Sunday, January 22nd, 2012
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12:13a
okay.... ..took my time selecting what I think is the best vocal for this track ..other thing I sometimes do, which people probably don't know....is I try and put more in the vocal than really was ever there...it's probably a technique I should give a name..like Crack Abstraction....
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12:19a
It probably wasn't the best vocal for it, in fact it wasn't but it created a bit more of a dynamic on the vocal...which took the track somewhere I'd like it to be...
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1:05a
...been a bit distracted today...with love gone wrong I think you'd call it....even though I absolutely love what I'm doing....you know there's always those other parts of you like your brain...and your emotions...which take you other places....
.....so I'm just thinking about a few more things than I thought I would be....at this particular time....
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1:34a
..so anyway have to slow down the doses....injecting myself with too many things....that are causing more than brain contusions...
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1:35a
which doesn't mean I'm using a needle...but I guess some will think it does..
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1:35a
I'm just letting my brain take me to a few other places...which isn't so bad....so all is good...
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1:36a
..and I will be more strict on myself tomorrow.
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1:47a
..and now time for a coffee and at least another hour.. on this track....you know those first bars...although the rhythm is locked in your head....to translate them into music...or a sound....which is going to shape the rest of the track.....my tracks are really difficult.....I don't care how easy any one else in Music finds it...I do not find it easy....
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3:37a
Well I think I should give my ears some rest....sticking to yesterday's plan for tomorrow.
goodnight.
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2:33p
okay...up up and away to the new day huh?
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3:27p
So today once I finish in the garden....once I get started...it's pretty warm out there...and I probably won't start for another hour...after that might dye my roots, put some hair color in....and maybe change this dental fill in....while it's a really good fit in terms of..the damage that's been done...I could probably get one that isn't so easy to move around....if I can't well I'll put this one back in.....
so a bit of a tidy up day ready for a busy week ahead....called the Job Network last week to change an appointment time...and they basically said the phone call was fine and are organizing an appointment early Feb for the next stage of the "program".
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4:40p
okay time to get some work done.
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6:38p
Well that is enough the top third still isn't complete but the bach, branches leaves and twigs are all in piles....shifted over five wheel barrows to the bottom yard, however the pile there now...has become a danger in itself and mum and dad have plans to call someone this week to have it removed...probably the following week..oddly enough once they do the size of the pile to come will probably match the size of the one there already....
I am in a slightly bad mood about it...
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6:38p
...and dripping in swet.
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6:42p
..probably to keep things moving, I will stop one day and start to gather the gear in the bottom area...which unfortunately is the biggest area and runs the whole length of the property Tuesday.
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6:43p
...the top...despite the fact it is ...just about all dirt and dust..is starting to resemble a garden again.
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6:54p
Probably the same thing I am still annoyed about, is that these are not the labors we were trained for and there is an expectation that if you train people for work by supplying it...that there will be industry to move them into...going forwards so to speak not going backwards...
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6:56p
...and then not to supply honest essential services to represent the people is a disgrace.
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6:57p
I mean we all know that if a business sets up shop in your country and it is an international business.....rarely will it have your interests at its core concern.
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6:58p
..and countries have been lost...to trusting the interests of others.
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7:03p
So you know it always leaves different philosophies open to interpretation....what is in one's best interests.....what to do to resolve issues....how to instigate action against those that are causing the damage...you know if you go back essentially to England....you know there's English properties...a lot of them welfare houses....in the hands of those that have little regard to them....I just think those are the things that annoy me...you know the amount of labor I do, I should have my own property by now...that is the issue.
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7:06p
..and if we were following our professions...being able to develop our works....and all those things required to build our business without being stomped on by International's...then things would not be so annoying.
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7:12p
You know probably it's fair to say....I don't really know what the problem is...I mean the world economy is in a mess...but the banks are making billions...you study law...and you see how despite the fact there are laws....how people will still get away with doing things that harm others...
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7:14p
You know to me it seems there is plenty of money...but it's sitting in a lot of pockets that don't want to spend it...what is the point of having money if you don't spend it ?
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7:17p
..but good news in totality.....two thirds of the garden is done...it's taken something like two months of labor on and off...to bring it back under control from the elements....and will probably take another month and a half...
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7:18p
Personally if I had a choice...I would not have a yard like this it is too big.
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7:20p
Tea time soon...so I will rest till then.
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7:30p
But I also think...if my parents left me the house....I wouldn't sell it...what I do know is...lawyers and bankers have very devious way's of making properties theirs........
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7:30p
But what big business doesn't.....
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7:31p
And in the meantime....trying to keep it up to a standard of a home...I would live in.
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7:31p
lol.
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7:31p
I'm such an ass hole aren't I ?
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7:34p
Which means it needs more work...and more money...
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7:34p
But if I had my own money....I would buy my own home....
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7:36p
...which again leads back to issues of ....money being restricted in community...and Governments investing repeatedly in businesses to the extent of deprivation of others.
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7:52p
That is the pile so far it is about 3 meters long and 1 meter.....that thing past the bushes...is a road.....for cars.....so it is also wide...
http://www.lipcrack.com/leaves.jpg
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8:00p
..that pile is bigger than a small four door car.
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8:00p
It would not fit in a car space..
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8:04p
It's actually so high...that I can't even get the wheel barrow to run up the side of it...to put more gear on top.
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8:30p
I mean personally, I just feel like I'm being used by a foreign enemy...but you know, it's like I haven't quite worked out who it is yet....is it the Government, is it the change in Government, is it internationals is it the Church, is it family....you know...it's like an Alien movie...where you can't quite work out who's screwing you over.
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8:32p
Possibly not the best way to put it....
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8:36p
...and you know....it's just a general feeling of....well this isn't right really....
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8:40p
Probably what I'm also thinking is when my Grandfather died...you know...him and his partners ran a very big business....but there was some family pressure before his death...and the thing ended up kind of being wound up....yet from what I heard it's like they didn't even get 1/4 of what the business was worth....and probably that isn't my concern...but to some extent it should be...
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8:42p
..you know it's just difficult situation....after difficult situation...because for the most part....somewhere...there's someone on the take...but not really letting you know they are...I mean even my parents...I feel like that sometimes...which is why I just keep trying to push my own things...in between times...because you can't rely on anyone some days it seems...especially when monies involved....shitty thing to say...but we all know it's a reality these days....
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8:44p
...and the interesting thing about it...is the ones at the top...the lawyers in some situations....like I said...you've got these pompous asses...that have not one agenda in terms of representing woman..
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8:45p
..and you know...in a place where you feel more like a stranger..than a member of family in terms of general community...they're the ones you've also got to watch out for..
I mean it's not so bad when you have a number of people in the family..but as a one child family....you know...the vultures fly a lot higher so to speak.
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8:48p
...but you know it's probably the same for a lot of people out there...
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8:50p
....You know...when you compare the amount of industry...positions available...money in the economy...the way it's being directed...
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8:51p
You just say....whooo shit man....if I don't do something these pricks are going to take me under.
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8:51p
I guess that's it put simply.
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9:17p
..anyway..time to do my hair....hurray...something that isn't going to tax my body....
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9:32p
okay....first stage of hair care revival under way.
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9:55p
Time for a shower...hurray....my hurray's are big hurray's....
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9:55p
I should give you a sample on line...maybe after my shower..
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11:41p
So finally another second to sit down...put some hair color in...which will need to be washed out....not too much....will do my feet first thing tomorrow...they're due for a tidy up..and now for some face cream before I think about anything........ in fact thinking is not good for my health....
..you know all those thoughts that you churn trying to resolve at least one issue that never seems to change in your mind...although you know it should.....but keep falling back into those patterns...because they're safe.....
I do that a lot....I think a lot of people do.... ..
You know it's like the Uni thing...while I was peacefully studying away...I arose to challenge what was going on there....no resolution...because they just covered it up...it's not like a game where you have a team who wins or one who looses based on their performance...you know that is a situation where the game so to speak was rigged you know ...no paperwork...no explanation other than..I'm not going to do it.. ...
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11:42p
I just get fed up when I know...."this is a bad deal"..you know to some extent...there's no fucking deal here...and that's bureaucracy at is worse...
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11:43p
..and something at is worse...I think needs to be challenged...in fact really it's surprising that this country or at least this state isn't in a Civil War.
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11:46p
But that really is the situation....you know...coming from a society with over 1800 years after BC behind it....to a society that's only 300 years old in terms of development.
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11:47p
Basically the skills are ahead of the industry.....obviously not so much in terms of the education people go through...but recourses..don't exist....
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11:48p
Well they do...but they cater for a country that's on the other side of the world...rather than...well actually this is this country ...it's not that country...and it's not that country...
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11:48p
But each of those other countries competing for some kind of cultural dominance.
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11:57p
I don't really change that much...but I still try to change some things..
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