thingy mergiger   
09:28pm 25/06/2003
  Name: tasha marie perkins
Do you like it?: not really no
Nicknames: brad the giant, icee, t, t-rad, lil t, shorty
Screen names: cutie14912, use a chopstick, xiceelicksx
Age: 16
Sign: gemini
Location: deerfield beach
School: deerfield beach high school
Status: taken by billy bradshaw <3
Crush: ^^ see up ^^
Virgin?: i know you are not asking me that question..
Natural hair color: brownish blackish
Current hair color: blackish
Eye color: shit brown
Height: 4'10
Birthplace: boynton beach
Shoe size: like a 7


[ favorites ]
Number: 13
Color: pink and green
Day: saturday
Month: december
Song: the meadow - hed pe
Movie: a clockwork orange
Food: lasagna
Band: hed pe, crossbreed, 40 below summer, deftones
Season: winter
Sport: skateboarding
Class: journalism
Teacher: mr. thor
Drink: vanilla coke
Veggie: broccoli
TV Show: don't watch too much tv
Radio Station: don't listen to the radio but i like 103.5
Store: bed, bath and beyond
Word: bro
Animal: puppies
Flower: daisies
State: illinois

[ this or that ]
Me/You: me
Coke/pepsi: coke
Day/night: night
Aol/aim: aol
Cd/cassette: cds
Dvd/vhs: doesnt make a difference
Jeans/khakis: jeans
Car/truck: car
Tall/short: shorty like whoa.. but guys tall muh man be 6'0
Lunch/dinner: lunch
NSYNC/BSB: nsync
Britney/Christina: christina
Gap/Old Navy: old navy 3.50 fo' shoes
Lipstick/Lipgloss: lipgloss
Silver/Gold: silver
Alcohol/Weed: weed & alcohol <3

[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: yep
How long have you liked him/her?: bout a month
Why do you like this person?: he's great all around
If you're single... why are you single?:
If you're not single... give details..: wha?
How long was your longest relationship?: 13 months
How long was your shortest relationship?: umm 5 days i think
Who was your first love?: stephen mucklow
What do you miss about them?: hugging him and watching him skateboard

[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: joey mancino.
Who is the last person you saw?: my mom
Who is the last person you kissed?: billy
Who is the last person you hugged?: billy my baby
Who is the last person you fought with?: joey mancino
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: my slutah kat
What is the last TV show you saw?: not a show but on tv, cirque de soleil

[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: pink tube top, black pants
What are you doing?: this duh
Who are you talking to?: no one
What song are you listening to?: none but ima put on a manson cd in a min
Where are you?: in the houseeee
Are you online?: fuck you. that was just gay.
How are you feeling?: horny like a bitch
Are you in a chatroom?: psh waste of time.

[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: thursday
What are you going to do after this?: look through my yearbook, hope my bf calls
Who are you going to talk to?: either kat, kerry or billy
Where are you going to go?: the bathroom to pee
How old will you be when you graduate?: 17 or 16 depends if i wanna graduate early
What do you wanna be?: i wanna make guitars and work on the insides of them
Where will you be in 25 years?: dead overdosed probably

[ have you ever ]
Drank?: got too drunk last night
Smoked?: yea like everyday
Had sex?: yea like everyday
Stolen?: yea sure have
Done anything illegal?: yea too many things to count on my hands and feet
Wanted to die?: yea
Hit someone?: yep!

[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: print bitch
Are you a lefty or a righty?: righty
What is your sexual preference?: guys & hot chicks LOL
What piercings do you have?: today i repierced my belly and the top of my ear
Any tattoos?: not yet
Do you drive?: don't know how
Do you have glasses or braces?: glasses but i dont always need them

[ physical appearance ]
What do you most like about your body?: my ass
And least?: my small tits
How many fillings do you have?: a shitload
Do you think you're good looking?: 'eh okay
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: yea
Do you look like any celebrities?: no sir

[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: it's on the bathroom counter
How many coats and jackets do you own?: i lose them all..
Favorite pants/skirt color?: the black pants im wearing right now
most expensive item of clothing?: no clue, $50 piece of shit pants
Most treasured?: simplekill boxers can we say FREE
What kind of shoes do you wear?: old navy sandals, converse high tops and backless
your style in one word: loserish
 
     

(to the edge)

 
bar head   
01:13pm 25/06/2003
 
mood: crazy
music: system of a down
I GOT A NEW BOYFRIEND.. okay so i can't very well remember my weekend but i remember i have a boyfriend and i had a lot of sex. i even got to cum 4 times in one session. thats crazy. i took some bars 2 nights in a row and drank on them. my mom says thank god im alive because she thinks my body should have shut down. i know better than that though i do this all the time. so last night i drank 4 beers and took 1 1/2 bars. i think thats all i did. i know i slept at billys and i had sex for a really long time with chris sitting next to us. i don't even mind having sex with people around anymore. it kind of just makes it more exciting. too bad i was on my period though because then we could have foreplayed. the night before that i took a bar and drank 2 1/2 beers. me and kat made out supposedly but i don't remember. and she had sex with joey and gave keith head. me and kat are great and we make him cheat on his gf. i don't remember much of the walk home that night but i do remember crying to billy. a few times. i cried later that night too. joey splurged everything to billy. like how me and joey were having sex and stuff. im so glad billy got over it well i know he isnt over it but im glad we arent fighting anymore. i miss him. i feel so bad for hurting him i just want to never let go of him when i hug him. he makes everything so happy. i break all my rules for him. i swore id never date someone who drank and billy is an alchoholic and then i promised no one that smokes cigerettes either.. or does coke or is younger than me. there is something about him. he has the nicest body for a 15 year old and he seems a lot older. i don't mind this shit anymore. my mom is making me stay home these few days because she wants me to kind of sober up and slow down on what i am doing. thats fine by me. but sunday she wants me to go away for a week to sebastian to see my cousins. i am not sure i think i will. i miss them.... anyway i just repierced the top of my ear with a mushroom earing and im going to repierce my belly button. oh the things to do when you are bored. i'll update more later i have so much to say.
 
     

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this was so long   
06:56pm 10/06/2003
 
mood: angry
:::Basics:::

1) First Name: tasha
2) Middle Name: marie
3) Last Name: perkins
4) Age: 15
5) Birthday: june 17th
6) Zodiac Sign: gemini
7) Numerology # : wha?
8) Chinese Sign: still dono
9) Nicknames: brad the giant, t-rad, lil t, icee
10) Gender: female
11) AOL/AIM: cutie14912
12) MSN: none
13) YAHOO: none
14) ICQ: none
15) Rightie or Lefties: righty
16) Do you write print or cursive: print
17) Sexual Prefrence: bi-curious LOL nah ima str8
18) Height: 4'10"
19) Weight: 104 last time i checked
20) Any Disibilities if so what: none i can think of.

:::Friends:::

21) Best Friend: kathleen and jessicka
22) People Who You Have Told Secrets: brad
23) Best Guy Friend: brad
24) Always online 24/7: brads s/n
25) Do your friends love you: i sure as hell hope so

:::Guys/Girls:::

26) Who Do You Like: billy
27) Are You Going Out With Them: nope
28) If Not Do You Want to: not yet
29) Describe one dream you had with him/her: he was having a 3some with a guy and a girl and me and his sister were laughing at him
31) Their best quality: how nice he is
32) Their worst quality: he doesnt know when to stop
33) Do You Love Them: as a friend
34) How did u meet: through muh ex
35) Would you or Have You had sex with them: umm i'll have to get back to you on that
36)Describe how they kiss: like a million shooting stars
37) The thing you most enjoy doing together: we both like getting high, and watching movies! we saw Finding Nemo
38) Describe his/her looks: black hair, tan skin, nice body, skaterish
39) Descibe his/her personality: big hearted, understanding, sweet, drug addictish, alchoholicish, depressing
40) Their Age: 15
41) Their Birthday: sometime in january
42) Their Hair Color: black
43) Their Eye Color: brown
44) Do they have anything of yours if what: muh silver bracelet
45) Do You Talk to him/her on the phone: of course
46) Do You Talk to him/her online: no
47) Have they been over your house: not yet
48) Have you been to their house: yea
49) Best Date spot: the movies, beach yanno the usual
50) Has your friends met him/her: yea of course
51) Has your parents met him/her: not yet
52) Can you picture the rest of your life with them: no
53) Describe using a song your relationship: i dont know
54) A song that describes your situation: what situation?
55) A song that describes them: not sure

:::Your Looks:::

56) Hair Color: light brown in the front, dark brown in the back
57) Eye Color: brown
58) Tall or Short: short
59) Desired Hair Color: redish brown
60) Desired Eye Color: green
61) Nationalities: a lot
62) Race: caucasion
63) Do you have any freakles: nope
64) What color are your lips: pink ?
65) Do your eyebrows have an arch in them: nah
66) Do you have a widow's peak: ught-uh
67) Are your teeth super white: i wish
68) Do u have braces: not anymore
69) Do you have zits: not really, i dont think
70) Use an adjective to describe your skin: flawed
71) Do you get sunburn easily: not that i know of
72) Do you have muscles and wear: nope
73) Would you consider yourself good-looking: not really
74) Do you have a nice ass: it's ghettoish
75) Do you think your hands are soft: when i put lotion on them

:::Clothes,Makeup,and Jewerly:::

76) Clothes your wearing now: black pants pink tank top
77) Describe your favorite outfit: this is it
78) Describe the outfit you have gotten the most compliments for: this one
79) Whats your favorite shirt: muh glassjaw one, or muh social distortion one
80) Does it have a memory and what is it: umm the social distortion i wore the first night i rolled
81) Whats your favorite pair of pants: these ones
82) Does it have a memory and what is it: no
83) What would people describe your style as: umm?
84) Whats your favorite type of Jewerly: belly rings
85) What piece of jewerly to u wear daily: muh "tasha" necklace
86) Whats your favorite piece of jewerly: muh "tasha" necklace
87) Why is it: cuz muh grandma gave it to me
88) Do you wear makeup: nope
89) What do you wear: eyeliner when i do
90) What palettes are they: wha?
91) Do you own black lipstick: hell no
92) Do you own silver lipstick: hell no
93) Do you use them: hell no
94) Do u have glow in the dark makeup: nailpolish
95) Whats your opinion on glow in the dark makeup: hott
96) Do you wear eyeliner: yeah sometimes
97) What color: black
98) Do you use concelear: sometimes
99) Do you use sparkles: nope
100) What do u think of Maybelline's wet shine stuff: pretty
101) Do you wear nailpolish: sometimes
102) Do you paint your toe nails: i should..
103) What type of shoes do you wear: Adidas, Converse, Etnies
104) What color are they: the black adidas with the white stripes, black converse chuck taylor low tops, blue etnies
105) Do you like your style: yea sure

:::Favorites:::

106) Color: pink and neon green
107) Food: cheese, pizza, ice cream
108) Rock Band: 40 below summer
109) Punk Band: anti-flag
110) Hardcore Band: poison the well
111) Emo Band: taking back sunday
112) Rapper: 50 cent
113) Pop Band: good charlotte
114) Country Band: dixie chicks
115) Rock N Roll Band: the beatles
116) Singer: tim mcgraw
117) Drummer: i dont know
118) Guitarist: billy martin
119) Dancer: psh
120) Animal: monkeys
121) Website: none
122) Magazine: seventeen
123) Movie: A clockwork orange, Donnie darko, house of 1000 corpses, Rocky Horror Picture Show
124) Cartoon: spongebob
125) Tv Show: that 70's show
126) Drink: water
127) Resturant: olive garden
128) Fast Food Place: wendys
129) Store: books-a-million
130) Grocery Store: publix
131) Soda: vanilla coke
132) Juice: orange
133) Book: go ask alice
134) Shoe Brand: adidas
135) Clothing Brand: none in peticular
136) Makeup Brand: covergirl
147) Jewerly Brand: wha?
148) Fragrance: adidas
149) Color of writing utensil: blue or pink
150) Sex Position: thats for the bedroom
151) Toy: lots of toys
152) Possession: muh computer
153) Computer Game: the sims
154) Video Game: bust a move and tetris
155) Video Game Console: nintendo
156) Ramen Noodle Flavor: roast beef
157) Koolaid Flavor: blue raspberry
158) Hot Beverage: cappucino
159) Shape: triangles
161) Medical Personal(doctor,dentist,eye doctor etc..): Doctor SATAN!! \m/>.<\m/
162) Car: beetle
163) Breed of Dog: chihuaha
164) Breed of Horse: wha?
165) Ice Cream Flavor: mint chocolate chip
166) Chips: pringles
167) Candy: 3 musketeers
168) Candy Bar: see above
169) Cake: vanilla or orange
170) Pie Flavor: apple
171) Underwear Brand: none in peticular
172) Type of Underwear: thong
173) Body Part on yourself: muh butt
174) Body Part on someone else: heh.. ::woo::
175) Shower gel: strawberry
176) Hair style: psh billy martin style ROFL
177) Shampoo brand: pantene pro-v, herbal essence
178) Conditioner brand: see above
179) Sport: skateboarding
180) Aggressive Sport: wha?
190) Number: 13
191) Drug: rolls + special k
192) Beer: i dont drink it really
193) Liquior: im not a big drinker, i can handle vodka though
194) Girl's Name: chloe
195) Guy's Name: skyler
196) Subject in School: psh
197) Teacher: ms. flanagan
198) Instrument: guitar
199) Thing in your room: muh bed
200) Memory: i don't know anytime rolling

:::Least Favorites::::

201) Color: puke green
202) Food: i dono
203) Rock Band: i dono
204) Punk Band: i dono
205) Hardcore Band: i dono
206) Emo Band: i dono
207) Rapper: i dono
209) Pop Band: i dono
210) Country Band: i dono
211) Rock N Roll Band: i dono
212) Singer: i dono
213) Drummer: i dono
214) Guitarist: i dono
215) Dancer: i dono
216) Animal: i dono
217) Website: i dono
218) Magazine: i dono
219) Movie: i dono
220) Cartoon: i dono
221) Tv Show: i dono
222) Drink: i dono
223) Resturant: royal king buffet
224) Fast Food Place: i dono
225) Store: i dono
226) Grocery Store: winn-dixie
227) Soda: sprite remix
228) Juice: pure cranberry
229) Book: i dono
230) Shoe Brand: i dono
231) Clothing Brand: i dono
232) Makeup Brand: i dono
233) Jewerly Brand: i dono
234) Fragrance: i dono
235 Color of writing utensil: i dono
236) Sex Position: i dono
237) Toy: i dono
238) Possession: i dono
239) Computer Game: i dono
240) Video Game: i dono
241) Video Game Console: i dono
242) Ramen Noodle Flavor: i dono
243) Koolaid Flavor: i dono
244) Hot Beverage: i dono
245) Shape: i dono
247) Medical Personal(doctor,dentist,eye doctor etc..): i dono
248) Car: i dono
249) Breed of Dog: i dono
250) Breed of Horse: i dono
251) Ice Cream Flavor: i dono
252) Chips: i dono
253) Candy: i dono
254) Candy Bar: i dono
255) Cake: carrot
256) Pie Flavor: i dono
257) Underwear Brand: i dono
258) Type of Underwear: granny panties
259) Body Part on yourself: i dono
260) Body Part on someone else: i dono
261) Shower gel: i dono
262) Hair style: 'fros
263) Shampoo brand: i dono
264) Conditioner brand: i dono
265) Sport: football
267) Aggressive Sport: i dono
268) Number: 9
269) Drug: coke
270) Beer: i dono
271) Liquior: i dono
272) Girl's Name: elizabeth
273) Guy's Name: tommy
274) Subject in School: all
275) Teacher: bond-jackson
276) Instrument: i dono
277) Thing in your room: i dono
278) Memory: falling ice skating

::: This or That::::

279) Rock or Pop: rock
280) Rock or Punk: rock
281) Rock or Country: rock
282) Rock or Hardcore: rock
283) Rock or Emo: rock
284) Pop or Punk: punk
285) Pop or Country: country
286) Pop or Hardcore: hardcore
287) Pop or Emo: emo
288) Punk or Country: punk
289) Punk or Hardcore: hardcore
290) Punk or Emo: punk
291) Country or Hardcore: hardcore
292) Country or Emo: emo
293) Hardcore or Emo: hardcore
294) Pepsi or Coke: coke
295) Mountain Dew or Mountain Dew Code Red: mt. dew
296) Cherry Coke or Vanilla Coke: vanilla coke
297) Pepsi Twist or Cherry Pepsi: pepsi twist
298) Root Beer or Creme Soda: cream soda
299) Coffee or Hot Chocolate: hot chocolate
300) Ramen Noodles or Campbells Soup: campbells soup
301) Bus or Car: car
302) SUV or Car: car
303) Truck or Car: truck
304) Truck or SUV: truck
305) House or Apartment: house
306) Living with your mom or being in a soroity/fraternity: mommy
307) MTV or VH1: mtv
308) MTV or MTV2: mtv2
309) MTV2 or VH1: mtv2
310) MTV or BET: mtv
311) MTV2 or BET: mtv2
312) VH1 or BET: vh1
313) Disney or Cartoon Network: cartoon network
314) TBS or TNN: TBS
315) FOX or WB11: fox
316) Thong or String Bikini: string.. better for tanning
317) Bikini or Tankini: bikini
318) One Piece or Biknini: bikini
319) Tankini or One Piece: tankini
320) Blue or Black: black
321) Blue or Red: red
322) Blue or Yellow: blue
323) Blue or White: white
324) Blue or Purple: purple
325) Black or Red: red
326) Black or Yellow: black
327) Black or White: black
328) Black or Purple: black
329) Red or Yellow: red
330) Red or White: red
331) Red or Purple: red
332) Yellow or White: white
333) Yellow or Purple: purple
334) White or Purple: white
335) Barbie or Ken: ken <3
336) Michael Jackson or Rob Zombie: Rob Zombie
337) Michael Jackson or that dude from KISS with the weird tongue: gene simmons
338) Ja Rule or 50 Cent: 50 cent.. half dollar
339) Eminem or Vanilla Ice: vanilla ice
340) O-town or Nsync: neither
341) Good Charlotte or Simple Plan: simple plan, but billy martin
342) Ataris or the Early November: ataris
343) All-American Rejects or Good Charlotte: aar
345) Senses Fail or Finch: finch
346) Finch or Bright Eyes: finch
347) Greenday or Incubus: incubus
348) Greenday or Weezer: greenday
349) Weezer or Nirvana: weezer
350) Incubus or the Hives: incubus
351) Gay or Lesbian: lesbian <3

:::What Do You Think of When You See/Hear the Name:::

352) Tom: and jerry
353) Mary: jesus
354) George: curious
355) Jeanine: garafalo
356) Kelvin: huh?
357) Pat O'Brian (lmao): patty cake
358) Elizabeth: hurley =]
359) John: mayer
360) Tony: little tony
361) Eric: lemoine
362) Tim: tschetter!!!
363) Nicole: niki b yo
364) Jess: muh best friend
365) Holly: porn
366) Leah: danciu
367) David : pervert
368) Sara: lee mmmm
369) Justin: timberlake
370) Jerry: springer
371) Hong: kong
372) Mike: cashes big nose
373) Bobby: miller
374) Shelly: muh mommas old friend
375) Corey: the kid on my bus
377) Joey: fuckin asshole
378) Amy: lou gale
379) Courtney: horrid voice
380) Nathan: 's hotdogs
381) Chris: ex boyfriend
382) Cassie: i'm blank..
383) Chrissie: muh old doggy
384) Lauren: dismuke
385) Carolyn: flanagan!
386) Bryan: omg that kid that liked me eww
387) Laura: danciu better help me get my tounge pierced
388) Frank: lin my turtle
389) Aladdin: flying carpet
390) Simba: kerrys dog
391) Nala: lion king
392) Mofacas: huh?
393) Mickey: mouse
394) Vanessa: brito from psychology
395) Ariel: christens friend from canada
396) Dino: the flinstones
397) Tina: the short little bitch that doesnt like kat
398) Ashley: the girl that wants to beat muh ass
399) Dan: fatass
400) Marshall: the store that has lots of clothes

:::Random::::

401) What do you think of garbage: uhh ?
402) Cheerleaders: too preppy
403) I'm: bored as fuck
404) Your Mom: is not as cool as mine.
405) What do you think of hicks: creepy
406) What do you think of thugs: devin stole my fuckin answer - every thug needs a lady
407) What do you think of hillbillies: umm
408) Do you hold gruges: depends
409) What time is it now: 6:55pm
410) Did this keep you busy for enough time: too long
411) What are you going to do now: maybe go out with kat and kerry
412-419) Where did they go: someone couldn't think of enough questions and wanted to be so fuckin cool and make the last question 420. asshole.
420) Lovely Number Isnt It: loser.
 
     

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let me be thy own..   
02:34pm 04/06/2003
 
13 days until i'm 16

* wishlist *
- spineshank - the height of callousness
- sex, all day
- a clockwork orange
- dvd player
- small hotel party
- drunken sex
- crossbreed - synthetic division
- make up
- money
- small couch for my room
- candy
- a bean
- some fuckin krypto
- a new pipe from harry potter
- stickers
- vanilla or orange cake with chocolate frosting & sprinkles & an awesome candle
- love from my homies

that's my fucking wishlist. i'll not get anything. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
 
     

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sick-ness   
01:40pm 03/06/2003
 
mood: calm
music: distillers
there's not much to say..
i'm sick.. ear, throat, and sinus infection
jesse isn't hardly talking to me. fuck you.
me and jon are hanging out on friday. i saw him last night.
i'm beginning to develop a crush on a 20 year old. oh gawd.
"it's okay mom he's only 4 1/2 years older than me!"
amoxicillian = fucking yummy


it's warmer in hell, so down we go!
 
     

(to the edge)

 
biology can lick muh crack..   
12:18pm 01/06/2003
 
mood: drained
music: lucky boys confusion
so this weekend, lets see <3:

*thursday*
-school
-aj + keith + kat picked me up
-chilled with billy + chris
-stuck by a train
-drunk billy + dave yellin at people
-home at 12

*friday*
-bus ride to billy's at 11:10am
-finding nemo
-hangin over billy's
-clockwork orange interupted by aj + tim + joey + ashley
-everyone yelling at joey for calling me names
-my love, john, came ::big hugs::
-walked to discount to meet my hoe, kat
-back over billy's
-got high with lisa + kat + billy + chris
-kat left with john and arand to get drunk
-slept at billy's

*saturday*
-walked all the way by evelyn's house
-walked back to kat's house
-told mom the truth
-her boyfriend grounded me
-slept all day and night

*today*
-sittin at home on my ass
-project for biology
-biggie sized #7 from Wendy's
 
     

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i miss you manisha..   
07:19am 29/05/2003
 
mood: anxious
im sitting in mr. thors and once i got here.. i realized manisha is at the multicultural fair. it's so sad and boring. jesse called me an asshole this morning. i wonder if he was joking or not. he better have been because i haven't done anything to him. billy kinda invited me to warped tour with him, he said his sister has backstage passes (3) and to eat dinner with Dropkick Murphys. i almost flipped. the only trick is getting Lisa to say yes to taking me as the 3rd person. she hates girls. i think we're okay though. i hope i can go that would fucking rock. im going to try to get my dad to let billy come with me to pitts for like a week or two because jesse wont go with me. i cant believe jesse booked a show the day before my birthday.. i dont know how much i could have stressed it that vacation was the week right after we got out of school. he's never going to be forgiven. but kathy and me are gonna have a blast! cuz shes 4237438925 times better than jesse. and she has boobs. haha! kathy- call jimmy to hang out one day. tehe hes ca-ute! anyway i miss jesse a whole lot it seems like ages since ive seen him, but i saw him this morning. lifes a fucking eternity when hes not around. but whatever if he wants to be a dick, let him. gawd im dumb. i talked to becky yesterday for like the first time in awhile. atleast we dont like *hate* eachother or whatever anymore. i mean, really no need to have her leave highschool and us like never talk again. i even kinda talked to tina this morning. not really talked but like we commented back and forth to eachother and stuff about certain topics and i showed her a picture on my computer. she seems happy. maybe things are okay with bobby now. blah, jessicka thinks i need a reason to love her.. shes wrong! ive been so hyper and happy lately youd think i was on drugs. but im not. just high on life! things are goin great for me at this point in time.. im going to see finding nemo friday morning with billy and hes getting A Clockwork Orange from AJ to watch with me. he's so sweet its creepy. Friday is also Andrews birthday. im getting him a card. cuz im nice like that. i miss muh vicious dammit dammit.
<3 tasha
 
     

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* fairy tale *   
10:01pm 28/05/2003
  Through the fields of Ireland, amongst the rolling hills, lay a dark forest the townspeople of Dublin dare not enter. The very forest, given the name of the Black Forest for how dark and dreary it looked compared to the beautiful hills outside Dublin, was home to evil wizards, trolls, and other indescribable nocturnal animals.
While plans of mischeif were being thought out in the Black Forest, the townspeople of Dublin were getting ready for a big feast. The Queen, Angelina, had just given birth to a baby boy, Prince Reginal, her second child. The royal family was preparing for the event as Princess Athena snuck out to the garden to frolick with the fairies she had grown so fond of in her fifteen years of life.
"I must warn you of something terrible that will occur soon," whispered Loretta, Athena's most faithful fairy friend. Scared of what Loretta might have said, Athena ran off to her enormous bedroom where she sat for hours crying until the feast, for fear of what was to come.
Back in the forest, tucked away in a cave lit by candlefire, a wizard, Kataklysm, and a witch, Nikole, pulled out old books from their library. Sitting on the floor, their handicapped daughter, Kara, sneezed so hard that it shook the cave. She seemed to be allergic to the dust mites.
"What ever are we to do with her my love?" Kataklysm said, looking disgusted with his one and only daughter.
"I have just the thing. Now dear you must listen to me closely and follow all my instuctions, precisly! There will be no messing this up," cackled Nikole to her husband, "we have just a short amount of time until the full moon."
Clapping and cheering were the people of Dublin. The royal family and townspeople watched joyously as entertainers such as jugglers and fire eaters came to share talent and show respect to Prince Reginal. In the kitchen were bakers and butchers bringing the chefs ingrediants for the grand feast. Found throughout the castle and along the back yard of the castle were maids scurying about making the atmosphere just right.
Princess Athena was holding her new sibling when Loretta flew onto the table in front of her. Shouting to Athena, Loretta pulled her hair to make her listen. The baby started to cry, therefore Loretta spoke quick and blunt.
"Princess, you know I would never want anything to hurt you nor your family. Please listen you are the only one who can stop this and the only one who can hear my words!"
Athena wanted everso to hear what was going to become of the day so she excused herself to the bathroom where she met Loretta in a panic.
"Loretta, not here, not now. Nothing will happen to us. Everything is going to be fine. Please leave, this day is important to my family. I will meet with you later, after the feast."
She was too ignorant to understand the circumstances that were about. For this Loretta forgave her and continued to try and help.
"Disappear, disappear, from that table of royalty you will flee, by the full moon you will come to me!" chanted Kataklysm standing over a spell book. He knew that it was wrong but Nikole was behind this, she just wasn't strong enough to cast the spells she had wished to do. He loved her.
Out of the Queens arms, the prince just disappeared. The townspeople fell silent as Angelina's screams filled the entire castle. Athena jolted back to her mother and father. She knew this was what Loretta had tried to warn her off. Pain filled her heart as she ran to the garden to find her friends.
"Loretta! Kandy! Capris! Anyone!" Athena shouted as she ran amongst the dandilions and daffodils. A swarm of panicing fairies fluttered around her head. They sat and devised a plan. They were to go into the Black Forest. Capris sent for two unicorns, Marcus and Abigail. They were the quickest he knew.
They set out as soon as the unicorns came. Athena, Loretta, Capris, Marcus, and Abigail were searching for baby Reginal and they wouldn't sleep until they found him.
Never did they imagine the problems they were to come across. Worrying about the baby they had forgoten all about trolls and grasping trees. Daylight made things simpler, but once the sun started to set, unimaginable horrors were brought upon them. Not only did they have no water, no food, and no destination they weren't prepared for quick sand and entangling weeds on the floor.
Attacked by a tree, the unicorn Marcus decided it was time to fly overhead instead of march on by foot. They took heed to the sky and were better off.
Smoke signals made Loretta swoop down, fearless, only to find a cave making noises that sounded like gibberish mixed with baby cries. They were speaking of killing the prince for his soul so their daughter had not to be handicapped anymore.
Floating back to the clouds she told the others of what she found. They quickly made it to the entrance of the cave. The fairies somehow got the stone out from in front of the cave. Shaking nervously they entered.
Capris and Loretta swarmed about knocking over candles and books causing a distraction. Abigail ran in and rescued the prince. Carrying the prince and princess upon her back she returned them home. The fairies had managed to sprinkle fairy dust into Kataklysm and Nikole's eyes. Blinded they fell onto Marcus' back. He strode off into the night with the evil wizard and witch as the fairies followed.
Once returned to the castle, the king and queen granted all good magical creatures access to any where in Ireland. Kataklysm and Nikole however were hung for their evil doings.
No one knows what happened to their daughter Kara. Whether she survived or not, none came towards the royal families ever again.
 
     

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chocolate creme oreos   
10:00pm 28/05/2003
  been talkin to billy all day, well when i wasn't sleeping or online.
im such a loser.
i hope jesse doesn't be a dick to me anymore.
i wrote a fairy tale. let me post it next entry.
it's okay i think. i want to know what you guys think.
 
     

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* weekend *   
01:27pm 26/05/2003
 
mood: complacent
music: punk'd
so.. ima recap muh weekend:

friday:
-talent show
-IWS
-made new friend (named brandon)
-he stalked me
-anti got drunk and kissed me 372942 times
-went to dennys
-took pictures
-slept at jesses (which we got there at like 3:30am)

saturday:
-went to sam ash
-taco bell
-hung out with people
-to the movies
-watched madagascarian cockroaches fly around (eww)
-slept at jesses

sunday:
-subway
-saw jericko
-taco bell
-jesses
-went to kats
-went to kevin olahs (?)
-back to kats at 12 where i talked to Billy until like 1ish

today:
-went to Billys
-back to kats
-hung out with tony and kevin j
*(updated)*
-went out with anti and his friend
-back out with billy
-out with john, billy, arand and kat
-to the beach
-dinner at kats
-out with john, billy, kat, arand, and keith
-home thanks to billy giving john 5 bucks

thats all so far.. =]
or atleast thats all i can remember.. =]

<3 tasha
 
     

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Milk ChugALugChugALug   
03:17pm 22/05/2003
 
mood: bouncy
music: Distillers
i got to hug a thugish kid today! woo-ie!
he was kinda cute.. but *HE* is wayyy hotter <3
and
i made a *Hamrot Fish*
i am so fuckin' cool sometimes.
<3 tasha
 
     

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icon   
06:47pm 19/05/2003
  i want a pic of me, like my icon of bettie page.
volunteers?
 
     

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sunday sucks   
10:48am 18/05/2003
 
mood: frustrated
music: 50 cent
Muh YESTERday consisted of:
*Jesters in the A.M.
*Office Depot
*Sally's Beauty Supply
*Some Brazillian shop
*Bus ride to Pauls
*Seeing Joey driving with HER
*Target
*Coral Ridge Mall
*Missing the movies with Jesse
*Back to Jesters
*Hair cut
*PIS with Jester, Jesse & his 2 friends - Andrew and Jonathan *TWINS*
*Trying to take photos of Hitler hair guy
*Back to Jesters for sleep time
*Couldnt sleep so we layed there talking until 1 or so
*Slept all night while Common Rider played on the stereo.

Muh TOday consists of:
*Dropping off books at Jesses at 10 am (soooo early -- he's so hott in the morning LOL)
*Showering
*Making muh hair HOTT HOTT HOTT
*Brunch with the Fam for great grandmas 87th bday
.... to be continued

....continuance:
*Visited great grandpa at the cemetary -- i miss and love him
*gonna watch Donnie Darko for the 321749 time!!!
 
     

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sex sex sex   
08:05pm 15/05/2003
  ima be a nimpho!  
     

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heart - break   
02:59pm 15/05/2003
  he's not my boyfriend.. so why do i get jealous when he's with her?  
     

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gawd im bored   
07:53pm 14/05/2003
 
mood: cranky
music: snot
[ Current Clothes ] pinkish skirt, pink shirt, white socks, blue undies
[ Current Mood ] happy!
[ Current Music ] slayer
[ Current Taste ] taco bell and coca-cola
[ Current Make-up ] none
[ Current Hair ] um, same as always, gelled down in front, gelled out in back..
[ Current Annoyance ] that they didnt give me my cherry pepsi at taco bell
[ Current Smell ] air
[ Current Favorite Artist ] umm..
[ Current Desktop Picture ] billy martin
[ Current Favorite Group(s) ] deadsy, crossbreed, slayer, bouncing souls, *the decline*, linkin park, msi, soad, orgy, glassjaw, and....... skycamefalling
[ Current Book you're reading ] My Darling, My Hamburger
[ Current CD in CD Player] i have 60 in there.. =[ but in my portable.. linkin park
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] uhh.. heh natural colored
[ Current Refreshment ] coca-cola
[ Current Worry ] that he'll meet someone better than me..

LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] jessicka
[ You Talked to ] my mom
[ You Hugged ] jessicka
[ You Instant messaged ] devin
[ You Yelled At ] the drivers on green rd for not letting me cross
[ You Kissed ] can't say..

FAVORITE...
[ Food ] stuffed crust cheese pizza, sushi, cheesy gordita crunch
[ Drink ] vanilla coke!
[ Color ] pink
[ Album ] orgy - candyass
[ Shoes ] my pink old navy sandals
[ Candy ] wonka bars
[ Animal ] cute little puppies
[ TV Show ] that 70's show (it's on right now)
[ Movie ] rocky horror picture show, titanic, peter pan, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, batman, aristocats
[ Dance ] the tango mwaha its so sexy how the guy has the rose and what not lol
[ Song ] itsy bitsy titsy girl
[ Vegetable ] broccoli
[ Fruit ] pears
[ Cartoon ] powerpuff girls

ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] hell no
[ Open-minded ] yes
[ Arrogant ] yes
[ Insecure ] kind of
[ Interesting ] nope
[ Random ] yes
[ Friendly ] sure
[ Smart ] sure
[ Moody ] yesss
[ Childish ] yea
[ Independent ] not really
[ Hard working ] nope
[ Organized ] nope
[ Healthy ] sure
[ Emotionally Stable ] pshh
[ Shy ] yea kinda
[ Difficult ] yes
[ Attractive ] not really
[ Bored Easily ] always
[ Messy ] yes
[ Thirsty ] sometimes
[ Responsible ] nope
[ Obsessed ] kinda haha
[ Angry ] yes
[ Sad ] yes
[ Happy ] yes
[ Hyper ] no
[ Trusting ] umm.. kind of
[ Talkative ] no =[

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] joey
[ Slap ] joey
[ Get Really Wasted With ] no one im done with that shit
[ Get High With ] see above
[ Look Like ] katie holmes
[ Talk To Offline ] i dono
[ Talk To Online ] i dono


[ My Name Is ] tasha
[ In The Morning I Am ] too tired
[ All I Need Is ] love
[ Love Is ] fucked up
[ I'm Afraid of ] losing people i care about
[ I Dream About ] a lot of things


-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] not really..
[ Actually seen ur crush naked ] no =[
[ Been in love ] not yet..
[ Cried when someone died ] yes
[ Lied ] yes

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[ Coke or pepsi ] coke
[ Flowers or candy] flowers
[ Tall or short ] taller than me


-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do u notice first?] eyes
[last person u slow danced with] =[ i dont know
[worst question to ask] umm..

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] jesse cuz he so retarted lol
[makes you smile] my uncle mike
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] him
[who do you have a crush on?] him
[who has a crush on u?] i hope him lol
[is easiest to talk to] kathy

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] no
[save aol/aim conversations] not anymore
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] not really
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yea


-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] yes..
[been rejected] i dont think so
[rejected someone] yeah the other day
[used someone] no
[been cheated on] yea i think
[done something you regret] yea


-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone] manisha
[you laughed with] jessicka and paul


-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes] no
[obsessive] sometimes lol
[could u live without the computer?] no
[color ur hair] yea
[ever get off the damn computer] no
[habla espanol] no


[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 73
[drink alchohol?] no
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yes
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional


-N U M B E R-
of times I have had my heart broken?: uhhh.. none ?
of hearts I have broken?: 1 i think
of guys I have kissed?: and meant it? 5
of girls I have kissed?: 2
of continents I have lived in?: one.
of tight friends?: 4
of cd's that I own?: over 100
of scars on my body?: too many
of things in my past that I regret?: a lot


I KNOW: that herbal essence smells good
I WANT: him
I HAVE: a pink crayon lamp
I WISH: upon a star
I HATE: being denyed
I MISS: the way things used to be
I FEAR: losing the people i love duh
I HEAR: me clicking the keys and bernie mac
I WONDER: if he likes me
I REGRET: oh so many things
I LOVE: my family
I ACHE: because i am tired
I CARE: like a bear
I ALWAYS: am tired
I AM NOT: organized
I DANCE: like never
I SING: like never
I CRY: a lot
I DO NOT ALWAYS: get what i want
I FIGHT: for my right to party
I WRITE: depressing things
I WIN: in a lot of arguments
I LOSE: at video games
I CONFUSE: kathleen
I LISTEN: too often
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: sitting here on my computer
I NEED: love
I AM HAPPY: since joey dumped me
I SHOULD HAVE: a new boyfriend who will care about me
 
     

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whoaaa shit!   
07:25pm 14/05/2003
 
mood: content
another fuckin great ass day!
i LOVE being single!!!!!!
<3 tasha
 
     

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single is the life for me!   
09:33pm 13/05/2003
 
mood: crazy
music: something corporate
i got asked out today..
but i had to say no.

but im so happy.
not about being asked out.
happy in general.

<3 tasha
 
     

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Doctor Doctor come here QUICK!   
07:57pm 12/05/2003
 
mood: sick
Wow. this is getting more serious than I thought. i'm not quite sure if my body thinks I am bulimic or if I am or what! I hardly ate today, honest all of 3 cookies and some wheat thins oh and a piece of pizza crust. So what is there of that to make me sick off of? I slept a good couple hours and when I was woke by my mom's boyfriend to borrow six dollars I got a mood swing. I flipped out on him, went back upstairs, tried to get back to sleep. Then all of a sudden my tummy was rumbling and saliva was rushing to my mouth. I almost puked I swear! I either need to start taking vitamins if I am not going to eat, or go to the doctor for this. I'm not sure if I am not eating because I do not want him to see me eat, but thats rediculous because i've eaten in front of him before. gawd, help me someone! if anyone knows what to do, please tell me. give me your insight!! not to mention, now my throat hurts.
 
     

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don't even worry about me..   
04:12pm 12/05/2003
  For: adauctus666

here ya go! )
 
     

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