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[27 Sep 2003|10:01pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | "QUiTTeR" = EmInEm <3 ]

sorry..
i have moved.
if you'd like to still read..
you can get me at
www.greatestjournal.com/users/__babiiqurl__
xox jessie

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[22 Sep 2003|05:58am]
[ mood | awake ]

i have some time before i leave for school, so i figured, ahh what the hell, let's update.

well this weekend was fucking crazy. friday me, toria, and elyse went to wallgreens, got the pills, the usual. right after we took them, tommy calls us from pete's cell phone. he said the were down by stop and shop and needed our help, so we went down there. when we got there, we knew why tommy needed us. he was with john paul, john ross, mosca, and pete - whom were all drunk out of their minds - and these kids frank and brian. so, john paul, mosca, and brian left to go idk somewhere, and we were trying to get the rest of them to shitbricks. somewhere along the line baber showed up.
it was a fucking mission and a half trying to get them there, but we finally made it. okay, this is when everything starts to get confusing, cuz the pills started to kick in.
okay, we went to shitbricks, but i really don't remember much of what happened. one of the only parts i remember is that i was lying on the bed thing and tommy was sitting next to me and all of a sudden elyse grabbed me and kissed me. lol go figure. then tommy was hitting on me. i totally brushed him off because
[to be continued]

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[16 Sep 2003|10:25pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | 8 mile ]

whore
it's a funny word. everyone seems to use it, but do any of us really know what it means? is it a girl that flirts too much? or a girl that hooks up with a new boy every week? or maybe a girl that cheats on her boyfriend?
or a guy. why can't a guy be classified as a whore? why can a guy cheat on his girlfriend, and fuck as many people as he pleases, and all of his friends think he's a big shot? but a girl can make one stupid mistake, and be branded for the rest of her life?
society..
go figure.

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[15 Sep 2003|08:55pm]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | NoNe, CoMp BRoKeN! ]

i hate school. there's so much work to do, and i just don't wanna do it. i hate it. i really should do it, but i really don't feel like it. i saw keith after school today, which was good. i miss him so much. i hate only being able to see him on the weekend. mostly because i have lots of school stuff to do on the weekends, too. and he has hockey and stuff. and we never get to be alone, there's always other people around. and i miss just being alone with him and talking and stuff. and we're barely ever going to be able to do that pretty soon. i'm thinking about transfering to bhs. i'd rather not, but he really wants me to. so i think i'll transfer after midterms, if my mom lets me. i'm really gunna miss sda tho. oh idk, i guess we'll just have to wait and see. well, everwood is starting, and i have a lot of work to finish. so i guess i'll be going now.

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[14 Sep 2003|11:30am]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | STePHeN LyNcH "ThAtS WhY MoMMy LeFt [ThE DiVoRcE SoNg]" ]

hey. okay, i will start updating a lot more than i have been. i've jsut had a lot going on so jsut bare with me. also, by next weekend i will start commenting again. don't take me off you're friends list, just give me about a week to get everything in order. well, i should go get ready.
xox jessie

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[13 Sep 2003|09:16am]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | taking back sunday x your own disaster ]

wow, it's been so long since i've updated. i've been badly neglecting my blurty lately. but, thats mostly because of how busy i've been. summer was awesome. i'm sad to see it end. the last month of summer has been one of the best months of my entire life. well, hm.. let me see what's been going on lately.

i love keith. he is the greatest. next saturday will be together for two months. he is one of the best people i've ever met. he's such a sweetheart. he cares about me so much, it's so unbelievable. i hope things stay like this. not only is he my boyfriend, but he is also one of my best friends in the entire world. i can tell him anything and he won't say a word. and that is a very rare quality for people in bayonne to possess.

school just started monday. ::cringes:: i've had so much homework this week. everynight i have at least 2 hrs of bio homework, on top the homework i've had in spanish, bible studies, geometry and algebra II. but whatever, i just gotta get into the grove of things and i'll be striaght. and i must develop myself some better study habbits. i plan on getting really good grades this year. and i'd like to be exempt[sp?] from most of my finals. that would be hot. i have an english class with cara, u.s I with elyse, all of my other classes either lauren, gina, salt, jorda, rizza, and palak are in. so i have friends in all my classes which is good. and most of us have 4th period lunch, which has it's ups and downs. i get to have lunch with everyone.. but i hate 4th period lunch. and i have no studies, because of 5-yr math. which blows.

the last two weeks of summer i started hanging out with cara again. i don't know why i hadn't been with her all sumer. i guess we both just had our own clique and they really didn't mesh too well. but one day i was at Keith's and he ran to the store, and when he came back he was like "i brought you a surprise" and then there comes cara. i was so happy. she's such a good friend of mine, and i've really been neglecting her. she had to go through a lot of shit this summer, and i feel so horrible because i didn't know about it, so i wasn't there for her. she was there for me, and i just wasn't there for her. it didn't happen too long before i started hanging out with her, so i can try to sort out the aftermath with her.

i finally got my leela back. for a long time she was always with nicole. but now cheryl is hanging around with all them now, and elyse hates cheryl, so she has a reason not to go there anymore. that whole month-ish without elyse was just horrible. but now things are like they used to be, so that's good. she's with me everyday, and stays over most nights. actually, she just woke up and is in the living room right now.

last night was weird. there was so much fighting going on, i was so confused. keith got himself into a couple, and i believe he instigated the others. yup, that's keith for you. i ran into pete, john paul, ross, mosca, and baber. i haven't seen them in forever. mosca was a little intoxicatd last night. all night long, he was just telling me how he doesn't hate me and how he's sorry we haven't talked in so long. [fyi: we hooked up, and it kinda fucked up the friendship]. and then, when i went home i was talking to elyse. five mintues later she called be back, because mosca wanted her to tell me he didn't hate me. and he got on the phone and started talking to me. it was funny, because he was drunk. but it was weird at the same time. because when peopl are drunk, they tend to say lots of things that are true, but they wouldn't bring it up if they were sober. so idk. maybe we'll start hanging around them again. well, i should go eat breakfast now. byee<33
xox jessie

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[30 Aug 2003|09:07pm]
[ mood | irritated ]
[ music | LuCy WooDWaRd "DuMb GiRLs" ]

wow.

sorry i haven't updated in so long.

haven't had the time.

i won't start updating and commenting until school starts.

sept. 8

until then

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[11 Aug 2003|11:54am]
[ mood | giggly ]
[ music | eminem x as the world turns ]

okay. here's my new rule:

i am deleting my friend's list.

i'm sick of reading a million and one journals, and not getting any comments in return.

want to be added?

comment on this entry.


thank you
xox jessie

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you know how we do it, feet to sholders.. [09 Aug 2003|10:28pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | sean paul x get busy ]

::WARNING::
this may offend certain people, considering it is extremely obvious of whom i am speaking.
if you have a problem - tough ; deal with it
don't like it? don't read it
rude comments can be brushed off with a simple click of my mouse


lalala. people are so full of themselves. they really are. think the entire world revolves around them. amussing, actually. i love how someone i haven't talked to in what seems like years, tells me i have no friends... yet this person is the one whom sits in the house all day long, alone. and knows every single detail of everything i do. talk about pathetic. christ, at least i'm out. sorry if i have 4 or 5 people i'm close to, and i'd rather spend more time with them, then people i can't trust. and yeah maybe i'm with the same people everyday, but i've had more fun in the past month with them, then i had in a year with the before meantioned.

people get themselves into way too much shit. if you wanna talk shit, make sure you can back it up. don't talk shit, then deny it. at least if i have something to say to someone, i say it to them. or if they hear i've said it, i'll fess up to it. one thing i hate is liars. and two faced people. and people who talk shit, just to get what they want. also, i hate people who talk more shit on me than anyone else ever has, and then think they can tell me what i can do and who i can be with or around. my own mother can't even get me to do that, and this person should know this above anyone else. so GET A LIFE and stop trying to control mine. doesn't work anymore. sorry sweetheart. you have a new sucker now. control her.

hmm.. how about an update now, shall we?

my mom drove me to nanny's, so i could keep nicole company while she was babysitting. elyse was already there. nicole was watching meghan and rachel nicole. omfg, rachel is so mutherfucking adorable. looks just like my uncle, of course. and she's got the ruge cheeks, just like most of us, including me, had when we were babies. she was so cute ;]

i left there, and went to dave's. i got there just as he was getting out of the shower. he got ready, and we went to the hospital to visit his grandfather. we saw vic [at least thats what i think is name is ; i'm not too favorable of him, so i never bothered to learn his name] and he walked with us. nicole called when i was on 23rd st. and told me to wait for her and elyse, while vic went with dave to the hospital. well, while i was waiting, it started to pour. i gave nicole her money, and then walked to meet dave. i waited with vic in the waiting room, and played michael's game boy. when dave was done, it was still raining, and we walked to chuck's to get the radio back. he wasn't home, of course. so we walked back to dave's, and vic went back to his house. we got there, and we were really bored. i gave dave a massage [fyi ; i give the best massages, so him and keith are always asking for them], and then we layed on the bed and went to sleep. we woke up at around 8. i chilled there for a while. then at about 9, i gave him his 5 newports, took the rest of the pack [i take them so he smokes less ; if he won't quit, i'm gunna make sure he cuts down], and he walked me to the bus stop. he waited with me til my bus came, as usual. and i went home. i left dave with my cell phone. i'm always promising he can keep it one night, and last time i let him keep it i fought with my dad and had to get it back. luckily, my dad's not home. no fight, and dave can keep the phone for the night.

well i'm about to call dave, write keith, then go to bed.

comment becuase you love me

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[08 Aug 2003|11:56pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | watching friend or foe ]

people are so fucking pathetic.

they really need to get a life.

if you're reading this, which i KNOW you are, because you are just that pathetic, please, do yourself a favor, and get a life.

and while you're at it


get over yourself.


please.


xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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[06 Aug 2003|11:28am]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | 504 boyz x i can tell you wanna ]

ugh i hate this house. my dad started screaming at my little sister for no reason, and iw as like "barbara, just say yes so he'll shut up" and he flipped on me. he treid to come into my room, take away my pictures, and tell me i had to go to sleep. fuck that. just because he got away with that when i was 6, doesn't mean he can pull that shit with me now. it's not even his house. so we started fighting more, and i walked out of my room, basically telling him to go fuck himself, it wasn't his house, he couldn't tell me what to do like that. by this point, i had walked into the kitchen. he grabbed me by the back of my head, dragged me into my room, and threw me down next to my bed. i got right back up, told him never to touch me like that again, slammed the door in his face and locked it. he told my mom to get my cell phone from me. and of course, last night i let dave keep it for the night. he was like "i don't give a fuck where you have to walk, go get me the fucking phone." so i grabbed my keys and walked out the door, with every intention upon going to dave's and staying there. but, my mother grabbed me, and wouldn't let me leave unless she drove me. so she drove me sown there. i rang the bell, and his mom answered. she was asking me what happened, and i just told her i fought with my dad. i was still shaking, and when dave saw me, he would not let me leave until i told him what happened. i was crying as i told him, and when i was done.. he was flipping. i told him to calm down, cuz it was my fault, i started with him and asked for it. dave was like "no.. there's no reason he should of done that." i just couldn't stop crying. dave just sat there and held me and comforted me for the longest time. i had to stop crying so i could go back to the car. like 15 min. later, i went back to the car, got bitched at the whole way home.

i called dave when i got in, and talked to him for a while. idk what i would've done last night without him. he's so protective over me, and i love him for it. i mean, if it weren't for him, i would've had no one last night. he didn't care about the ifght or why it started. he just wanted to make sure i was alright, and that's all he was worried about. i will always love dave for that.

well, i'm on the phone with him right now. i just needed to update. i think i'm gunna go get dressed, call elyse, and then head down to dave's house. later.

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[03 Aug 2003|02:23pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]
[ music | nfg x before you met me ]

dave better get here soon. or i'm just going to leave without him. which i really don't wanna do. i wanna chill with dave today. i love chillin with dave. he's awesome. i just need to get out of this house before my dad finds something else to fight about, or before my mom finds something else to bitch about.

i'm so tired. i barely got any sleep. i'm in withdrawal[sp?]. it's been an entire day since i've talked to/seen keith. i miss him. i didn't think i'd miss him this much, but i do. thank god for dave. he keeps my mind off missing him. i didn't go to sleep til like 4-5 this morning. i just couldn't sleep. after elyse called me, i could not sleep. i organized shit in my room, cleaned out this box and made it my new 'memory box'. i filled it with shit, like old newspaper articles, my ball chain, old notes, birthday cards.. yeah, i save all shit like that. then i went through all my pictures and fixed up my photo albums. and i wrote a letter. then i couldn't find anything to do, so i layed down and forced myself to sleep.

i woke up at about 10 and called dave. he didn't answer, cuz of course he was sleeping. i layed down, and he called back at like 11:30. i went to straighten my hair, so i could go to dave's. as i was letting it heat up, i went in my room and called nicole to ask if i could borrow some change, so i could take the bus back from dave's. she said yeah. as i was on the phone.... joey went into the bathroom, and burned himself with my straightener. not badly, he just touched it, and it was hot. so of course... asshole comes out of the room.. starts blacking.. i just locked myself in my room so i wouldn't have to listen. he threw out my striaghtener. i took it back and hit it downstairs in the hallway closet. he's awake now. i really wish dave would get here so i can leave before he realizes it's gone. i'm either going to bring it to dave's or nicole's. i'm just not bringing it back here. pathetic, isn't it? that i have to hide my shit in someone else's house, so my dad, whom is a guest in this fucking house wont trash it. god i hate him. i love him.. but i can't stand him in my house. he's so miserable, which makes my mom miserable. which makes her black on me for no reason.

i'm hungry, but i don't feel like eating. dave better get here. i think i might just go wait outside for him. or maybe i'll go to nicole's, and have my mom call me if dave comes. then again, i don't think i'm up for the walk to nicole's by myself. i dont fucking know. i need something to do. please, someone IM me -- laziebum69. if im not on, maybe that means dave finally showed up.

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i wanna fall in love tonight... [03 Aug 2003|01:31am]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | gc x the young and the hopeless ]

well it's been a while since i've updated. me and keith have been going out for two weeks now. i love him so much. he's such a sweetheart, he honestly is. he left for P.A. today. he's gunna be gone for two weeks, but hopefully just one. on my way to dave's house.. i stopped by his house, and caught him just as he was about to leave. lol aw, he was so happy i went to see him. he saw me walking, and ran up the block and grabbed me.. it was so cute. omfg i miss this kid so much.

well, i know how annoying it is when people just go on and on and on about their boyfriends, so i'll jsut shut up about keith now. but i love him<3333 lol.

well, today i spent the whole day with dave. i walked so much today. i walked from my house to dave's, back to my house, then back to dave's. that's about a three mile walk, each way. and it was so fucking hot today. well, on my way to dave's i saw toni ann, talked to her for a bit, then saw keith before he left. when i got to dave's, first thing i did was just drop on the bed. lol i was so tired. he was waiting outside for me, which was good. i just better get used to the walk, because while keith's gone, i have strict orders to stay with either dave or elyse, so i'll be with someone that'll "take care of me" while he's gone. lol, i love his overprotectiveness. it's so adorable. plus, he knows dave is just as overprotective over me...

yeah anyway, at about 4-ish we took a walk up to foot locker. my mom called, wanted me to watch joey. so i walked to my house. dave came and met me. when my mom got back, we walked back to dave's. i met christina today. i knew it was her, because she had the baby with her. i love little chris. i hate christina, because she's a bitch that doesn't let chris see his fucking son, but i love that baby. that child is the epitome of chris. anyway, when we got back to dave's, that girl was outside the building. [one day keith took dre down to global with two girls, and left them there when him and i went to get his mom, told dre he wasn't gunna drive 'em back cuz they smoked, and when one of the girls called, stupid bitch chrissy answered the phone and started with her, and they think it was me]. she lok at me hard as hell, but didn't say anything. dave told world, and he talked to her. i think she was mad,cuz she told me if she ever caught me downtown she was gunna hit me. there was no fucking way i was gunna aviod dave's just because she lives in the same building. whatever..

talked to brian about the missy thing. can't believe she did that.

went back to dave's. aww, his dad's friend's kids were there.. the one baby was so cute!!~ gave dave yet another massage, and then left. he walked me to the bus stop and waited there with me. i love dave. he's the best.. then again, everyone loves dave lol.

elyse called when i was on the bus. called dave when i got home, called elyse back, called dave again. got off the phone, tried to sleep. didn't work. i miss keith too much. elyse called about on hour ago. told her about the day. then she went to bed.

now i've ran out of thing to write, as you may already be able to tell. i'll update whenever. comment please.
xox jessie

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[23 Jul 2003|06:05pm]
[ mood | moody ]
[ music | mest x chelsea ]

hey. wow, its been a while since i've updated, and so much has been going on. i've been with keith like everyday for the past week. all weekend long, everytime we were alone, he would ask about us and when we were gunna get together. i finally said yes late sunday night. markie was at keith's the other night, which was really weird, because i know him as one of idiots friends, so that was kinda odd. turns out he knows me cousin mike. lol i must look like a ruge, cuz that was the first question he asked me the other day. well, lemme see if i can remember what i did these past few days..

um, friday i called keith when i woke up, like i promised. him and dre came and picked me up at around 3:30. they drove elyse to nicole's job, and the three of us picked up two of dre's friends, and went down to global. we left dre and those two girls there so we could go pick up keith's mom. we picked her up, and dropped her off at the house. then we went driving around. we saw his two friends paul and chrissy and they came with us. [i hate chrissy. she likes keith.. she just annoys me]. we drove around with them. we went to 1st street to go pick up nicole and elyse. we went around the block, because we found the jump we wanted to do, and when we came back, nicole was all bitchy cuz we 'left her'. so we left. we left dre at global haha. i know it's really mean.. but at the time it was funny. we wound up at paul's by the end of the night. i guess i was in a bad mood, cuz keith pissed me off, and i just left. he called, and said he'd call me in the morning and we'd talk about what happened. then i ran into albert, and he drove me home.

saturday was joey's birthday party. i woke up when keith called me. i got ready, and went over to his house. i planned on walking, but when i got to 42nd, i ran into my aunt carla and she was nice enough to drive me. keith came outside to meet me, and we went upstairs, where markie was. it was kinda weird being around markie, but he's really cool. um, they were watching a movie, but um, me and keith never got to finish it lol. we stayed at the house for a while, and then keith took the car out. we picked up casey, and then drove to the store, and then to global. we stayed there for a lil while, but casey had to be back at 9:30, so me and keith left to drive her home. we drove around.. and picked up paul and chrissy. i had him drop me off at nicole's, cuz i did not wanna be around that girl. the second i got there, elyse gave me this huge lecture about how much of a sweetheart keith is, and how i should go out with him because he likes me so much.... and she said a lot of things that made a lot of sense. so.. i started rethinking me whole no boyfriend rule.

sunday, i went to nicole's apartment and watched kassie and julia while elyse and nicole went to go do the laundry. when they came back, we got the girls ready, and went to my uncle mike's to go swimming. on the way, dave called. nicole, me, and the girls went straight to my uncle's, and elyse took the bus down to first street to get dave. so we all went swimming, then we started to make our way to dave's. we walked up cottage, and stopped at the park. the girls played for a bit, then we went up hobart, and visted nanny and walter. my mom called while we were there -- she was drunk. haha, i had andy drive by so elyse could see my mom drunk, because she never has. then we walked to dave's. we stayed there for about an hour, and then took the bus back uptown. i got off on 25th, to go to keith's. he wasn't there, but markie was, so markie came and met me and let me in. i stayed there for a while, then me and markie left to go find keith. we did.. he was being stupid.. i heard some stuff that got me mad, so i left. markie was going to pick something up on 50th, so he walked me most of the way home, which was good because i wasn't looking foward to walking alone. later that night, keith called me. we talked til like 2:30. then he woke me up at like 7:30. lol yeah, so i didnt get too much sleep that night.

monday i went down the shore. i came back tuesday morning. i had my mom drop me off at keith's when we got back. of course, i got a huge lecture about how i can't go to keith's cuz of where he lives... which my mother totally overreacts about, because it is not a bad place at all, my mom's just stupid, and exactly like my grandmother. well, i was there for about an hour before i called elyse. we took the car and went to pick her up, cuz it was raining and we didnt wanna make her walk all the way from jersey city. at 5, elyse went around the corner to get nicole. they came back, we stayed at keith's for a while, then he's dad drove us to quick check. drama, of course, then we all walked to 48th. keith and elyse spent the night at nicole's, and i went home.

today, keith and elyse came here at like 9, and we went out. if elyse hadn't taken sooo long, i could've gotten out of there before my mom woke up. ugh, but of course we didnt, and she was bitching. i stayed at keith's til 11, then went to get my braces off!! haha i'm so happy. it feels weird without them there. anyway, after that i went back to keith's until like 1:03 when my mom called bitching that i had to go home. she was downstairs, so she drove me. and i've been stuck in this house ever since. ::sighs:: elyse called before, because keith had the car and wanted to come pick me up, but she wouldn't let me out. i'm about to call my mom right now, and ask her if i can go out for a few hours. when i come home, i'll try to comment on everyone.
xoxox

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[22 Jul 2003|10:03pm]
[ mood | tired ]

hey guys. sorry i havent been updating or commenting. i've been so busy. im getting my braces off tomorrow! i'll update tomorrow if i can but right now im beat so im going to sleep. nite
xox jessie

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[21 Jul 2003|10:58am]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | 112 x cupid ]

hey. sorry i haven't been updating or commenting lately. i've been really busy. im packing, cuz im leavin for the shore in an hour. when i get back, i'll write about everything.. including my wonderful boyfriend<333
later days<3333

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why can't eveyday be this good? [18 Jul 2003|12:13am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | simple plan x when i'm with you ]

i wish everyday was as great as today was. elyse left at about 12 to go watch cassie and julia. at about 3 max IMed me.. lazy ass slept like all day, but he got ready and came down here. while i was gettin ready and waiting for max to get here, kim IMed me, and asked if we could chill. so her and tara came here, and we waited for max. when max got here, we went for a little walk on broadway, and then came back to my house, cuz max was bitching that it was too hot out, and that he needed to be in air conditioning. so, we came here, and went in the living room, and played with joey. omfg max was being so funny today. a lot of it is that "you had to be there" stuff, but it was awesome. i forgot how funny max is. he got his slippers[they're my white slippers with blue daisy things on them ; when i had elyse's surprise party here last year, max stepped in dog shit, and had to wear my slippers in the house] and got joey's little chair daddy got him last year, and was sitting there, making himself right at home. then he sat in the recliner, and had me giving him hand massages with my lotion. lol well, after we all got sick of joet squirting us with water guns, and throwing chairs at tara, we went in my room. max came in, and started playing with midget's lotion and hand cream and crap. he was spraying stuff all over tara, and there was all this glittery crap on my floor afterwards. i found out max is ticklish!! lol yeah thats was fun. he IMed ryan and idk said something to him.. prolly that i wanted him or something. when ryan IMed me back, i told him how it was max, and i aplogized for w.e he said. then ryan was like "o0o why is max at your house? max and jessica are getting it on.." i was like uhh, no. lol its not like that with me and max. well tara nd kim left to go eat dinner, and it was just me and max. at one point my mom knocked on my door. she was like "your father's on his way home, you can't have this door shut and locked... omg make your bed!!!" lol she was like flipping out, cuz my dad is an ass, and would prolly assume that something happened. i wasl like "yeah ma, we had wild sex in here, while you were right in the other room"... my dad would believe something like that too. well, not too long after that, max's mom called and he had to leave. ;'[ which left me, here, in my house.. all alone and bored.

after a little while, kim and tara came back. we stopped by 54th, then we went to the hall. kim and tara seemed bored with my friends lol, so they left. kim still has my ring!! the rest of the night i chilled with chris, kevin, joe d, shayna, and skye. kiki and dre showed up. yeah, it was weird being around kiki. cuz i haven't seen him since i told him i didnt like him..... and i think he still likes me, and its weird. he wants to chill tomorrow.. idk if im gunna call or not. well, anyway, being at the hall was just as funny. chris had a shirt with him, and he kept hitting kevin and joe d in the balls. omg it was the funniest when he got kevin. haha, just cuz kevin makes everything so funny. chris was being..... like the rest of the boys tonight, and i wasnt liking it. he was picking on me!! joe d like fuckin wrapped the shirt around my neck and tried to kill me. and kevin put me in a headlock and i coulnd't breathe. lol whatever it was all in good fun.

on my way home, i ran into amanda. she told me how she saw asshole yesterday. ::barfs:: im just really glad i didnt go out til like 8 yesterday.. cuz idk what i would've done if i saw him. thats the only thing i hate about monica moving back here.. before she moved, he had no reason to come to my end of town. now she lives not too far from me, and right by where i am everyday. im gunna see him one of these days.. and i really dunno how im gunna feel about that. i hate him so much.. and i know it'll kill me to see him.

well, with the exception of amanda bringing him up.. today was perfect. i wish everyday could be as fun, as carefree, as drama-less as today was. for once.. i think im gunna go to sleep happy..
xoxoxoxo <333333

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bored... [16 Jul 2003|11:25pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | 50 cent x high all the time ]

right now im sitting in my room, the only light coming from the computer screen. elyse is laying on midget's bed, listening to my CDs. im bored out of my freakin mind. im talking to max, making plans for tomorrow. i haven't seen my maxi in a while, i hope he comes here tomorrow. here's a peice of our convo:

Maxi DA Taxi [11:03 PM]: who watches Joey tomorrow?
LaZiEbUm69 [11:05 PM]: um.. i think my mom will have him, unless she's stupid
Maxi DA Taxi [11:06 PM]: She takes him to work?
LaZiEbUm69 [11:06 PM]: no no no.. my mom's teacher remember?
Maxi DA Taxi [11:06 PM]: So she takes him to school?
LaZiEbUm69 [11:07 PM]: max it's summer...
Maxi DA Taxi [11:07 PM]: So ure mom walks around the house with him?

lol i <33 max. he's such a loser, but so damn lovable. and really hot too lol. okay, well today i went to coley's.. fun right? me and elyse were bored out of our minds, but we knew we couldn't leave, cuz nicole wouldn't go out. so after a bit, we got bitched at about rice[ i dont even feel like explaining right now], and me and elyse left. she was gunna go home, but she decided just to stay here tonight. so, we went to the hall. kevin, skye, and shayna were there. we chilled there.... nicole showed up, later follwed by missy. dre came by, which was weird, cuz dre is never up there anymore. bobby d rode by on his bike.. grrr.. i hate that kid. shayna was like "i hope you rot in the hell" lol yes, she said 'the hell'. we had a big fight with sunflower seeds.. it made a big mess. that j-slut guy and his brother or whatever stopped by, too. idk about those kids. then the cops made us leave, just as chris was walking up. explain to me why the city would put a bench on broadway if we can't sit on it? ha, it could have something to do with all the fights we're involved in, and that girl's car window that we broke.. but whatever. me, elyse, kevin, chris, shayna, and missy walked to 41st. chris and kevin went to their mom's house, and shayna and missy went to my sister's house. we stayed outside the house and talked to kevin and chris for a few mintues, then me and elyse went back to 38th, and stayed with nicole and skye til about 10:15, then we got bored, and went back to my house.

which leaves me here now, writing this. ugh max finally IMed me back after like 20 million hours.. well.. i think that's about it...
later days<3333

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[14 Jul 2003|07:07pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | nfg - boy crazy ]

ahh im so fucking bored. this weekend was good. my sister was gone, so that kinda helped. me and elyse were two lazy fucks. we did nothing but stay in and sleep all day. i swear, the earliest we would go out was 7. my sister is really pissing me off lately. she does nothing but belittle me like a stupid fuck and it just makes me wanna slap the shit outta her. i'm too young to do anything, but elyse isn't. she doesn't tell me shit anymore, and is always bitching. and to top it off she wants me to tell her every fucking thing i do. why should i? she either bitches, lectures me, or threatens to black mail me with it. jesus fucking christ.. and she tried to say asshole tried to control me. helloooooo, wtf is she doing? i need a sister, not another mother. omfg whatever im not in the mood to write anymore....
<33333

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