stupid boys...and the even stupider girl who puts up with it   
11:51pm 28/11/2004
 
mood: depressed
music: none
apparently guys don't want to date the girl who'll bend over backwards and go totally out of her way to make them happy. i know i know i deserve better and i that i'm better than this..but part of me is still hoping that he'll call.

i don't understand it..what exactly is wrong with me? can someone please tell me? because really i don't understand why no one wants me.		  
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And the boredom sets in   
09:09pm 16/11/2004
 
mood: bored
How well do you know me??

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it..
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. Have we ever met?
5. If yes, what was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in 5 words.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20: What song reminds you of me?
21: If we haven't met, would you want too?
22: Would you hit this shit if you could?
23: Whats your favorite thing about me?
24: Your least favorite thing about me?
25: Any last words?		  
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le sigh   
09:23pm 12/11/2004
 
mood: lonely
I really need to start dating guys who care about me as much as I care about them		  
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revelations   
11:36am 01/11/2004
 
mood: cheerful
music: Anything by Howie Day
So I don't get to see Mike for almost a month because of school and midterms and it's definitely not something I hold against him...Actually I told him off the bat when school started up again it comes first...but of course not seeing him did lead me to wonder if I really liked him or if he was just another guy that I happened to know. Well I got my answer the other night. He took the night off from studying the other night and he decided to use it to see me instead of sleeping or hanging out with his friends...but more to the point..I got extremely excited that I was getting to see him. So apparently this guy is definitely one whose worth it.		  
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do guys like this really exist and if they do, point me towards them pleeeaaase!   
11:47am 17/10/2004
 
mood: cranky
music: Dropkick Murphys - The Dirty Glass
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face, the boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

why the hell can't I find a guy like that??? what exactly did I do wrong in my life to constantly date total jackasses???


I found this on someone else's blog on myspace..I thought I'd steal it		  
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just thought I'd let everyone know....   
05:39pm 10/09/2004
  I'm not celebrating my birthday this year  
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10:13pm 30/08/2004
  maybe one day with the help of many hours of therapy and a good anti-depressant I'll actually be happy  
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yay i'm marilyn monroe   
05:20pm 15/08/2004
  marilynmonroe
You are Marilyn Monroe. You seem happy on the
outside, yet you are haunted by inner demons.


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I miss my gramma   
07:38pm 13/08/2004
 
mood: grateful
music: Any song by Elvis will do
I was looking through a book of quotes that I bought for my grandmother for her birthday last year. I found a few that seemed extremely fitting.

FROM A GRATEFUL GRANDDAUGHTER

For as long as I can remember you were always there
To teaching me how to love others, and how to love myself...
And to look for the good in everyone.
You were always there to listen,
to hold my hand, and to hug me.
Your joy for life and nurturing care have been a major influence in my life.
Thank you for being my grandmother.

"Grandmas are the sort of people that are absolutely full up where there is only one cream cake on the plate." ~Beverly AnnThould; Age 12

"We should all have one person who knows how to bless us despite the evidence, Grandmother was that person to me..."

"No one...who has not known that inestimable privilege can possibly realize what good fortune it is to grow up in a home where there are grandparents."

"It's very hard on you, when you are struggling to learn the rules - even of rebellion - to be saddled with a grandma who has outlived those rules. And sits on a wall when her feet ache. And laughs too loudly in the cinema. And talks to strangers at bus shelters. And to waiters."

Anyone who knew my grandmother half as well as I did would know all of these things are true about her. As much as I complained about her one of the biggest blessings in my life was growing up with her living living in our house. I got to see all of the everyday things and here all of the stories that most people would for granted. I was blessed with memories of things that to most grandchildren would seem trivial.

Gramma I love you XOXOXO

<3 R.I.P. Phyllis A. Malloy February 15, 1929 - August 5, 2004 		 
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blah   
11:02pm 12/08/2004
 
mood: blah
looks like my vacation is going to suck...oh well like that's any different from any other day for the rest of my life...		  
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grrr....   
10:39am 27/07/2004
 
mood: exhausted
music: Unwell - Matchbox 20
maybe one of these days something good'll actually happen to me...like I'll meet Elijah Wood at a bar in the city and we'll fall madly in love and run off to vegas and get married....		  
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yay for no sleep last night   
04:05pm 09/07/2004
 
mood: exhausted

Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty


Who's Your Inner Buffy Bad-Girl? Find out @ She's Crafty



Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty		  
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You should always read the warning labels   
02:51pm 04/07/2004
 
"ACHTUNG!
Jessi Loeven may actually be a spider-human hybrid

Username:

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le sigh   
08:26pm 02/07/2004
 
mood: contemplative
music: Ghost- Howie Day
Against my better judgment I said fuck it and went out and got Ralph's with Hope last night (let's just ignore the fact that I'm so broke I had to grub a dollar off my brother). Then we went and sat on her porch until midnight talking about all the people we knew way back in the days of hanging out at the brew. It all came about because she was telling me about hanging out with this kid Ryan that we know. He was filling her in on all the dirty details of the brew crew. It's amazing how in 3 or 4 years almost none of them have changed. Apparently some of them haven't changed but are nothing like what we thought they were. Who would have thought that a total sweetheart would be a total sociopath nympho S&M freak??? Although we all hung out at Witch's Brew so I'm not 100% sure why this surprises me. Actually talking about that girl brought us to the fabulous conversation about how we don't understand how these really mean girls who aren't pretty that want to controlled their boyfriends' lives and get pissed off at them for really stupid shit like going out drinking with their friends or wanting to have a boys' night instead of spending 24/7 with their girlfriends get boyfriends. Where as girls who are totally supportive of their boyfriends having their own friends and doing their own thing (Two perfect examples of this gentlemen: Hope and myself) always get the girl pal treatment and have to listen to comments like "why can't my girlfriend be as cool as you?" HELLO!!! Listen up boys if you're making comments like that to us why aren't you dating us? Don't get me wrong I have no desire to date any of my guy friends(really have no interest in dating guys that I've seen puke..have seen me puke..or I've spent endless hours listening to bitching about their girlfriends). But there have to be other guys out there that I'm not friends with who want a laid back down to earth non-high maintence girl friend, who will let them hang out with their friends and play poker and drink beer and smoke their stinky cigars (as long as they don't do it around me). I mean I honestly don't get it. I love seeing guys acting like guys. I know I'm by far not the most beautiful girl around. But ya know I think I'm pretty cute (not to sound narcissistic), I like sports (even though I will never understand the appeal of football), I like play video games, I prefer not to go see "chick flicks" and I like going to bars having a few beers and goofing off. Where the hell are the guys that appreciate girls like that and please give them my number if you find them? I don't need a boyfriend I'm perfectly happy with the way my life is. I have a great job, great family, and great friends. I just want that added bonus of having a really cool guy in my life. Because as great as my guy friends are it's still leaving me going home alone at night and missing out on all the things I do miss about being in a relationship.


See look even the quiz says so.....

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Holy bordom Batman!   
10:59am 22/06/2004
  Take the quiz: "What Disney Princess Are You?"

Belle
You love you family (what's left) dearly, and you're a bookworm. Get your head into the world darlin'

Take the quiz: "What Harry Potter Character Are You?"

Harry Potter
You are Harry Potter , very brave , and you always have to be the hero.

Take the quiz: "What that 70's show character are you?"

Kelso
You are kelso. Stupid , irrisponsible , and really hott!!!		  
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once again boredom sets in...   
10:04am 22/06/2004
  Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

Pog mo thoin
Pog mo thoin - 'Kiss my ass.'You're one tough bastard, and if anyone doesn't like it, they can kiss your ass. You enjoy fighting and causing grievous bodily harm. Hey! What are you lookin' at, punk?		  
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Poll time!   
11:28am 20/06/2004
 
mood: indifferent
music: All Mixed Up - 311
I'm trying to decide where to go on my week off in August. I've finally managed to narrow it down to two places. I've never been to either place and I can do both fairly inexpensively. Now all I need is help deciding which to do.

Do I go to:
A) Vegas
OR
B) Florida & in turn all the happy fun amusement parks down there.

Please respond and help me out pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeee????		  
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what the hell is wrong with me?   
08:29pm 19/06/2004
 
mood: gloomy
I really don't understand myself. Why don't I ever follow my own advice? I don't get why I'm wasting my time chasing after someone who quite honestly couldn't give a damn about me. It really is total bull shit. Why do I keep tourturing myself like this? I just miss what it feels like to be matter to someone. It's been so long since I matter that I've almost forgotten what it feels like. All I want is for someone to care about me as much as I care about them. Anyone reading this must think I'm either the dumbest or most pathetic person ever.

I'm also extreemly sick of people who are in relationships telling me that they are over rated and I really don't want one. Because honestly..who the f**k are you to tell me what I want?		  
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Rock on with the going to hell   
09:10pm 10/06/2004
 
mood: depressed
Level 5

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The river Styx runs through this level of Hell, and in it are punished the wrathful and the gloomy. The former are forever lashing out at each other in anger, furious and naked, tearing each other piecemeal with their teeth. The latter are gurgling in the black mud, slothful and sullen, withdrawn from the world. Their lamentations bubble to the surface as they try to repeat a doleful hymn, though with unbroken words they cannot say it. Because you lived a cruel, vindictive and hateful life, you meet your fate in the Styx.



The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante's Inferno Test		  
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RAWR!!!   
04:42pm 10/06/2004
 
mood: angry
music: perfect people - pennywise
What a shit hole day...I got sick as hell of being the only person who frickin does anything so I basically sat on my ass and made the other assistant working today get off her lazy ass and do something for once. I'm really sick of listening to her bitch and complain about stuff..I didn't make the dumb ass get a second job. And it's not my fault she's a moron and got a speeding ticket (oh and for those of you who are wondering it is totally possible for you to be going the same speed as the person in front of you when driving...as opposed to what that idiot thinks because you're behind someone you must be driving at a slower speed then them..do these people pay attention in physics? I mean really I didn't and I still picked that up..) Then there's the creepy 42 year old rapist/child molester type guy that has this freaky crush on me who came into the office today...my boss and cousin both think it's amusing that I hide in the X-ray closet whenever he comes in...haven't I hit my quota of scary stalker guys for my life time? Oh and there's the fun little fact that the total of my bills equals more than the balance in my bank account so that's my fun adventure of the month. Oh I also have a migraine that could kill a frickin elephant.		  
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