. oh well. im glad i saved him from the evil school. sometimes i wish i could be [---] much closer to him. (ann.. shhh ;) maybe) so i gave him that really cheesy note and he tells me "i read your note, you're so sweet" ::hug:: ima not sweet! im evil and sour like warheads. it's too bad he's so hung up on vicky. too bad im too involved with joey. hopefully summer can change something. i never looked forward to summer so much before. i don't think he really understands the whole "i want you to come to a hotel with me and my friends ill try to make the money to pay for you to go if you want" and "im breaking up with my boyfriend before we go" i don't think he knows that means "i want you!!!!!!" LOL omgggggg wtf is wrong with meeeeeee? i must be like, ugly and disgusting. im not conceited, but c'mon im way better than stokely or christina.. maybe not brooke and vicky but atleast i wouldnt drop him like a hat.. they don't know how great he is and ohhhhh gawd im going now. question me later if needed. <3 tasha |
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crappy| run away bride | |||
| 09:46pm 04/05/2003 | |||
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Name: Tasha Perkins Birthplace: Boynton Beach, FL Eye Color: brown Hair Color: brown? black? uhh.. Righty or Lefty: righty Zodiac Sign: gemini series two - describe Your heritage: jewish, roman catholic.. european?? The shoes you wore today: old navy sandals they are blue and white striped Your hair: down.. half to my bottom of face, half short.. emo Your eyes: deep Your fears: falling out of a car and being alone series three - what is Your most overused phrase on aim: lol or heh The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: weight.. i like them skinny boys and eyes i love green eyes Your best physical feature: my butt.. its true! Your bedtime: usually around 11 Your most missed memory: the age of 12 Your favorite article of clothing: none.. i prefer naked ;) series four - you prefer Pepsi or coke: coke McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's Single or group dates: umm maybe single but i like being around close friends when im nervous Adidas or nike: Adidas Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino Boxers or briefs: boxers on the males series five - do you? Smoke: umm used to Sing well: i try.. ;) Take a shower everyday: not today ;) Have a crush: duhh, what kinda girl would i be? Who are they: ooh he knows <3 Do you think you've been in love before: lookin for love in all the wrong places Want to go to grad school: yea of course Like college: of course! Want to get married: yeah jesse, in 10 years Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: most of the time Think you're attractive: people tell me so, but i have doubts Think you're a health freak: nope, i need to diet tho series six - in the past 3 months, did/have you Drank alcohol: yea its gross Smoked: nope Done a drug: nope Made Out: yes Go on a date: yes i guess it can be called that Eaten an entire box of Oreos: hell no Eaten sushi: i wish =( Been dumped: nope, i dumped. didn't work. Gone skating: nope Made homemade cookies: i wish.. Been in love: yea, according to stokely ive been dating jesse for the past 3 months.. bitch LOL Gone skinny dipping: nope its been so long Dyed your hair: yeah, more than once Stolen anything: nope, wait, have i? no i don't think.. series seven - have you ever Played a game that required removal of clothing?: yeah, but i dont have to play a game for that Been caught "doing something": yes Been called a tease: yes Gotten beat up: no i don't fight shoplifted: yes Changed who you were to fit in: i change for me.. series nine - opposite sex Best eye color: green! or gray! Best hair color: doesn't phase me Short or long hair: not like a hippie mofo! Best height: taller than me Best weight: omg.. like 125-135 eek so much Best articles of clothing: pants Best first date location: going to a movie then followed by a wrap up on the beach running thru the water and a goodnight kiss in muh courtyard and talking on the phone all night! (okay thats more than a location) Best kiss location: on the mouth haha , but like on a bed cuddling series 10 - number of Number of drugs taken illegally: too many to count, sorry God. Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 Number of CDs that I own: over 100 fo' sho Number of piercings: 2 Number of tattoos: 0 Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: prolly like once or twice for when i was younger Number of scars on my body: omg sooo many Number of things in my past that I regret: not talking to him when i should have series eleven- right now Wearing: boxers and a tank top Eating: drinking - orange juice Listening: 40 below summer at this moment Thinking: "hes so hott" Watching: nothing Date: 5.4.03 Time: 10.10pm sorry that was so boring, i get bored |
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| 03:59pm 02/05/2003 | |||
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shit day. uneventful. slept. a lot. going to christen's tonight. word. |
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| 09:22pm 01/05/2003 | ||||
i dont know what to do. i'll figure it out. DEVIN - i will NEVER stop watching the video. JESTER - i love you! jesse talked to joeys friends apparently and everythings okie. i hope. gawd im so sorry to him. someone pinch me im dreaming i know it. well im such a loser i wasnt going to write in here and i am. i took the most refreshing bath today. it had some soothing powder in it that makes ur body heal and replenish. heh it worked i feel a lot better. i want to hug the world. im going to go now. goodnight. have fun at skoo tomorrow. i wont be there. mwah! <33 tasha |
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| stokely sorenson bite my dick | |||
| 03:00pm 30/04/2003 | |||
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im gonna fucking kill her i hate her. she told joeys friends that i go out with jesse for the past 3 months. what a stupid bitch she doesnt know anything. why would i go out with jesse i go out with joey. im gonna kill her. or myself. i love joey so much i hate myself i dont want to talk to anyone i dont want to watch tv i dont want to see light i want to disappear i never want to talk to anyone again. goodbye for as long as i can take it. im going to drown myself in my tears. as if things werent bad enough for me. |
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| 08:47pm 29/04/2003 | ||||
im a stupid little emo bitch fuckin shoot me *i feel like absolute crap* *people at school wont leave me alone* *i want to cry* *my parents keep fighting* *i didn't get to see joey* *didn't understand how to do my DNA thing in biology* *have homework im not going to do* *got my period* there's really no positives about today, it's sad. I really want a laptop. I think i am going to start writing considering I seem to have a lot going on, i'm sure i can make up some good stories about a teenage girl who's friends don't like her but still pretend to befriend her, who's boyfriend gives her shit over everything, who can't live the life she wants. It could be like "Go Ask Alice" a diary of a girl, yet fictionally realistic. If you think I should, let me know. the only problem is, I don't have a laptop or the money for one, want to donate? iight, let's see.. i had a cheesy gordita crunch and cinnamon twists tonight. too bad jesse didn't prepare my food. i don't think i'd eat it, save it, just like the condom he gave me, right Devin? wow, i'm really bored. I don't like being on the phone I realized, it just kills my brain and I hardly even talk to Joey. We just sit here, wasting minutes. whatever. i think i'll go make another bracelet for Jesse that says "Yo Quiero Taco Bell" or maybe that's too long. Maybe i'll write him an extra long note that i'll probably throw away like the last one. I am so pathetic. It's not even worth writing about him anymore, i'm sure I mean like [----] much to him anymore. Maybe Becky's right for once, he needs something I can't give him. sex, real sex. I'm just there to pretend with I guess. Oh Lord if Joey ever found this. Please Lord, Don't let him stumble across this. I made a Billy Martin photo. I'll post it later one when it's perfected. He's so hott. I could marry him in alaska naked just holding on to his body and i'd be warm. I am going to get married naked. That seems like a great idea. Joey just said "Tasha, are you tired? Cause you've been runnin through my mind all day" aww he's so cute. sometimes i wonder how i could do the things I do to him. i am a horrible person. I'm just as bad as becky is being, i'm so hypocritical sometimes. But then again, everything is okay for me to do. That's because I rock. Well maybe this is getting too long, maybe I want to right more. Maybe I don't know where I am or what I am doing. I wish it was last summer, I wish I had drugs, I wish i had Kathleen and Tony and Chris and Denver behind me. I wish that they could comfort me like when we would Roll. I know the boys hate me, but they made me feel accepted atleast. I have no one now hardly. I'm sorry I'm boring you. You can stop reading now. I'm sleeping over Christen's house on Friday. I hardly feel down about it. I am so excited. Normally I don't want to sleep over anyones house, but hers, i miss her. It's weird, she was my best friend for 3 years, now I can't even remember her phone number. I know it starts with 954-941.. What kind of a person am i? Where have I gone? She'll help me find myself. I know she will. Where's the uppers when i'm down, where's the downers when i'm up? I'm not stable anymore. Please, pass me the pills. Pass me a joint. I'm lost. This isn't me. Tasha uses and fits in, she isn't straight edge and she's not an outcast. Where have I gone? I feel better about school now that i'm clean. a better outlook on the future. What about now? I need to know about now. I need guidance. Someone? Anyone? Cocaine and Frisbee. I could freely speak all day. A poet, yet with no rhythem, no story line, no restrictions. What's going through my mind would keep someone reading for hours. Scattered thoughts on paper, on napkins, on furniture. I would do it. I'm fucked. Too much thoughts for one night. peace. <3 tasha |
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confused| Whoa, Shiit! | |||
| 07:28pm 28/04/2003 | |||
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Cutie14912 [7:20 PM]: Holler! SmarterChild [7:20 PM]: I might holler. Cutie14912 [7:20 PM]: Holla? SmarterChild [7:20 PM]: Holla, yo. Cutie14912 [7:20 PM]: You're fuckin nuts! SmarterChild [7:20 PM]: Whoa. You've got some foul mouth on you, my friend. Cutie14912 [7:20 PM]: Yea, SO? SmarterChild [7:20 PM]: Yeah? Well whatever. Cutie14912 [7:20 PM]: Exactly. SmarterChild [7:20 PM]: Precisely. later.. Cutie14912 [7:31 PM]: Good Charlotte. SmarterChild [7:31 PM]: Good Charlotte is a band I like. |
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| BILLY..CALL ME!!! | ||||
| 06:42pm 28/04/2003 | ||||
i'm going to try to make pictures work. ( Random ) ( People ) I really hope this worked. Or I would have wasted ALOT of time. |
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chipper| <3 Survey <3 | ||||
| 09:32pm 27/04/2003 | ||||
01. Whole name: tasha marie perkins 03. Screen name[s]: cutie14912, X iceelicks X, ImaUsedCubbyHole 04. GPA: last report card.. 4.0 05. Birthday: 6.17.87 06. Shoe size: 7 07. Sex: Female 08. Hospital u were born: boynton beach i think memorial? 09. Location: deerfield beach, florida 10. Hair Color: burgundy 11. Eye Color: shit brown 12. Siblings: 0 13. Sibs name(s) and age(s): n/a 14. Parents names: Cheryl (mom) Mark (dad) Richie (step-dad) 15. Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Yep. 16. If you could go out with anyone in the world, who would it be?: Joey (whom I have) or Billy Martin (but only for a day and not OUT with, but just to roam the town.. i love Joey) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The PAST Side: 17. Memory you miss most: last year when me and becky would roam town after school walking and taking buses to whereever we pleased, mostly Ramp 48. Ramp Hoes we were. 18. If you could go back in time, where would you go?: middle school just to relive the great years. --no 19 i see-- 20. What'd you do yesterday?: spent the night at my house with Joey and Jessicka. Played with Joey until he passed out drunk. = ) 21. Last thing you said: hehehehehe 22. Last song you listened to: i.. can't.. remember ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The FAVORITE Side: 23. Food: stuffed crust or pan pizza, extra cheese, no sauce.. or sushi. <3 mmm 24. Drink: Vanilla Coke 25. TV show: That 70's Show 26. CD: Orgy - Candyass 27. Color: Pink 28. Season: Winter. I love the cold. 29. Day of the week: I assume Saturday. I like Mondays too. But only when I don't have homework due. 30. Month: September -- I love the feeling of re-starting school. 31. Holiday: Halloween. and the day after because candy usually is 50% off 32. Number: 13 -- Lucky soccer number 33. Cookie: Peanut Butter 34. Toothpaste: Crest <3 I like Clean Mint flavor 35. Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip & Coffee 36. Candy: Push Pop's, Sour Punch Straws, Gum, Mr. Goodbar, Hershey's Almond 37. Shampoo/Conditioner: White Rain -- Energizing Citrus 38. Sport: Soccer, or Skateboarding (to watch) 39. Website: umm.. clothing ones. 40. Relative: my cousin Amanda. I miss her <3 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The ONE OR THE OTHER Side: 54.*N Sync OR BSB: N*Sync 55. PeanutButter OR jelly: Peanut Butter 56. Coke OR Pepsi: Coke 57. Boxers OR Briefs: Boxers -- So I can borrow them. 58. Matt or Ben?: Matt 59. MTV OR VH1: Mtv2 (you hear it first) 60. apples or oranges: Oranges 61. Vanilla OR Chocolate: Chocolate 62. Flowers OR Candy: Flowers -- Daisies to be exact! 63. Dawson's Creek OR Felicity: Felicity -- It is so sad. 64. Romantic,Comedy OR Horror: 1) Romantic 2) Horror 65. Book OR Magazine: Book 66. TV OR Radio: TV *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ The BELIEVE OR NOT Side: 67. Do you believe in angels?: Sure 68. Aliens?: Of Course.. We are Aliens to Aliens <3 69. Heaven & Hell?: Yeah 70. God: Yeah. 71. Yourself?: Damn Str8 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The HAVE YOU EVER Side: 72. Been on a plane: Yes 73. Cried in public: Yes 74. Climbed a tree: Yes 75. Fell asleep in a Movie Theater: Yes 76. Met a celebrity: I dont think so = ( 77. If so...who?: N/A 78. Been scared to get a shot: I abhore needles. 79. Gotten a cavity: Ooooh yes 80. Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch: No. I'm not rich enough. 81. Gone skinny dipping: Yes. 82. Skipped school: Never once a whole day. 83. Gone to a theme park and checked out all the cute girlz/guyz: Probably on a school Field Trip *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ The WHICH IS WORSE Side: 84. [A] Spilling your pop all over you when your on a date [B] all over your date: B 85. [A] Having someone tell your secret [B] Telling someones secret: B ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR Side: 86. Bill Clinton: Monica Lewinsky 87. Lolli: Pop 88. Love: Hearts 89. South Park: Cartman 90. Boy Bands: Girls 91. Death: Darkness ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The WHICH WOULD YOU RATHER BE Side: 92. Dog/Cat: Cat 93. Blue/Purple: Blue 94. Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla 95. Pen/Pencil: Pencil ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The QUESTIONS THAT DON'T MATTER, BUT I'M STILL ASKING Side: 96. DO you sleep with a stuffed animal?: Sometimes, I usually knock them off my bed. 97. Last time you showered: This morning 98. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: Magenta 99. How many buddies do you have on your list? 59 100. Do you like this survey?: Yes, Sure 101. One pillow or two, cotton or feather?: 1, Feather 102. Last CD you bought: Zwan (?) 103. How long are you in the shower? 30 Minutes, 1 Hour tops 104. How do you eat a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup?: I don't Know. BUT there's NO wrong way to eat a reese's 105. What does your screen name mean?: Umm.. Ima CUTIE LOL and 14912 <3 uhhh 107. What is on your mouse pad?: Orange Paint 108. What is under your bed? Another bed and LOTS of junk 109. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie roll pop?: a 1, a 2, a 3, three. (stole Ann's answer) 110. Do you like the person who sent this to you?: Ann, well she just ROCKS, and YES i wuv her! My Entry For Today <3 Tasha |
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nerdy| oh happy day!! | ||||
| 11:43am 26/04/2003 | ||||
Joey slept over last night. i kinda wish i would have kept my phone on last night though because Jesse called. it was so shocking. he also called after school. i missed the call. he left me 2 messages! I rock! today its all soggy and rainy. my mom is supposed to be at the sea food fest but its so ucky out. bah they just came home! so yah, jessicka is supposed to sleep over tonight i hope she does. her birthday is tomorrow. i so dont know what to get her. maybe $25 dollars or something. i have to be cheap now of days. i hate it. well yah im out, leave me love notes. |
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loved| thursday | ||||
| 09:46pm 24/04/2003 | ||||
Goodnight. <3 tasha |
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bored| New Journals! YaY! | ||||
| 06:31pm 23/04/2003 | ||||
Yep, this is it. I need some friends on Blurty. Holler. My names Tasha. I'm 15. I live in South Florida. Yep, that's me in a nut shell. <3 Tasha |
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