| late nights wont do me justice... |
[01 Oct 2005|11:20pm] |
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Motorcyle Driveby | Third Eye Blind |
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I hate first sentences. I never know how to start up a story or where to begin. So I'm just going to go...
I've fallen in love with the song Motorcyle Driveby. It describes so much for me.
I made a decision today crossing over the bay bridge.
Next weekend, I'm going to Bethany.
Whether I go by myself or with Emily and MHB
I'm going, I need to.
I need to take pictures.
I need to see the ocean.
Driving over the bay bridge today was incredible.
The coast is beautiful.
"Summer dies and swells rise
the sun goes down in my eyes"
I hate when things spin out of control.
Friendships will f a d e no matter what you do.
There is no convicing people to hang around.
I hate when people give up.
Every conversations been so dead.
Thing is, I can't truely be myself unless I'm one on one with a person.
He's never seen me in my own environment.
I hate that.
"caving in, any chance that you could see inside of me
and I, I'll know what to say
It's fine, this isn't Hollywood...
I need a picture of that sign.
Moving on, (because thats what I'm doing right?)
I don't know where to find hope anymore.
One person lets me down right after the next.
But it's my fault, because I'm so damn naive.
And technically I wasn't lied to.
I just wasn't told everything.
Why should I be?
I can't expect everyone to have the same morals.
But still, so many times I could have hooked up with someone this summer.
I didn't, because I liked Dan.
But this has nothing to do with Dan.
Sadly enough, he's falling out of my life.
I invited Emily Steve and Little Phil to the game tomorrow.
It upset me, that thats how it even came out.
But I can't do anything about it.
Nothing is ever right.
But hey, the stars were out tonight.
That was a plus.
Thats one of the few fall pluses.
And now I'm listening to Stars and Boulevards.
I miss Bethany.
I wish I knew answers.
Questions hurt.
I'm done writing.
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