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[26 Sep 2004|12:00pm] |
oh man. what a crazy night.
so sara and amanda came over around 4ish but forgot thier tickets/money so we didnt really quite start getting ready until 4.30ish. amanda and i went out back and sprayed her hair pink and then when we went back upstairs she was spraying her hair again and got this huge pink line on her face. it was classic! but luckily it's extremely washable and she got it off quickly so yayy. sara kind of sat on my bed and mumbled to herself a lot while she did something to her dress and i kept deciding and then undeciding and then deciding again wether to wear my hat or not. (for those of you that were there, you will note that i was in fact wearing the hat.) the way i ended up looking this year was a ton better than last year. boo last year. amanda looked effing sexy too in her dress and boots and jade-ness even if the strides she could take had about the amount of space that we did on the bleachers on the night of the homecoming game. which would make no sense to you unless you were in the huge blobby mass of people. :D but anyway. we finally got to the light rail station and were like "where the hell is brian?!" and sara was all afraid that he wouldn't show up and such, but he did. his tie was the color of my dress and he noticed it and goes "ok i'm taking my picture with lisa because we match!"
that was the first date switch of the night.
then we found out nicole's date fell through so she was gonna drive to oxford station and meet us there, but she was pulling into the station just as the doors closed. so we waved. :D she caught the next one though and met us downtown... but while we were waiting for her to get there we went and sat in the middle of the 16th street mall which was a mistake because we sat on a bench next to this bum guy.
him: i like your hat, miss. [to me]
me: thanks.
him: i like yours too. [to sara]
sara: thanks.
him: why are you all dressed up?
(i might get mixed up who said what here)
brian: homecoming.
him: where?
sara: dakota ridge high school.
him: where the fuck is that?!
me: in littleton.
him: oh. why'd you come all the way down here?
amanda: for dinner.
him: oh. alright then. *sticks out his hand*
at this point, i thought he was just gonna shake my hand, but he like takes it and makes out with it. so sara goes: ohh, jamba juice!
amanda: [not catching on] sara are you gonna have enough money for everything?
sara: yes.
amanda: but you only have what, $20?
brian: well i want jamba juice too. let's go.
omg.. it was so bad. but they got thier jamba juice and me away from the creepy guy. and then nicole showed up and we talked awhile and then got on the free shuttle... brian realized like 2 seconds before the doors closed that we were at our stop. so then we got into noodles and stood around but amanda and i both decided on getting this pesto stuff. it was really good. this guy came up to us and was all "are you guys 18? can you register to vote?" and i think he thought we were lying to him but we weren't and afterwards someone was like "i wonder if that was just a wierd pickup line or not" and then we all decided the guy working behind the counter was really really hot and we love him. the music they had at noodles and company was better dance music than what they played at homecoming though...
man that music was crap. they had the bass up to like the extreme and i think they played an hour long rap song because.. balls it was awful. there was some fun dancing but you know.. whatever... and i caught a couple of my guy friends checking me out (i know i sound concieted... :( ick) but i kept dancing with my friends and i decided that the friends my age are no fun to dance with because they looked at me like i was crazy. and they just stand there. honestly people that's what a dance is for! and everyone kept stealing my hat but amanda and tylis both looked sexy in it. i swayed with tylis for a litte bit and then i went back to my group. 'twas ok but i miss brandon and jordan. it wouldve been SO much cooler with them there. if julie can come back then so can they.
so that was the general overview of my night.
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i've decided to crosspost my entries from my LJ for my dearest anna.
i'm too lazy for my own good. but i would never tell my mom that. it really bothers me how she sees me as nothing more than a shitty GPA all year long. it's not like i don't try. i DO try. i'm getting MUCH better grades this year... 3.2 or something like that as opposed to the GPA of around 2.6 last year. and i have the same amount of stress and something. she never notices the things that i do right... she focuses on everything i do wrong. last night we bitched at each other for over an hour because of this stupid 10-point assignment that i didn't turn in with my name on it, so she made me redo it. i wouldn't mind if she weren't being such a loser about it and screaming at me and telling me she couldn't trust me. seriously, what did i do to lose her trust?! she can ask ANYONE in my geometry class, Mr Kroth throws some stupid assignments at us and we have the whole block to work on it. it's insane, i always have too much time. i complete all my homework for that class IN that class and in addition to THAT, i finish all my homework for my other classes. that's how much time i have. it's not like i asked to have an average mind and to go to an average school and be really stupid at math. i'm sorry i'm not the brilliant kid i was in 3rd grade. she can't seem to grasp that when i got math and when i started being just average was 7 years ago. SEVEN. and she thinks I'M bad at math.
anyway. for our socratic seminar in history today, i suppose that was better, josh and i didn't attack each other as much, but it was also more boring today. charles, you suck for abandoning me. i guess i said some stuff that needed to be said about destroying cliques but i also realized sometimes i just talk just to talk. like i don't talk enough. i dunno. i'm stupid sometimes. we went on another walk today but that wasn't quite as fun because my other friends in that class are shaun and tyler (seibert) and both of them were playing hacky sack and then ultamite frisbee. being a loner sucks balls sometimes. but it was decent today, i guess...
i got a jolly rancher in biology today. *celebrates*
oh and yesterday i went to improv. ian wasn't there (major sad!) but anna was and so was emily mckaig (which really really surprised me) and my other friend kelly. he's a freshman like anna... but at least we have more high schoolers this time. it sucked when ian and i were the only ones. it was a lot of warmups and learning names, but it'll progress. so now i have some drama-related extracirricular after school 3 days a week. monday is summit drama club, tuesday is ours, and thursdays are improv. *cheers* now i have to find something for wednesdays and fridays ;) but yaay improv. boo anything not drama. except cooking, i'm starting to really like spencer and jason.
sorry i'm being so self-centered, guys.
Am i the star beneath the stairs?
Am i the ghost upon the stage?
Am i your anything?
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[09 Mar 2004|05:34pm] |
who am i
there is no me
my life now belongs to someone else
my identity has been robbed
my emotions are powerless
im just a fucking liberal
..and i sink into myself again
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[02 Mar 2004|05:03pm] |
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do you miss me, anna? do you even know that i'm gone?
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| Hallucinations and the like |
[16 Feb 2004|04:20pm] |
I feel so sick right now. This is worse than cramps.
It's so excruciating that I started having hallucinations.
(thisiswhatit w a s)
I was just laying on my bed.. and all of a sudden, Kyle was standing in front of me. I reached out to touch him... but he turned into a frog. Then my whole room shifted into a big blob of gelationaus goo.. and my arm was drifting away from me.
that was it.. because i found my water bottle and poured it over my face. and then i snapped back into it. but... ick. maybe i can get out of going to school wednesday.. except i have costuming pix that day. maybe... maybe friday.. except i hate staying home from school. something big always happens. we'll see.
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| Different things |
[12 Feb 2004|08:06pm] |
My world has changed so much. I have no idea who I am anymore...
therefore, I'm sectioning this out the way i used to before Xanga.
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My goodness. Right now... I'm in such an emotional whirlwhind.
(subsection k y l e) today when i saw him, he was being such an ass. i hate him around kelly. it's amazing to me how one person's actions can ruin my entire day. i just care about him so much.
(subsection t y l i s) he's been different lately. a good different. i still can't get off my mind why bobby was asking me all these questions about the status of mine and tylers relationship... how his voice gets all different around me.. how he doesnt care when i hold on to him when im sad anymore.
(subsection t y l e r) there's something in a new light about him, too. he brought my bad mood up today. he reassembled my day's heart after kyle shattered it.
(subsection m a r t i n) the most controversial to me out of the six. i always have repreminded all of my drama friends for liking him... and then i had to go and fall for him too. i keep yelling at myself inside. i know i can't be with him. i know i can't.
(subsection s e a n) i have no idea why i like him. he's only my type according to that stupid data-match thing. the thing is, he's really sweet. I have a problem with his friends and his drinking thing, however... =\
(subsection i a n) this is the hardest one right now. ian, i only see every thursday. and i know who it is that he likes. he's just such a sweet guy, he loves pirates, hes a drama kid...
im just so lost.
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I don't know if I want to do it anymore. As above, I'm gonna take examples from my class, and label them drive away or magnet back.
(loretta) ive come to love loretta. magnet back.
(anna) i dont know. our friendship is faded.
(ian) funny kid. awesome. magnet back.
(patrick) same as ian.
(joey) same as patrick and ian.
(hannah) shudder. SHUDDER. drive away.
(keri) sweet as she is, shes still a drive away.
(melanie) drive away.
(cody) cute, but quieter every time that i see him. drive away.
(megan) ehh. she always has the same character.. and her past bothers me. drive away.
(ben) hilarious. magnet back.
(jeff) sort of a subsidary of ben, only ben is better. magnet back.
(jeremy) ick. drive away.
(paul) cute kid. magnet back.
(whitney) shy.. i dunno. i guess magnet back.
(sierra) prime example of what got me started on thinking about leaving in the first place. drive away.
(alise [?]) see above.
(arielle) awesome girl. magnet back.
i think i got them all. let me tally this.
magnet back- 9
drive away- 8
hmm. if anyone from my class reads this... let me know if you would totally die without me.
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I'm happy for Katy. Really, I am. I just think this is another Eric waiting to happen. And... I'm somewhat jealous. Why am I always alone?
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[16 Jan 2004|03:40pm] |
sarah is being such a bitch to me.
i mean, last year we were close buddies. this year, she hates me.
i know that shirley, etc says she doesnt but i know better.
WHY DON'T I MATTER TO ANYONE??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!??!!
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[14 Jan 2004|06:58pm] |
anyone who cares knows where this is.
ick.
ickickick.
what is it about those brown chairs??
i saw kyle today. i wanted to stay out in the hall in his arms forever but no such luck. instead, fucking leanna had to come and interuppt us AGAIN. i swear. its like kyle and i can never be alone together. i was getting somewhere.
and i think im falling for martin. i tried to get it out of him who he liked today but he didnt respond. he braided my hair, lol...
i'm such a nerd. my life is falling apart but then its also coming together.
i have a connection with..................
....katy.
and kyle. that kid sees right through me. he just KNOWS me.
i want to be with him forever.
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[13 Jan 2004|03:22pm] |
im afraid.
i'm afraid i've done what i promised myself not to do at the beginning of the year.
i think i'm falling for someone who i promised myself not to fall for...
that's 2 for 2.
nobody reads this, my secret is safe here.
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| new beginnings |
[26 Oct 2003|04:40pm] |
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new journal. if you want the URL then comment.
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[26 Oct 2003|04:40pm] |
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| Extended Summer |
[23 Oct 2003|09:01pm] |
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It was 76 degrees. YES.
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Today... I went back to see Mr. Ballester. Unfortunatley, I also saw Mr. Walbrun. Every time I go back to visit Mr. Ballester or Mr. Scott i feel bursts of energy. Today Mr. B wanted to know who the lucky guy was. I asked him what he meant by that... apparently he feels any guy i lay interest on is lucky. I told him who it was and I guess he predicted that. Hmm...
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I'm doing all of my skits on Friday. The Monty Python one will be all 3 nights. =)
I CANT WAIT!
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Things are going great with Tylis. At least, they were yesterday. Knock on wood.
If you want the stories then comment.
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| Im Addicted to you |
[20 Oct 2003|04:27pm] |
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I got casted for another part in Fall Festival. I'll have to see when nights i got for triple casting so you can come.
You know what sounds good right now? A ceaser salad. Sounds like it should be in the Iliad, huh? Only ceaser salads are good, unlike the Iliad.
Boring, eh? There's more but none of it would make any sense.
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Unlike the footwear I always wear- this is different.
Last night, Apple Jack signed onto AIM. Well there are a few things that were wierd about that. The first one is that he's never on. EVER. Just to make sure it wasn't something I was imagining, I jumped on another one of my sns. his was still there.
*BUT*
When his alert popped up on my screen, everything inside of me started flipping around. And I couldn't breathe. Sounds dumb but it's true. I am such a.... doofus. lol.
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Her name is Amanda Mason. Amanda ROSE Mason to be persice. The rose doesn't fit. Her middle name should be Thorn because shes a prick.
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[16 Oct 2003|05:57pm] |
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I actually have thoughts swimming in a pool full of apple jack. i don't know where to begin.
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Today I was sitting right next to this guy I thought I might've had a crush on earlier. I felt nothing. Just to experiment, I flirted with some other guys. Still nothing. Caught a *glimpse* of apple jacks head. My stomach dropped and my heart rate went up. Way up. I felt as if I were soaring. And he didn't even say anything to me.
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fris·son ( P ) Pronunciation Key (fr-s)
n. pl. fris·sons (-sz, -s)
A moment of intense excitement; a shudder: The story's ending arouses a frisson of terror.
my consensus says yes.
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you know, i really don't know. it keeps wavering. sometimes i feel as if we are best friends, sometimes i feel as if i'm a spare wheel. i'm so mixed up inside. i want to be his best friend. i want to be more than friends.
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I love him.
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| Return Of The Filler |
[12 Oct 2003|10:58am] |
:D
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i was going to post about something else but now im just worried.
My Immortal 22: i was just up to 2 am screaming and crying and fighting
sunshinedesideri: with who?
My Immortal 22: my stuoid parnets
My Immortal 22: im done now
My Immortal 22: now youve made me cry again, thanks
sunshinedesideri: what did i do??
My Immortal 22: im not getting on aim very much anymore
My Immortal 22: bye for, a while
My Immortal 22 signed off at 3:35:48 PM.
i think sarah hates me.
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[11 Oct 2003|03:08pm] |
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ummm thats lovely....
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| We Should Start A Riot |
[07 Oct 2003|03:50pm] |
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Today.. my voice was all gone. I got it back in little spurts (one word at a time usually), but i spent most of the day attempting to whisper and writing down what I wanted to say. Last night at improv was torture. There were so many things to be said but I knew I only had so much capacity.
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My ambition is to be an actress, as most people who know me are aware of. Today though, Shirley made me think when she was doing her stick figure drawings. She was being wierd (just like me, Shirl) and drawing what she saw me, her, sarah, "aladdin", "southwest", and "toad monkey" to be in the future. She saw "aladdin" today as a lunch man, so she drew him and sarah together, with him as a chef and sarah as a singer. She drew herself as a clown (not that she wants to be one) and "southwest" as a, lets call it, soldier. She drew me as an actress (by doing that my stick figure had a speech bubble), and then she turned to "toad monkey" and asked him what he wanted to be. He confirmed what i was afraid of- he wants to enlist in the army. Which makes me think...
what am i going to do if he does that?
What am I going to do once we all get out of high school? Will I see any of my old friends again? What is going to happen all of my relationships crumble? I know there are a few people I definitley never want to see again- and then there are those i never want to let go of.
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I feel banished from my own life sometimes, you know?
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