Friday, February 29th, 2008
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1:11a
Okay...well after the salt mix....I have to tell you, I think there's more ulceration....in fact at the moment...it seem's like anything that I put on it....is causing it to ulcerate more....so I'm going to leave it alone.....take some tissue samples tomorrow....try and go for a walk to get some oxygen circulating through my blood...and try and find a new dentist...that can refer me to a specialist....again...it's only in one area...and it's not the area where that first white lump showed up...that's actually gone...but I think I might have just chased it further into my mouth ......I'll probably take a photo tomorrow if it's not to bad....lucky my camera doesn't have a flash..because that would probably make it worse....I was thinking...you know maybe those two dot's that were showing up, may have been where I received the anesthetics...with the needle...it's not exactly a small needle they were using....more the size of something that you put icing on a cake with....so that's kind of strange actually ...
Spent all day trying to get an animation scene right....and it just did not happen....but just then finished something that's worth including...only about four seconds....I can't believe it....it took over eight hours to get the right action...
that's probably the longest it's ever taken to get one animation right..
Anyway I'm going to have a shower....although I said I wasn't going to try anything else....I've just put some lavender on a tissue and I'm using it as a gauze....I believe it's called....I'm well aware....that the more stress that I put the area under...the worse it's going to make it....but it's not as though the Dental Groups I've had work on it thus far...have help the situation...mind you, the one back pocket that was done has repaired...so I can't say anything wrong about that....but when other problems pop up....and mind you...the pocket wasn't actually causing any pain...etc...not like now....and you want to know something really gross...which I probably should keep to myself...but the area where that white thing is above my tooth...that's shaped like a half moon on it's side...well when I run my finger nail (clean) over it....it feel's like a piece of grissel...it's totally gross....I'm freaking out man...not scared or anything....but more like..."well what the fuck is it...".....
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1:17a
anyway ...I'm taking a shower...and might do a little more animating after...most likely go to bed....
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1:22a
You know maybe that guy used dirty needles....I should write a song...dirty needles....it's probably a bit to hard core...but I was thinking right...it only takes one piece of bacteria to be on those needles when they pierce my gum line...and it's not like it's a new syringe taken out of a packet, which is probably what I'd be doing if I was injecting anesthetics........and I was thinking...you know...if that was the case... you know all those particles might slowly start building up around the area when they injected me...I mean I just don't know...it could be anything..but they are all medical possibilities that couldn't be excluded...
it's kind of creepy actually...
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1:22a
but I'm going to have a shower...
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4:14p
Well I have some semi - good new's to report...what ever that thing is...in my mouth....well the compress seem's to be having an effect on it...or at least, is settling what ever the infection or inflammation is....I don't want to hold my breath...because it's pretty much touch and go at the moment...and again....poisoning a poison with a poison ...is a very tricky thing to do...
I'll probably move to putting that filling back in next week...I'd like to put a rock crystal in with it...but that's a procedure that require's two people believe it or not...and it actually works better if you can lay a person flat on their back....you know it's like a beautician trying to wax her own eyebrows....which I haven't tried....most likely very difficult to do...
I'll take a photo later this evening....
that's it for now....at the moment animating....
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6:19p
So how's that...I just opened the letter that the Southern Justice Center sent....you know...after I was supposed to talk with the Director.....who I didn't speak with because whoever answered the phone...said she wasn't available for the rest of the week......and it say's something to the effect "we confirm you are not prepared to provide is with additional details we require in relation to your financial situation "... blah...blah...which is a load of bullshit...I wanted to speak with the Director because I wanted to know why documents were taken from me prior to being able to accept the case.
The letter is not signed by the Director but via someone else.
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9:03p
Look I don't want to really offend anyone, but the following images are down right disturbing.....and if you're a friend don't be too upset....
Basically as I said....that white tendril thing that appeared in the first photo's, has gone....but as you'll notice and as I've been noticing after the first couple of day's when it appeared.....there's something else there now that seems to have moved further into the back of the mouth...if you look at image
http://www.lipcrack.com/t1.bmp you'll notice the make shift filling I've put in, which has stopped the pain, (the one I'll most likely replace with a similar item that I put in the bottom teeth) which I feel was where gum tissue was cut away, and is clearly evident via previous photos I took prior to the first dental appointment ....if you look closely you'll see there's no inflammation around that area...although inflammation is coming from the other direction via the main source.....
If you look at the next image...which undoubtedly will shock people.....it actually shocked me enough into calling the police (because I wanted the emergency hospital line) who referred me to a late night nurse line....basically I feel like I should be putting myself in for emergency care at the hospital, so I called the numbers she gave me, and will look at that for Monday....when they're available...
This image only show's a little of what ever it is....I'm pretty upset actually....more than anything...I guess I'm pissed off because mum and dad have taken off for the weekend....and they don't give a flying fuck about anything...and in the meantime I've seen two additional dentists in the last however many months ago, that it was...that basically all they said was go back to the place that was doing the deep panning....and I just pretty suss about the whole thing....because it's totally shitty...
http://www.lipcrack.com/t2.bmp
So again...please don't be upset when you see this image...I'm going to do something about it as soon as I can, which should be Monday...hopefully if the place isn't booked out.....
You know I really can not explain it....I could put it down to a couple of things...but at the moment it's hard to say...without further clarification......
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9:08p
It actually goes further into the mouth than that....about two more teeth further back....like I said...it's pretty bad...
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9:09p
The nurse has recommended putting some ice on it...ironic don't you think...
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9:10p
I'm going to have a shower and cook some tea...
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10:58p
Well the plan has changed....I've had a shower....and I'm actually going to take a few more tissue samples....not that I want to...but over the ulcer there's a film layer of mucus ......so I guess if I take a look at that I'm actually going to see what inflamed tissue looks like ....
Anyway ...that's news....I might do some animating after cooking tea.
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11:31p
Well that is absolutely gross....without even having to add any betadine solution, the actually sample that I scraped from the inflamed area, using my finger, (believe it or not), it was easier to get a saliva sample with my finger than, the scraper (which I disinfected), was a milky white film. Obviously indicated some type of infection...well that's what I think....and in actual fact....after putting the ice on it...the whole area's gone kind of blister pus yellow....so under the mircroscope basically it looks like a slightly dirty film.
I might do a sample from the other side of my mouth, I'm kind of thinking that will be fairly clear, but I might be wrong...
you want to know the really sick thing though...and this is kind of ancillary to the whole thing....I had dream last night....and you know how I have those dreams....and there's sometimes writing in it...as though someone's trying to tell me a message....well believe it or not...it's going to sound really sick....but there was this scratching...and I swear it looked as though it was being done in my gum line....and I read it...and I'm pretty sure it said "Get Out"....and there was something even scarier than that....but I don't want to tell you ...because people will start freaking out...and I don't know what it means....
I'm going to do a sample with some betadine now..
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11:56p
okay...well I've done that....and can't really say much more than I think there's some kind of infection in my gums...on the right side.
as can be expected there was little of the hazy film on the left side....and the saliva sample was quite clear.
The previous sample I mentioned that I did last week had no unusual presence, and it was like looking at clear water, except for a few saliva bubbles...
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