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[29 Nov 2006|01:01am] |
I'm freaking out high.
but dan says ill be okay.
i am freaking out soooo bad.
everythings scary i keep closing my eyes;
but i cant copy and paste
he says it's happened to him plenty of times before
and he's jumpoed out of cars
but im n ot in cars
im in a Gaines novel
and everything is racial
goodngiht,
me
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[29 Nov 2006|07:25am] |
Last night was not intended to be that way. I didnt want to drink so I only had like 4-5 beers. I was still sober. everyone else was destroyeddd. Well they started smoking and Pat and Chris kept trying to convince me to smoke. I had no desire but I knew they wouldnt shut up unless I took atleast one hit. So when it got to me the guys both lit the stem. I swear to God, it was more intense than the night I lost my voice for two weeks.
As soon as I took it I had to get up and walk away. By the time I got to Pats room I was crying because my eyes were watering so bad. I kept wiping at them but they wouldnt stop and Pat came in. "Whoa, whoa are you okay? I'm sorry, I shouldnt have done that" and he just hugged me while I kept wiping my eyes. "Pat, I think my eyeballs are burning out of my head" "hahah no no you'll be fine, thats probably the biggest hit I've ever seen anyone ever take though"
At first it was fun. I mean really really fun. I'd never enjoyed being high so much in my life. I couldn't stop laughing. everything was hilarious. and after 20 minutes I was dunzo. I got in Pats bed and as I went to lay down I shot back up "I want my own bed" and I insisted on walking back. By the time I got back to my dorm though I'd slipped out of the laughing fun stage and was freaking out.
LilRoxybabe (12:53:53 AM): come back
TheSundayDrive (12:53:59 AM): hi
LilRoxybabe (12:54:05 AM): im really scared
TheSundayDrive returned at 12:54:06 AM.
TheSundayDrive (12:54:11 AM): y
LilRoxybabe (12:54:14 AM): im at this reallyt scary high right now
LilRoxybabe (12:54:22 AM): like at first it was soo good but now im scarted
TheSundayDrive (12:54:22 AM): you smoked?
LilRoxybabe (12:54:38 AM): yeah it was stupid and first time ive done it without baltimore friends
LilRoxybabe (12:54:48 AM): but i had to leave pattys
TheSundayDrive (12:55:06 AM): youll be fine
TheSundayDrive (12:55:13 AM): ive freaked out so many times
LilRoxybabe (12:55:26 AM): ive never been like this beforew
LilRoxybabe (12:55:46 AM): i was about to pass out and was like holu shit i need to goback to my dorm
TheSundayDrive (12:55:49 AM): sam once i was driving and i was flipping out and pulled over on the side of the road and just walked around in the middle of the street for like 10 minutes
god it was the weirdest thing everrrr.
and I feel so fucking dumb. I always feel dumb afterwards.
blahhh sorry to you too ashly :-/
anyway can we please review last nights blurty entry?
"I'm freaking out high.
but dan says ill be okay.
i am freaking out soooo bad.
everythings scary i keep closing my eyes;
but i cant copy and paste
he says it's happened to him plenty of times before
and he's jumpoed out of cars
but im n ot in cars
im in a Gaines novel
and everything is racial
goodngiht,
me"
I don't even know.
♥
ps. can I point it how rediculously odd it is that Dan and Pat are so close? I mean like talk online and when Pat went to call Dan to invite him up this weekend Dan was in his phone as Dan Sex Machine. haha I mean I suppose it's not that weird because I talk to Shu online all the time, and I'm facebook friends with Carroll, Steve, Matt and all them haha but we don't make sexual references to each other haha (okay, well maybe matt and I do hahah)
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