Where has all the motivation gone?   
02:22pm 13/03/2003
mood: blah
music: Keith's anniversary CD -- "You Fucked Up My Life," Blink 182
I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed at 10, even though I went to bed at 12 and fell asleep around 12:30, after Blind Date. I slept until almost 12. Long story short, next week is gonna suck, having to get up and stuff.

I don't have much to say. I didn't want to go to the gym, but I went. I don't want to go to work, but I'll go. I came home, showered, and now I'm having penne pasta (Lean Cuisine, yum) and a can't-believe-it's-not-buttered roll, and a glass of milk. I need to maybe start watching my calories, cuz I don't think I'm eating enough. If you don't eat enough calories, your body thinks it's starving and clings desperately to whatever you give it. And I'm pretty sure I'm not meeting a minimum calorie requirement. I'll have to fix that.

I have two hours until I have to go to work. There's no one online to talk to, Jen's in Kearny, Bill's in Pitman, Christa and Sandra are in Hackettstown, and all my Ramapo people are at Ramapo. This leaves a bored, lonely Jessie.

More later. Peace.
this is worse than Keith   
04:03pm 13/03/2003
mood: crushed
music: wish it was "All Cried Out" by Allure -- remember it?!
I cried for about five minutes when I broke up with Keith. Somehow, I'm still crying today. Like, I'm okay, but just scrolling my list of favorites and seeing websites I was sent...makes me cry all over again. Why am I so friggin sentimental?

And now I have to go to work from 5-12. Jen might show up. We'll see. I'll do a real quick one of these now so I don't have to later.

Five Things I'm Thankful For
1) I'm alive
2) I went to the gym again
3) Penne pasta is good
4) Spring break is almost over and Bill, Christa and Sandra will be back.
5) I get my paycheck tonight