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Monday, February 6th, 2012
12:25a
Well I'm up have been for a while....just starting to move into the day...a couple of things to get done...it's not going to be an over the top day...because I'm still really need another down day in terms of my energy levels...

...had a strange dream...ended up on some kind of pub crawl....started watching a movie which looks like it could be quite interesting...but fell asleep ...too sleepy.

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12:41a
..but you want to know something...I feel very strange at the moment....almost not even myself to some extent...while I am myself....there's just a couple of things that I've noticed which are simply put "Different"....

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12:43a
So probably mentally and emotionally...I'm in a different place at the moment...but not really any place at all..kind of swinging...but not really wanting too...

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12:48a
You know I think the thing is...what I'm trying to do is just get on with my life...to some kind of plan....in terms of work and career.....I mean we all know...that something's change so fast...that plans don't often stay plans... but certain things do happen if you stick to them...

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12:49a
Which is a lot different to an emotional attachment...

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12:50a
You know I can say ...I like this person because of this...this ...and this...and that one because of this..and this...

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12:53a
But its like when you get an invitation to two birthday parties which do you go to....well sometimes you try to get to both...

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12:56a
But then they start putting the pressure on to squeeze one out of the market place....its like competition in a supermarket for shelf space...which is a really shitty way to describe what goes on in situations where any type of relationship is forming...

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1:08a
...You know..its like this cat at the moment...

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1:08a
I'll get to that later...

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1:11a
Probably what is actually affecting me more than anything is the fact that I'm rationalizing inside....well I think that person...and that person...and that person...have an interest in what I'm doing....probably it's strictly professional which is fine by me....but what's annoying me...is that taking it from a non working endeavor...to one that is working...isn't really happening...

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1:18a
Which is why at the moment...its basically like this....I am getting worked up inside....not overly because when I do...I put on the thinking cap....and just work out in my head what's best....obviously it might not be best for everyone..but until someone actually has some kind of conviction which is persuasive enough for me to think otherwise....

I'm probably going okay...and need to stop over thinking a few things...

What I do need to be aware of is that my emotional romantic reality is far from reality...it's just at the ...think of what it would be like stage....

And all the books on relationships won't change what it is..and isn't which attracts me to someone...

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1:19a
But it's also important for me to realize.....that sometimes friendships can be better than any romantic relationship....because my friendships.....see me through....

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1:19a
Thus ends my emotional torture for today..

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1:25a
I should have a T-shirt slogan made up...
I survived another day of emotional torture..
with a broken heart on it....
lol

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1:44a
Sad news ...well the mouse that got away in my room...which I heard scratching under my bed when I woke up....well 10 min's after I let the cat in the room....it had been caught....which actually is pretty amazing...because the boxes under my bed....you can't even get to half of them without the mattress off.....
....so this cat is one killing machine....

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1:45a
It was quite sad as well...because I checked the box...and all the food was gone.....so it had a nice munch out while I was sleeping....

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1:45a
...only to be caught again some 30 odd mins ago.

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5:11a
Well as you know it's been a long time coming but the Impress Award results are finally up online.....


http://www.lipcrack.com/impress2011.txt


Enjoy...links will be made available in relevant parts of the site soon.

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8:58a
Now....well the cat signs are up outside....and.....I'm actually going to take the rest of the day out....as in the next few hours....to read some of this book I've been wanting to take a look at, but still haven't had a chance too.....tomorrow I think it will be a shower....first thing when I get up...and onto the track.

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10:56a
You want to know something interesting that I haven't mentioned...

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11:01a
I think it might have been yesterday....but after I put the cat out and went to bed....I kind of had one of those visionee..things that I have...and the cat was in one of the side yards...and it just didn't seem to be a friendly vision....

..but you know....I have them on the odd occasion....when say for example today I looked up information on tree frogs and read eight articles...depending on what it is....sometimes I'll have those kind of experiences....two or three day's later.....which probably can be explained rationally in terms of...well the brain is focusing on one thing...so it's possible for it to kind of reanimate itself....
..but you know I think there's something else there as well...which possible.....I'm not familiar with.....

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11:04a
I mean for example...I just said that and five minutes later I'm reading an article.....which calls it a Phantasm....so its like...
well it's a phantasm experience....which is a form of Illusion or apparitional type hallucination......

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11:04a
You know obviously something's eat into my psyche...

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11:09a
But you know what the interesting thing is....I don't think the cat turned up here by accident...

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11:10a
and I think I've already made it quite clear....I think there's quite a few...dangerous characters...

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11:19a
You know there's all this gear with fears and phobia's....and neuroses....and so on...you know someone else would be sitting at home...with no job depressed and drinking themselves into an early grave....I don't have any of that kind of crap going on....but what I do have going on.....is when there's a form of denial....when there is gear going on in a community....and those things have been going on for centuries....as different communities encroach on others...yet people deny it or try and cover it up..... and again...there's people being spat out by the machine...when they don't succumb to the domination of another....

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11:23a
You know I've said it before...and if you look to different cultures historically through Europe....and then compare life now to the 9 to 5 routine....while 9 to 5 is definite form of survival....that's not to say that working in and out of those hours shouldn't be.....but....that's becoming the reality to some extent....not generally....but you can definitely say...culture in terms of work....has changed considerably over the years.....and the law makers and the Government are certainly working differently in terms of allocating resources to the community as compare to how it was done years ago....and that's what privatization is doing...

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11:26a
And I've said this before...I couldn't say....well this is the right way to do it...but you know...historically it seems that societies have to some extent been working towards principles of improvement over time... yet somehow...I think it would be difficult to say....from what century ...to what century would have been the best one to live in....but somehow the one thing...I am sure of....is ..I don't think it's this century...

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11:27a
I mean you could have 5 million in the bank...maybe more...but to equate that with a quality of life experienced by others in a different century....I don't think you could say it's a better century to live in...

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11:31a
I mean if you think about that really in terms of then say Biblical gear....I'm not sure who it was...but I remember hearing how one of them said they say Jesus rise on the third day....etc...etc....you know that could definitely been a phantasm....created by living in context with the situation...

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11:32a
Which I wasn't even thinking along those lines...but it is a principle that could be carried over to a number of situations...and would explain to some extent why so many disciplines try to discredit the study of psychology.

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1:13p
Well I think it is time for me to go to bed....that is probably enough for today...first thing....shower when I get up...on to the track...and some garden...probably I should be a little more focused on getting a job than the garden......
and on a few more phone calls...

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