Sunday, January 5th, 2003
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8:40 pm
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Thursday, December 26th, 2002
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9:15 am - [Let's pretend Drew isn't late with his gifts]
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Sunday, December 15th, 2002
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2:03 am
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Monday, December 9th, 2002
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12:47 pm
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If you won't help yourself then no one else can. You're falling apart beofre all of our eyes, becoming someone distant and almost cruel. You don't seem to care that the people around you are hurting just as much. You follow her if she tries to leave but others slip by unoticed. You openly tell her you love her while others have to almost prod you to speak of love to them. Your eyes are filled with pain that is your own, unseeing to the pain you are bringing others. You talk of having nothing left if you let the pain go, but why hold onto it if it causes the ones you hold dear to walk away. Is all of this worth it in the end? Only you can decide if it is.
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Saturday, December 7th, 2002
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10:12 pm
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Joey's been busy. I don't get to see him as much as I used to. That makes me really sad. I'll make a real post later
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Monday, December 2nd, 2002
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10:40 am
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Thanksgiving was wonderful. Joey's Mom and Pop are just amazing. I haven't laughed so hard in my life. They just took me right in and made me feel like I was always one of their own. I met Steve and Janine and so many other Fatone's that I can't recall their names but all of them were great
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Sunday, November 24th, 2002
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9:41 pm
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*grins* i went out today with Joey to get a dog. I knew that I was going to get something small because life on the road isn't the best lifestyle. I walked down the row of cages with Joey and waited before one jumped out at me and let me tell you Belle did that literally. Here was this ity bity little puffball with a huge personality. How could I say no to that cute little face? So me and Joey and the new white puffball aka Pomeranian are home and happy. She's so cute. *pets the sleeping dog* I never realized a dog like this could make me become all squishy inside. Don't worry Belle. I won't carry you around in a big purse.
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Friday, November 22nd, 2002
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12:11 pm
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*sneezes* I'm really sick and I don't know what's wrong. I have most syptoms of the flu but when I lie down I'm still dizzy. I'm getting worried but I don't want to tell Joey or my boys. *coughs* Maybe i can get Josh to drive me to the doctors
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Saturday, November 16th, 2002
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10:55 pm
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Because AIM hates me I have changed my AIM.
I am not longer AIM HatlessDrew
I am now AIM NotAndyLachey
thanks!
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Friday, November 15th, 2002
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11:39 am
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*bangs head* I give up. It seems like no matter how hard I try when I find happiness I'm surrounded by hurt sad people and I'm not just talkin' 98 Degs this time
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Wednesday, November 13th, 2002
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2:47 pm
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Tuesday, November 12th, 2002
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1:56 pm - Me again!
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Joey and I have been planning a nice picnic in the park for tomorrow. It should be lots of fun because I'm finally going to meet the munchkin. I can't wait! i'm sure she's absolutely gorgeous. She has to be, look at her Mom and Dad. I haven't told him yet but I bought her a really cool looking ball with Barbie on it. I thought we could play with it in the park. I know she probably already has 3432 of them but I wanted to get her something so..*blushes* I hope she likes it at least.
Tonight I'm going back to see Joey work. I could never get tired of watching the way his face lights up with the first notes of the show. Suddenly he becomes Mark. Every fibre of his being is poured into his role and it's almost like he's not my Joey anymore. He's someone that I don't know but am learning about with every song and dance move. He's charisma and charms reaches out to you in the form of song and wraps a hand around your heart. Once he has you there is no turning back. I know I never want to let him go...
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Monday, November 11th, 2002
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3:27 pm
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I'm just trying to win the award for most annoying posts. There is so much drama goin' on these days I think my had might spin. I'm thinking of taking a trip to Colorado. Maybe visit the mountains and check out the rescue teams there. Always wanted to do that before the whole music thing. *thinks* I'll have to call my PA and see if they can get my bike shipped to NYC. Plan on stayin' for a while and I miss my rides.
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12:42 pm
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Sunday, November 10th, 2002
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10:09 am
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So things are looking a little tense in the 98 Camp. Poor Justin is confused. I dont' know what happened but things sure as hell feel fucked up now. I'm scared of saying the wrong thing and having to tiptoe really pisses me off. I feel like I'm in some weird episode of like Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I'll wake up tomorrow and find out we were all just under the spell of some Muchaka Demon or something.
*sighs* I think I'm gonna hide out here for a while. I don't want to get involved in this mess and say things I shouldn't.
Justin I'll let you know a phone number where you can reach me if you need to.
*looks over my shoulder and smiles* Don't worry I'm gonna be fine
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Friday, November 8th, 2002
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12:08 pm - *rubs a hand over face*
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Sleepy. Feel sick. Don't wanna move. Bad Beer and Pizza. Wanna go home. Night night *snores*
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Thursday, November 7th, 2002
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10:41 am - *sighs*
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So, yeah. Chris is upset because Joey is upset which makes me upset because I don't like seeing friends hurt. I tried to talk to Chris about what was bothering him and he became very closed off and asked me to drop it. I'd be lying if I said that it didn't sting when he said that, but I understand. When you live a world consisting of thousands of people that would lie cheat and steal to make money off of you, your circle of trust becomes drastically smaller. Family memebers can sometimes even been outside of that loop, it's a very difficult thing. So I can understand why talking to me so openly about feelings can be scary. Sometimes you have walls that you just don't want to let down for people who you don't really know.
And that got us wondering about that too. chris and I never really talked and really. We laughed and joked and had lots and lots of fun but we never really converesed so I know him better then a lot of people. Can't say that I do. I know that this thing just started out but we also both had doubts on if this was even going to work. *sighs* Some way to start a relationship eh? So from what I got out of the conversation we have decided to just be friends and get to know each other better..take it from there. If something happens it happens if not then we'll at least be great friends. Either way I'm trying to convince him that he's somewhat stuck with me.
So, last night while Nick and Jeff were busy making googoo eyes and Justin was off in Dreamland, I escaped the hotel and decided to make a random stop at Joey's. He wasn't expecting me and I think I surprised him more then just a little. From what I understood from Chris he was pretty down and .i wanted to try and cheer him up. I hope that I did but I can never tell. Sometimes I even feel like I was only adding to the situation. It's not really my place to analize what is going on in the NSYNC family or even comment on it. But I will say this...stop and think about what the reason for all of this is. Then both sides step back and think about what you're fighting over. How would you feel to be put in such a spot? Think about it.
Things always happen for a reason...sometimes things just aren't meant to be. Remember that
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Tuesday, November 5th, 2002
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9:41 am - *sing songs* there is a boy that I like
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Seriously I haven't talked much about it but to anyone with eyes there is obviously something between Chris Kirkpatrick and I. I don't know how to explain it. He is sooo not my type. Normally I go fo the shy quiet type and we all know that is NOT Chris. But he makes me smile and feel good which as of late not many people can make happen. I didn't expect to meet someone so fast but now that I've met Chris there is no turning back. He's got me hooked *grins* Finally someone I can reak havock with! And since 98 Degrees and Chris doesn't sound good we've decided that NSWYNC sounds a lot better. *does the Bye Bye Bye dance* I hope I got that right.
Anyway, Chris is my boy. I care about him a whole lot and I dunno..just...really want to get to know him and his friends a lot better. *nods*
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Monday, November 4th, 2002
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6:35 pm
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Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
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11:06 pm
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*grins* I got my brother back, my boys back, and a new boy to add to the mix. I'm as happy as a clam
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