Missy

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19th December 2003

7:16pm: i really hope we win tomorrow...i think i'll cry if we don't....or just cry cause i'm kinda stressed about school and everything. i'm feelin kinda insecure...but for now i'm kinda indifferent to everything. i just don't know what;s up with me...people keep asking and i guess i kinda lie about it...not entirely...but enough to make me feel like i believe it...which doesn't take much...i don't like doing that...but how else am i gonna be confident? why's it gotta hurt so much to see him with her even if i know that i have him? even if i know that he won't leave me? i just....oh i dunno....i just don't know why i feel so insecure...i have everything i want. maybe it's just that i'm afraid of losing it...i don't know...oh well....i think i'm gonna go think about that a little...maybe i'll come up with an answer for myself........
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: no friggen idea...some song off the cd ben burnt for kay...
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