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| 08:52pm 01/03/2004 | ||||
Well, im still dancing, as always. I'm guessing it's my industry. I'm also a choreographer too. hehe. skillz! I've discovered my ability to split. It was unexpected. Plain and simple, I flipped and I slipped and I split. lol. I joined the dance class and i was the only boy in the class for 5 months....i know. but it wasnt that bad. it was great, actually. I had a good ol' time and now its the new term. there is another boy in the class with me and i knew him since last year so we're cool. Another boy is supposed to be coming to the class and i knew him since last year as well. they are both seniors and i am an insignificant sophmore...but guess what? I'm the famous dancer. so im not soo insignificant. hehe just kidding. its kinda weird to walk down the hall and hear people say "he can dance" or "he's the one who can do a split" or "can you teach me how to shake my butt like yours". And the ever most popular: "you dance soo much better than all of them". im not gloating but...okay, maybe a little. but it feels good to hear good comments about you after all of the hideous ones from years ago. but lets not travel down that road..okay? Now...my school has a play..after 16 years. We are doing West Side Story and im Pepe...dont ask. i dont feel like explaining except that I have probably 8 lines in all. But...im in the play so im not stressing..:-D i think im done here..lataz! J. |
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| 11:21pm 18/11/2003 | |||
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Sprung and Addicted Over a barrier and come across another Over a person, hung on one more lover Through the dark clouds that darken my disposition Entering a storm that keeps me under deep depression Exhausted from repeating pain that never leaves me the hell alone Pain that probably stays with me until I’m spiritually reborn Sprung Like an effect from a drug Makes me slow like a slug Hallow like a mug And never warm like a hug And Addicted An alcoholic to a drink Makes me slow to even think Mellow enough to sink B’cause the ability to love begins to shrink It begins to become obvious I have an obsession Never with simple lust But always with love |
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| 10:47pm 18/11/2003 | ||||
(*(Jus)*) aka !*Toxic*! |
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mellow| Hey there. | ||||
| 09:28pm 10/11/2003 | ||||
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| Heylo!!!! Im back!! | ||||
| 10:40pm 18/08/2003 | ||||
1) I have no more feelings for her 2) She smothers me too much (and i told her that too...what? she needed to know!) 3) How can you be with someone when you like someone else, always at their house and go out with them behind my back!?!?!!!?!??!?! That is just plain unruly..i havent talked to her since..next time she talks to be, i'll let her know. Umm...I think thats it..I know that Stephanie was awaiting this entry...for like..ever. lmao. So there it was. Be contented cause i aint typing no more. Shoot! lmao Later Days ~@*Justin*@~ |
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okay| Hot, Sticky, Boring Saturday | ||||
| 08:27pm 05/07/2003 | ||||
~@*Jus*@~ |
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bored| Hola! Como Estan? | ||||
| 07:11pm 02/07/2003 | ||||
~@*Jus*@~ |
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| 10:42pm 01/07/2003 | ||||
Later Days Jus |
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| 11:23pm 30/06/2003 | ||||
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aggravated| My Return Has Come!! | ||||
| 10:39pm 29/06/2003 | ||||
Later Days Jus |
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| 01:02pm 07/06/2003 | ||||
4th period- Lab. I was late and got in around..10:00am. I was only..10-15 minutes late. Anyway, thats it really. 5th period- Science. I had a figgin test in that damn class and I hope i didnt fail. But something tells me that I did. 6th period- Spanish. It was friday and the prom (for the seniors) was the day before so my teacher was so tired. She didnt feel like teaching so we played spanish bingo. I didnt win. Unfortunatley. 7th period- Lunch. I saw Melissa for the first time that day and she gave me this big hug. She told me she went to Southside and she was so afraid. Her life flashed before her eyes. lmao. She was there with my sister and her bf and Melissa was getting hit on by some guy who was around 30. He told her "Call your friend.." (referring to my sister) "..out here before i do something i shouldnt." Melissa was like, to my sister, "Umm..can we go now? please?!?" and my sister was just laughing. lmaoiculol. I know someone out there isnt laughing but its funnier when you hear it. lmao. Then after Melissa told me the story, we met up with Jeffrey and Roger and we all went to McDonald's. Note: i am only halfway finished with school. We were there until the end of 8th period. We didnt eat. Well, Jeffrey did. But Roger was harassing Melissa the whole time we were there. lmao. Roger is such an ass. lol. but he's cool though. So Melissa walked me back to school and I made it for the very beginning of 9th period. 9th period- Global. Boring. What time is it? 10th period- English. We had a test. It was type easy. I know i passed it. So, we all know its tradition to go to sleep if you finish your test early. So..thats what I did. Beautifully. lol. I woke up when the bell rang and i saw these papers in front of me. It was the previous test and i got a 93. YEAH!! GANGSTA! lmao. and then the other paper was my classes for next term. I'll tell you what they are when i get my real program card next year. lol. it just gives me something to type in the future. :-). 11th period- Keyboarding. Um..i can type at home...can i go now? After school-4:40pm. I was a block away from my house and I see Paullett and my mom. They were going to Richmond Hill and so I went with them. Just to get something to eat. lol. Successfully, I got Pizza Hut. yay! Then we came back, i ate, then i walked to the barber around 7pm. Came back around 7:30pm (it was type crowded) and then I took a shower and washed the cut hair off of my head. I was going out that night. There was a prom dinner that night and I was invited so i went. Dee-Anne (sister), Adrain and I went together to find that we were the only one from our school there. lol. But we had sooooo much fun with out those people. There werent any adults because this was organized by the students. Then we got home around 11:45pm and then Adrain left around 12:10am. I went upstairs and watched Midnight Love on BET and then Absolutely Fabulous at 1:20-2:00. Well, i fell asleep during the show. lol. Saturday morning: Im here being bored..whining about wanting a hat i cant get right now..waiting to go to my little cousin's party today. She is going to be 1yr. tomorrow and she is so cute! aww! lol. Well, im going to look good today. Im going to wear a white t-shirt with a open white shirt over it, beige pants and then my all white air force ones. Anyway, that's the first half of my weekend. The second half...i bet its gonna be boring. Later Days. P.S. Please respond cause im bored as f-- |
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| Another long day...but well anticipated. | ||||
| 09:27pm 29/05/2003 | ||||
The whole dance group wore the shirts we got airbrushed. On the front it said "Organized Khaos" and on the back we had our nicknames on it. On mine, it said "Shoot `N` Star". Everyone said my shirt was the best cause my name seemed to fit in the right place and the print was a little lighter than everyone elses. Anyway, after 5th period (for me, that was after my second class for the day) we went to Ms. Kashdan's office cause we were supposed to practice but something came up for her and we didnt practice..i didnt go to 6 classes. It's not like i care. :-P. Yeah, so we went to The Ave (place to shop..outdoors of course) and we bought wifebeaters for me and Dennis. For the SPRING FESTIVAL/MULTICULTURAL SHOW!! I know ya'll forgot! lol. Then we came around my 'hood to take Melissa home and then I went to Adrain's house by cab. *sighs* Im tired by even telling the damn story. lol. Then we were there for a while cause she had to change then we took a cab back to school. By this time it was 4:50pm. And we left at...near 1:00pm. So Adrain and I wasted time at the Chinese store acting like we were about to order food..but i got a fortune cookie. lol. then we walked back to the school and loitered for a while. Like we had a choice. The show didnt start yet and i really didnt want to go in. Adrain was barred from even getting in. She ripped a poster for the show down cause she wasnt allowed to dance because she failed 3 classes. So while we waited, we saw Dennis and his boyfriend, Torri. Im not sure if I spelled that right. He's cool. Then we tried to sneak Adrain in but the security was going mad hard. On the back of Adrain's shirt, it said Vanilla Rain and through the security walkie talkie, they were saying "Vanilla Rain cant come in". I was like "WHAT?". So i wanted to go in to get ready and shit, and the security stopped me. I was like "IM NOT VANILLA RAIN!" then they let me in. lol. that was funny. So..now..im on stage. Melissa fell on stage! Nadine flipped in her face during the cartwheels and she fell so then i had to hop over her. lol. I feel so bad for her cause she is very upset. Well, in my school im known for the "booty shake" so i did the shake with my back facing them and everyone started screaming. I looked back as i shaked and everyone started screaming more as if that was part of the dance. OMG! I had sooo much fun for only 1 minute and 25 seconds. It was so much better than last term doing Michael Jackson dances. lol. After my dance i left and then Adrain, Megan and I went to McDonald's and ate and made fun of everyone. lol. Today was sooooooooooo much damn fun. I wish I could do that dance on stage in front of everyone again. lol. Then I came home. That's it. lol. Later Days |
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happy| My Birthday.. | ||||
| 06:26pm 09/05/2003 | ||||
A pair of white-on-white uptowns--Adrain Cologne, Nautica and Curve--Ebony Money--My aunt Money--Paullett (ugh! she didnt even call me to wish me a happy birthday. i will never forgive her. Its not just that, but she is always so inconsiderate about things. she gets me sick. I mean, SHE REALLY IRKS ME!!) That's it. I went to the mall on Wednsday and guess what??! I bought a plush toy!! But guess of who? STITCH! from the movie "Lilo and Stitch". AAAAAAAAHHHHHH. I know im too old for toys but Stitch is my boy! Lol. Yesterday, like always, Simone and I always crack jokes on each other and then she was like "Lord, please help this boy. Please help this ignorant boy--" I cut her off. That is the one name that is intolerable to me. I started to scare on her. When she said that, it blew the lid off my top. I was like "Don't ever call me ignorant again. how dare you! I am not ignorant! Never call me that again!..." and so on. anyway, Later Days. Jus |
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| 12:11pm 22/04/2003 | ||||
April 8: My grandmother who was sick died that day. There isnt really much i can say about that except that i have excepted since i found out. It wasnt really a shock to me because i was excepting it. The same thing happened to my friend. You think she is getting better but you realize that she's gone. April 11-21: I went to Barbados. We got to the airport in a limo, which was so cool so cool. The vacation seemed so short. We went into town, people's houses, the beach, Chefette (fast food place...delicious flying fish sandwiches), supermarket (i know i know), Oistins (fish market. they sell fish to cook and also fried and grilled fish. My sister, father, father's friend, family friend and I sat down to eat around 10:25pm and got home around 1:45am. It was so damn fun. My little cousin was so annoying. ugh!! He stayed with us for like...3 days which felt like eternity. I love him and all but damn he's annoying. I didnt get to go to the drive-in. Very disappointing. I've never been to a drive-in cause i live in N.Y. I dont know of any out here. I finished reading "Milk in my Coffee" which was a very good book and now im reading "Cheaters". Um....i guess that's it..i hope i didnt forget anything. Oh....Mr. Humins!! He was supposed to send me my class work through email and i hope that he doesnt wait till the last minute cause if he does then im not doing it. Too damn bad. lol. Ja Rule and Ashanti performed in Barbados while i was there but i didnt go because i knew they would only come out for one hour which they did. So at the airport i saw Ja Rule. I walked right in front of him through the security people. See, when i walk, i dont care about anyone. So I walked through these people and i looked to my right and i see Ja Rule 4 feet away from me. I couldnt stop staring but at the same time I wasnt really excited but to know i saw someone who is loved by millions is something to remember. :-D so cool!! Later Days. Justin P.S. please comment!! |
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| Sneaky Visitations... | ||||
| 07:35pm 30/03/2003 | ||||
"If you wanna play hardball, just let me know. i'll take the phone, computer, television, everything." end quote. My words.."Okay". I couldnt give a better shit. its not my fault that my grandmother is sick and missed a week of school to see her. WTF WTF WTF!! I failed gym and lab. you have to be there almost everday to pass those two classes. common sense. So..maybe every 3-5 days..i'll be here taking on sneaky visitations.. Later Days |
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| Today, and what I feel.... | ||||
| 07:48pm 25/03/2003 | ||||
I feel alone. Not just in relationship-wise, im talking about that whole 360 degree shit. I have so many friends but i feel alone. When i try to talk, i feel like no one is listening, like no one cares. That shit really hurts and I feel emotionally depressed. I also feel vunerable. To what? I don't know...to people, to cry, to feelings. And now looking back on the things that i have done, i was trying to be someone important. Yet, it never dawned on me that "yes i have feelings and yes i need people to share these feelings with on a friend-to-friend basis." the only people i actually appreciate right now are my online buddies (Julie and Stephanie...well i see Stephanie once in a blue moon but mostly online) and my best friend (Ebony). Right now, there is nothing that can get my mind off of my loneliness. ( i hope i spelled that right..) anyway.. Later Days. |
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lonely| Saturday Night..Sunday Morning | ||||
| 09:46am 23/03/2003 | ||||
Later Days P.S. If you noticed, I listen to Janet Jackson more than anything now-a-days. |
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| Today....Friday....ThankGod!! | ||||
| 05:54pm 21/03/2003 | ||||
There is this mega cute girl in my keyboarding class. Her name is Tiffany, she's puertorriquena, and she's cute..i know, i said that already but..she's cute! I really wanna ask her out but im not sure. (btw, if i tell you about a girl i like and dont tell you anything more, that means that i lost interest.) On monday? Should I ask her on monday? maybe... (secretly, im wanting you, and im hoping you want me too, i smell your scent across the room and i cant wait to get next to you...) Later Days |
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anxious| CuTe LiL Ma 69: how is ur life so0o0o far ? ATruTheory: right now...uhhh..okay. brief summary. | ||||
| 08:19pm 20/03/2003 | ||||
ATruTheory-AOL Screenname Justin428ny-Yahoo Screenname I need chips....mmm these are good |
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