Tuesday, January 31st, 2012
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1:22a
You would not believe what is going on at the moment...
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1:40a
I finished installing some programs...a few work....a few don't......and went out into the kitchen....probably for a coffee...I'm not sure...and I heard this noise...
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1:41a
..and it was like...that sounds like a cat...
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1:41a
Anyway I open the door...and look for this crying noise....and there's this cat...out there...
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1:44a
Anyway I try and quieten it down...because it's meowing...and it jumps up on the tank stand and comes inside... .
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1:45a
...and it's a very nice looking cat actually....I've never seen it before....in fact I haven't seen a cat since the others died...
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1:47a
..the weird thing is...
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1:50a
..it's grey like the rat....in fact everything that's turning up at this house in terms of animals is grey..
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1:50a
...and it has just gone through out just about the whole house...it's been all over my lap...it's eaten....
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1:51a
...and it is just being a pain in the butt...I've got the back door open....but it doesn't seem to want to leave...
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1:52a
I mean it must be bored as shit by now...its seen everything....it's done everything except find a place to sit down and shut up.....
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1:52a
In fact it's even got opening and closing my door with it's paws...down pat...
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1:57a
The other thing is.....it just looks so much like Tumon it's incredible...it's like the cat has come back from the grave...and it's licking my face and neck...
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1:58a
But it has to belong to someone it's almost a pedigree...
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2:05a
I'll put a photo up.. ..
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2:55a
Well there it is...it's a little strange....it's currently sitting on my lap...and seems to have few plans to leave...
http://www.lipcrack.com/cat.JPG
http://www.lipcrack.com/cat2.jpg
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3:04a
.....so if anyone happens to know who this little pussy cat belongs to...or happens to want a little pussy cat....I look forward to hearing from you....because it obviously has a nice home..somewhere.....
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3:33a
So mum and dad ...just woke up...and discovered the cat....which didn't go to well....in fact a lot of screaming....which seems to border on some kind of insanity....and really is unpleasant.
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3:34a
Lets face it....without being rude....I'd rather get rid of my mother than the cat.
Which is probably a fairly shitty thing to say...
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3:38a
But the cat does need to go to it's rightful owner....and yelling at my like a crazy woman...is not going to get the cat where it needs to be....either is just putting it outside...but that is the kind of rational that one deals with...
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3:44a
...sure it has been an interruption to the evening..
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3:46a
You know sometimes it feel like your living in an insane asylum minus the insane asylum.
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3:51a
You know....it's just one of those situations where you think......I've got a bad feeling about this....
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3:55a
And it comes from a first hand knowledge an experience of how people get treated in this State.....you know even down to the laws for workers....it's the kind of country they make films about....you know....worker x gets hand cut off at wood saw factory....rather than pay damages...worker x get's dumped off a cliff...
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3:56a
...you know some guy's kid got assassinated yesterday....really young kid....well seemed young by the photos.....and it was the second attempt as far as I'm aware off....on his life....and he got shot four times....
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3:59a
.....you've got parents doing desperate things.....that's what I think....because for many it seems like uncertainly is around the corner....you know....all the people with diminishing capacity being held in positions ....because ...social security won't be enough....but I've lived off it for years...not through choice of my own.....
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4:00a
....you know sometimes I wonder....if the option of leaving home and not looking back is the best reality.....or if you just get thrown into a bigger mess...
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4:05a
So there isn't really much in the air at all at the moment....because...those times when there is an ability to feel anything.....just get annihilated by back ground noise....
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4:08a
..and you know what...that argument with dad a few days ago...about the failure thing...you know this society....seems...to have made a failure out of some very talented people....and in my opinion ...with planned malice...
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4:13a
You know...you've got politicians trying to get people to build businesses on welfare checks....while paying above award rates for over time in businesses doing the same work....
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4:14a
I mean I know that everyone doesn't make it to the top of the chain....but what I am more aware of now...at least here.....is what's going on ...that's holding them back....
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4:18a
...and all you need to do it go back to some old English movie and see what was going on in orphanages.....and those kind of characters.......you know that's what Adelaide buildings are full of...
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4:20a
...and probably more than anything...you know some people as they get older have a tendency to turn....it's not plainly evident...but it becomes evident.
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4:21a
...so what started off as a great evening....and I've had a few the last week...kind of went sour tonight.....and I'm not blaming the cat.....
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4:27a
....anyway I should get back to the con figs of this track...I know I have gone way off course tonight....but its on gear that depending on the day....kind of fore shadows a lot of things.... I don't know that its something you can change....but it's certainly something that should be changed.....and I don't know if it's going on everywhere....but it's certainly going on here.....
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4:28a
...you know if you really want to ask what it is.....it's ....well who should be committed to who in relationships.....you know...what obligations does society have...what obligations do kids have...what obligations do parents have....?
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4:29a
..and when do those obligations....over step expectations...and when do they harm others....
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4:33a
You know...here's an example...like tonight...mum came out yelling...."those cats have damaged my house".......but you know...there's not one thing in the house that's been damaged by a cat....I mean shit...the ceiling falling in because of a leaking roof...well sure....the cats did that didn't they ?...and the side of the house that's weather rotted....due to fog...wind...rain...mist ...over a period of time...well the cat's did that didn't they ? I mean even the carpets....they're in good condition....why because the cat's didn't do anything to them.....I mean realistically there's not one thing in this house that I could say....well that was damaged by the cats.....I mean it is totally irrational logic.
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4:37a
..anyway it is ridiculous going on about this....but it's like the dental thing....and ..."oh no...I couldn't have done that could I?"....I mean no one harms anyone around here....sarcasm....
...I mean there's not one thing here that mum and dad couldn't afford to fix...the operative word is...wanting to...and having time to....
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4:38a
..and more than likely at some stage I think they've had a back up plan of selling the property.....so you know....I just have to be aware ....because...while it all looks sugar coated....sometimes its not....
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4:42a
..and probably the other which is kind of more dubious....is the fact the kid is inside....well not a kid...but a woman...helping them to maintain it...not because of any real need of feeling obliged to.....because probably I don't really.....I mean as a kid they've put me through a lot....but in between everything....sometimes its just what you do....and that's not saying I don't love my parents...it's just saying......
I don't necessarily like what people get put through...and sometimes its the wringer...
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4:43a
..and personally given how society works these day's...it seems oh too convenient for the different social groups...business groups and so on....who are effectively creating situations where by that is the way it's working...because that's the way it works for them.
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4:59a
So the cat has just gone outside for the first time on it's own terms...and is sitting on the side wall.
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5:00a
I put some food out for it...I don't know if it will show up again...in the meantime...if it does...I'll put something in the local shop..and call one of the pet places that return animals...when their owners go looking.
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5:01a
...what a head ache tonight's been....man my music is going to be like a floating cloud after that shit...
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5:08a
(mind you mum did come storming down the passage way...so it probably felt like a good time to scat)...literally.
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5:17a
You want to know the other interesting thing though? I ended up having to unplug the computer from the web half way through the evening...because it went to that 1 gig download on the pipeline again....which is very strange...
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5:17a
...and I have a bit of a headache...
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5:19a
its still out there sitting on the wall...it's so cute...
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5:19a
..it's a really beautiful cat...
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5:20a
I mean after giving in the hugest pat...and it's got some real playful nips....you know I'd walk away and it would dive at my feet and try to bite them ...it seemed like it was trying to stop me from walking away....
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5:21a
...it either comes from a really good home...or it deserves one....
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5:36a
..and just then there was a power failure.... but I think it's probably someone at the electricity company making sure alarm clocks don't go off on time in the morning...
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5:42a
...so yeah....I am in a bit of trouble....but nothing that a good talking too from you won't fix.....especially if your really serious when you say it....I might even shake my head and nod yes.....your right....
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6:06a
...so today hasn't really gone to plan....I'm going to spend a couple of hours on the track now....only good thing....is I did install some new applications which are actually pretty good to the machine that's making the tracks....
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6:10a
You know I should also say this.......one of the applications actually allows me to utilize a number of applications that don't install to the main program....which will be handy...and it looks like an interesting application to use...but will need some learning time...which I'm not going to put in right now...
..but will make sure both programs are really workable in the future....
Second well....I didn't find the type of application I was actually looking for....
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6:11a
...and currently the cat is asleep on my lap....which probably is going to create some issues....not because I have plans to keep it....I don't....but "See above"...until situation changes...
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6:21a
Other situations....well I'm probably happy I'm doing some photos soon....you know..you change in front of the camera with time....and I probably need to be woken up a bit....
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6:23a
but that's probably still a couple of weeks away....just due to gear going on..
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6:29a
..I just hope one or two of them work out....and someone likes them...
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6:37a
....actually by the time they're ready it will probably be around Valentines Day...so maybe I should keep that in mind....although I don't think they'll be romantic shots...
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6:41a
....I mean next thing you know I'm going to have a gray kangaroo turn up at the door...
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6:42a
..or some kind of metallic Alien...
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6:43a
...oh I know...a giant rolling pinball...
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6:46a
...my moods ligthing up a bit.....I've had a pretty shitty evening....
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6:47a
...and there's this other weird gear going on....which I haven't really said too much about....
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6:51a
..but I'm also having a great time...when I'm having a great time....and they still are the most important parts to me.....so I think I'll stick with them....
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7:25a
But today has been a work day write off...which I'm probably a little shitty about as well...
..and didn't really sleep that well yesterday....
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7:26a
..and I don't think it was actually the weather yesterday....it was just... I didn't have a deep sleep.
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7:27a
...today I'm thinking most likely I will....
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7:33a
...you know if I could say a couple of things I really wanted to say....without thinking....I'll probably feel bad about that later....I'd say them....
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7:35a
You know what the really shitty thing is that I can say...?
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7:38a
Well this cat is so friendly...and you can tell it's just dying to go out there and introduce itself to the family dads already seen it this morning..which I gather it's probably use to with it previous owners....with heaps of love....like you know...hello good morning...I'm the cutest cat you've seen in a long time...and you should be happy to see me....but I'm having to say to the cat.....you do not want to go out there.....just hold on...once they've left the house....it will be okay.....
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7:39a
...well sneak you out and about somehow...
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7:39a
I mean her face looks like she's eaten about 5000 crab apples...
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7:40a
I mean why couldn't they have shot her...
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7:47a
..and those are the things I won't regret....so you know it was pretty over the top..
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8:55a
..and someone called on the phone and hung up at around 8:30.
So with that....I've had my first yawn for the day.....my body's not sleepy...but my eyes and my head....feel kind of strained.....
...so that's it....I'm going to go to bed....and when I wake up....which is hopefully a lot later.....and after a point where I fall asleep rather than waking up in two hour intervals which is what I seem to be doing....and even then it's not from a deep sleep....
so yeah....probably could be up another hour....but my head is too far gone concentrating on anything.....it's like there's a sponge inside it that someone's squishing to get the water out.....
so I am actually happily going to bed.....goodnight...
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7:29p
I'm up have been in terms of restfulness most of the day due to ....a certain very cute cat tale which ends with a very sad ending.... so far...
Went to bed this morning......left the back door open to let the cat go and leave as it pleased.....again it seemed very content just to sleep on the cushion ...in between hopping on the bed....with some pet me loving....and a few incredibly odd meows....but again....also very cute...
And after about eight hours of no sleep.....in between some sleep and the sound of the work men working out the front...it was close to ....okay...okay...I'll get up....even though it was two hours too soon...informed it....well...I guess it's time to check out the front yard together....while I look in the mail box...and.....in between that thinking....do I have to respond to your every whim pussy cat? ...I meant it lovingly....
Then well I heard dad pull up in the car.....and the cat took off....I haven't seen it since...
Went to the post office to pick up some mail that was left....and started thinking about Tumon...and how this cat took off....I mean obviously it had somewhere to be....not sure....I enjoyed its company for almost 3/4 of a day...
and wondered to myself...you know the last time I saw Tumon was in the front yard before she vanished.....I wonder if this cat didn't want to go in the front yard.... it's been a peculiar experience.... maybe it will show up again...but I don't think it will....
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7:31p
Now...well my body feels like it's been through a wringer still....not rested...but I have to get some work done....and it's not worth complaining about other than...to say...when I do get some rest my body's going to feel great...
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7:39p
Hey guess what it just turned up....
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9:21p
Well tonight has now been a bit of an ongoing drama....you know the cat showed up basically around the time both parents arrived home....and was not made feel welcome at all......
..and of course I was basically blamed because it hadn't gone already....fact is...if it hadn't disappeared....and I'd had time to make up a flyer...it would be in the post office by now....which is about 1 km away ..like a hills grocery store which probably everyone who lives up here visits....so you know is going to be the best place to find the owner.... ..in the meantime it got up in the ceiling in my room...and basically it was close to needing a pet rescue...by the time I had the ladder in here....it decided it would jump for it......
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9:21p
Now well I've had time to look a bit of info up....and I think it's a cross between a Russian Blue and a Siamese...
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9:22p
Which wouldn't surprise me if the people who use to breed Russian Blues in the area still do...
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9:23p
It has eaten a couple of times....some tuna....but we don't actually have cat food here at the moment.
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9:24p
At the moment it is outside...thing is...it doesn't seem to like being enclosed in one room....however if I open the door well it's a nightmare for me....
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9:28p
At this stage I'm pretty keen to find it's owners.....
You know it turned into one of those arguments....where your just a person trapped in a house...where they don't even want to recognize you as in me as their own child....because it means some kind of commitment on their behalf....you know...it's like Hanzel and Grettle....your kind of being fed to be put in the oven.
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9:29p
..and then they kind of go on like...you haven't got a law to represent you in the matter.......which again...to me...its like what is the shit all about.....because you think I could look at my parents some days and think of them as more than shit when they carry on like that....
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9:30p
I mean to me....sure you have some kind of order in the family....but if it's abusive...I just think...well fuck that...
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9:35p
..anyway I'm going to get on with the track now...just in the worse mood.
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9:52p
You know it seems my parents....are my parents....as long as there's something in it for them.....when there isn't...they're not....
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9:53p
That could be a shitty way to put it....maybe I'm just seeing it from one side...but you know....I don't think I am...
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9:57p
You know...it would be interesting....if I said to them...okay then...lets make it legal....I'll get a lawyer....and make sure your not my parents by getting some kind of paperwork that takes that right away....not sure what it would be........I wonder how they would respond to that ..I mean as far as I'm aware by law your parents are always your parents.....
..but they're going on...your over 18 your responsible for yourself now....I mean....there are some legal responsibilities up to 18 but I don't think they're all transferred at 18 if you know what I mean....
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9:58p
I mean shit...most people haven't even completed a Degree by the time they're 18.....
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10:00p
Shit my parents were dropping me at pubs in their own cars at age 16 even though it was against the law....so you know...they've got a law when it suits them but that's about it...as far as they're legal responsibility go...
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10:01p
..and you know....all this shit hits the fan....just because I'm trying to make sure a cat....get's a home ...before it get left out in the cold or put down by an animal shelter.......
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10:02p
I mean if it was just me here...no problem...all the doors would be open...it could roam the house..to a certain extent.....but hey...that's life....
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10:34p
You know the thing is...and I am working on the track...but at a certain stage...parents start having to deal with people who are actually now adults...and recognize that just saying things because they're parents isn't going to wash.....
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10:36p
probably objectively the question is....well how many family relationships from Adult to child are actually abusive...and does it occur in all families...or just some with particular characteristics or similarities.....
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10:37p
...or simply put ....
.How many fucking cock heads are there on this planet anyway...?
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10:46p
..and you know given that societies have changed so much with time....you know.....I'm left wondering ...well is that some kind of cultural dominance attitude....is it some religious dominance.....or some kind of isolated....well these are my rules kind of attitude....I mean that happens a lot in the family with parents....they make up their own rules...based on beliefs...attitudes...and all variety of social aspects.....
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10:48p
I mean personally....how I feel when I hear that kind of shit.....is I'd like to boot you up your fucking ass till you bleed out your mouth.... because I just do not treat people like that....but what I end up having to do...is looking into it legally....
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