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So not much is new. I'm pretty tired from school and track but then again when am I not? I set two goals: 1. get enough of a tan so that im not so pale that i get confused for snowmen and 2. keep building up the muscles in my biceps bc i realllyyyy like how they look right now.
Anyway things are going okay at school. Social life is good, school work is okay, im having a really tuff time in Geometry and i realllyyy dont want to get a C in it. I'm gonna have to start studying alot more in that class if i wanna pull off with a B.
Lunch, I look forward to it more then anything else. I absolutely love school. There aren't many people who say that. Lunch though? Omg It's just like a huge party. Every single time I almost pee my pants of laughter. We're the craziest group of girls you at like one lunch table. Its me, rach, lar, ash, nagle, flora, kelli, tina, claire, taylor, and deirdre all together. So i mean how can you not have fun?
We find the stupidest shit funny though. Like hididng behind our lockers today pretendng we were fugitives bc the teachers were all over the school trying to find us. hahah that was SOOO funny. Ya had ot be there.
And i mean what other school goes bowling in their hallway while blaring the stereo and dancing around to oldies music? Its just fun.
I colored my hair today. it was so AWESOME. I had every color in my hair. I just realllyyy hope it comes out bc i didnt check to see whether it was permanent or washable...and well its not washable so my guess is its permanent and that will SUCKKK!!! I'll like cry hahah.
Anyway Sean and Julia broke up. I felt so unbelievably bad for her. She was crying in spanish class today and i was just like..wow. She liked him soooo much.
I had a chit-chat with Josie today about all of our guy relationships and you know she hangs out with alot of the same types of guys I do. Im sure you know what im talking about...the type that only care about you becase they're going out with you.
She was like yeah have you talked to matt lately? I was like Joz I havent talked to him since we broke up 3 or 4 saturdays ago. She was just like OMG thats exactly how Kyle and Eric are being..they either want to be your boyfriend or not know you at all. I swear, every time I think I have found a good guy im fooled. Matt? I seriously that he was like the sweetest guy on the face of the planet. Too bad i didnt realize it was only bc i was hsi girlfriend. As soon as we broke up though he completel stopped talking to me. But whatever, his loss not mine.
Anyway, my parents are out with Mandy and Dave straightening everything out. Dad picked me up from school today and we were talking and he was telling me that he finally convinced mom to make up with them bc he got in a fight with her. Something about she went on about how much of jerks they were and he flipped out saying that by the time she was done being mad at everybody they were going to have no friends and all they would do is sit aorund for the rest of their lives playing cards with the Haydens. The thing is I completely see where hes coming from. My mom complains about everyyyoone: the klines, trombettas, randy and sharon, mark and laura, betty and kevin...apparently its like everybody is annoying to her.
I think my dad and I are getting a lot closer. Or maybe its just bc im growing up but he actually told me something that I didnt think id hear. I guess I just didnt realize how many ppl dont like my mom untill my dad told me that one of their friends was having a party and they invited him but told him not to bring my mom. I could understand if it was a guy party, but it was evert couple was going, but they didnt want my mom to come.
But yeah i hope this arguement comes together bc if mandy and dave dont come up for christmas im never speaking to the four of them againnn.
So on to other things..last night was so weird for me. I deffinitly told phil how i was feeling. I mean, I knew I wanted to tell him and i knew what i wanted to say, it just wouldnt come out. I couldnt let myself tell him. Maybe its because im so used to pushing my feelings under and forgetting about them. I only told him though bc he was asking, other wise i never would have brought myself to tell him. It seriously took me a good half an hour to stutter aboue a bunch of words and im not sure they even made sense haha. I know i sound rediculous but I dont let anyybodddyy know how im feeling. I'm just a really private person believe it or not. I'll tell people my basic emotions but never go into depth.
Maybe I just dont trust alot of people. Or maybe I fear rejection. I dont know what it is. But last night was deffinitily really hard for me to tell him.
So okay now that im done blabbling about all of that stuff im off, chris is picking me up in 10 minutes. we're gonna go xmas shopping at rite-aid and get ice-cream and all that shizzy before it starts snowing. I hope it snows, but im not getting my hopes up.
You know what else? Elizabeth Kolberg REALLY isnt thaaattt bad. I actually had an extreemmeellyy funny conversation with her and i mean, i dunno, she doesnt bother me. I dont get what the big deal is that everyone hates her. I mean i wouldnt consider her a friend but im also not gonna sit there and make fun of her constantly, shes a really nice person who is just trying to fit in wayyy to hard. I eman its got to be hard when youve been trying for an entire year to fit in and still have no friends. She's a hell of a lot better then Liz Lange haha oh man i wanna punch her sometimes.
Ok im done talking, BYEEEE!!
mucho love lovers
<3 ESTA~ESTA... and yes oehrla it is spelled right so BITE ME!
PS. Saturday will be the 1 year mark since my first shot of tequilla!! right ash? haha crazy night
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