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[13 Nov 2007|09:09pm] |
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Car Crash | Matt Nathanson |
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I wanna feel the bomb drop - the earth stop until I'm satisfied - I wanna feel the car crash - beause I'm dying on the inside - I wanna let go and know that I'll be alright - so right - it's all wrong - I'm wide awake and so alive
I don't know how to describe this day. It started with an immense doubt. But I started trying to find the upside of things when the guy at McDonalds gave me my meal for free. Maybe this was a forshadowing of something good to come. Not really. Today wasn't terrible, but the fact that I feel completely pressured into working for my dad makes it so much worse. I know I owe it to him, and that's the only reason I'm there. I cut so many keys, put so many cylinders together, helped so many bland customers. I think that's the word to define everything. It just felt bland. I can't describe it.
I think if I feel or smell brass at any point for the rest of the night I'll vomit. I have brass all over me. Brass shards stuck in my hands. Do you know the taste of metal? That's all I taste. I didn't even get it in my mouth but I've been surrounded by it all day it's all I can feel. I feel dirty. I hate it, hate it, hate it. I was never cut out to be a locksmith. Ack.
Anyway - I was relieved that the end of the night held some promise. We were finally booking our trip! Dan and I have been planning a trip to Paradise Island for 2 months. Every day I've been looking online for package deals. Mod told me this week to hold off bc she'd give us her last time share. Well... that was the game plan last night. Somehow between last night and tonight though Paradise Island Beach Resort booked up for the entire month of January. They were going to transfer us to another hotel which was completely fine but somehow the rules of changing resorts meant we had to be 21 which Dan is only 20. Everything came up dry and after hours I finally left my parents without a vacation and on the verge of a breakdown.
I cried in the car for about five minutes and called Dan who calmed me down. We decided to say fuck it to everything. We're booking out original package deal from Orbitz tomorrow. That means 5 nights, 6 days for $585 each including air fare. Say what you say, it's a good deal. Yes, we'll be on Bay Street which isn't the classiest, but it sure if the most fun. It's near the Straw Market, shops, and a short trip over the Atlantis. I'm tired of listening to everyone elses advice.
Anyway, Dan's on his way over now. We're going to watch Tila Tequila.
PS. Tanya made a facebook HERSELF! hahaha she is SO funny. She uploaded all of her pictures by herself (I'm really proud of her). After she made it my dad got really jealous. "Wait! Sam! How come I never use my facebook? I want to use mine tooooo! I don't know how it works!" - hilarious.
Goodbyeee. ♥
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