Sunday, January 8th, 2012
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1:08a
...time for bed.....longer evening than I thought it would be...
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1:19a
..by the way I see your still keeping it up....
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1:42a
..you know I still don't have one of those phones with letters...I wouldn't even know....if they handed me one today.... it would be like a love letter without words....because when the letters fall on to a page....no matter how it's spelt they still came out the same.....you meant everything to me....even just before I fall sleep....but don't dream another day....don't dream a life away....and if you still love her don't worry I'll be fine.....so let yourself fall in love...let yourself feel what ever it means inside...let it be what ever it's meant to be...
sure I push every day....push all the love away.... close my ears to words that I just don't want to hear.....and yeah I write...like my minds been blown away....but just take a look inside......and tell me what love there is left to find.....
your like a word that I see each time.....I open my eyes.....
goodbye....its time for me to find sleep in my eyes....see how words fly....like lines on that piece of paper......I'm just seeing all the different parts of me....and sometimes....I see different parts of you.....just before I close my eyes........
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2:43a
..the words start flying like there's no tomorrow....and the faster you spit them the faster I'll write them.....put them down on paper like there's monsters I'm fighting...yeah sure some of them live on the TV...but when ever I turn something on...there's one speaking to me... ..first it starts with a how are you going ?...then it's come out....your just one that I'm blowing....like cash that I'm dropping everyday...when I take myself shopping on the super highway.....
when your cool your hot....when your hot....your like a fire that's trail blazing....the more that I find...the more that I see...and the more that you do it....the more that I want it...and when those words start building up like an earth quake ripping the house.....I'll look at my watch...and see those seconds ticking bye....till the words start coming out like explosives wired in my mind.....so stand back unless your waiting for the shrapnel when my brain starts to split....kind of like a horror movie on a bad trip....that's what my heads like when it's ready to split....like a migraine....people suffer from everyday....
that's what I'll sound like when my music gets played......
..its' not the guns that they're firing...it's the bullets in my brain....spitting them out..like tobacco gets chewed....
I'm as black as the night....at the start of the day....just another feeling when I'm getting played....by the hustlers and the pranksters....rhymes and the gangster's looking to snuff me...
well go ahead buster....see if you bust me....... cos my gin ain't rummy it will burn down a house.....if I'm missing more than what comes out your mouth.....
lol....
so lets not talk about how were feeling anymore....because last guy that asked me hit more than the floor....he banged his head on the ceiling and also the floor....but I guess that he just tripped like most people do....when we've got more Acid...than we've got food. ..
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12:01p
well I'm up, having some breakfast....it's raining...and slowly moving into the day...
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2:22p
Been working away at the track but it's at the stage where I need to compress it and get it in a new open format before I can change any con figs because it's over loading again...bit of a pain....especially as I still need to work on two sections ...which could mean they need to be done separately...time to get too it...
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3:44p
Just finished getting those files to match up....it's hovering around the 89 to 93 bars stage...which is what I'm currently trying to get a crisper sound on....about to have a coffee...and back to it....I'll do my hair around dusk...or just after dark...
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3:46p
..there's about five more lines of the song to actually create music for...but the last two...which kind of repeat a chorus...but it's not really a chorus...I'd like to see if the first arrangement fits with the rest of it....if it doesn't well I'll need to make something..
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5:59p
...so time for a quick break...and prepare some food...
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6:26p
..time to eat it, I'll talk about it later...
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6:54p
...so mum and dad got home while I was preparing tea....had a nice meal...didn't photo it.....a cold chick pea salad with snow peas, capsicum, salad onion , celery and sardines....with a lemon ,lime, pepper and balsamic vinegar dressing....
heard briefly about their time away at someone they know's holiday home...I don't know much about them other than ones a doctor and the wife works in pharmacies....
I have a very strong opinion about that...but won't bother repeating how I feel the Government offers protectionist policies that enrich that sector and in fact have been doing it for far too long now...
anyway back to this track...
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7:04p
..you know while my parents have friends and have employment in Australia....the money's been stopping and doubling up in some pockets and I know that is one of the first way's that two social class systems are developed.....
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7:07p
..you know my beliefs are still the same....year after year....
Schools fail kids....Governments fail societies....Church factions create separation of the sexes.....and friends....are not always what they seem to be....the English Monarch is a disgrace to me....as are purely capitalist agendas...
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7:09p
..anyway time for a coffee and back to this track.
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7:13p
You know that crap occurred at Charles Darwin University...and before it when Flinders University said they didn't have my results for studies I did there in the first half of the year...you know one does..the other doesn't....
..it is people motivated by self interest...and selling themselves as saviors of humanity.... when they're costing it more than the average person...
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7:14p
I have seen how this country operates...I have experienced the pomp asses...
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7:14p
..and that's all they are not much more than pomp assess..
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7:15p
If I had a reason to be pleasant and charming about the experiences I've had here I would....I would be lying if I said there were some...
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7:16p
all I have experienced is a range of lies and deceits....
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7:20p
...anyway....obviously there are nice experiences out there to be had....but not when they involve corrupt Government officials and public service members...
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7:21p
..you know there's just gear that you know is wrong...even down the family level..
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7:22p
..the same issues are still the same issues...corruption and suppression of woman's rights..
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7:24p
....you know...corrupt police as well I think..
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7:25p
...the education system crippled the kids...and if that didn't the dentists were back up....for the Health care society...
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7:25p
and they all operate like a network of criminals....and we all know they're doing it...
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8:58p
well just got that con fig locked in.....and it's down to the vocals....I am actually okay with the sound on this section..but it might be improved with a little tweaking....however for now....I'm going to do my hair...and leave that...for very soon....
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9:21p
....waiting for that to do it's gear.....should be interesting to see how much of the colors left in after that...I don't think I'll need to put anymore for a couple of weeks.....not sure....
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9:40p
..okay...time for a shower...
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11:05p
...so I'm back....and the hair looks good....so I've got a fairly good idea how I'm going to color it for the photo shoot in a few weeks....which will probably be two to four weeks away...but definitely some time between then....it's pouring with rain outside...and could already be the wettest January on record for a while....someone would have to check that....
got in my clean black jeans....which have become too uncomfortable to sit down in....so went back into my blue ones which I've been wearing for longer...and are still comfortable...but getting close to ...only can wear around the house gear......
...so tomorrow....believe it or not....I'm going to have a take it easy day...get into a new pair of jeans and probably a new t-shirt...which will obviously be broken in my the time I get to a photo shoot..
...because I'm feeling so burnt out now...I think I'll need a bit of a half work...half down day before contemplating going to town...which will be fine...I'll still be there before they try and hit me for a credit charge if I go Tuesday.....which I will.....
so now probably will put on some night cream...and get ready for bed believe it or not....
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11:07p
..in the same mood I was in ....last time...this period of time occurred....kind of switching between...a reasonable mood to a not so good mood...doing a bit of dental churning ....I have to get that paperwork from the law courts this week...which is not helping my mood.
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11:10p
..and have some kind of open cut under my left hand little toe...which is stinging like crazy....I might have done it in the garden not sure...just put some antiseptic on it to make sure...it heals okay...
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