Wednesday, May 9th, 2012
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1:18a
...well that is it....up way later than I was expecting to be...and now it's time for bed....goodnight.
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10:42a
...okay....so I'm up...and it's fairly cold outside.....yesterday would have been a good day to get more gardening done...but the track work was flying so only a little was done....did actually get some exercises done yesterday....finished most of my shopping...although still have to get dad's birthday present think I know what I'll get....and for now it's onto the track....
...will have that shower and do my hair later tonight....for now straight into the track.
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12:16p
...so just finished checking out some con figs for this section....it's actually going to be fairly tricky....because the sound that I'm wanting to bring out is the combination of two sounds....so effectively I need to get both to match with changes...haven't had to do this before....so will be working on two samples at the same time...which I'm going to get moving on the second one now...then combine them.
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12:21p
...other things...well I'm dwelling on a couple of thoughts....made up an Aromatherapy mix to send Adam off...you know...kind of a parting gesture....tossing around mum's comment about music industry types...and considering it was said after I informed her about the sexual assault some time back working in the industry...she probably didn't digest all the information because it was actually a security guard...
and then this lawyers parting comment about the "future conduct"...of my dental issue....you know...it might be a passing comment or it might have deeper connotations....because effectively if I have any conduct to consider....it's pretty much ....a consideration of the conduct going on around me in some camps.
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12:22p
...you know...dwelling....but just thinking....keep moving on everything....
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12:23p
...and in actual fact thinking at the same time....I wish I had some more time for this reading material that I purchased.
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12:28p
...but at the same time....I'm very much aware that music industry/film industry.....there's always sexual exploitation....even in life....
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12:29p
..not that I'm saying it's acceptable...just that I'm aware of what can happen.
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12:30p
..so yeah...just trying to digest my own dramas ....while not getting too caught up in anyone else's...because let's face it I've got enough of my own.
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12:33p
...but hey....I am also at the same time in a reasonable good mood...because I'm just getting on with gear....and effectively thinking...I wonder ...if I get this thing finished...how it's going to turn out...you know...will I get it to a wider audience...and if I do....will they like it...just small things like that....
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12:35p
...you know the past is behind me....it's there...but I don't dwell on it...the dental gear...well I'm still living with it every day...and in actual fact...the lawyer had a list of some say 8 dentists...that I'd already been to trying to find one who could repair the damage...and none of them could....I'd be spending the greater amount of my time trying to find someone who can repair it...than getting work done if it was my sole focus.
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12:37p
..and while I have seen one dentist that does braces...I really have my doubts that it will work as a solution...and probably would need to get a second opinion on that...just like the lawyers paperwork mentioned I might like to get a second opinion before signing it....that is what the worlds like these days....
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12:38p
...effectively what I've got in works...but you know...I'd rather just have all my teeth aligned together like they were before the cut the gum out..
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12:39p
..it still is bullshit....in fact a lot of gear....still is bullshit...the same as all the different communities with different values....yet across the different mediums...they're all "supposed to get along".
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12:47p
...anyway a lot of this gear I have said before....so I'm going to try and not go over old ground... effectively what I'm saying is...I'm getting some good personal value out of what I'm doing...probably not meeting my expectations financially...but know if I said....okay tomorrow I'm going to stop doing this...go to the bank manager and negotiate a deal for investing in property....I most likely would be....it's just not a priority at the moment...and most likely...although I hope not...by the time it is...they'll be ready to put me in a grave.
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12:47p
.....doesn't that sound so laboriously dull...
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12:54p
and you know what ? despite how busy I am....I still think finishing my law degree....and coming in hard on some of the crap I've had to live with and put up with ...other than moving to some unknown island...where there's no shit....is my best life prospects along with what I'm doing.
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1:04p
...I'm no goody two shoes....personally I don't think a few drugs here...a few drugs there is going to kill anyone...obviously people can get into really drug abusive situations.....
..language...well I don't actually use bad language in my day to day life...might write it...but to be accused of it...and it's gone down on paperwork ...with these "highly organized crime groups"...I'm referring to the law courts...I'm referring to the Job Network Agency and I'm referring to the Dental group...even they've got that I used bad language..
in fact I said....after I was informed Martin Lao was practicing...I said "yeah...practicing on unsuspecting victims....till he get's enough practice to know what his doing"...or something similar to that,...
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1:05p
...you know fact is I don't like to use bad language....but if I know it's going to piss someone off that is invading my privacy by reading my journal....I'm going to write it...till they have a seizure...turn blue in the face ....and die...
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1:07p
...you know...who knows....I might even think "Willful neglect"...is the biggest crime on the planet...I couldn't say...but making up false hoods to cover someone's else's in adequacies...is just pathetic.
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1:08p
...and I won't be saving grace for anyone I know in this hell hole.
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3:07p
oooh Arab face and Norsche snuff up her nose got invited to SA by the Scotts and the Nazi's.....I've noted, the English haven't offered a welcome other than perhaps this...let's hope if they do come she get's flour bombed like Kidarshie....what ever the fucking fuck.
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3:09p
...hey if they do happen to come over...ask them if they'll take England home with them...that way we'll know all the foreigners will leave.
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3:30p
William and Harry probably haven't even figured out they had different fathers yet..
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3:40p
..and I know some Scott's who I think are nice people...but it does not change the fact....that Multiculturalism has been forced on nations...andI still think Scott's are nice in Scotland...just like I think...English are nice in England....however most of them aren't there anymore are they ?
Even the Greeks have admitted Greece was used as a territory for international people smuggling way back when....
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3:42p
and I would not be so Anti-Monarchist....if I could say what they have done for society...
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3:44p
you know...3/4 of the worlds population has been displaced through foreign policy......don't agree with it...
..I could honesty say...if the Royal Family were all shot tomorrow...I would not miss one of them. ..they are a facade for corruption.
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3:48p
Just the way I am ....and no amount of news paper bravado from local power heads....will change the way I feel .
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3:50p
...They might be doing the right thing by someone....but I know having gone to a Church of England School....there is nothing to admire about the Church...it's head...or anything found in the Church....and that is central to the English Monarch in it's administration..
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3:52p
...no respect for it...no desire to be any part of it...no connection with it..other than knowing...once I had family in that country....
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3:56p
..and from what I can gather ...but haven't looked into it too much...when the English went to war at Gallipoli.. ...for some reason....all the Australians they sent over...were English....and all the Memorials....are filled with English names...not German names...not Hungarian names....not Italian names...not French names.....you know...it reads like a Holocaust.
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6:20p
..well I should probably think about having a shower and dying my hair..but my energy level is so down today...I just finished getting one config sorted out...I'm going to probably try set the second one now...and then depending on the time...have a shower at least...might need to save the hair for another day..like tomorrow.
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6:23p
..actually I might have a shower first...that might even wake me up..
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7:59p
I am back...nice and clean...and eating some tea.
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8:34p
...well back again...another five minutes and it's back to work again...wearing a new ring I bought....I've taken a photo..and will put it on line when I get a chance...probably tomorrow...it's on my left hand... I'll probably be taking it off at night...it's kind of chunky...but I am so missing the diamond one I use to wear ....I just put it on again...but it's about .5 mm to small now...you know it still fits...but just that fraction to tight...and the thing I loved about it....was you could wear it...but at the same time...I could go to bed...and not feel like I was wearing anything..... I have bought a few new rings ......but I haven't found that full time replacement...that just stays on ....even when I go to bed...
I know what I'd need to buy in order to get that kind of fit...but again I haven't even been looking for that type of ring....I've just bought a couple that appeal to my design tastes...
...probably I'll keep my eye out for a full time one soon enough...I really miss that feeling on my finger....
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8:35p
..and the one I have been wearing...I'm actually sick of it...
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8:36p
..anyway just about time to get back to work...
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10:13p
...well the computer crashed again....and it's getting late...I know that it's really on it's limit at the moment....didn't get that last con fig sorted out...but just cannot be bothered starting it up again..and my ears have really had enough of it for the day....so turned that machine off...might grab a coffee and see about finding a present for dad...he asked for something in particular...so that makes it a little easier....and then I'll be heading to bed...kind of sleepy....
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