Ok, well since i havent updated in a while, i might as well now lol. i read Grant's blurty, so now i have an impulse to write in mine x_x
Ok, Jeremy got shot, and beat the fuck outta him..and now he is in ICU..;x how much more bluntly can i put it? I feel so helpless because i want to be there for him...And i cant even talk to him. He is showing improvement by squeezing peoples hands..but i want him back the way he was. I miss him so much...grrrrr.....i dont wanna talk bout it anymore cuz im going to start crying even more..i hate crying, its such a weakness...
ok, friday night, i got in a car wreck with my friend. I was thinking more about Jeremy then anything else, and i wasnt paying attention. I didnt have a quick reaction time, so when this guy was in the wrong lane i wasnt thinking. he almost hit me head on, but i swerved in a ditch and he only caught my drivers side. ahhh my car is ruined =( im going to have to put hella money back into it which pisses me off. It doesnt matter. Im sitting in the hospital right now..It sux. They wouldnt let me have my lap top until i pitched a fit. grrr...i cant play soccer or run track anymore, so i dont think im going to college because my scholarships are shot to hell now. I tore my ACL which is going to take hella therapy...i cant drive, i cant move it..i need more morphine. I have a HUGE headache..i cracked 3 ribs and broke one. It almost pierced my lung, but it didnt which im at least grateful for. -sigh- sometimes i wonder if life can get any worse?
Haha i read Grant's blurty..i cant believe he had a crush on Dez lol. its so cute. I mean, i dont see why he wouldnt, dez is freakin awesome! lol but ya anyways, i didnt know he had a blurty? crazy stuff...hmm ya anyways, i think imma go so i can talk to Sara and Grant. ily guyz<33333
Standing on my doorstep in the rain.
Make up running down your face.
You look so good right now.
It's bittersweet that you run to me.
I need you, I bleed you, I would give up breathing for you,
if you would take my breath and hold it in.
I need to be inside of you.
Show me where it hurts.
Show me what love's done to you.
Don't try to move, you'll only make it worse than it is already.