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Monday, December 25th, 2006
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5:23p
So not a lot going on, December the 25th is going as well as can be expected, I don't even like to refer to it in terms of what the day is, because it almost makes me feel physically sick these day's. So I guess you could consider this my complete rejection of the Christian faith and all it stands for on this day. Mind you I'm not weasel enough to deny anyone access to comment on my feeling's if they so choose, but again, when you're dealing with individuals in groups that are program to react by defending their faith rather than accepting other's are different, and instead of trying to convert them, letting them go about their lives as usual, that's when you realize you have a conflict of culture and no doubt that is being experienced on the web somewhere today, in fact I could direct you to two page's right off the top of my hat that I know are engaging in that type of activity.
So despite no longer recognizing this day for what it is, and having told my mother last week that I was not interested in celebrating it, well she still bought me some gifts. Which really with me, is a bit of a big no-no. If I actually say I don't want to celebrate something I mean it and if you force the point, well it's just going to make the situation worse, which it did. You know I'm one of these No mean's No girl's, not No mean's Yes, and that applies to everything I say No to.
Mind you I did buy them a couple of gift's. You know just because I don't believe in something doesn't mean, I'm not willing to give, but most likely I gave to them because they're not Christian's, not that it was fun or pleasurable giving to them which it use to be, but that was before I really came to grips with the meaning of Christianity and the History of Christianity. You know they don't go around pretending they're super cool by doing great deed's and act's of kindness, which usually aren't what they appear to be as we've discovered over time. I gave to them because even though they are as un-Christian as one could be, they try to be team players on the day. Which actually if you think about it, really is why I should be more suspicious than ever merely for the fact that my mother is nice to me on the day.
Me well I'm sick of putting it on just for the sake of keeping people happy, simple as that, which refer's to buying gift's for people who when I ask them of their knowledge of Christianity, have no idea, or at least not knowledge that they are prepared to share.
Anyway it wasn't really a happy morning, I haven't opened my present's because like I said, I didn't want any, in fact the whole gift giving thing totally turn's me off. For example I will explain why, the first unopened gift, however in clear wrapping is a "Lazy Boy", now fact is, when I do find a spare moment to lay out the back in the sun, I usually lie on the concrete because it's warm and I like the feeling of it on my back, second usually when it's hot I'll still be wearing my silver fur jacket and I lay that on the ground as the pillow, and I'm happy like that. What I don't need is some shitty fucking designer store cashing in on my mother at Christmas time because she like's to fit in with the crowd.
Thirdly the name of it is an insult and to get a Lazy Boy, when I work my ass of, is a fucking joke. And forth, because she know's that I'll most likely reject it like I do most present's they get me, most time's Christmas, really its just a time for them to give to themselves by giving me shit that they know I'll hate and end up giving back to them. Also I noticed there's some kind of Witchery Clothes shopping bag, which I took a look at after they left for my aunt and uncles, which I haven't opened, but basically she can have that back as well, the fact that she's gone in that shop and even considered that I'd like something from that hole of a clothes shop is a disgrace to me, and the truth is, she'd never buy herself something from there. (And we tend to have similar taste, I mean when she chose the ring that dad bought her for her 40th anniversary, it's kind of similar, in fact a lot, like the one I bought in Hong Kong, except mine doesn't have rubies, and you know if she buy's herself a top , well lately she's been coming home with Volcom, which is one of my favorite brands, so again Fucked Off, and I told her that when I saw her wearing it, that I like Volcom that is). And I don't care how pretty the fucking wrapping box is, because if the truth be know, the box's is probably worth more than the cheap shitty clothes in the box. I fucking hate Witchery, and that's the gift she was getting excited over when she was telling me she'd bought me something. Oh man, Christmas really pisses me off...not only for the religious bullshit, but the shitty crap they sell at Christmas time, and the cheap shit they try to palm off on me as some kind of token of Christian gift giving, which is probably more to the point, Christianity, the religion of the cheap, that's what I should say....lol).
Know why I'm in solitude today, it's because I choose it for myself, because it's better than all the bullshit everyone else is trying to sell me..or give to me for that matter...fuck off cheap skates...remind's me of Howard's Cheap fucking shitty charity wages, through his cheap fucking charity Job Networks...Well this is my Cheap fucking Christmas spew, for Cheap Shitty people just like you.
And if you put your prices up after my little spew, well fucked you too.
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6:03p
and consider yourself richer for me having shared that with you, for now you are wise also..
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10:27p
Hey...it look's like there's some kind of huge diamond crystal paper weight sitting amongst the goodies....
and I'm chomping down on some coconut ice,
I' m sure that diamond wasn't there before, it's like it's made a miraculous appearance...
I'll have to ask some questions when my parents get back from my other uncle and aunt's.
Can you believe I haven't opened anything....
Can you believe I don't want to open anything ??
I'm quite willing to give of my time to God, because I don't hear God asking me for money. The Church that's different, all they want is money, and I don't see them giving any of it away, and they expect me do there work for under pay. I mean isn't it the Church and Government that make people poor if they're not prepared to pay for the work people do ??
I mean at the end of the day, is the gift giving really necessary, I mean when so many can live without, how come so many need so much ? And if you look at it in money term's who really would miss out if no one bought Christmas present's. ..
I know I wouldn't feel any different with or without them....of course their nice to get, and some are even practical. I guess it's better to get a practical gift than an unpractical gift.
But anyway we all have different opinion's ....and as far as work for real pay goes, it seem's the Church gives to the Church...and the Government give to the Church, but neither really give to the people.
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11:17p
So anyway, just had a huge discussion with mum and dad as I opened my presents. I was kind of upset that they'd spent so much, especially after telling them I didn't want to celebrate Christmas, I told them what I liked and why, and I told them what I didn't like and why. As it work's out apparently some of the money from Witchery goes to The Breast Cancer Foundation, and when mum saw the shade's she thought I'd like them, so I guess I'm okay with that. Dad chose the chair, which is really surprising, but I guess it's nice to know he chose it, because it's not something that I imagine him buying for me, a couple of other nice thing's and some catch up birthday present's from family that I didn't even know I hadn't received, so that was nice...and now well just getting ready to upload some Lipcrack cheer.
Plus my cousin popped out a baby tonight...
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