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Thursday, February 21st, 2008
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12:19a
So believe it or not, going to bed early, mum and dad aren't home this evening....I've got no idea where they've gone or where they're staying....
Kind of annoyed at myself....because I'm not working as hard as I normally do....which is slowing thing's down a little...but at least I'll have all the information prepared for tomorrows meeting re : the Job Network Agency incidence, it's near Marion which might give me a little time after to have a quick shop around .....I'm hoping anyway....basically I need probably a new T-Shirt...a jacket...and most likely a pair of shoes..... .then I'll have my wardrobe for the next six months at least....I have to make thing's last these days...which is annoying....it's better when you can shop...with that...I like that ...I'll buy that attitude....and have some money left over....since starting to funnel money in to computers...and graphics programs...I'm kind of short in the pocket.......and I'm not making any money from it ......so I still figure someone's ripping me off...lol...not that it's funny.....and I should probably be doing something else.....but hey...I'm still alive...just ...and that's something....not what I was hoping for...but better than it could be...if I were living on the street .
Gum's I'm going to have to kick the cloves pretty soon or I'll have a habit before too long...but guess what ?
You know my big, well not that big.. maybe a quarter of a dime size....puss bubble ? Well it disappeared over night...
actually a lot of the inflammations gone down....and you can hardly see anything at all...(may it's my parents ?).
So that's good news....actually despite some down time...physically and mentally... I'm probably on the uphill again in terms of coping with all the things life throws at you......and man ...I have has so many raw deal's...it's not fucking funny....I mean if anyone in life has ever been played as a sucker....I feel like it's been me....and I put it down to too many control freaks and not enough people who really know what they're doing or what they're talking about...which probably mean's my professional circles are kind of dwindling....but if you think of it from the point where....I have entrusted myself to professionals....well that hasn't done much good either....well maybe occasionally...I can't say every experience has been bad...actually a lot have been good....but they are getting less and less rather than more and more...
Actually to tell you the truth....round about now...I belong in a scene from a movie....where I can just have a total screaming fit without being told I have to remain rational...being told you have to remain rational...in a place that is sometimes so irrational in it's thinking....could drive a person up the wall....and I really do have to put up with some crap....but I don't want to go on about it......
I might just practice some type of Mantra....and make like a piece of Macaroni Cheese for an hour....then I'm sure I'll be fine.
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7:40p
So today's been an interesting day, started out by going into town and photo-copying a few documents for the Legal Officer, which was fine, then headed off for Marion, basically I figure on that side of town, if you can find Marion you can find anything.....good thing I left early, because it honestly took over 45 minutes to find the place, along with a few misleading directions for the woman next to the bait shop....anyway finally got there...The Marion Community House....and a lot of what occurred I was expecting.
What was I expecting....an answer to a few questions....that's what...you see....last time I was in Legal Aid, they informed me in the meeting that my appeal paperwork would not be successful. I found that kind of strange...because how could one make such an definitive statement without paperwork, of course unless if it's due to the money in my bank account, which let's face it ....at the moment is for work on my gums ...simple as that...
So today after looking at everything...she did inform me that despite the fact that she want's to do the case, most likely because it hasn't been appealed her department couldn't. ....see what I'm saying....mind you know they've got a copy of all police documents...well not all of them....but enough to report back to whoever's in charge right ??
Which most likely she shouldn't have taken that paperwork prior to accepting the case....see what I'm saying....so in actually fact most likely she has unlawful possession.
Mind you, during the meeting she said, if she could take the case on she'd contact the prosecutor and see if she could negotiate with them to withdraw the claim....which personally, I have to tell you, I was thinking they might do anyway...
I also asked with regards to things, (and considering last time I took someone to court, even though I had paperwork that clearly indicated that she'd agreed to pay for the cost of getting the car on the road, she didn't and I ended up having to pay for witness fee's , most likely due to a shonky judge....which in actual fact...I'm still preparing my case to go after them....), what I should plea....because I don't really want to be scammed out of any more money. She asked me if I assaulted her, I informed her of what occurred, and demonstrated, and she said, I should plead not guilty. Which is how I feel as well.
Anyway during the process I told her about my teeth, and today I didn't have a clove in and the gum's pretty sore, I was actually applying some pressure to it....because it tends to relieve the throbbing...I also touched her hand after...and informed her to wash her hands....basically she thought I was being silly....but I was actually being very serious.....I have no idea what it is...it may be infectious...and until that's determined....I think that's correct procedure....I've also told mum I most likely have gum cancer, and she's also going through the denial stage....
Of course there's some crap being said online about people with anger take longer to heal....wound's etc.....but fact is...why's there a wound there anyway ?? Get my point...and I'm not angry, I'm disappointed, and maybe a little frustrated....maybe a little upset....but anger is something I rarely get ....because mainly I take positive action towards resolving the matter that's causing the problem....and if there's shitty racist, representatives, or discriminative people out there...that set out to misrepresent my life...and the person I am...well at the end of the day...I track them down and make them pay...or at least...that's been the game plan so far.... no I'm not out for revenge...but when I don't do a crime and get treated like a criminal...then I'm out for Justice...
You know it's like in the witness statement, and like with the Dental Agency.....both girls accused me of some type of abusing them.....and you know what, I would say, thank's to my training and what I believe....there's a rational explanation for it....and I'll give you an example....when I was in school, the all girl's school that is......a bunch of girls kept on going on about how one of the male teachers was hitting on some girl in a higher grade than me....and you know what....they went on about it for years....even after I left school....but I never saw anything..... so I couldn't say either way if it had or had not occurred....of course if I had seen something....I most likely would have agreed...and it's like my Marketing Teacher at T.A.F.E...I really liked that guy...Jack Rasterhoff...of some similar name....because I found him fascinating....but you know what....the following year...I heard they'd got rid of him because he was gay....and I never saw any evidence of that either....
So first of all....what it starts off as....is a form of discrediting.....(sure I discredit plenty, but I don't lie to support my side of the story)....which, with these younger girls....and let's face it...they have been younger....and I'm not saying age is something that determines everything because there could be lot's of young people that don't lie...but anyway...word get's around....and it creates some type of hysteria.......you know....like "the white man came, stole everything"....the words of one popular song in Australia, which I find completely discriminatory....and most likely should request it be taken off the radio...fact is there are white people from many different countries....and while I don't dispute the fact that...there are white people in this country....there's also Mediterranean, Negro's, Pakistani, Lebanese, European's from a variety of countries, all living in this country...and all taking something from it..or living in it........get my meaning...
Anyway...the day ended with me dropping by Marion....and funny enough...the pimp ice was still there, so I picked up the crown...which is kind of funny because it's not something I ever imagined I'd wear....but I guess after going to London, and experiencing a part of it....(and despite most likely what's a poor perception of me...for whatever reason), I actually feel very comfortable wearing it....I also picked up the glam hat...so I'm sitting here at the moment in a pretty rattie looking outfit....but one I feel comfortable in...ripped jean's and long shirt....
Shitty new's...well how's this...I used to do quite a bit of shopping in surf shop's when I was growing up...and there were some shoes on sale...this shop's very pro Jack Johnson...and I'm not saying that had something to do with it...but maybe it did...but anyway...there's a pair of shoes in there that I took a look at....on sale...put them up against my feet....and thought they're not bad....they were marked down to $50.00 and a pretty good quality U.S shoe....anyway....I thought I'd have a check around elsewhere. ...which I did...sat down and had a drink...and thought I'd go back for the shoes....anyway ...I sit down..try them on...nice fit...I go to try the other one on...and the price on the box was now $100...I kind of debated that with the girl who called me doll, which annoyed me....and ended up leaving without buying them.......but the reason I picked them....was because...they're a brand I quite like...most likely bottom of the range, end of season....but for sale...at $50 that was okay...and they were kind of slip on which is what I've been looking for...anyway...you know...I do still need a pair of shoes...so after leaving the store....I went back maybe 10 mins later to look at their other sale items...and nothing really grabbed me...but you know what...fact is....she could have just put that pair of shoes back on the table....fact is...they weren't there...I mean if it was me...they'd be straight back out on the table..."no what I mean"..
Other weird thing ? There's this guy sitting outside the store with a woman....some form of Government Advertising for Correctional Facility work...I'm really starting to find that whole persona "correctional facility"...kind of creepy...you know like this place....with this "punishment....correctional "...kind of attitude...I mean really...that's like saying I should punish governments that advertise creating baby plans when there's no job's to put them in....you know where do you actually define crime ?...
Anyway that's my blurb for today....need to get on with some work.... probably wasn't in the best mood today...but that was the day...
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8:16p
Oh yeah...and the lawyer...also agreed...in her words..."she mangled your gums"...
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10:45p
So actually a little burnt out after the day and quite a bit of work to catch up on....which I'll leave for tomorrow....so that's it...going to have another shower....and mellow out....
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