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Long Beach Island [01 Sep 2004|04:30pm]
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Saturday – We arrive. When me and my mom went to pick up Laura her sewers on her road were all completely overflowing and they were geysering out of the sewers and it was crazy. We somehow made it to my dads house and on our way we saw a fat guy in a bathing suite (may I add it was pouring rain) and he was raking his driveway. We got there and backed up into the driveway and I ran in and placed the luggage safely in the garage to be transferred into Beverly’s car. Laura was out in the rain throwing the bags at me so her back got super wet. I finished packing my clothes and then eventually we left after chillen with the kitten. We drove a buncha hours and we got to LBI weee! When we got there we couldn’t have spent more than 5 minutes in the house and then we went to the beach and it felt sooo nice. We walked a little ways and then Laura decided she wanted to teach us how to skim board! So we went to the house and got the board and then went and I was kicken ass! No not really, but Laura was and Julie wasn’t and I was just kind of all the over the place. When I was done humiliating myself and realized how starving I was we went back to the house and got changed again then eventually went to Chris and Kenny’s after we watched some of Ace Ventura and Will and Grace. Got there, so them all and then played poker and ate Pizza. Watched them play poker, made fun of my dad continuously about Landmark and Avon, (I bet if we put my dad in a house in the middle of nowhere he would still talk to himself, “being a block of wood must be tough, but we can make things better with Landmark reform! And being a tree when you’re stuck in the ground, and you really wanna jump in that lake, and it’s right there, but you cant get to it! But don’t worry, since you can’t go to Landmark, we’ll bring Landmark to you! So we can bring you there and we can ‘talk’ –crazymansmileandfistonchinlook- And…-talking to a paper plate- you look like you’ve got some wrinkles, we have Avon products that can change that. [I think the best part about it was that we were talking at perfectly normal, if not louder voices, and they were still too engaged in conversation to notice that we were mocking them repeatedly].) then we left, walked around in a huge octagon and then bought things at Oh Fudge! Went back to Chris and Kenny’s for a while to steal their Snapple and then left. Hung around the house and talked a bunch. Beverly and my dad got home. Beverly came in and offered us all drugs, but no alcohol, of course not. She helped us push the two beds together and put sheets on and all that. She was soo drunk haha it was funny though, she was trying to turn on the air conditioner and she was like “yeah three girls in a ed generate alotta heat, look you’ve got 4 inches here” it was pretty odd. Then she was trying to push the bed against he wall and she was just like “now go like this, UH!” and completely humped it. So we finished it and all and she was like “this big is bed enough to let you all sleep in it without being called lesbians.” Yeah so there were numerous strange occurrences and (bo chi cha cha cha) then The Flemings came and…now they’re here, Chelsea’s Casey’s girlfriend, and that’s kind of weird because he had a different one a month ago –shrug- she has my sweatshirt. Grr. Hung out with Kyle most the night then went to sleep eventually.


Kyle iz way hot!!!!!

Sunday – We got up pretty early and went to the Deli and found Kelly Casey Chelsea and Kyle there. Ate and then left, went into the ocean for a while, then we went back to the house, sat on the roof for a long time, went onto the real roof which was scorching hot and then we eventually were planning on going back to the ocean but instead we went to the Deli again with everyone. Me and Julie played checkers with napkins, and then safety pins and cookies. I won both times, probably just by luck. Left and we went to Ship Bottom in search of the carnival. We never found it but we went to Hands and some other place, I got a ring and some food I guess. Went back home and Casey Kelly and Chelsea came back a little while later. They said there was food at Chris and Kenny’s so we went there with them, ate and then we all went mini golfing. We intended on going to Hartland but we got there and it was super crowded so we went to the Sandtrap which wasalso crowded so then, we went to Stewarts cause it was right there. Kelly was being a dick by changing is order every three second and Casey got mad. Laura was mushing a bunch of sugar salt pepper and ketchup together and it was pretty gross haha, Julie drew on her placemat. I told Darren he was white, and then Chelsea mocked him and I felt bad, I meant like, pale, and sick, cause Laura said something about that before, o well. I realized how weird Chelsea is and that she’s defiantly only 15, or at least she really acts like it and it was just weird because Casey is 17 and…idk, it’s just weird to me. I ate, and basically everyone else didn’t, they drank some, and we were sorta loud so this guy came over to our table holding his kid and he’s like “Man we really love that you guys are here, you’re no being loud or using bad language or anything” and we were like maan he’s mad, cause he was defiantly being sarcastic. We eventually left and found Chris and Kevin at Hartland. Darren wanted to play too so we played with him. Darren won of course but I won a free game and Darren won popcorn. Laura and Julie didn’t win anything, ha. Everyone had left when we finished so we went back and on the way we talked about his poker club thing that he’s going to do at college and it sounds pretty cool. The best of luck to him. We got home and Chris said they were at our house so we went to scope it out and found everyone watching Braveheart. On the way over I was talking to Darren about how they only play video games and he told me that he didn’t really play by himself, only with Chris cause he’s crazy about video games. Me Julie and Laura went up on the roof for a little while but then went back down, went to the beach and talked, then came back and watched the movie for a bit Laura fell asleep on the table and drooled on herself and I think she even made it possible to fall asleep sitting up on a counter. Went to sleep. The mattress was pretty bitchy all night, how the two kept falling apart and what not. Slept eventually, Julie was still watching the movie through our open door, it worked out. I really didn’t like that movie. –shrug-

Monday – I woke up first and got a doughnut and then Julie and Laura woke up. It was pretty early and we were just lying around. I got up and did a couple of chapter in To Kill a Mockingbird and watched Kelly make cinnamon rolls. He used a frying pan in the oven, Dumbass. So we ate them and then hung out and went to the beach. Our beach was bad so went one beach over and Chris, Darren, and Kevin were there so it was cool. I swam out really far with them but they went back and I kept going. Darren swam out and lost all of his energy cause he’s not the best swimmer on the block. I went back in eventually and we were riding waves in and bein crazy. After a while Chris Darren and Kevin left and then later we did, got dressed and went to Stewarts for lunch. Saw Casey and Chelsea there. Ate, went back home. Hung around for a while and then we went to the von Halle’s and then back here to watch Secret Window. It finished so we walked to the Custard Hut, walked back and I got a stick and I was walking blind for the majority of the time and I got pretty good at it. We hung out for a couple minutes and everyone wanted the poker chips. Darren and I went and got them. But, when we got back, they were watching “The Pest”. Darren is Kenny’s hero. Kenny wants him. Watched it, Laura fell asleep and then…it was over, and…we ate a lot, slept.

Tuesday – Really shitty weather so we stayed home for a while and then we went to Fantasy Island. Casey forgot Kevin, so we just left him home. Went into Bay Village and to the music store, ate Pizza, went to the Arcade and kicked Laura’s ass at some driving game and then did pod racing and some other Star Wars game. Laura won some betroved chicks and we played Ultimate Vollyball with it outside. Some random kid walked by who had previously killed Kelly at DDR and he played with us until his brother came wearing a No Use for a Name shirt and then he left. The chicks got very abused and thrown in puddles and things like that. We went back into the arcade and everyone was gone so we were like what? And then we went and searched for them. Left something at the car so that they would know that we were there. In the meantime they were also searching for us and finally we were reunited in front of the ice cream place where Chelsea and I bought ice cream. Then went back. On the way home Casey was like “if anyone sees a gas station scream” so no more than 2 seconds later, Darren screamed at the top of his lungs and it was probably the most hilarious thing I’ve witnessed in a good 2 weeks. Hung around, went to Chris and Kenny’s eventually and ate, played cards till 9:30 when we went and saw the Exorcist. Me Laura Darren and Kenny were stuck in the back and we were completely squished. Got there and since Darren was the oldest he bought us all tickets and then we went in just in time. It kinda dragged at the beginning but then it got better. And then there was this one part where the guy had carved the Nazi symbol in to his flesh and then he slit his throat right on camera and it was the most terrifying thing I’ve ever seen in my life. I cried. No, I’m not kidding. The rest of the movie was cool though. When it was over we, went home, and hung out, then me Laura Julie Darren and Kenny were yo-yoing and what not and then we went outside. Kyle came out and Darren randomly sprinted home, Kenny sprinted behind him and he’s crazy fast like Forest Gump no joke. I ran after them with Kyle and then turned in the other direction. Kenny came back and Darren went home. The four of us hung around on the street. Kenny Julie and I raced to this basketball hoop and then we played with their ball and stuff. Went back and found Laura and Kyle and they had put our shoes on the beach so I had to go and get them for everyone. We walked around, all the way to Wida’s then to Kenny’s and got some ice pops, then back to our house. Pausing at someone’s house to swing on their swing. We sat in the kitchen for a while and made this sick looking mixture that we now call salsa and talked. Kyle went to sleep eventually and then Kenny left around 2:45. We went to sleep and I listened to TBS in order to force disturbing images out of my head.

Wednesday – Got up late again and it sucked that we keep doing this. Hung around and then went to videotape everyone around and we asked Chris Darren and Kelly what idem on the lunch menu they would be if they had to chose. Then we asked Kenny Jeff and Kyle what band they would be a groupie for. Some police officer guy yelled at us for sitting in the bike lane. Then when we moved and Kenny and Jeff came back with bikes he yelled at them for standing in it too. He also told us that all the locals on Long Beach Island were assholes. Go figure. Watched Mr. Deeds, then hung around till now. Casey just left to get a kickball, and Darren Julie and Kenny are playing White Jack. Laura’s reading over my shoulder.
Casey came back with the kickball and we all squeezed into the cars and went to Beach Haven for the field. We got there and at first me and Julie were going to be the captains but then they changed their minds and Casey and Darren were instead. Casey picked me and then we played. Kelly just pitched because there was an uneven amount of people. Our team (Casey Laura Jeff Kenny) conquered the others. I saved Darren’s life because there was broken glass near home plate and he was barefoot. He doesn’t know I saved him though. After one game we went home even though me and Julie at least didn’t wanna leave cause we wanted to play another game. Casey was racing Darren while we were driving home and we beat them and stole their spot. Got to Chris and Kenny’s and there was gonna be a party there cause it was Wednesday, and that’s their day to party I guess. We all went there and we played cards and Mario until the food came, I didn’t eat cause I wasn’t hungry and I knew the pizza was gonna be gross so I just watched Mario for a long time. Laura wanted to go outside at some point so we did and we walked back and forth on the beach for a really long time until we couldn’t even take it anymore. We were in the sandbar and stuff and we just talked about a lot of emo things all together and it was nice because I feel like I hadn’t really talked to her much lately. We went back inside and everyone was still there. I went to play Mario Kart in Chris and Darrens room and I thought everyone left so I was yelling at the TV and the controller whenever I went off course. Then Kevin walked in and walked past and then Chris came in and I guess he didn’t expect to see me there because he almost spit out his drink haha. So we had a Mario Kart tournament and I lost, Chris won and Kevin just says he won to make himself feel better. We played for a while and then Kevin went home when he was defeated. Me and Chris played some other Mario game for a long time and talked about a buncha different things which was awesome. Around 1:43 I got up to go home and I went outside, came back in cause I forgot my sweatshirt, then went back out, then came back in because I forgot my shoes and then left, came back because I forgot my socks and it was really funny. Went back to the house and Bruce Almighty was over already. We sat around and talked for a long time and then we all parted and went to sleep. Kyle slept with us on our bed. Before I fell asleep, Laura was like “okay, you’re really close, no headlocks tonight” and it was funny.

Thursday – Woke up and went to breakfast at Capn. Johns with Laura Julie and Kyle. We walked there and then right before we went in we saw my dad but we just walked past him because I didn’t want to talk to him. We ordered and when she brought out our food she apologized to Laura because she so shamefully forgot one of Laura’s pankaces in the kitchen so she had to go back and get it. We talked a lot about the schools in West Orange compared to our schools and it was pretty interesting. We started walking back but we paused in front of sunsations to sit in the chairs. When Laura and Julie left me and Kyle couldn’t get up so we just sat for a while and eventually got up. We faked Laura and Julie by pretending to walk down another road and then I made Kyle get onto this big cart and I pushed him out but they had already turned around and started walking again. We walked most of the way back and then we sprinted down the back road to get ahead of them and it was cool. Talked to Kyle which was nice because he kicks. Went to Chris and Kenny’s and Julie and Laura went to the house to see if her mom was there but I was almost passed out so I just stayed, played super smash and then came home pretty soon. Went to the beach with Laura Julie and Kyle and there was a pretty good sandbar so we went out to there and after a while went back to the house. Took showers and then hung around for a really long time. Chris showed up and they planned on going to Custard Hut so I went with them and Julie finished my poker game for me because I knew I was gonna win anyways. We went in Chris’s car and he took a wrong turn and we were listening to the song of the summer, or the century, or whatever Jeff calls it. I bought a shirt and Darren got 4 hot dogs, they were only 50 cents. Went home and then eventually went on the beach and talked to Julie and Laura. Went for a walk. We stopped at Chris and Kenny’s because we were watching video games through the window. Chris came out and said he was going to mini-golf so I sprinted back to the house to get the free passes but I could feel my stomach acid rising in my esophagus so I stopped running. I was wheezing and coughing and panting when I walked in and saw Kenny and was super surprised. He followed me into the room and told him that we were going mini golfing and then on the way we realized that we missed each other because when we were walking to him house on the road he was walking on the beach so we didn’t meet up with him. But we walked back and talked a ton and then I saw Julie pushed Darren into a bush and I was like whyyyy? And then as I approached I realized that it was Laura wearing Darren’s hat. Started walking to the course and videotaped a bit. Walked with Darren and talked about school or something. Got there and it was crowded so we tried to go to Stewarts but they were closed so Chris was playing that game where he doesn’t talked to us or show any facial expression whatsoever and Darren was telling me about it and how funny it was and Chris didn’t even respond to the fact that we were talking about him or anything. It was funny. Me and Darren ran across to the internet café and he bought 15 minutes of computer time and looked up a game cheat. He showed me all of his friends ‘cause they had pictures on the internet. He tried to show me things about his college but he couldn’t find the stuff. When time was up he bought a smores thing and Kyle took a buncha money from him to get chocolate milk. Walked outside and couldn’t decide where to go. Walked around to the side and found Laura Julie Kenny and Kyle sitting in the parking lot next to the café. We talked for a sec then left and tried to find Chris and on the way to he ice cream store we were walking down the road and all the sudden we hear a car horn and then *baboomba boomclack* so we look over and we see this cat get hit by a car and then scramble to the sidewalk like you’ve never seen a cat scramble before. One of her legs was really fucked up and she was just running slipping, sliding and scuttling to some sort of shelter. She hid in a bush and gathered a small crowd of sympathetic people staring at her as she tried to regain a normal state of mind free of shock and pain. Me and Darren watched her for a while and then we went and found the rest of them sitting down in a parking lot. We went to Hartland and played a game of hocky in the arcade, then we went out and played a game of golf. We kept getting held up by the people in front of us so we would do the hole a buncha times till we got it right and then we would kick it or do all these weird things with getting them in. Like banking them one and two times before getting it in the hole. At one of the holes there was a platform that you hit the ball on and it rolls down and around to the level under you and I was cool and skipped the rolling and went right off the top of the platform. Darren got it in first though. Went through the rest of the course and then didn’t win anything so we walked home and talked about a buncha stuff. Got to his house, hung out for not to long and watched Chris play videogames. We tried to talk to him but he would just make noises in response to the questions. Darren wanted to get an answer other than yes or no out of him so he asked Kyle’s middle name and he was just like eh. Me and Darren went back to our house and we watched TV or a movie or something but I wasn’t paying attention. Made food for Kyle and then went out to the beach because Laura and Julie were out there. We saw Kenny walk by but he didn’t come over but whatev, he came back soon, with an ice pop cause he loves those things. We hung around and played cards. I talked to Kelly for a little while about all these weird things and about space camp and girls. We were all in this crazy conversation about world affairs and humanity and supernatural life and all this other twisted stuff. It was really interesting actually. We tried to play blackjack until we used all the chips but we just gave up. We were trying to pull an all nighter but Laura slept under the table and for the whole night I couldn’t get over how funny it was that she was sleeping there. We just lazed around for a long time and tried to stay awake. I tried playing lefty guitar and it’s just as easy as righty so it was fun. At some point we went over to Kenny’s to get him an ice pop and Chris woke up to go to the bathroom and we were like whaaat it’s 5 in the morning. We were outside and it was getting so light out, it was really cool. When we went inside I started doing a crossword and then my dad woke up and came down and yelled at us or something and then we all just sat down, got comfortable and feel asleep by like 6:30 or 7, so it kinda sucked. But it happens. Haha, Laura slept under a table.

Friday – Woke up at some point on the couch and got up to go into my room but the beds were taken so I just went in the bigger bed with Kyle –shrug- Kenny was on the floor. Went to sleep for a while longer and then I vaguely remember Laura waking me up and yelling at me so we could go to Bay Village but I couldn’t get up seriously I was so sore and feeling terrible and I just went back to sleep and eventually got woken by Julie and Kenny poked me with a stick and Kyle was jumping on the bed. Got up and went to the Deli and played cards and I bought food and I was just completely out of it because I just woke up and I just felt like super shitty. We went home and played more cards and watched part of Lord of the Rings. Diana came and felt bad cause she thought no one wanted her there anyways but whatev they did they were just engaged in the movie. Played more cards. Went to Kenny’s to play super smash bros. and hung out there a while then came home to update this. Julie came a little while later and was like thanks for coming back and I told her I was gonna but I wasn’t done yet or whatever. Kenny came and he told me how cool I was because I can type fast. Not really. We hung around and waited for everyone to get there and when they did we played BS and watched Mr Deeds again. We didn’t want to watch so we went out onto the beach. Kenny came out and said he was going for a walk and then we came back up and he was sitting on the entrance thing. We sat by him and he didn’t seem too chipper so I really didn’t think he wanted us to be there but then again I thought he might enjoy our presence in case he wanted to talk. So we hung out with him for a while and then the food was ready so we went in and ate. Ken came in to get food and Beverly harassed him so I felt super bad about it. They really should lay off some of the alcohol. We ate and then after me and Julie went outside and walked around for a while, sat down in front of Ocean Pearl just like we did last year. We talked about how I wanna move out of Warwick sorta and I got kinda mad about a buncha things. Have I mentioned my period came like a day before? Well it did so I was super crazy and mood swingy. Went back to the house and everyone was gone but then We saw Kelly and he said everyone went to Custard or something like that. We saw Kenny and then walked with him for a few minutes and we walked him back to his house. Walked back home and hung out. Kelly’s phone rang and he was already asleep so I picked it up and it was Darren so he said they would be back in a little while. I kept losing him so he would go “can you hear me now? Good” They came back and we hung around and played more cards ‘cause that’s what’s up. I was on a roll and I beat Darren and Kenny. It was just me and Julie and I tried to bluff her but it didn’t work cause she didn’t even wanna play anyway. After the game we hung around and then me and Darren tried to make a castle out of the chips. It came out pretty awesome if I may say so myself. He was super tired so afterwards he said he was going home so I asked if I could go back with him and he said yeah so I walked him home and helped him pack and then watched him play Mario for a while. Ken and Julie came home and We told Kenny that we would defiantly be back in the morning ‘cause I planned on staying up the whole night. Waved bye to Darren and then me and Julie walked home. We played cards and then she was super tired so she went to bed and I stayed up. I went outside with Further Seems Forever to keep me up and then I rode Kelly’s bike to Chris and Kenny’s to see if Darren was still up but he wasn’t so I went to the old beach house and then rode to the end of the back road and I got inspired and felt good. Saw an old man in his underwear in a window and then went home and on the way there I saw these three guys coming off the beach with guitars and stuff and it was 4 in the morning so it was nifty. I saw that the door was closed so I knew that my dad or someone had been up. Walked in and wrote a bunch in my notebook, played solitaire and read a little. Went into the room so my dad wouldn’t flip and lied down listening to Ben Fold and then low and behold, I fell asleep at 6:15…15 minutes before I intended to wake Jew up and go to Chris and Kenny’s.

Saturday – Julie woke me up and it was 9:00. I looked at my watched and was like fuuucckkkk. Got up really fast and walked to Chris and Kenny’s and they had already left so I was so mad. Like I don’t think you’ve ever seen me this mad. Well, you probably have but the point is I was pissed. Walked home and just jumped on the bed and laid there for what seems like hours. Neither of us said anything and then eventually my sister came in and knew something was up so she tried to help me and make me feel better. It worked, ‘cause she seems to be extremely good at the whole cheering up thing. Felt better so me and Julie went to the beach for a while and talked about all the people here and how awesome they are, went home, we sat on the roof for a while and she now has a collection of food on top of the roof of the shed thing. We rode to the internet café and checked on some stuff online and then on our way home we stopped at Dom’s and got some food. It was so creepy because the speakers yelled her name to tell us our food was ready, weird. It reminded me of when me, AnnMarie, Kelly, Kenny, and Jeff used to hang out all the time ‘cause we were there and spying on all of Casey’s new girls that he picked up and throwing things at them. Anyway, so we ate there and then came home. I called my mom and talked to her for a while. Then me Jew and Kyle hung around in our room and I fell asleep around 4 because I’m grouchy when I only get 2 hours of sleep and then cry for an hour straight. They woke me up around 6:30 and had a difficult time getting me up. They hit me and jumped on me and then dragged me onto the floor, put the mattress on top of me and jumped on it, then dragged me into the living room in my sleeping bag, then I got up after many moans of protest. When I tried to lie down again they unzipped my sleeping bag and tried o roll me up and then off and then I got completely attacked by hard pillows and sat on by Kyle. Ate pizza and then rode to Surf City and got ice cream and went to a sunglasses store, I wanted a visor and I found one and went to buy it ‘cause it was only 12 dollars. When the girl told me it was 21 I realized that I was looking in a mirror when I saw the price and it was actually 21 so I didn’t get it. On the way home we went to Julie’s old beach house and then we stopped at 711. Kyle got a Slushie and I bought a brownie and Snapple. It was just like last year before the bridge. We went and sat down outside by our bikes and ate. A guy from the counter was bringing out the garbage and he kept looking at us funny. In between one of his runs Julie brought up the fact that he kept staring at us funny. I said “yeah maybe he just wants to yell at us for loitering.” And she was like” well there’s no sign so we can’t get in trouble.” So right then we start looking for a sign and then all the sudden we look right on top of us and there’s a huge no loitering sign. Yes, we sat under it in complete oblivion, and it was pretty funny. We rode home and I called Laura ‘cause my dad left me a note saying she called and that it was important. Called and we talked for sec and she said that she didn’t need to talk to me anymore and that she sorted it our or whatever but I made she was alright before we hung up. Me and Julie sat outside and talked and then we went onto the beach and were gonna talk to all these people but then we saw that they were a lot younger and didn’t. Julie had to pee so we went home and then watched some of the video game and then we went in the room so I could update. They played white jack and I did this, listened to Sublime. I think we plan on sleeping tonight. Cool.

Sunday – Got up and ate with Diana, Mike, and Anna. Went to the beach and actually brought our towels and what not. Went in and Diana and them were in there and it was so crazy because it was all of the Flemings and me and Diana and it hadn’t been all of us in the ocean in a long time. Mike kinda ruined it but oh well. We came in after a while and Anna got me all hyped up about being an exchange student and I’m seriously thinking about it. Maybe England, or Australia. Anyway, came in and sunbathed for a while. Back to the house. Me and Anna made Mozzarella sticks and I forgot to make the sauce but when I realized I made it but we were done with all of them before it was even done. Ate and then after a while they packed up and left. Me Julie and Kyle went to the lighthouse with my dad and Beverly and took a ton of pictures. We walked all the way to the top in the 5 minutes we had before it closed and then after we came out we walked on the jetty for a while. Argued with Kyle the whole time about collages or something. He’s stubborn, and still thinks he’s right. Yeah. Then my dad proved him right *coughnotreallycough* We accidentally walked right past them when we were going back to the car so we went and they weren’t there so Julie remembered there was an ice cream place around the corner so we went there. It was super expensive. My dad showed up and then we left. Got home and went back out to the Haymarket so I could get some cards. We rode there and Kyle’s a friggen bitch to ride with because he constantly tries to run into me and stuff and uggh it’s annoying. I bought my cards because I plan on buying a deck of cards at the beach every year from now on, each one holding significant meaning. Last year I burned my cards because we did a lot of things with fire. This year I bought a deck plus a book to teach me every card game imaginable because I told everyone that when I come back next year I’ll kick ass. We went home and on the way Kyle randomly stopped and sat down. When we got home Candy wanted to know where he was and I felt bad because we didn’t even know. He got home and we all piled into their car but then we realized that there was a flat tire so we drove to the closest gas station and blew up the tire and then went to Bay Village. We lost Casey and Candy right when we got there but then met up with them again. Went to the arcade and I placed a lot of driving games. Me and Julie were talking in sign language to each other most the time. Some kid came up to us and introduced myself and shook my hand. I started talking to him in sign language and that scared him off. We all left and Kelly went to get pizza while me Julie Kyle and Casey went in search of Hamburgers. Didn’t find any so we went and found Kelly. Talked about shooms and then met the parents. Candy brought us home and then Casey left. He hasn’t been home since. We were starving so we were going to go somewhere to eat but there was no place open so we made rolls and then watched Something’s Gotta Give. It was terrible but in the middle of it I came into the room and updated this. I’m tired, I think I might sleep. Only two more days left.

Monday – Got up around 12. Went for breakfast at the Deli and then went to the beach afterwards. We brought our CD players and books and cameras. Went into the water and it wasn’t too cold but it was full of jellyfish when you first went in. Once we walked to the sandbar there were hardly any though. We hung around in there for a long time with Kelly and Kyle. Went back onto the beach for a while and we listened to music and I read to Kill a Mockingbird and then we went back in like a half an hour later. A lot of the jellyfish were completely gone. We stayed in for a long time and Kelly was boogie boarding. After Kelly and Kyle got out we stayed in and these 2 kids were screaming SHARK!! And pretending to drown. So I was like “you know it really isn’t a good idea to scream shark in the middle of the ocean.” And they asked if we were locals and we said no and they were so I said they must hate us ‘cause we’re tourists and they said yeah. So we talked to them for a long time about a buncha things about LBI and they don’t really live there, only in the summer, but since they own a house and they pay taxes they’re considered locals. They were nice though, but they were only 12 and 10. But the one twelve year old had suuuuchhhh nice eyes. He’s gonna be a cutie when he gets older. We went in and so did they after a couple minutes and their family or whatever were right by us and we saw them point at us to their mom or something. So we officially met guys. We went home and showered and went to the Haymarket so I could get cards. Julie got Almond Parfait paint. We were on our way home and Kyle randomly stopped and sat down on the curb and we just rode on because we didn’t know what he was doing. We got home and his mom wanted to know where he was and we didn’t know so I think she went out trying to find him. He came home eventually and then we hung out ‘till Casey got home and said he wanted to go rent movies so we went with him. We drove there and were looking at all the movies until finally we decided on BASEketball and Fight Club. Rented them and went home. We hung out then eventually watched BASEketball and it was really funny. The joke that everyone else liked most was “your mom’s deaf” “no my mom’s dead” “oh so that’s why she didn’t move around so much.” Ha. After that we ate but I really didn’t have any appetite so I didn’t eat really, they made fun of dead animals and argued about how many ribs a cow has and then we finished and turned on Fight Club. Man that was a sick movie. Everyone kept saying that it ended really crazy so the whole time I was trying to figure out what was going to happen and I really wasn’t very far away. I recommend it to anyone who hasn’t seen it yet. It was pretty late when it finished so I think we just talked and went to sleep.

Tuesday – Last day. We woke up and then went to the Deli for a breakfast but we stopped at the beach because we heard that the waves were huge. They were wild ‘cause of the storm last night Went to the Deli and on the way Kyle was pissing me off so I pushed him in front of a car. Seriously. Ate then came home and watched the Two Towers and after a while came and cleaned up the room a bunch and put it back to the way it was when we got here and found all the stuff that we lost, and, other people lost for that matter. Hung out and did this. We went onto the beach with our cameras because I wanted to do my Saves the Day series. We were walking and suddenly Julie got the uncanny urge to swim in the ocean with her clothes. So we dropped off everything that cant get wet on Candy’s blanket and ran in. May I add, it was red flag, the waves were vicious, and we almost died. So we ran in and went really far out and the waves were gigantic. I was wearing shorts so it wasn’t fun so Julie said I could try her pants. So she took them off in the ocean and I took my shorts off and it was so strange feeling. I put her pants on and they fit me which is weird ‘cause I don’t even fit in Laura’s pants. I stayed in them while I got brutally beaten by the current and rip tide. Eventually we switched back and got out and it was the coolest thing ever. Tough and all that be awesome. We went out and Kelly and Kyle were just going in and we warned them, took some pictures and I had my arm around Kelly for a picture and he was like “Man you’re like my big sister” and it puzzled me. Went back to the house and took a shower with Julie. Nah, we just rinsed off, we didn’t take our clothes off sorry. So we cleaned up and then hung around more until Kyle came back when we rode to OH FUDGE and came home and watched BASEketball again. Right after it was over we headed out and I got hugs from Kyle and Kelly. Informed Kelly that he was having a party because he didn’t know. Started driving home and after a while Julie had to pee so I told them to stop and she went and we got pizza that was really gross and I felt like I was gonna puke it up. When we got in the car me and Julie talked for a while in sign language and then we settled down and eventually got home. I dropped her off and then went home, unpacked, and my living room was crazy because my sisters shit was in it and she’s moving out. Caught up on computer time and then around 1 called Laura and woke her up, talked to her for a long time and then went to sleep eventually. Many ideas stirring in my head like uncooked pancakes.



L8 dy Lck 1 3: What are you gonna wear tomorrow?
An Angry Apple: pants
An Angry Apple: and probably a shirt
L8 dy Lck 1 3: haha! really?



September fades into March, his eyes impatiently burn.
that keep me in

Doesn't she live in Pennsylvania? [20 Aug 2004|09:38pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | No Use for a Name ]

Went to Salvation Army today with Laura and Julie.
My sister brought us there and dropped us off, we saw Leanne there and we looked around for a while, found a buncha shirts, a real Thursday shirt and a real Hopesfall shirt so it kicked. We were done and my mom wasn't coming for a while, so we went to Pizza Hut, got some breadsticks and a soda, then we just wandered around the place and waited for a good hour and half, probably more. We were sitting on the curb and some creepy mexicans tried to get us to get in their car so we went back into Salvation Army, then back out, when they left. My mom came, I bought my shirts, and then we went to Staples for the third time in like a week. Sat in the front, then took a short cut that was really a long cut on the way home. Stopped at my mom's work to unload the stuff, then dropped Julie off at home. We were just getting back into Warwick and it started pouring, Laura ran into my house and got her bag and then we started to her house and it was raining so hard, lightning, and thundering really bad so my mom was flippin out. It took us like 10 minutes just to get to the Ambulance place and when we got there my mom pulled in because it was a big parking lot with not alot of trees so she figured it'd be safer there. We sat there for a while and watched the storm. It was sick, the wind was so hard that it made the rain actually push our car at one point. When it slowed down we brought Laura home and then my mom bought some Burger King, and we picked up Danielle 'cause she was walking in the rain. We went home and I brought the garbage cans down and then came upstairs, talked to Ben from Brazil 'cause they rule. Tried to rent "Brazil" but clocktower sucks and doesn't have it. So I came back, and I'm planning on packing soon, 'cause we're leaving tomorrow. Sweet.


"hey, aren't you like 40 and married a 20-year-old?"
"Yeah, but I can go younger."



Let it fall, let it rise, let it be and let it slide. Let tomorrow come and take my time away.
1 burned down the walls that keep me in

I have a zit big enough to throb uncontrollably. [20 Aug 2004|10:46am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Madison ]

Last night I went to dinner with my mom and my sister for my mom's 53rd. Diana picked me up and we went and met my mom at the Copper Bottom. We got there and she wasn't there yet because she's alllwayysss late. So we waited and we were looking at the door and there was this huge orange sign that said "closed for vacation until Aug 24" and we were like fuuuck that. So my mom finally got there and she was mad but we all went into her car and drove to Middletown and went to The American Cafe. Their fryer wasn't working but all the meat was avalible so I was like, well thank god we can still order meat. Haha. Ate and there was a creepy bald guy staring at me the whole time and it made me upset. We ate tons of bread and I had soup and stuff. Stuffed full by the time we left. Went and picked up Diana's car by the Copper Bottom and then went home, did things. Slept eventually.

Going to Salvation Army today with Julie and Laura.

Beach tomorrow :) whaaaaa aha haha





My mixtape must mean nothing to you.
that keep me in

Guess who forgot to do the garbage again. [19 Aug 2004|05:37pm]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | The Early November ]

Wednesday - Had to wake up early and had to go to orientation. Which was basically useless and just a really huge waste of time. And no, i didn't enjoy seeing people I hadn't all summer, so don't try to make me feel more positive about the exprience. I could have wainting another two weeks to see them. Probably another three, then it might have began to upset me. But probably not. The bus driver wouldn'y let Julie ride home with me so she got driven to my house later on, then Geri brought us both to Lauras, where we did alot of lying around and searching for shows on LBI, also covering her walls with posers/magazine pages. Yeah 'cause we're cool. Went home at some point, did things, like my English homework, and fell asleep at 7:30. What the fuck? yeah that's what I said. Woke up at 9 and went upstairs and went to sleep.

Today - I had a bunch of crazy dreams last night that made me sort of upset. The first one, my mom got in this freak accident on train tracks, and the trains just kept hitting each other, and it was crazy. Woke up and went back to sleep and had another dream, I was moving out of my house and I found my cat who we lost a while ago, almost dead in some sewer in my house, and then I brought it back to life. Woke up, back to sleep, another dream. On an aiplane with some guy (probably my best friend or something) and they made a pitstop in the sky and there was a rest area, it was really weird. I was thinking "umm, how are we able to breathe all the way up here?" But that cheered me up. Went back to sleep and had a dream about me and Laura running through hallways and jumping over railing in the High School trying to found our class because we were going to be late. We looked pretty ridiculous. Finally got up for good at 9, I slept 12 hours. Called Laura and she came and we went to breakfast. We saw Merritt and then Serico and we were like whooa. And I was wearing the same pants as I was when I saw them both yesterday, so I figured they thought I was pretty dirty, haha. Went home, Laura left like, an hour later or something, and then I cleaned my room completely and it was hot, and then I took a shower. Going to dinner with my mom and my sister tonight to celebrate my mom's 53rd. Hmm. Wish I could have gone to warped tour today :( whatev, at least I got to go once.



I'm allergic to French people.



We're not special.
1 burned down the walls that keep me in

What's the best part about Finch? ...Sometimes, I get free shirts. [17 Aug 2004|10:06pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | Brazil ]

Friday - Ended up sleeping at Lauras. I got dropped off at Denis's house and then left pretty much right after, went to her house and we hung around and talked, watched the Drive Thru video and got my hyped up. Went to sleep eventually.

Saturday - Hung around at Laura's for not too long and got driven home. Hung around and eventually got driven to my dads after a long while. Went to my dads and I was alone for a while and then Dianan came home unexpectidly rar. Her and mike stayed here and I just hung around. At like 1 in the morning you'd have found me in front of my computer reading every Brazil interview I could and signing up for their message board. It's so much fun, the board, the guys from Brazil occasionally post things but all the other people in it are really cool. There's alotta debating and everyone's sorta mean to each other somtimes haha but it's cool anyway. I'm just tryin to fit in :[ hehe. Anyways. So eventually i was too tired to read any more about Brazil so i went to sleep.

Sunday - Diana woke me up and told me to do something that had to do with a cat so i went back to sleep cause i didn't care if the cat was locked outside in the rain, good for her. Got up eventually and hung around wtaching TV for a long time. Laura called and was like I'm coming to egt you in 2 minutes, so i had to call my dad and what not and i didn't even bother to get dressed. Went to Chester and saw the Village. I liked it alot, it wasn't scary, but that's okay, because i don't think that was the main point. But the plot itself was really cool I think. Wrnt to dunkin donuts, then went home to lauras for a little while, then went home to my house and did more devious things (lkie watching TV) while my dad wasn't home, and talked to myself some more and then he came home and spoiled all my fun. Did more things, they probly had to do with Brazil, because I love them. Slept.

Monday - Woke up and frantically showered and burned Laura's cd and got to her house halfway through her guitar lesson but she learned Pretty Prety so it's cool. I hit her beautiful guitar and they were mad at me -shrug- it didn't break so who cars. lol. Went to the mall without julie cause there was no room in the car :\ Went and got school stuff at stples, then went to the mall and I bought pants and I Laura was mad because her mom wouldn;t buy her pants and expected her to pay with her own money and i was lkie whaaaat, Whatev. so wee left eventually and we went back to Luaras, did things, ate dinner, her dad brought me back to my house, hung out and did more Brazil things. Ben messaged me back :) I was so excited haha. They're all so nice. So anyways, slept.

Today - Woke up and ate and did a whole lotta nothing all day. At one point i was actuall bored, which is different for me. I'm never bored,. But I was simply lacking every ouce of motivation to do anything, i couldn't even eat, let alone watch television. So i just layed down and did nothing. literally, i dont think i was even thinking. I guess it was relaxing though. Cause next week is gonna be hectiiiccccc. So eventually i got back to normal and did some stuff, set up my journal to make it all coool looking. Yeaaahhh you lkie it? yeah you do, i can tell, because you nkow what? It kicks ass. There's a dog in my house. And it's making me upset. Does anyone have a gun?



monstergirl posted this on Jul 27th, 2004 at 01:53:08 am
Who thinks that I should get a big tatoo saying BRAZIL on my ass??

benjamin posted this on Jul 27th, 2004 at 08:36:01 am
(Bra)(zil)



You put a fistful of salt in my eyes, this is what it was like.
that keep me in

Your friends don't know how to use your camera. [13 Aug 2004|09:03pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Brazil. Yeah. Go buy their cd and try to be cool. ]

Saturday - Anya picked me up and we went to buy her copy of to kill a mockingbird. Went and got ice cream in florida with her mom and then went to her house. They had just had this huge storm so their tent blew halway across the world so we had to put it back together but it had broken so it was dificult. finally got it together and put it some place. We went upstairs and hung out talked till Geri got there then we talked more. We did stuff and then we flew down anya's stairs with sleeping bags on and videotaped it haha. Ate and then hung out more, thought of a cool idea for this thing im gonna write, and then we watched the virgin suicides talked, watched i love the 80's, slept.

Sunday - Woke up and got ready for church. Went there and it was pretty different. I wouldn't convert there but anya seems to like it so it's cool for her. Dropped geri off at work and then thye dropped me off at home. I got ready and later my mom came and picked me up and we went to the breezy point for dinner. it wasn't very good but diana works there and all so it's cool. My mom brought me home and i hung around and did not much of anything watched TV probably. Slept.

Monday - Got up and watched TV, paited and things like that. Made plans with Julie but too late so my dad had to go back out. We stopped at clocktower and merchant square to rent the virgin suicides and requiem for a dream. Went to her house and we hung around and got this crazy idea like, hey, maybe we could go to warped tour. We begged her mom for a long long time lol. Watched the movies and hung around. Slept eventually.

Tuesday - Got up and hung out for a long while ate and did things that normal people do in the morning. Brought christina's friend to meet her mom at mcdonalds and she went home and the me julie christina and anne went to eat pizza and saw toni and her dad and ate then went to the salvation army in washingtonville. It was alright, i got two shirts and it was cool. Went home and waited for my dad to come get me. He did, went home, finished my painting, and was happy.

Wednesday - Got a ride to my moms at some point and hung around all day. Don't really remember. I think i did abuncha english stuff. Hmm. Dunno.

Thursday - Same thing. Just hung around i think, not much of anything i s'pose. Something might have happened that i forgot, but oh well. Worked on Julie's present. Ha.

Friday - Tried all day to get a hold of laura and then finally i just talked to her cousin and she gave me her number for my mom to call. So i hung out all day and finally my mom got home and called and taras mom said no and i was like whaaatt this suuuucks. So i was really upset and my mom brought me to julies and i was crying and i felt stupid because it was a stupid thing to cry about but whatever got over it and did a buncha things. like pierce my wart and put earings in it. Eventually went to sleep with julie's glow in the dark stars as my nightlight.

Saturday - Got up and ate and what not, we were going to go to breakfast ut we were too late so we made it ourselves. My mom called and said that she would bring us to warped tour the day we were at hershey!!! So we were flippin out and we were gonna go to monroe and get the tickets with julies mom but my mom said she'd do it so we hung aroundall day bought cheese for toni and my mom came later and got me. We went to filenes and bought the tickets and then went hooome. Slept, was really excited and it was really hard to sleep cause im gittery like that.

Sunday - Hung out at home all day and laura called a couple times to update me about the things happening at warped tour hehe. she got in a lotta traffic but it's cool cause she got to see poeple anyways. So i just hung around being excited all day weee.

Monday - Got up and chilled out, showered, waited for my mom to come. She did, so i had to go to like a million placed with her for this tour thing before she dropped me off at scotts. I got there and him mike and his cousin were on their steps so i went over and talked to them, showed them my yo yo trick. Scott looked older...crraazzyy. Well it happens haha. Hung around, played toss the egg and scott lost haha. we made a ton of water balloons and somehow mike got like all of them so he was just killing me and scott and then i stept in dog shit and it sucked haha. Hung out and was on the swingset wee. It was tommy's birthday so all his friends were there. We were in the kitchen making peanut butter fluff on waffles after mike made all of us completely deaf with his rabid drum playing. Scott's mom asked me to make all the little kids bracelets so i did while scott and mike played capture the flag with them. I was going berserk trying to finish all the things haha. We went downstairs and watched TV and switched some barrings or something and then went and brought the boards back to the house and stole some soda from the people and then went back, watched more TV. John went missing and then when we found him he was in trouble and he went to get mike and told us he couldn't skate till fall. They left and we watched moooree TV and tried to get Tommy to make their parents get chinese food and then i watched him open his presents and he got all this skateboarding stuff. My mom came with Julie and picked me up, we went to vernon and got gas and went home. laura got there eventually. We went to mobile at like 11 and got frosted flakes and brought julies books back. we hung around all night and went to sleep at like, 2 or something.

Tuesday - My mom woke us up at like 5:30 and we got ready and went on our way to Pennsylvania. On the way there Julie was figuring out what kind of cars all of the ones were and we were getting all hyped up. Stopped a couple times. We finally got there somehow by like 11 or somethin, we rode a trolly to the admission place, and on the trolly this girl gave us all this thrice stuff it was cool. So we bought the admission to the park and went and then went into warped tour :). Got in and made a plan to meet with my mom at 3 again. We went and saw met boys night out, the vocalist was like...your friends dont know how to use your camera. saw allister, Then went to a buncha tents and what not, met someone from hidden in plain view. Saw matchbook romace. Julie moshed and then i went crowd surfing and got all the way to the front it was so cool. Julie took my backpack and she walked up to some guy and was like "can you put her up?" and pointed tyo me and i was like whaaats goin on? lol So it ruled cause i got up. Went back in and found laura and julie. Went and sat down this really hot silver thing. Then we walked around more, found the Brazil tent and met Jon :) I was signing up for the mailing list and i saw him in the corner of the tent and i asked the guy who was selling to me i was like "dont call me a bad fan or anything in case im wrong but is that the lead singer?" and he was like yeah so i talked to him and he signed my notebook and then i got a picture with him. I feel kinda bad though because i think the guy who i was talking to first was in the band too and i didn't notice him but whatever it's cool. We went and saw NFG but i left when there was a huge pit because i didn't want my hearing aids to break. Then I went into the Coheed crowd and tried to get a good place. I found laura and julie in the crowd and then we watched coheed. Laura took my backpack and i took her camera and i crowd surfed to the very front and got pictures and it ruuullleddd. I was so close. So then i watched from the back and sang along even though he was hardly singing anyways but whatever. When that was over we went and found my mom then went and saw TBS for a sec, saw this band called sherwood and ui bought their cd cause i got a good vibe from them and the merch guy was cool. watched the skating and then went and sat down for a while uinder the stadium thing, bought soda. Watched underoath and then waited for Hidden in Plain View who kicked sooo much ass. I videotaped some of it and they were so amazing. They played in this way that just made you want to be in a band so bad and makes you wanna go on tour and idk, it was just amazing and all that jazz. Then we sat down and got front row for Brazil cause i insisted. They came on and may i add they ruled almost as much as HIPV. I love them sooo much. They played and Jon was going crazy. He doesn't even seem like the kinda guy whoi owuld be insane, cause he was shy when i met him but he was wack. So they finished and i'd taken like 20 pictures of them and videotaped some and then we went and met HIPV and i bought a shirt for Brazil, Ben, the bassist sold it to me and he was so nice :) We went to the park and waited for my mom, lying on benches and talking and stuff and then my mom came and we went into the factory and made hershy kisses and then went on a ride that put you in the place of a piece of chocolate and we got baked haha. went to the park and me and julie were going to go on a rollar coaster so we finally found one and got on line and underoath was there too so we were gonan try and go on at the same time as them, but the seats were one in front of the other and not next to each other. As they went by they were holding hands and being all like ahh it's scary so we yelled "underoath rules!!!" and they didn't hear us. So they came back and we yelled to them again but then the people were like "this ride is close due to thunder and lighting and we were like fuck. So we went back to my mom and she was like RUN AFTER LAURA SHE'S LOOKING FOR YOU! and hopping up and down like a lunatic cause she's like that and so i sprinted after her in all different random directions and finally saw the bad of her TRACK JACKET so i got hber and we walked back and then went back to the car. We drove around in like 10 circles because we couldn't find the hotel, realized that i taped over a buncha stuff that i wish i hadn't taped over and then we got there and we wanted to go swimming but we got in too late and it sucked. So laura was really tired and what not so wshe went to sleep after we stalked these 4 hot guys and went up and down the elevator a few times. Then my mom sent me and julie to get water bottles and 2 came out for the price of one! so it ruled and then we tried it again to see if it would work but only one came, oh well. Then we told my mom i wanted my cd player sop we went out to the car, walked around the hotel found a duck feeder and sat on this rock wall and examined the windows then went back inside and my mom was kinda mad we were gone for so long. So we talked in the bathroom about a tona stuff and then went to sleep.

Wednesday - Got up and my mom was mad cause we were sleeping the day away or whatever. Got free breakfast and then got packed up and left. We drove to the pretzel factory which was in warwick township. it was crazy cause there was a warwick high school and stuff. Made pretzels and then went to INTERCOARSE! and did amish people haha. We were in amish countryand it was crazy cause of all the...amish people. they had horse and buggies and all that good stuff haha. Made more pretzels and then we left and ate at this cute little diner kinda place. There were tornado warnings and it was scawy. So we started to drive home and it was pouring and what not and we were listening to music and my mom was getting jumpy. We talked and eventually we fell asleep or just got really quiet and eventually got home. We stopped at my house to get all the CD's and then we dropped laura off and julie. Went home, sized pictures, got all jittery and happy. Slept.

Thursday - Got up and called laura. Took a shower and then laura cme and we went to breakfast and dropped off her camera at CVS. When we got home the front door was locked and we were like fuck because i didn't bring my keys because i thought thre front door was gonna be open when i got back but noooo. So we were going cazy ringing the neighbors doorbell and then danielle came oujt and helped us and i think we woke up the guy beneath us and i felt bad but he let us in the house and stuff. Went upstairs and hung around, looks at pictures and talked. Anya and sarah came and we hung out with them. laursa webnt to get her pictures and came back all pissed cause the fuckin lamp broke again so....dont bring your pictures to cvs guys. Anyway. it was pouring so we went outside and danced and ran to the coocktower to see matt and dj and then we left and then anya and sarah went and got pizza and me and laura hung around. They came back with food and then they left again later. me and laura went to radioshack and then back home and then we left and went to memorial with music to write down the story of our libves. we ere on the roof and we didn't get too far with writing our lives but it's cool. went back and did things and then Tom came with like...a whole gang of people and they were all like being loud and i couldn't have them there cause all my neighbors would get mad so i was trying to make them leave and teddy and kevin got it and left cause they're cool but everyone else was staying. But me and laura were like sending notes outside and then looking through window on top of the door and then i had to get them to leave and i was yelling at them and stuff but they wouldn't leave. Finally they did and then tom and DJ stayed, DJ left when his dad got there and then Tom stayed, we talked and i was hyped up. My mom came a picked us up and then we went to staples, went office supply crazy and then tried to go to the ragshop but it was closed. Went to the middletown Diner and got dinner/breakfast haha. Brought laura home, went home did things slept.

Today - My dad called and woke me up. Did some things, tried to work on TKAM but it was tough cause i was distracted by brazil. tried to decode their whole cd and did a buncha other things. Ate. Laura came an dropped off my finch CD and then we went and got her pictures and hung out, got pizza, saw matt, went back home, she got picked up. Did more things. My mom came home and we rented movies and then laura called and i think i might sleep there tongiht. we'll see.



Afairwelllullaby: std is in my blood
Afairwelllullaby: hm
Afairwelllullaby: doesnt sound right
Afairwelllullaby: saves the day is in my blood
Afairwelllullaby: there thats better



We have all the strengths of genius, and all the signs of weakness.
that keep me in

I dreamt about Jesse James last night [31 Jul 2004|03:29pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | Sublime ]

Sunday - Woke up and Julie came over. Everything was pretty dull what with the weather and all but Julie’s cool so she’s like yeah let’s go do the fairy picture so we went to go get wings but the toy chest had closed already which sucked but hey. We found an umbrella in some garbage can and we took it and made wings out of it. I was wearing a skirt and my jacket and walked around with these big ass wings taped to my back and quite frankly it ruled haha. Yeah so we went around to a buncha places and she took pictures of me. We went under some bridge in water and I got soaked haha but it was cool cause it was all for photography. So we got them off the camera and then cleaned my room in a rush and then Julie left and I hung around, slept.

Monday - Woke up went to my dads and hung around until Laura and Julie got here and then found out teddy and sarah were't coming so it sucked. Us three hung around doing not much of anything. We walked to NJ which was bad cause Jewie didn't feel so hot. came home ate hmm. i learned a little bit on guitar -shrug- it was cool. Later on we ate and then went in the hottub haha and it wasn't very hot and then we watched direct TV and the nightmare before christmas and got major hyped at like 3 in hte morning so we went back upstairs to watch the movie and then we looked out the window and we were like shit...it's getting light out haha so we went to sleep at 5 or something. That green tea got us totally caffinated haha. Went to sleep and slept till...some crazy time.

Tuesday - Sarah came over and i was mad cause teddy wasn't coming. We tried to write and stuff but it didn't really work and we all got sort of down and stuff so it wasn't socool. we hung out ate, things like that idk. Lazed around all day and then everyone left and i lazed around more haha.

Wednesdsay - Went to my moms and hung aorund all day we were all suppose to go to the movies but it didn;t work out so i got really mad cause laura was all like not telling me what was up and i got really frustrated and stuff and it sucked. So i went to ally's with julie and slept there. I got there and we talked and sat in the road and drank ice tea haha and then juliecame and there was this care that kept driving in circles and stuff ad stopping at random places it was weird. we hung out, went back by the pool and steoph and her cousin and and i hadn't seen her in a long time. They left and we went inside, watched this crazy awesome movie and stuff...talked and got temporary tatoos hehe and then slept after a while.

Thursday - Woke up and did things before her mom brought me home. Got my bathing suite and then went to creek with sarah. It was awesome i love that place haha. The water for cannonball falls was crazy cold and it felt sooo good to go in it and i just loved it so much i love water. colorodo river wasn't as insane as with a buncha people but still hehe. it rueld though. afterwards they brought me home and it was great fun. Went to lauras and it was crazy cause we got all dressed up as claudio the casualties and tapaih or however you spell his godforsaken name lol. But we dressed up as them and i had my camera and it kicked ass haha i loved it. my hair was like crazy everywhere. Julie looked really good and i adviced her to do her hair like that mor eoften haha and then laura just looked like a guy...i looked like a man haha. Took pictures...laura took a shower and ui shoved my huge poof in a ponytail haha. Anyways we did things and eventually went to sleep.

Friday - Got up and her mom wasn't home i dont think so we got boogy boards and blankets. we put the blankets at the bottom of her stairs ands boogied on down! haha. left all the blankets there and then it was pouring so we went outside. I had to go do stuff at my moms so we went to town and it wasn't raining that hard but there was this weird guy who was walking and he asked us what town we were in and he was all the supried that it was NY and it was weird. he was walking behind us and i was reaqlly creeped out haha. Went to the clocktower to return the movie and then got a new one and did stuff and then on our way back it was raining sooooo hard oh my gosh. there had been shampoo in my hair from last night and then it was getting in my eyes and it tasted sooo bad haha it was horrible but it ruled at the same time haha. Man there were major puddles and it was the downpour of a lifetime it felt like a hurricane haha. I got down in the middle of the road and was like noooooo because it reminded me of scary movie and we were talking about how the rain was like 'it reminds me of all the scary movies when they're running away from the guy and of course it;s raining really hard lol' so anyways we got back to gher house stripped down because we were soaked and then got all comfy and new clothes and watched donnie darko and it made no sense to me at all lol then i went home and so did julie and iiiidk it was cool.

Saturday - My mom picked Julie up on her way home from work and we hung around and waited for Laura and she got there like 15 minutes before we left to the mall and we saw Achorman despite the fact that we heard it was terrible haha. Went there and got tickets then went to get food and to fye and Waldenbooks and to some other places then to the movie. It wasn’t THAT bad, well I guess it was pretty horrible but I guess there were a few good part –shrug- so then after we weren’t getting picked up for another half hour so we hung out outside and I sneakily took pictures of these hot guys haha. Got picked up and dropped them off and then went home and slept yeeah.

Sunday - Woke up, went to my dads, hung around and did nothing all day which was cool cause I was just relaxin haha. Yeah watched alotta TV cause that’s what’s up now. Read, slept.

Monday - Woke up and me and laura were gonna go to creek so she picked me up and halfway there her mom turned around and told us she didn't want us there alone and i was like whaaattt but whatever so we went backto lauras and then went to have a picnic in town haha on the way there we saw john and mike and jake and scott and it sounds so col when you say it fast haha. bought burger king and a sandwhich from the deli haha and we hung out which was werid cause we hadn't hung out in town in a long time...im not sure i liked it lol. Went to the clocktower to rent movies and tom eddie dillon and steven were there. laura had tar all over her hands and it was treally funny cause she touched the railing and then tom leaned in it and it got all on his ass haha. We went to CVS and they let her use their sink haha but it didn't work hehe. so we rented movies and she got eyeglass cleaner that got it off hehe. We saw john and mike and jake and scott againat the bank and they left cause eddie was there lol and then we left and on our way home we saw her mom and she was like 'something came up so rebecca cant sleep over' laura asked if everyone was okay and they were so i didn;t worry about it. got dropped off and my dad was a little mad cause i wasn'tr staying at her house cause he had plans with beverly. I watched fear of the dark and then talked to julie and then talked to laura about what happened and it was really bad ebcause her mom wasn't gonna let her see tom anymore for bad bad dick dick reasons and i was mad i was trying to cheer up and it was hard and i was just pissed that her mom would even think that. rar. did things and ate dinner and got into this crazy conversation with my dad about life and poeple and how they work and what not and i kept debating all his landmark shit. It was fun haha. Did things and slept...everything got cool witgh laura and her parents and i was happy.

Tuesday - Watched TV all day. Painted my butterfly effect thing hmm how exciting. Chilled out day though, very nice.

Wednesday - Woke up and eventually got driven to my moms and then did labels and what not. hung around all day and then tom came and brought my blank cd's that i burned and then i babysat and after that julie came to give me the kodak cd and i gave her the butterfly effect. Not a very eventful day but relaxing none the less.

Thursday - Woke up and called laura and she said she's be here in like and hour so we were on the phone and then she came and we went and ate breakfast. on the way there i saw carl haha and i hadn't seen him in a long time and then when we were there i saw max and this kid connor and it was weird haha left and went to radio shack and then raced and then back to my house hung aroun i think she got a little pissed off -shrug- hung out till her mom came and she left and gave me a big hug before virginia haha. I went to the library to try and get to kill a mockingbird but they didn;t have it so i had to buy it at the bookstore and on the way back i saw nick and he said hi to me and it made my day because i didn't think he was going to hehe. A little later geri anya and sarah came to give me my shirt and i gave geri her cd and then we hung out and walked around, went to the art museam and bought ice cream and doughnuts hehe. Saw devin schnider and dave s. haha and then i saw morgan at franks and i was like wow today is a day of see all these people that i haven't seen in a while haha. Did things like eating and then they went home. at like 7:30 i left to go get a movie and i saw my brother so i ran over to him and said hi and it turned out he was stayoing heretonight after this party he was going to so he left cause he was late and then i saw DJ so i went and talked to him for a little why and then Brandan and this girl Kate or something were there and acting all crazy like crackheads haha trying to climb the trees and what not hehe. It was fun. Brandan climbed the telephone pole and it was nuts. Tom came and they went to talk to someone else so we left and went to G's and DJ got food then we ate o my front porch and i wen tot htew clocktower to get movies and we were on the steps and on one side kevin pink and tom lapearl come up the stairds and on the other rob and TJ schick come and it was just weird haha. I got elephant and went home, did labels, talked to julie, watched the movie and slept.

Friday - Got up and was on he phone with julie for a while and i did some labels. Steven called and we made plans. I was hanging out with my brother, talking to him for quite a while which ruled. Morgan came and they left and then Steven came with kieth and nick and we all hung out. walked aimlessly around town ate chinese food and burger king in the park haha and then got ice cream from the lickety split haha. Sat at the little table at stanley demmings then went to park ave school and went on the swings and the sipper haha. Then we went back to CVS, i showed steven my crackhead guitar and then they left and when i was in the parking lot my brother drove in and then my sister and then idk it was strange haha. Went back to the house and my brother had told me he told mom he was going to franks but he wasn't so my mom told me to go ask him if he wanted chocolate or vanilla icing and i had to pretend like i was going to ask him lol anfd ythen i didn;'t know what to choose so it sucked haha. And then later i found out i picked the wrong thing which sucked lol. She left sand he came back and ate the cake with morgan and then left. Got home and all the sudden got super upset vcause of all the tiny things buoilding up and idk it was so frustrating and i was trying not to cry but it wasn't working and then something else little happened and i flipped out and started crying and like pacing around my room and breathing really heavily and thinking a milre a minute about things that dont matter at all. I wrote some crazy shit down to let it out and then i was gonna call lauraq but she didn;t answer and then i called julie and it was like midnight so i woke her mom up so i felt bad but we talked it over and eventually i calmed down and it was all good. PMSing sucks big time. Slept.

Today - Woke up and ate and what not then finished the labels for my mom and made plans with anya. Now I gotta take a shower and go rent a movie, plus post this shit haha. I’ll write soon.



OwnWorstEnemy90: do u wanna see the Village?
An Angry Apple: yeah
OwnWorstEnemy90: DONT



You can't change who someone is without destroying who they were.
2 burned down the walls that keep me in

We are a thing called alive [17 Jul 2004|12:07pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | Oasis - stop crying your heart out ]

Thursday - Woke up feeling pretty shitty about the whole Kevin thing and realized how much i didn't wanna break up with him so i told him that and we worked it out. He came over and we watched kitty love and the attack of the killer tomatos and just lied around. Went to jackies so i could get a sandwhich and then found tyler, went to the bank and they were skating and i wish i had my camera rar. Tyler left and we went and got iced tea and around town and i watched him skate at the post office and stuff. he pushed me around in this huge mail cart thing haha and almost of the ledge and i was so scared but it was fun :) Went back and he had to leave cause his mom was all mad. Went home and managed a ride to Julies. We hung out, you know did things and then went to sleep eventually.

Friday - Got up and got ready for the beach :) had to stand a two hour car ride with christina next to me but it's all good...she's not TOO bad haha. Read and what not. Got there and found aplace to sit then me and julie went into the water and it was cold but we got used to it. there wasn't much of a place to go because you couldn't touch for very long but we swam really far out and i went underwater and opened my eyes and there was seriously twenty feet under julie and it was so awesome and beautiful and i wanted to take a picture of it so bad because it was so amazing. This crazy "16" year old guy was haning out with us and he defiantly wadsn't 16 lol. He had a tatoo so, yeah definatly not. Walked around and on the aritificial jedy things and saw a hot kid fishing and then went back in the ocean, ate, back in the ocean, hehe yeah hung around and it was awesome. I love the beach so insanely much. We were walking back and i complained about my feet looking like breaded chicken and it cracked me up if i may say so myself. Went back and 'showered' then went in the car and i got those boob mark things on my shirt lol. Read and listened to taking back sunday then went to the fireplace for dinner and got to ring a doorbellthat actually made a train whistle. Ate and then went back to julies house, wrapped lauras gift and then hung around and i went home, did things, slept.

Saturday - Woke up, geri came over then ally and jimmy showed up. Hung around the town and stuff, saw leanne and danielle then tom and the 7th grade posse people. Hung out with geri and tom for a while waiting for laura to come then went to my house to wait for her. She came home :) :) hung out geri left eventually then tom then me and laura hung around watched my little eye caught up and slept.

Sunday - Laura's mom picked us up at some point in the morning and brought us to her house where we waited for julie and sarah to get there. sarah got there first and then eventually julie did. we hung around, tom came and we were outside blowing bubbles and throwing corn, then drawing on paper plates with marker...then throwing them too lol. ate pizza and breadsticks, then tom left and we ate ice cream. hung out, i broke up with kevin :\ didn't tell anybody did random things then watched the butterfly effect. Happy Birthday Laura :) Watched ghost ship after kaura fell asleep then when it was done we were all sorta grossed out so we sat in her kitchen, tried to eat. julie wanted to change the subject from hte movie so i was like i broke up with kevin and she was all shocked and like man now you confused the hell out of him and eh i guiess i did buti couldn't explain it and she said she though i was imagining not being able to handle it and i explained that i just fdidn;t want to handle it and if i did i would be able to. whatev. change the subject again and then went to sleep.

Monday - Woke up last i think ate cause i had a headache and my throat hurt. we started watched the butterfly effect again and then sarah left and then julie after it was over. I stayed and talk to laura and told her about kevin i think she laughed which cheered me up about it for some reason idk. went home to my dads and i had the house to myself which ruled because i got to wtch TV haha. yeaaah. did loud things like played my drums which i hadn't done in a long time and then diana came home and i talked to hetr about stuff and then my dad came home and i didn;t talk to him about stuff lol. went to sleep or something.

Tuesday - Had the house to myself again but didn't wake up till like 1. watched TV cleaned my room like a maniac and did other stuff. people got home eventually and i did other things -shrug- idk, it was the first time i'd gone a day without hanging out with someone and to tell the truth it was really nice lol. took a shower and felt clean yay. slept.

Wednesday - Laura came over in early afternoon and then we hung around burned some cd's talked and then left ot pick up julies, went to salvation army and then to the mall while my dad got food. I got a belt juli got hair dye and laura got a candle for her mom. Got cheese puffs and soda and waited for my dad he was all rushing and stuff yikes. we all went back to my moms, tried on clothes, talked then they left. did things and slept.

Thursday - Did nothing all day then found a ride to julies thanks to her sister lol and went there. looked at graduation picutres and then christina left and laura came and it was nice. hung around for the night, nothing too tiresom lol. after laura fell asleep me and julie were talking to each other in sign language and it was cool but laura kept waking up and being like what? and we were like ummm we didn;t even say anything haha it was funny. went to sleep.

Friday - Got up and ate, did stuff, we were home alone, dyed julies hair! and tiny pieces of mine and lauras haha. her momma came home with a zillion free samples haha walked hunter, did things then me and laura left hmm. got home, went to dinner with my mom and then rented the butterfly effect again i love it so much. watched it with her and she hated it even though i though she would love it haha nope too violent. i did stuff wrote submitted my story then watched the movie again haha cause it rules major. slept.

Today - Got up and hung around im so sick lol. at like 1:30 my mom brought me to scotts house and we ran through corn fields which was sooo awesome dude it was sooo high. he was doing kungfu on them and like leaning back and stuff and we were just killing it lol. it stung my face so bad but it was so awesome. Went backand we were really dirty so his mom sent us to the pool, he looked like hitler because he had black dirt under his nose haha we went in and it was really shallow but it was soo nice in there my god. went back and made kool aid, watched TV and i saw all his pictures from lake george and got to experience his vacation haha. hung out and then his parents brought my home. Now i'm doing this again which sucks cause my stupid mouse like to be a dick. Hmm.


An Angry Apple: i might have mono
failurebydsign97: that sucks.. i had that
An Angry Apple: ewy how'd you get it
failurebydsign97: idk
failurebydsign97: sex or something


Hold on,
don't be scared,
you'll never change what's been and gone.
May your smile,
shine on,
don't be scared.

Your destiny will keep you warm.
'Cause all of the stars are fading away,
just try not to worry,
you'll see them someday.
Take what you need,
and be on your way,
stop crying your heart out.

that keep me in

The question is, who are you? [08 Jul 2004|01:55am]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | TBS :: Where you want to be ]

Tuesday - Woke up and expected to not do anything all day watched alotta TV and did nothing sas i planned yay. Later geri asked me to go to the movies with her and joe and some other people. Made plans and went. Ran super late because my dad's stupoid and had to be on the phone. So we went, were late so we went to the dollar store and wedny's and dunkin donuts (me geri joe and sarah). Went and saw the stepford wives which was awesome. Afterwards my dad brought us home and i did things and slept, pretty good day, had my eyes glues to a screen 98 % of it which made me a little sad. TV doesn't agree with me lol. Anyways. yeah slept.

Wednesday - Woke up went to my moms and was all super happy cause i knew the day would kick ass. Got to my moms and talked to kevin, he was all sad and stuff whcih sucked so i was trying to cheer him up and then i went to bring the garbage out and i was like whoa! cause he was there so we hung out and walked places and were all cute and what not. Went to memorial and the construction place wee. Then at 6 my mom brought me to scotts and we watched TV and played pool and then made up this crazy game with the pool balls that involved much pain and throwing lol. Watched some movie about canada. went outside and started the fire and we didn't know to just start with sticks so we put huge logs in and it wasn't burning so his little brother told us to use twiggs so we did andit burned, we caught firefys and shot painball guns at his little brother, roasted mashmellows and made smores then i called my mom and asked if i could stay later she got super pissed off and then we walkeda round his neighborhood talking about random things and then my om picked me up. Went to sunoco and got milk then went home, hung out slept.

Thursday - Woke up and did nothing for a while then walked and met julie at mono farm. We walked to this abandoned barn and looked in she took pictures and it ruled. walked to her house it was so super hot and then we cut through backyards to get to her house and went swimming, uploaded pictures, my camera wouldn;'t turn on :( :( :( hung around rented white oleander watched and in the middle my mom called all pissy cause i didn't water the plants and she came and picked me up. Watched the rest of the movie cried a little then went home and fought with her cried more and then had to water the plants borught a whole shitload of stuff upstairs. Did things started my red poster and then went to sleep.

Friday - Woke up all congested pretty late. Called laura and she was hanging out with tom all day and said she'd come over later. Called julie she came over a little later and we hung around, talked a bunch and then laura came over, we went to the library but it was closed. Hung out said goodbyes brought laura home then went back to my house couldn't get the door opened so we waited then finally opned it i wasn;'t wearing a shirt and we'd just passed a buncah "cool" kids. Went inside did things then went out and got food at sunoco bench hopped laughed went home talked on the front porch for like ever then eventually went inside worked on the poster and julie did a really hard puzzle then went to sleep.

Saturday - Woke up ate hung out then eventually took a shower and julies mom brought me to jess's for her party. it was pretty fun i felt bad cause my gift was shitty but whatever. Hung areound alot and it was cool i had my period which sucked but i just wore a pad in the water caus ihate tampons. swam as littrle as possible and sat on tubes and big palm trees lol then we ate ericsa got a really bad slinter :\ i sang to her and tried to make her feel better. did stuff left later on. My mom brought em to her new work and we walked around it's really nice there. I'm happy for her. Went home did stuff slept.

Sunday - Hung around the house, dillon invited me to his party thing, teddy drove me there and we watched eurotrip and played volleyball and ate and played guitar and drums and then julie came and we watched some other horno thing and then had to leave snuggled with kevy :). Dropped julie off, went o my moms to get stuff then went to my dads ate and talked about the camera then he drove me back to dillons for the fire works. Got to light some off and jump through the fountain things it was so cool. Went home, hung around, slept.


Monday - Woke up hung around and packed a little bit then we drove to ramsey to beverlys cause my dad had to help bring this humungous tv downstairs then we went to west orange to the flemmings house, the poeple we go to the beach with. Got there and the kids weren't there but in a couple minutes the vonhales got there with darren and we played ping pong, walked around the house and hung around all the day. Eventually casey kelly and kyle got home, hung out with them some. me casey kelly duane darren and chris went to the basketball courts. Casey's girlfriend came and i talked to her about college and stuff like that idk. Left darren killed a firefly. all the green stuff was like glowing creepy. Went home hung around swam and played volley ball...in the jacuzii darren was playing with the foam and made himself into santa and stuff. Talked then got out and hung around, they left then we did. Went to beverlys slept there for the next day, didn't get there till like 2 though so i was super tired but i didn't fall asleep until 3 or something so oi vay. Hmm.

Tuesday - Woke up super early like 5:30 and read for like 4 hours, finished star girl, and ate drank ice tea and stuff Eventually theyt made breakfast, ate, went online, got dressed and we headed to the city. had to go to the bank first but then went and parked somewhere, went to canal street and bought purses -shrug- and then parked again after a buncha traffic. Went to lunch at a chinese place and it was really good. The bathroom there was so gross, the toilet wsn't even connectedto the wall lol. Left and parked some place near her sons work got iced tea, met him and we walked to jecyle and hydes for dinner. It kicked ass we walked in and the guy made the ceiling fall on us and then we went in and i was sitting at the bar and the seat was going down and i was like well that's not nice. Sat down and the three people were totally harassing everyone, the one girl maid person was obsessed with the big zuess and was al like he's so hot and then the docter lady peorsone said me and beverly's son were dating cause i think she thought i was alot older. The one guy kept poking us with a straw so i stole it from him and he gotmad. The acts were so cool. The zuess was all like saying happy birthday to the olittle girl and then he said "you could either climb the stairs to glorious heaven or burni n the fire pits of....new jersey!" lol ate and watched and looked around there were these 2 super hot waiters and i kept staring at them lol. Our waitress was really nice and came and sang to us. Did things left and walked to the theatre. We were kinda early so we waited, they let us in and we went in the olittle lounge thing and it said "i had rather have a fool to make me merry than experience to make me sad" and i complained about the wrong grammar lol. Sat around and it was almost time for the show to start so we went up and sat down and it came on and i just smiled, because the sound of that first word was glorious i loooved it sooo much, this is the lion king by the way lol. Oh my goodness it was the best show ever it was amazing. The giraffes were on stilts and the constumes were absolutly amazing. The little simba reminded me of scott because i heard him recite that movie so many times haha i wish he coulda seen it too. I was in completel awe the whole time. The way they did the face of mufaso was absolutely amazing oh my gosh i could go on for hours. I just loved it lol. Bought a shirt that said acuna matata lol. Yeah os we took a cab down to the parking place and droveto their house,. Jon was complaining the whole time about how slow she was driving ebven though she was speeding. Little whinner. 24 years old too. oi. So got there and then drove home home. Got there checked messeges and stuff, talked to diana and the cat then went to sleep.

Today - Woke up at 1 cause i had been so exhausted woke up did things packed killed ants and went to my moms house. He brought my camera to the post office to send it back and get the warranty. Went to my moms hung around fought with Kevin then went to babysit. It wasn't bad but i felt kinda bad that they just slept and i didn't want them to be asleep when Danielle got home so i woke them up and gave them juice. She got home and they were prancing around. Went home and fought with kevin for like 4 hours straight and i was feeling super odd and things like that and idk it was just insane i was turning into some really weird person. Eh, idk, cried alot, talked on the phone alot, yelled alot, drank alot of grape juice in a shot glass, so classy i know. Hmm I'm tired.


shoutsofsilence: You're seriously one of the worst people I've ever met
An Angry Apple: i know i am
An Angry Apple: probly the worst you'll ever meet
shoutsofsilence: Your not worth anyones time
An Angry Apple: i know im not
An Angry Apple: but you wasted plenty of time on me didn't yopu
An Angry Apple: and now you regret that
An Angry Apple: and wish you could take everything back
shoutofsilence: Yeah because i thought i loved you
An Angry Apple: but you dont
An Angry Apple: and you never did
An Angry Apple: cause you never knew me
shoutofsilence: No one ever has
An Angry Apple: i know
An Angry Apple: and im gonna keep it that way
An Angry Apple: shh it's our little secret
shoutsofsilence: And nobody should talk to you you should be icolated from the world
An Angry Apple: yeah lets lock me in a black closet
An Angry Apple: lets forget about me
An Angry Apple: or better yet
An Angry Apple: drown me in the ocean
An Angry Apple: and let the sharks devour me
shoutsofsilence: it pisses everyone off
An Angry Apple: hahahaha i looooove how you keep saying everyone
An Angry Apple: it's so cute
An Angry Apple: you're so cute kevy
An Angry Apple: i wanna kiss you
shoutsofsilence: Your so high rioght now aren't you
An Angry Apple: nooo
An Angry Apple: straight edge remember
shoutsofsilence: u lier ur not high u stupid bitch
An Angry Apple: smart enough not to smoke
An Angry Apple: or drink
An Angry Apple: i am taking shots though
An Angry Apple: of grape huice
An Angry Apple: juice*
An Angry Apple: aren't i original
An Angry Apple: dont you love me
An Angry Apple: come on
An Angry Apple: just for kicks
An Angry Apple: tell me you love me
shoutsofsilence: I don't love you you ruined everything
shoutsofsilence: and you don't care
An Angry Apple: i care
An Angry Apple: i care more than youdo
An Angry Apple: we care alot
An Angry Apple: we care alot
An Angry Apple: clap clap
shoutsofsilence: WHo's we
shoutsofsilence: me and u?
An Angry Apple: yeeaah me and you
An Angry Apple: hmm doesn't it sound good
An Angry Apple: me and you
An Angry Apple: rebecca and kevin
An Angry Apple: it's sounds so nice and happy and peerffecctt
shoutsofsilence: It could have been but you fucked it up
An Angry Apple: i knooww...im like a tornado
An Angry Apple: im such a disaster aren't i
An Angry Apple: but im your disaster
An Angry Apple: im yours
An Angry Apple: you could make me into a locket if you wanted
An Angry Apple: and wear me all the toime
An Angry Apple: or you could throw me out



I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you.
that keep me in

Three days of feasting [28 Jun 2004|12:14pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Strong Medicine ]

Friday - School. My last ever day of english with Presnal! weee! Instead of walking I just rode the bus to Julie's house which was cool cause i like breaking rules :) hehe. It was cool 'cause she goes through that same bus route everyday and i never had so it was kinda crazy doing it. Got to her house and ate, talked to everybody and people eventually showed up (laura geri and anya). We swam and ate and hung around some more hehe then Geri left because she was fgoing bowling with John and me laura julie and anya watched maybe memories oohhh my god it's so good lol. Then we went walking on the tracks and it was fun cause i took pictures and talked to anya alot about a buncha stuff. IU caught a firefly and made a wish and anya was amazing and she tried to catch them too. hmm, emo nights. Went home hung around then went home. Fooled around with my pictures. Slept.

Saturday - Woke up got a lift to lauras house and julie was there then we went to the mall and the disney store! bought a shirt tyhat kicks ass even thought it's missing a buncha characters. Went to fye and looked for like 5 hoursa and i got the brazil cd! Alex was there. Went to get food at the food court and then went home did stuff and julies mom brouhgt me home at some point. Did things. Slept.

Sunday - Went to my dads at like 10 because it was fathers day. We were gonna go eat at some deli thing but instead we went home and made breakfast and stuff. Ate and then the power went out but came back on so i did things. I thought that he was going to go to some picnic but he decided not to so it sucked because i couldn't do all the things i wanted to. I ended up writing some of my book though so it was cool. Hung around all day doing not too much of anything. I told Kevin how much i loved him. We started going out again. :) :) :) Slept.

Monday - French Profissiancy. Oi i got there and i thought we had to use pencils but we needed pen so i had to run around trying to get one, emily gave me one. Merritt was being stupid and movie around when he talked so his voice volume kept changing so i could hear then i couldn';t which sucked. On the writing part my pen died so mrs layne had to get another one for me. It ended and i was nervous. Went to tech and then last day of gym. I ran the lap super fast and saw the whole crew playing UV hehe. Went and played medic which sucked but whatever. Lunch i went to motyka for the last time but they were studing, i rallied them up though haha we wrote scott in the floor with needles and we talked about a buncha fun things. Left, advisory sorta blew cause Presnal was all mad at me haha. We ate in science, math we had a sub cause Mrs kane was sick :(. My day sucked compared to Zeta's rar. ..............

Tuesday - Went to school and we had our team activity. i was so mad because presnal wouldn't let me go to delta's team activity rar i was so mad. i helped d3elta sety up their tables though ha cause i rule. went to french first and saw the hor foreign exchange student hehe. found out i got a 73 on my profish! yes! then went to the thing and started watching miracle and eating and stuff. I was with kim and hannah most of the time and then me kim and hannah made up some reason to leave and did. We were out wandering and presnal saw us so we had to go back and hannah stepped on my ring and it broke haha. Went back hung out wioth john and steven more. Tried to get out again but just eneded up sitting around. it finally ended and me and hannah raced around the school taking pictures of absolutely everything haha then we found kim and went outside to wait for hermom. Me and hannah slid down the hill and i found a balloon hehe. Kimand hannah left anbd then i walked home, jen and lindsey were on my porch and they came and hung out with me then kevin and teddy came and i hung out with them and lindsey and jen left even though i told them not to. Hung out with them then lindsey and jen came back and left again. laura and julie came over and stuff happens. Kevin and teddy left evenautlly and me laura and julie went to check out the carnival bvefore it opened haha. went home, hung around and did things then went to sleep eventually.

Wednesday - Woke up and walked to school, we were a scooch late but it's okay. walked through the school then carr let us out to get to the high school. Got there got awards and had to sit through the whole friggen thing rar. AFterwards we left and water balloons were breaking and it sucked haha. So i watched all the buses leave and hugged mrs taylor and waters and stuff and then went to kill people with water but they're all stupid so it5 didn't worek haha. Me julie and laura wetre walking then we turned around to try and get them but noooo they went to sandforville or whatever. went home, did thing and waited for frank to come. more and more people showed up and it was happy :) frank came!!!! wee it was weird at first but evetybody got used to it. Played UV hehe and hung around till we went to the carnival. Got there got those fun stamp thing and kevin was mad at me so i was mad and then it was cool again. DId thing at the carnival then eventually left we lost laura but found her again i went and layed in a feild cause i'd wanted to for a long time, saw a firefly and caught it then caught more, brought one to kevin and gqave it to him hehe. Saw eddie and steph in the dugout uuwww. Hung out at the pavilion then scott left. Frank and the crew came there and then kevin and teddy left eventually and i cought up or something. Wanted to go on the ferriswheel with frank but we ran out oftime. Me and geri lost frasnk so we had to find him finalkly did and me and him walked home and made smoothies in my room chit chatted and then went to sleep.

Thursday - Woke up and he was awake already so i felt bad, ate and did things. Julie and laura came over then geri and then kevin and teddy showed up. I wasn't in the most chipper mood i guess you could say., Devon came and then evetybody went and got pizza but i staqyed and took a shower. I made myself match and everything and julie and laura said i was pretty and kevin said i loekd creepy but eh whatever i wasn't in the best mood. Was upstairs alot being antisocial and then i was talking to scotty and we made plans and stuff. Went to the carnival with julie laura and geri. it was cool because geri and laura went off then me and julie went picture taking and geri stayed with other people and laura hung out with tom yay and then eventually we met up with them again and took more pictures then we walked home real quick and then geri and laura left then julie did at like 11 and we talked alooottt about a buncha different things and then did things nad slept.

Friday - Woke up and had to make a buncha plans to get to scotts i was gonna walk but eh my dad said he could bring me. Hung out and then Lar came home and helped backup my stuff on the computer then i left and went to scotts. John answered the door so i just went upstairs cvause i heard scotty playing drums. Went in and told him and steven i had jell-o wahoo! We went downstairs and made it and pudding and stuff. Teven put salt and lemonade in the jell-o haha and almost a pickle butr we stopped him. It was gonna take like 4 hours to make so we walked to the crystal inn and got a whole pie but it was 11 bucks and we only had 8, but the lady let us have it anyway. We walked to some horse place ;) and found bamboo and raspberries and ate a ton of them and then went and got the pie. We sat in the front lawn and ate it and scott wantred me to put a piece on his face so i did but then he nailed me in the back with one haha it was grossss i looveedd it. Ate then i went in and go5t water and we left, easting more raspberries. Steven showed us this crazy abandoned place that we went in and looked at and then i opened the trailker door thing and i swear it was straight outta the texas chainsaw massacre. We made scott throw up raspberries and then walked to steven's house ate twinkies and i was in his pimpin room from trading spaces haha and saw his bass and then we went back to scotts. The jell-o was done so we put pudding jello ice cream and wool whuip in a cup and ate it and drank lemonade and we got sooo fat. Layed down on his comfy couches and watched fat camp hahaha it was cool, his doggy loves me :) hehehehe. DOghair got on the couch so we had to cover it up and scott was like lying on top of the pillows that were on top of me haha then i made steven spo that too and it was nice and cozy hehe. My mom came a picked us up and dropped us off at my house then we went to the carnivla. On the way we saw steven and his ghetto friends and we walked over and saw jen na dlindsey and we were trying to jack some tickets so jen gave me some to go i could go with her but eh she wanted to go on with scott so i had to go with lindsey bleh but i wanted to go with him whatever man. We all sorta fought kinda and then it was rainign and we were running around make loud noises and dancing and then we found enough tickets top go on the bumper cars did that and then hung out more evnautlly they started turning off all the rides and stuff and we walked to agway to wait for their dad, i just walked home and then my mom told me that i was suppose to get a ride home from him so he was probly worrying and i was like wow mom dont tell me he's bringing me home or anything ugh. Did things, dried off, phone, slept.

Saturday - Woke up and took a shower then got ready. My dad picked me up and we drove to connecticut it suked cause i forgot my cd player and he made me go to the fish place ugh. Got there and the suprise wasn't good anyway ate and hung around stupid chit chat all night. Diana and mike were there and then evenautll we had to go to my cousin mikes championship game for baseball. It was pretty cool seeing all the kids there acting just like we did i liked it, and i kinda stared at them the whole time so it was cool. He lost but it was cool then we went back and ate dessert and stuff, swam, did things tried to call everybody and i couldn't remmeber kevin's cell number so that blew but eh, yeah went to sleep i was deeaadd.

Sunday - Woke up, ate but saved room for the next party haha then watched some of my dads home videos from when he wqs like 10 then left. Listened to my summer mix from last year and then idk drove home, got dropped off at Julies for the party. Laura got there at like the same time she xcut her hair :) :). Hung around waiting for guests. They came and we were introed to everybody and it was cool cause ui liked meeting people's family hehe. lotsa food and stuff and we were hanging out. Me sean Kevin and Ian and peopple were playing monkey in the middle so i got the ball and sean tried to get it so i tackled him and he ended up getting it anyway so the rest of the day he was trying to get me back by throwing gummie bears at me and stuff and i was like that's not cool .I wrote newt in gummie bears on the poll by julies house hehe and then me and sean joined sides agaian christina because she was trying to get him wet and we shook on it because i got him a bottle of water. Christina was soo mad at me haha. Me and sean played slaps or whatever and ibeat him and he was like whaaatt that's not right! and then he punched me or something it was cool. i win. Julie was s'pose to come with me and laura to lauras house but her mom made her stay home because kelly was gonna be therte. We left and then when we got to lauras we hung out with tom and i was really hyper but then i got really like rar! and started throwing rocks everywhere and it was good anger managment. Went back ate and hung out talked to people and then weatch secret window, fell asleep.

Today - Woke up and fgelt bad because Laura was on the floor and i had her whole bed. Got up ate and then she had her guitar lesson, i stayed upstairs and did this and then after we went to walmart stopped at my dads to get money but i couldn't find my gift card so i was mad. went to monroe abd tgeb we were looking at bathing suits and stuff and then found shirts for laura and she looks hot hehe. hung around found some shirts things bought candy and soda and went home. Had to get the oil changed inher moms car and then got the car washed. Came back to her house hung around, that's what's up now yeaaah. Hmm going home later.



Ne<3



Scott Has Said: by the way all that pooding a jello is gone lol
Scott Has Said: and how do u spell pooding?



Save a match for me,
run with me into the flames.
Save a match for me,
Play the game with me tonight.
that keep me in

I am the dust, so wish me luck, and catch me if you can [17 Jun 2004|10:11pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | Backstreet Boys ]

Friday - French was fun 'cause Merritt was all happy go lucky. He was talking about how he lost his good eraser and he was like "see look, this one doesn't work" and he tried to erase something and you could still see it so he was like talking to the board and he was like "hey, I still see you." Hehe I giggled. Then he was talking about the hot chicks in france? Yeah. So the day went and then we all walked home. I was in my house mst the time that everyone was there so my mom was reeaaallllyyy mad at me because they were going insane. So we were trying to get like a buncha people to the go to the drive in after my mom got supere pissed at me and told methat if we get kicked out of the apartment it's my fault. Thanks mom. So instead of a buncha people coming to the drive in just me and laura went with my sister, we saw the day after tomorrow. Jess Monica Jess and Ashley were there and we hung out with them fr a few minutes but then went back to the car. It was a kickass movie but the plot was kinda stupid but the idea kicked ass. Made you think about what you're doing to the world. Dropped laura off and then went home. Geri stayed at Julie's the whole weekend.

Saturday - Woke up and we started out late on the trip to syracuse. We had to stop at my dads to get her cell phone charger or something so then her and my dad got in this humungous fight and there were screaming and then he acused my mom of thinking she was "high and mighty" because she was trying to help by saying there was miscommunication when she would know best because that's her friggen profession...oi. So anyways we left warwick and drove for however long, went to a baby shower and i didn't knw only girls were there so i was like "mom, this is a weird question but is this strictly girls only?" and she was like " oh yeah i forgot you've never been to one" so i was like "yteah dont mention it to anyone though lol" and she's like okay so 10 minutes later i heard her talkng to some other person and she was like "... so i said, yeah, it's only for girls" and i yelled like "MOM!" and she's like "oh sorry honey." So we sat around did small talk and what not. Left and went to dinner someplace and then to see shrek 2. Wend t the retreat house and settled in, took a shower, called peoplem slept.

Sunday - Woke up and had to go to a mass thing and they made me read some thing on the alter yuck i was so mad. Anyways then we saw morgan and went to breakfast with her and the family, she's a cool girl, nicer to me than my own brother lol. So then she left and we went to my other uncles for the party for my uncles 40 years of preisthood. Hmm. It was fun, being with the family and all, everrryyyone was there seriously. They're all cool people, i like them lol. We played volleyball and stuff which i liked because im sorta good at t and according to them i am lol so they're making me join the team, -shrug-. Hung around there fora whioe then started on my way home, called laura and julie and it was nice and then went home. Didn't get back till late because we had to stop at wendy's cause my mom wamnted to sleep, i just read, finshed whte oleader, yeah, that's what rules. That morning Julie and Laura got confirmed and stuff, yay for them :) hehe. <3

Monday - Woke up and laura came over, then Jimmy and ally showed up hehe. Scott came and just walked into my house cause the door was open and we thouhgt it was my mom so we moentarily flpped out. Then we saw him and it was cool. Tom came, him and laura wandered off, me ally andf jimmy went to the bridge thing and walked all thrugh the stream thinghaha we were soooakkkeeddd man lol. Like we always are. So eventually people left, idk, thats what happens. Went to my dads. Did stuff, slept.

Tuesday - SS test. rar

Wednesday - School. SS test again. Went to the concert after school and we were in the rain and it was the best day of my life because of the rainbow, 2 of them! it was sos pretty. Me jen scott katie and lindsey were hanging out in the back with the green mat and stuff and lindsey chipped her tooth which sucked major. She was feeling so sick and stuff and i felt bad. then i accidentally sprayed her in the eye with perfume and i felt so bad lol. Meh stuff happened, we chilled out. They all leftand my mom was super late. Hmm did stuff went to sleep.

Thursday - School. Found out that scott's grounded fr the rest of eternity? haha nah, sorta. Home. Was like working in the shed with my mom and kevin showed up and he was like "wanna come to the bazaar with me?" and i was like sorry jen's picking me up so he left -shrug-. she came and got me and lindsey got her tooth fixed, yay :) Went to the bazaar, we hung out and stuff and saw a buncha people. Lindsey bought that hot kid richie. She was like, i ll give you 2 bucks if you go on the teapots with us so he did and it was cool. Haha she thought i liked him though i was like jicca whhhaaa i know too much to ever like him haha. SO we hung around and stuff, i went on the hi-jacker wuith scotts little brother haha but he couldn't come causea the whole grunded thing...hmmm. Did stuff, slept.

Friday - Went to school but only till like, 5th period cause i left with laura causea the formal thing haha. Her mom picked us up and we went to my house and ti BK and then to her house. hung around then Geri came. we plaued ultimate vollyball wth a fritos bag while eating ice pops, and...what's a horse that's roade at night? A NIGHTMARE! hahahahaha. when the high school bus went by and i tried to do a cartwheel but i went on blacktop and it was painful lol. So then we was just chilling out. Took a shower and then went to town with them and then hung out with tom for a little then went back weeee. Lauras mom picked us up at some point and we went back and waited for people to get there. Meirah came and then anya and thhheennn sarah and then Julie came super late haha bu she was all ready. We were such girls getting read with out makeup and nails and stuff haha. Meirah straightened my hair :) and then idk we did stuff, parents came over and took pictures then we all went to the formal :) we left at the beginning to the bazaar and then went back, yeah to the formal lol. It was fun at the beginning seeing everyone and then it got bitchy then at the end it was better. Went to the bazaar again after cause meirah had never been to one hhee then eventually went back to laura,s ate and got comfy, then watched grind and slept :) at like 2 in the morning i flipped out and thought the huse was gonna burn down. So i woke laura up and told her and she was like meh and like mummbled for her mom to come and i was lke she's not gonna hear you and she's like meh so i was like ill go get her so i did and then her mom said it was suppose to be and it was all cool. went to sleep.

Saturday - Woke up like last or something cause that's what up and then ate and what not. Anya left early and then everybody else did, me and julie stayed at lauras and we watched detroit rock city!!! sarah was there for a little while too. we hung around then started walking to town with tom and some random kid offered us a ride so we went in and it happened to be aisling's brother haha so it's cool. He dropped us off at the corner and then we went to my house and hung around for the day. Then later on Geri and Jon and Mark came to get us but there wasn't enough room in the car so we started to walk to the bazaar and laura ran into a parking meter really really hard and fast and i laughed my ass off and pissed my pants lol so we walked some ways more and hen geris dad picked us up and brought us to the school. we went to the carnival but then we just went behind the school and stuff, hung around, got super wet so no one would notice my ass was pissed on lol so we stayed there a long ass time and i got super super super hyper like haven't been in a long time. Geri John and Mark left and i forgot i wasn't leaving with them so i got in their car and julies like dude my mom is bringign you home and i was like oh yeahg. haha so then jimmy and ally were there and hung out with them,. Thne me and jule went and hung out in front of the school, watched/heard some kid eat a live fish, watched pepe skate on broken skateboards. laura was with tom and then me and julie had an emo chat, we hadn't done that in a long time. Ben gave me some random teddy bear weee....so her mom came eventually and then dropped me and laura off at my house. we had rented eurotrip and the little eye and we watched eurotrip. "here's a fun fact" ... "YOU MADE OUT WITH YOUR SISTER!" haha so anyways watched, slept.

Sunday - Woke up and watched eurotrip again, but laura had to leave early cause she had a game and then julie came over. Steven was suppose to come and get me and julie so we could get chinese but he couldn't find the house lol, later on he was like "dude you moved your house with a helicoper nto a hill that you knew i'd be too lazy to walk all the way up it! i hate you because you hate me!" and i was like jicca whhhaaa?!" so anyways, after we gave up on him we went to jackies deli and got sandwhiches then went inside and watched eurotrip, hung around, then julie went home. Did things, stayed at my mommas cause my dad was ona cruise -shrug- slept.

Monday - School. After school we went to the movies, me geri julie laura anya sarah meirah, we went cause it was geri's birthday and she kicks ass whhhaatttt?! yeah so we saw harry potter and then went to dunkin doughnuts and wendy's yeaah man. So that ruled major. Went home me and anya squeezed in the trunk under a strange wooden board and then we all went home weee. Yeah my dad pickjed me up at my moms and we went there. me and my sster talked to him for a while about the cruise and stuff but then she left or somthing so i did too hehe. Yeah did stuff slept.

Tuesday - "Yeah and dude, my brother thinks you're half blind"

Wednesday - Science test, fell asleep after it haha. Yeah so school happened then me laura and tom walked home and what not and we went to my house and stufffff. We listened to the backstreet boys and nsync cause they kick yeaaah i was dancing and everything. Hehe, i think i got the tearin up my heart dance down now lol. They left, i wanted laura to stay longer but she couldn't :( So i hung around, slept.

Thursday - School, lent ben my belt cause his pants were falling down. School blows end of story

Friday - School. Ben forgot my belt, -sigh- lol. The mornng was a big breakfast for us and we got on yearbooks which im not in lol. We looks through, got them signed and stuff, yeah thas what up. Did stuff the rest of the day, i started gioing to motykas a few days earlier yeah and hung out with scott and eddie mmmhum. Went there, did things, the rest of the day happened. Walked home with a bazillion people. Mostly Jen and lindsey cause they're fun :) Ally oo thugh, and scott haha anyways, go totown and wen t meet schmon with scott ben joe TJ Kevin and Oliver. There were so many people and then steven came with nick and mike haha it was crazy. So we finally ate and it was so hectic haha. at one point i went to get ice cream and these two kids were like looking at me funny and i was like riiiiight so i sat back down and let steven makefun of me more abut being a vegitarian and let kevin call me a bad vegitatian cause i eat starburst lol. So people left and then, idk, we did and stuff. Me nick steven and mike went to BK to look for stevens mom and she wasn't there so we went ot barry's bikes and then to radioshack and then like, back to my house and they tried to steal my food, then back to BK where they found his mom lol. It was crazy how me laura and julie had completly different days, like laura walked the tracks with tom, julie walked with sarah and stuff, and i was with jen lindsey scott and steven it was weird, we had a bunch to catch up on lol. So people left at some point and then me julie laura and teddy were hanging out, he left eventually and then geri mark and john came back and we went to memorial. I flipped after a little bit and i had to run back and make sure my backpack was okay. Laura came with me and eventually they came back, julies mom picked us up and then me julie and laura went to julies, watched 13 and then ate and slept.

Saturday - Woke up and we ate and did stuff, hung around for the day and then Lauras mom brought me and her home because she had to shower and stuff and i had to babysit. After i babysat i went home, lauras mom picked me and julie up and brought us o the show in monroe. (Lauras brother got stiches cause he hurt his leg :\ ) Went to the show and Mr Conques was there in huge baggy pants a tight basketball jersey and earings haha it was pretty odd. We went outsdie in between bands and we didn;t stay fr one of them. We were outside talking to some girl who was prety rad. went bacm nside and saw conques mosh then left eventually. we went and saw static and then her mom picked us up, brought us home and then i did stuff and slept.

Sunday - Tried to make plans for band practice, Julie couldn; come cause she went to GWL and then sarah went to her cousins so it ended up being just me teddy and laura. We went to shoprite with my dad, got food, then went to my house, had opractice and hung around, put a bra on teddy wih softballs in the cups haha. Yeah hung around they left, i hung around not doing much, went to dinner with my dad and sister, some old lady called the ambulence and stuff cause she fell down 2 stairs. hmm went home, slept.

Monday - Mrs Presnal blows dogs for quarters man.

Tuesday - "Hey miss i write everything on my calender." my ass Julie, my ass.

Wednesday - School. Told presnal that i didn't even read call of the wild lol. Watched apollo 13 and forest gump...hmm. Went to the library after school and got books then met jimmy and ally, hung out with them for a whle, then went home, did alotta homework and slept.

Today - Went to school early and did homework then copied geris frecnh cause forgo about it, she did the wrong thing anyways lol. The day went. During lunch/motykas i was hanging out with scott andme him and clare were trying oi plan going outside in he rain at some point. bu then we couldn;t, scott tried to be able to walk home with me and stuff but he couldn;t. went home, did things, like this, was in a bad mood and stuff which blew but whatever, got better but got in a huge fight with my mom about how i did back in frewnch and next year i have to do better and stuff and i told her she didn't disapline me enough, sounds stupid but whatever. I swear dude, next year im gonna be so much more serious...hold me to that cause i cant afford to do bad or ill never get into college :\ whatever man. Goodnight.




You started going out with so-called friends
But I was blind and so I lost all common sense
But there were things that made me realize
Like all the hundred no, thousand lies.
Dont want you back.
that keep me in

Is it because I'm black? [27 May 2004|06:57pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | The Rocket Summer ]

Friday - School. English was actually kinda cool because there was only like 5 people there so we just hung around and did nothing, i read and thats about it. SS was alright cause he just talked while we didn;t pay attention and i read more. i felt bad though because i was totally ignoring him and i figured it must be hard for him to just sit there and talk to the wall but whatever i stopped and payed attention for a little while cause i felt bad lol. Tech we just did stuff cause thats whats up. gym was awesome because we played this game where there were a bazillion cones and stuff and we'd kick the ball and knock over as many cones as possible man it ruuulleeddd. Lunch was just..eating and what not. the line was short so it was cool. Advisory was cool cause there were only like 4 of us so i just read but she kept sendoing me to do shit haha. It's okay though because i got to walk around. Science we did some weird lab and math we like...watched a movie i think. I took the bus home and hung around. Teddy and Tyler came and teddy was gonna hang out with me but i had to babysit so i told him i'd hang out with him while i baby sat so it was cool. I went and got the kids and went outside then i hung out with for a little while. I left and we watched TV and what not cause thats what i do with kids. yeaaahh. I made them food i htink. Got home at like 10 or something and my sister was going to bribng me Julies but then she didn;t and i was pissed off and i was gonna walk to her house cause i was mad. my mom called and said she could bring me so she did and i got there at like 11:30. We talked for a while and eventually went to sleep.

Saturday - Woke up, hung around and then talked to Geri. John was gonna pick us up and we were gonna go to her house but michelle brought us instead. we hung out at geri's then iwas gonan home but instead i went to her lacrosse game. She went to practice and me julie mark and john went to jiffy. I dropped my snapple on the ground and it broke and i was piisseddd. So we went back on the tracks and i did he loves me he loves me not hehe. apparently he loves me not -sigh- we had a sweedish fish war and hung around. Julies mom showed and flipped and was lie "rebecca you're suppose to be babysitting" and i friggen swore on my life that she said 5 whateveeerrr. Got ther and diana was watching them. i took over and then darrin came home evetually. somehow i managed to leave my shoes there so when i went outsdie to read i grabbed them and another hour later i realized that i left my hearing aids there too so i went and got them too and read more. Hung around and slept.

Sunday - Woke up and i was gonna hang out with laura and julie or lindsey but the scott was like come over! So i asked my dad if he'd bring me and said yeah. So i took a shower and i got out and the phone was ringing and i ran to get it and it was scott and he was like "dude did you just call?" and i was like nooo and he's like oh okay sorry haha. So anyways my dad picked me up and went to scotts. When i got there his grandparents were all like "do ou play golf?" and i was like noo haha and they're like "oh cause i thougt maybe if uyou did scotty here would" hehe. Yeah so then scott gave me a crazy tour of the whole house and i swear he's gonna be like a tourer person cause he's good at it haha. So his house kicks yeeaahh. We went on the trampoline and then watched TV and what not. Finding nemo and good burger were on so we watched themm haha it was awesome. Watched the 8th grade movie and stuff. I like to embaress myself? yes? hehe. His mom came home and she was like hi rebecca, you're the weird one right? hehe yeah iwas like how'd you know? and then she said something about my pictures haha. Yeah so then we went down the river. we had to walk through like 94375 peopels yards to get there haha. my foot kept getting stuck in the mudhaha so i'd have to dig up my sandle i swear i thought that it was gonna break. Walked around and it started thundering. we tried to get back to his house and we somehow ended up in the pine island field and it was pouring and hailing and we were walking and it was soooo cool. Finally he was like "dude we came through those woods...if we went back through wouldn't we get backto my house" and i was lik oh yeaaah haha. So we went through the woods ended up in the neighborhood next to his and then walked throguh more poepl yards and got to his house. We were soooaakkedd and we were ahnging around and we saw this huge red and yellow thing in the yard next to his so e went to scope it out. Some kids baptism or something. we saw these kids skating and he was like im better than you! no he didn't say that hhaa but he was thinkin it. We ran around to all of the trees and shook the branches so we'd get rained on then we went inside and it was so dirty haha. we were in the basement and i didn't wanna get his couch wet so i sat on my sweatshirt. We went to get food after good burger ended and we got dorittos and made onion dip. we talked to his mom and stuff and then we played cath with an egg! haha it kicked, he won but i threw the broken egg back at him hehe. then we made water balloons with some dificulty and went outside and pkayed catch with them too. I pitched one and he hit like he was batting and it was siiick. My dad came and ruined everything lol. went home and hung around then did stuff and slept. Good day good day.

Monday - School. I dont think much happened but eh. hmm. Home after school. Nothing special.

Tuesday - School. Lauras mom picked us up and we went backto her house after going to shoprite which was entertaining hehe. went to her house then watched strong medicine and went to town ofr a little...walked to her game and i watched it while i was really hyper talking to people like alec and stuff. eric and dan were there too. when it was over went hom and called scott cause i wanted to know what was up. talked to him and then did stuff. diana came home with the kitty yay hung out with them for the rest of the night. me and diana watched a guy thing then she went to sleep and i did laundry showered and like did homework. Slept.

Wednesday - School. Scott bought a new lock so i was playing with his all day haha. French was fun and so was like everything else cause idk it was cool. too much happened sept all these rumors and what not. oi. afterward hung around then went to dinner with my mom sister and shea and then my mom brought me to my dads to get stuff then to the concert. found jen and lindsey and hung around with them laura and tom came then wandered off then me jen and lindsey went to the fluffy things and scott didn't come cause his mom wouldn't let him or something,. we went and did flips and stuff...it was crazy cause it was foggy and stuff...it kicked dude. yeah so we did stuff then had emo time cause lindsey was upset and stuff. Then me luara and tom had to sprint up to the church to get picked up. my mom brought them home to lauras and tom walked home. went home and then hung around. phone. sleep.

Today - Woke up and did my homewrk then went to school. i had to run down the hill hing inside haha. I got to do a physical so i got out of presnal and johnson wahahaha then tech was cool health sucks and lunch was alright. Before advisory i went to Mrs Taylors room and i was talking to her for like an hour haha lindsey was asking me who i liked and then mrs taylrs like get to class! except for you rebecca i gotta ask ou something" so i waited and she closed the door and was like "who do you liiikkeee come on tell me pleeaasseee :(" and gave me a pouty look. i said no and walked nto her class...read the last page of my brother sam is dead then hung around and got a pass from her. when she signed it she wrote "who do you like?!?!" so i was like i'll e-mial you and tell you haha. So i left and stopped at reuckets to ell her about the leg meg cpc thing haha that was fun. then went to advisory. presnal flipped and said i coulda been dying on the floor and no one would have known lol. me and chelsea went around and told people about lunch bunch. I made mrs taylor a sheet that said "memo...concerning lunch bunch. the following students are interested in participating in the out funfilled lunch....names" threw it at her and ran to science haha. After 8th perid i went to mrs waters to ask if she was staying after so that we could study for the assesment tests and she said maybe. went to math and then kane was like where were you and i told heer she called the office and it wasd cool. 20 minutes later the office called and said that i was absent? i got confused and kane was like "umm she came i told you guys that" and they were like "when she gets a chance can she come to the office?" so i went later on and they asked why i'd been late for 3 periods and i gave them completely reasonable answers and they were like whatever make sure you get to your classes on time from now on lol. called my mom stayed after with reuckert then killed megan at slaps and went home hehe. Just hanging around now...it happens lol.


Dead Rose444: i just ate dinner hamburger corn and a ppooootttaatttoo
An Angry Apple: ewy
Dead Rose444: im sorry i should have never metioned meat in your presence i wont agian
An Angry Apple: good good hehe
Dead Rose444: mhmm make a mental note of that
Dead Rose444: wait no i dont rember anything
Dead Rose444: ill write it down sometime


So stare and see that this is me, and I will be just what I need to believe, that something is what I'm gonna be.
that keep me in

Wish it could stay like that all the time...nothing gold can stay [20 May 2004|05:43pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | The Juliana Theory :: Understand this is a dream ]

Sunday - Woke up then later on Laura came and picked me up and we went to her house, hung around for a while then we went to her game. Teddy Kevin Alec Eddie and Steph were there but we didn't really hang out, i had to do the scoreboard again bleh, some random kid helped -shrug-. We had to leave early because she had confirmation class so we left, she dropped me off at my moms and i hung out. I heard some people screaming outside so islike whaaaattt. Went out and it was Jen and Lindsey so i hung out with them for a while and we went to franks and saw the hot kid richie weeeee. I forgot about the movie so i had to sprrrinnttt home and then sprint back to the movie store, got it in at 8:03 and asked if she could just take it cause it was only 3 minutes late and she did lol. I called my dad and he came and picked me up. Hung around doing basically nothing called scott then did other stuff -shrug- slept.

Monday - Wow my english class can do absolutely nothing right. Mrs Presnal was raving about how shitty our research papers were that we spent hundreds of hours on and like, hardly ate because we were so worried about it yuck and then she goes and basically tells us they're shit. bleh. Whatever i found a pink pen later on and wrote people notes, dotting my i's with hearts and being all preppy haha. Went home, talked to people like scott about how our future's gonna kick major ass haha. Walked to lauras and took a buncha pictures it was sooooo hot out ahh. Finally got there, hung around and what not then she had a guitar lesson while i ate capn crunch and ice pops. Left, did stuff at home, slept.

Tuesday - Bleh school's a douche. Got home and did stuff, i painted a picture, and it was pretty, hehe, cleaned my room, finished sirens of titan and started white oleander weee happy night. Slept pretty early i think, go me.

Wednesday - School? yuuckiiiee. Mrs Presnal likes to assign four million exercises in a stupid grammer book because we cant talk as fast as she can. Hmm. school, then afterward julie came over we talked and ate kix and stuff, then we hitched a ride to the middle school. We had to walk through the church thing and the priest had dirt hand prints on his ass haha. Julie also came up with the idea that i should drag a lawn mower onto the bus, bring it to school, and mow a path for myself by the church so i dont have to walk through tic infested weeds :). We hung out found ally, watched the concert then went outside. we saw these scaters so i asked if i could take pictur4es of them weee. The one guys board broke at the nose so it was hard for him to do anything and i felt bad cause it was like brand new. -shrug-. Yeah so we went around to the track where a buncha guys were running around seriously 93754 times. then there were some girls there and one of them turned out to be tommys girlfriend -kissy- so i talked to her haha and there was this huge green thing and we were doing flips and stuff! it was so cool! we could totally not land anything and it wouldn't hurt at alllllll. It was amazing we were all over the place. hehe but then allys mom called and she had to leave, they sprinted to the gate and then julie waited for me. We layed down on the track and we were watching the sky and it was soo pretty and so nice and ahh i could have layed there for hours. we quoted the outsiders and aahh she's my best friend. we left and talked about how cool the end of school is going to be and about the summer. went to the front, found annie stubecks money and gave it to mrs hanson and she was all like praise you! haha. so we waited for my mom and she was all flippin out like where were you so i lied and said we were inside and stuff and she's like oh okay haha. Went to my dads to get clothes and then dropped julie off, then home. Hung around, slept.

Today - Woke up at 5:30, did my english homework, then went to sleep again till like 7:30, was sorta awake but lying there for a while. Got up around 7:40 and got dressed and what not then waited for my mom to be ready. she made me water the plants really fast and i was already late for school haha. whatev. Got there and me ben and devon were all in a line haha it was cool. went in and whatever hung around went to homeroom and then class? yeah. got a 50 on this french thing, man i suuuck. the day went. During 8th period me katie ali olivia val and jessica were just out in the hallways wander around aimlessly. we went to the band room to look for alis notebook haha and to the bathroom and in search of that hot kid whaaat? yeah lol. got out really early. Walked scott to english, i was talking to mrs taylor and then i went into their class to hang out, sat there for a few minutes till she kicked me out hehe. in math we had a sub too so i went in and sat down and me alexa hannah abby and kaitlyn were going insane cause we're cool like that haha. we was being looouuuudddddd. hehe. After 9th period i ran out and ran straight into eric haha it was funny i definatly didn't see that coming. ran to delta and i was going insane singing coheed haha throwing my backpack everywhere. Yeah so we went out to the buses and some person headed me sooo hard haha i swear i thought i had another concussion haha. Yeah got on the bus, talked to julie, got off, did stuff, now im here. Hope to do cool stuff tonight like readddd yay. Tomorrow is gonna kick cause of everyone being at dorney haha wahoo.



Coya : Meow
My mom : WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP EARLIER?!?!
Coya : meow.



The closest thing to perfect,
But the furthest thing from me.
that keep me in

I am the Queen. You will call me Nala. [15 May 2004|09:33pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Keepsake :: One season too late ]

Friday - Walked most of the way to school listening to dashboard confessional. My mom picked me up on the way and brought me the rest of the way, gave me money for my field trip then i left. I went to slap stevens hand and he like slapped me in the arm really hard instead, haha, it ruled. In french we took some quiz that i think i did okay on, -shrug- we'll see. English was basically a nothing period i liked it. During ss i saw scott in the hallway and he was all like pushing chairs all over the place and it was funny. He got to go to a party while mr johnson winked at me -shudder-. Skipped to 8th period where we burned paper and things like that, then in math mrs kane was all poed man poed. Then we left. I went to the buses, walked people to their buses then went to the front of the building. I reaaalllyyy didn't wanna walk home so i was like we could just stay here till tom and matt get out. So we waited for a little bit, took pictures, then eventually walked home. It wasn't toooo bad. Oh well. Got to my house it was me laura sarah anya and geri. People came and went, idk. Julie eventually came after she walked from her house to the school. We hung out with tom and matt, playing volleyball hehe. I saw lindsey and Jen hehe and then hung out with them and their little step-o-meter and me and lindsey were playing miss mary mac and miss lucy cause we rule. It was the coolest thing, a train came, so i sprinted down south street to see it and the wood was rattling and then i was dancing and poeple were maiking fun of me through their car windows it was awesome. Sprinted back up, it was cool. Hung around more scott kevin laura eddie mike and steven showed up, scott got a cut, yeah, it happens. i gave him a bandaid, but...yeah he took it off haha. they all left and then matt did and the big group came back cept for scott and mike. john and geri and mark were their too. So we ordered pizza for me julie laura geri sarah john mark eddie steven and kevin. Got soda. yeah...partay. Julie laura and sarah sprinted to the school, but my mom picked them up a littrle way there and brought them there. Me geri john and mark when to geris so they could change or whatever and then we went to the pool. we realized it was closed, packed into geris car and went back to her house. Hung around, played slaps with john and he like kiiiillleeeddd me it ruled. yeah and before that we knocked heads and mark slapped me wahahaha i loooveed it. Yeah so eventually we went back to my house, watched save the last dance, went to sleep.

Today - Woke up and my neck hurt sooooo bad man. Ate bagels then Laura and julie left enentually to go to lauras then to hte movies with tom. Geri stayed for a while. we went to Hunan and ate then came back and my drove her home. I cleaned my room then took a shower, thheenn i hung around waiting for scott to come. I'd called him and he was all like yeah be there at 5! so islike yeah! He was all "i love my mooommm cause she's goiving me a riiiddeee" hehehe he rulesHe got heere at like 5:45lol. We went and rented the movie then we um watched it hehe, Lion King 1 1/2!!! yeah!!! watched and then hung around, we heard music so we went to investigate because it was his destiny. Found it, yeah it was pretty stupid haha but hmm...yeah. walked back home, hung out on the porch. He called his dad to pick him up, his dad's in canada, he forgot. Called his mom ,she didn't pick up. we were doing hand stands and what not hehe. Got in the car, called his mom again to tell her we were bringing him home. Stopped at shoprite. he got in that little car thingy and i pushed him around for a minute. We played with the lobsters and then got cinimen things and i got soda wahoo. My mom locked her keys inthe car so she had to get the spare haha loooseerrr. Got on our way to scotts house, found it and dropped him off, cause, that, was the point of that stuff haha. drove home, went to bk, then went home and called laura. talked to her about today and tomorrow hehe and then did this. Yay, im getitng better at updatation!



scotthasaid: ohh happy days
scotthasaid: ohh happy days
scotthasaid: when Jesus walks
scotthasaid: when Jesus walkssssssssssss
An Angry Apple: and christ craaawwwlllsss
scotthasaid: ohh happy days
scotthasaid: ohh happy days
scotthasaid: when scott and rebecca make a meeting to watch lion King 1 1/2
An Angry Apple: ohh happy afternoooooooooooooooooons
scotthasaid: ohh happy evenings
An Angry Apple: and happy niiight
An Angry Apple: s
An Angry Apple: at shop riiittee
scotthasaid: hahah
scotthasaid: yeah '
scotthasaid: ohh dude
scotthasaid: i got it
scotthasaid: ohh happy nights
scotthasaid: ohh happy nights
scotthasaid: spending time at shop right
scotthasaid: ohh shop shop right
scotthasaid: ohh happy nights
scotthasaid: !
scotthasaid: Yeah!
An Angry Apple: and the crowd goes wild!
scotthasaid: wahoooooooooo
scotthasaid: lady and gentlemen elvis has left the building
scotthasaid:
An Angry Apple:



Love.Leave.Forget.
When I sit alone,
I think of what you said,
better off just friends,
better off just dead.
that keep me in

My sister is yelping incoherent [13 May 2004|07:39pm]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | Check the title. ]

Saturday I went to church and I was sitting in the car until my mom was done with her rehersal thing and then there was some ceremony outside and I watched that then went inside and the service happened. The first reading was kind of interesting but the rest was pretty dull. It was sorta cute watching all the little kids go from interested, to bored, to restless, to sleeping, haha. and watching the alter boy bite his finger nails. -sigh- church. So then afterwards me and my went to the Goshen Diner for dinner and then home. She was all happy because i stayed the whole time so it was cool and i was happy cause she was cause im emo like that. On the way home the clock in Florida said 2:59 and it reminded me of the Used video for taste of ink because it like flashed and it just ruled. Same clock and everything...im too stupid to be alive.

Easter Sunday - Woke up and came downstairs, Diana and Mike were there and we were all eating food then my mom was like "Wake Lar up" and i was all whaaaa?! Lar's home?! it was cool haha. So we ate and then found our eggs, i got a buncha crazy stuff cause my mom rules like that...she didn;t count the eggs right again this year, one day when she's like 80 she'll get it right haha. SHe gets worse every year hehe. So anyway Lar finally got up because my sister made him cause she was leaving soon after. So she left and then my mom did because she sang at some wedding or something. I was hanging out with Lar and what not, talking about this band he's basically touring with haha it was fun. Then i told him dad was coming to pick me up so he moved his car cause he didn't want my dad to know that he was home hehe slick chicks we are. So then my dad came eventually and picked me up, we went to Rhamsy because Beverly lives there. I listened to third eye blind on the way and then got there. It was kinda raining a little which was upsetting cause it was easter, it just doesn't rain on easter. Yeah so i got a basket at her house too since "the easter bunny knew that i was gonna be there" yeah okay. So we hung around, watched gangs of new york, whata movie for easter eh? lol yeah so we watched it and then her mom came and she kissed me on the cheek and it was weird, we ate dinner and stuff, they made me make a cd on her sons compurter, works for me, then we went home. My dad was driving really scary and i thought we coulda died any minute. Scawy :(. So yeah thinking about dying lol. Went to my moms to get stuff and my brother was still there, said bye and then went to my dads house. Did stuff and slept.

Monday - Woke up and had a really big urge to do something. I woke kinda late so it was hard. We all wanted to go mini golfing, god knows why, but we couldn't cause laura had to be home at some point oi. SO me julie julies cousin stephanie and christina all went to go see Ella Enchanted. It basically sucked haha but i liked it because i like everything. They brought me home and then i just hung around, doing things and being stupid by not doing my research paper >:o i suck so bad. Slept.

Tuesday through Thursday - I don't remember anything other than me hating the world because of my research paper -steem out of ears- I think that on Wednesday or Thursday me and Laura walked home and found Matt and Tom and hung out with them alot which was fun. Saw Tom's red notebook? oh boy.

Friday - School sucks. Walked home I think. somethign exciting probly happened, but i can't remember it so screw dat.

Saturday -

Sunday -

Monday - All’s I remember is flippin cause I found out we got to miss 2nd period the next day, that’s me heaven.

Tuesday - Assembly for first and second period which kicked haha. It was all the play and stuff and I snuck around and found Julie and laura to sit when them. Laura was in a bad mood which was upsetting :\ So the day happened and I don’t rememeber anything else.

Wednesday - I hate school. But I got to make a penny turn gold. That’s lame man, just plain lame. Walked home with Jen Julie and Laura. We were gonna go watch Richie swim ;) but then we didn’t. We got to my house and we were eating mac and cheese and what not on the floor hehe, 2 bowls hehe. Jen left and then Julie and me and laura were watching Daria cause that show kicks. Laura left and then eventually we were on the phone again and I was flippin cause my mom wasn’t home yet and I was scared. I really don’t know what I would do without my mom, I’d have to live with my dad all the time which would suck soooo bad like you have no idea. So she came home eventually. Slept.

Thursday - Today kicked soo majorly I couldn’t even explain. I got to school and I was mad cause I had to go to homeroom haha screw not seeing any 8th graders all day! Lol hmm… so then I went to Mrs. Taylors room and sat there the whole period, it was so cool just being there again I miss her class. So Eddie and Dillon were in that class and I got to yell at them for throwing books lol. It was fun cause they watched this movie clip thing that was all powerfully spoken and shit and Dillon stands up and was like “AMEN!” and I thought it was hilarious…mrs taylor was POed haha, oh well. Then eddie was like nah that guy wasn’t prepared he was all like speaking from his heart” (complete emphesis on ‘heart’ while he clutched his boob) hehe that was funny. Yeah so then she didn’t have a class 2nd period so I helped her grade quizzes and then she answered all these pointless questions for me. I got to go into the teachers lounge and then she got her paycheck haha it rulesd. 3rd period had like Devon and Pete and Jen…but jen didn’t like me then and she was all like “ew I hate that girl” haha. So anyway, 3rd period was alright, basically the same as 1st haha. So that ended and then 4th period is the team meeting period. I was going to be allowed to stay but that had to talk about someone so I couldn’t cause I knew them or something. Makes sense. I wish I coulda heard though lol. Anyway, 5th period was advisory and it was awesome because I got to go to the courtyard with ally steph devon and some other people haha I loovveddd ittt. Ally climbed out the window hehe. So we hung around and then 6th period was lunch. I went to buy stuff but they didn’t have bagels so I’slike pshh screw dat. I saw Hannah and she was like YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HERE! And I laughed and hehe she’s cute. So we went back and we played hangman and it was cool even though she won both times haha. She’s cool, the Mr kane came in and said some random thing and she was laughing hysterically and had to leave to pee cause she said she’d have wet herself lol. 7th period was another class who was small but eh a class none the less. This one kid was all ike bleh I got 32 on this and I’slike dumbass why would you say that outloud? Someone’s a little too proud of a failing grade lol. 8th period was Ally and I loovee her hehe. It was fun, there was someone else significant there that I can’t remember lol. 9th period had scott and steph in it and I was starting to get all hyped up. Scott has to be the funniest person ever. He was talking to himself and laughing and everything he said and it made me smile and it made me happy cause he kicks so much fucking ass it isn’t even funny. So then when they were doing questions and stuff I went to the front of the room and I was trying to give them the answers but they didn’t catch on lol. I think they got them all right but I don’t remember. I liked that class haha it was so fun. After school I walked home with jen and laura and we hung around, got pizza then jen left and I went to lauras game. Jeremy was there and it was fun cause he’s fun. There was this other kid there that Jeremy was talking to and stuff –shrug- so after the game I went on IM and some random kid IMed me and it turned out to be the one from her game which was oooddddd haha. He seemed cool. Yeah so anyway. Hung around and was feeling kinda shitty cause idk my feelings were all in a bundle which made me upset. –sigh- slept.

Friday - Today was pretty cute because everyone wore their anything goes shirts and idk I thought it was nice. Everything was bllueee lol. I might have been imagining it but everyone seemed really tired –shrug- but im weird. I was going to walk home but then I decided not to because I wasn’t feelin so hot. They all came over and I was all like yay. I don’t remember much, shit just happened. I went to babysit at some point, it was in Middletown, these 2 boys, one was 7 and one was like 10, it wasn’t bad, they’re really smart. I didn’t get home until like 2 or something and then I was just like maaan sleeeppp lol.

Saturday - Woke up and Julie laura and sarah came. We met kim at the play and watched? It was pretty good, not alotta people at the one we went to but it was good I liked it. During intermission I got food and I couldn’t decide what I wantred haha eventually Emily just picked for me –shrug- whatev. Almost missed sam and anyas super hot solos, but I made it! Hehe yeah so that stuff happened then me Julie laura and sarah walked home. We saw Kevin an bobby and I was so happy to see Kevin  it felt like ages since I had lol. So he gave me a hug and it was all happy. We looked at movies then they left I went back to the house. Laura left and we were talking to matt dave Dj and some other people on my porch but then they left for the show. Me Julie and Sarah went to cvs where we bought pizza rolls and ice cream hehe. Went back to my house, prepared the food and then hung around. They went home, I slept.

Sunday - “What were you doing in the roof Handsom?” “…hm…I don’t remember.”

Monday - School blows. Big ones. Hmm…laura had a game I think, I did the score board…it was fun. Hmm shit happens.
Tuesday - “Is there something you need to say to me?” “…I love you?”

Wednesday - My mom likes to abandon me at my dads house. How sweet.

Thursday - School sucks. Walked home with Laura and Jen I think. Laura had a game. Went there. Yeah.

Friday - I hate school. Stayed after with Kevin Teddy Ben Dillon John and Tyler. Scott came eventually and they were skating and what not cause they rule. Kate Sardo was around –shrug- They didn’t wanna skate much at first cause the people were still around being all pissy and what not. So when scott got there they were all like rolling down the hill and stuff idk then they went to the steps, mikey came and then they went around the back of the highschool or something. I left cause I didn’t feel like being around Kevin, which was sorta bad, yeah I know… :\ So I left and then went home. Found laura Julie and jen anya and geri. We hung out. Laura and Julie had to leave to go to lauras cause denise got hurt again and they had to help with the little kids. Me Jen and Geri hung around. The rest of the night went –shrug-

Saturday - I broke up with Kevin. I felt really really bad but it would have been a lot worse if I had just kept going out with him when I felt so like trapped…right? Whatever. I was okay, I thought he was too. :\ I was pretty weird all day, sorta like free kinda happyish, listening to pretty pretty over and over again. It was nice out. I flipped because my sister didn’t bring home my camera. Rar. Eventually got to Julies house. We stopped at smiles, and CVS for stuff. Her momma got peanut m & m’s hehehe. We went to her house, hung around, ate, or her mom tried to make me lol. Then we got on the road to the A Perfect Circle show. :) :) it was fun cause Ian thinks everyone’s fat, toni kept getting confused at the toll booths, and I was sitting in between Julie and michelle trying not to like slide on them, I loved it  . We stopped at this gas station to pee and it was sooo gross. Julie and Michelle ended up going to the mcdonals next to it and me and toni were flippin out trying to find them lol. Left anc got there and I saw this kid that I thought was alex so I yelled, it wasn’t him lol. Anyways we took the hike to the place, saw laura, hung out with her found a secret bathroom and then went and watched the show hehe yay. Mini Kiss played haha it was weird…midgets pretending to place cardboard guitars...weeeird. So we walked around a bit then the other band came on, the bleeding brides. The girl next to Julie leaned over to Julie and was like “why does it say bleeding brides, isn’t this a perfect circle?” and julies like…nooo. Haha, the one girl was soo wasted Julie was ready to catch her if she passed out. A perfect circle came on and they were ammaazzziiinnggg the effects and everything ruled. Yeah so the whole show was fun and we was all just being cool and thrre was sooo much smoke and beer it was insane haha. None for me sXe. Yeaah so the show happened and at the very end Julie got really sick and couldn’t like breath so we had to leave, we stood out the grass and I was soooo scared and I started crying because she was shaking and she was grabbing onto the grass and stuff. Some guy asked us if we wanted a ticket for a good seatr for the last song. We waited for everyone to come and they finally did. We walked back and thing Julie was feeling better. Drove home. I fell asleep and when I woke up we were dropping ian off at some party –shrug- Got back to julies, hung around and slept. That was fun .
Sunday - Woke up, just sorta wallowed about all day. Eventually my dad picked me up and Glenn was in the car. Went home and did meaningless things. Good old dreaded Sundays.

Monday - “I hate adoption.”

Tuesday - Assesment tests. Yuck. Actually, I can’t lie, I had fun hehe. Then the periods were reaalllyyy short and it made me happy. Yup.

Wednesday - I hate sccchhhoooll so muuucchhh. Walked home with laura Julie matt and tom. Went to my house for the phone, showed matt my room and what not and he found this tennisball. Him and tom brought it outside and they played ultimate volley ball hahaha. Kevin Dillon eddie steven and alec were around so we hung out with them. They played too hehe. Tom hit the lawyers window with the ball lol it was funny, they called the cops uh oh. Alec was doing all this crazy stuff with the road sign haha. Some guy ran over his backpack too, that shits fucked up man lol. Everybody left eventually –shrug- laura and Julie went to get money or something and came back and left or whatever. Bleh memory is failing me hehe. It rained that night, lighting too, I ran outside, sang at the top of my lungs, I screamed, I loved it, I was so happy. I hadn’t been that happy in a long time, soaked, and filled with glee. –sigh- I live for that. Sleep is nice.

Thursday - Walk to school. Gym’s a bitch because holden made me run like a bajillion laps rar. Walked home with Matt and Jen. We took the tracks because matt wanted to change. We saw toms shit. It was gross. Matt left when we got to town. We saw kurt but then went to make mac and cheese. Ate then went and hung out with kurt. I found a marker and I was drawing smiley faces everywhere. Went to g’s, jen made me get a drink, I downed it then went back so I’d be there when laura got there. She came and we hung out then we were on our way to Laura game we saw Devon, I walked her to BK and we talked then I brought her to the orthodontist. I was walking back and saw jen’s mom, she brought me to the field and I watched lauras game. Talked to some guy about getting on a softball team yay. Yeah so then went home. Sleep.

Friday - Walked to hell. Walked home from hell with ally and Julie and some other people but me and ally were ahead of them. We went to bk then to my house really fast. Went and waited for her mom, saw tyler, he gave me a candy necklace yay. Found her mommy and ran across the road, got in the car, her momma flippe and was like YOU LOST THE PAPERS! And ally’s like I DID NOT!! And whips ‘em out…I twas like magic. So we went to the town park cause her brother had practice, sorted out all of the papers and counted the kids coming and what not. Then alphabetized –sigh- I love doing that. It was windy and a bit difficult, but we’re talented, we got it hehe. Went to the dance super early to set up and stuff. We hung up all the papers and made pretty label thingies cause I rule. We stole kevins goldfish and kinda hung out with ben scott and steven haha. Ally had to go to her car to get pants of something because her mom spilled water all over her haha so we got them something to drink which was cool, I tried to get them ot drink stolen window washing stuff haha weee. So we were hanging out before and then everyone started coming and it was cool. It was so fuuunnn I wanted to mosh rreally bad but I never got to  whatever man rar. I was doing that spinny thin with everyone it was awesome. Scott’s like tiny compared to me so he went flying evvverryyywhere haha. Yeah so it was fun. Towards the end it was getting obnoxious. The coolest person ever was upset and that made me upset cause his girlfriend was being not nice and stuff so I was mad, he was okay in a little while though. Left eventually after like, just chillen out with jimmy steph and ally yay. They rule. Man so the dance had so much drama haha it was crazy. I talked to this cute 6th grader who was all sad and like sitting against the wall. I love him haha I don’t remember his name oh well, he rejected me. Dude AND! We got ice cream, that kicked haha. But some insane person mixed m & m’s with reeses pieces, wh does that? Ugh. So yeah went home and hung around, it was nice out –sigh- slept.

Saturday - Woke up, was suppose to go to the mall but laura got in trouble for some stupid thing bleh. I went to julies and we hung around and walked to sugar loaf hehe yay. Christina came but she was all like waaaaahhh I don’t wanna waaalllkk so she took her anger out by picking flowers out of peoples gardens –shrug- jerrrk. It was fun. We did stuff ate and what not hung around doing aimless things yay. We hung arouns on the hammock. –blush- hehe. We rented momento and cheats and watched them. They both kick so much ass. Went to sleep at some point.

Sunday - Woke up and hung around doing nothing. Eating, cause it’s just what we do. It was mothers day so Julie gave her mom her present. I wanted to go home because my mom was waiting but julies mom like forgot or something I was sad. She brought me finally and then I got to my house me my mom and Diana went to hunan for lunch. Or like, breakfast, it was like 1 though haha. Ate and then went home. Diana left and then I went and met devon down the road. We walked around everywhere and then down the tracks. We found Anthony Charlie Julie D and some mark kid. We were hanging out swimming ahha and rafting? I was the first one to go in cause im cool. Got my wallet all wet though ewww. Went home and changed, went to my daddds ewy. Did stuff, slept.

Monday - It sucked all my pens were exploding rar. School was horrible cause that’s just it’s definition. I got home and did my whole giver thing then went and did lauras thing for ss cause she needed it done, ended up doing it wrong because I suck at life  I saved it riiiiiight before the power went out though cause im awesome. It kept turning off and I liked it hehe. Lightning is so prettttyyyy. Sleep.

Tuesday - SsUcChKoMoEl. Walked home with Julie and tyler. All the way to lauras oohhh my god it was shiiittyyy. We went under the road trying to cool off ugh it was so hot. Started walking up her hill but he mom came and got u thank the lord. I hadn’t been to lauras in soooo long jeeps. Ate bagel bites and just about everything else in her house. Tom came over, we hung out with him and then lauras mom brought me to my moms, brought the recycling up, then dropped Julie off then she brought me home. Hung out, I was on the phone with eddie for alittle. Man I miss that kid hehe. –sigh- slept.

Wednesday - Got a 13/20 on my French thing. Shiitt I hate French so much. Whatever I was dancing to saves the day for a good 3 periods haha. Mrs presnal killed it when she made us sing preposisions though lol. Scott is adorable so he was like it was so pretty last night! Hmm <3 . So school ended. I reaaalllyyyy wanted to leave and the bus got stuck behind traffic bllah. Got home, then laura waqs like yeah im picking you up at 5:30 and islike why? Haha. So she came and got me then, we picked up Julie and her suster was like “wheres Julie” we’re like “she’s here isn’t she?” so we went to her room and I knocked on her door and she thought I was toni so she opened and the door and was like whooaa haha. So we went to middle town and we looked for a dress for laura. She didn’t find one till we got to charlotte russe and her momma wouldn’t let her get it  rar. Went to Ruby Tuesdays ate and ahh it was sooo good haha. I got to have those nacho things and then saled bar and then my baked potato man it was the best day of my life. I was sooo hyper and lauras like “we gotta buy tank tops” and I didn’t hear her so I was like “tater tots? I haven’t had them in so long” they laughed at me. Yeah other funny things. Hehe. Dude and when we wree in filenes, I wanted to try on this dress and I accidentally walked into the fire escape instead of the dressing room, and this person walked in on my I was like ahhh haha big scream. On the way home it was lighting and it was soooo pretty. We listened to the starting line ep yay man it was beautiful last night. Got home and my sister was home, im not sure why, hm…well she was. Went to sleep eventually.

Today - Walked to school. Like 10 people were like omg I saw you! And islike yeah I don’t care haha. So mr peters framed me cause I didn’t wear appropriate clothing haha. He brought me to mrs vals office and stuff and she yelled at me and I discovered I didn’t break one single rule in that book lol. Oh well, she didn’t beluive eme when I said my “bra” was a bathing suit. I wish she’s jump in a sewer. Wet to first period and then second and so on, yeah school blows major cockie. It went I hate mr gil. Home. Hung out, did this, which took me all day. I like this kid. He’s cool. He doesn’t like me. He never will. Oh well. Goodbye.



scotthasaid: Rebecca and Scott
An Angry Apple: whata wonderful phrase
An Angry Apple: it means no worries
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scotthasaid: Rebecca and scott



She'll destroy us all
before she's through,
And find a way
to blame it on somebody else.
2 burned down the walls that keep me in

I know how to blow eggs. [10 Apr 2004|06:29pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | The Used, yeah das right ]

Wednesday - Woke up at like noon and was like maaan i suck. Haha, called julie and kevin then went to my moms. When i got there i saw kevin at the clocktower and i was yelling to him but he must not have heard -shrug- so i went in and took a shower then called Kevin and we met. Then went to clocktower causewe were gnna meet eddie and steven. Julie came and then Kevin called eddie again and stuff and we found hem with lisa megan and steph. we hung around and eventually somehow lost eddie and them and i felt bad cause i figured kevin wanted to skate. So we hung out at my house for a while and Julie was going insane, licking her shirt and playing with double sided tape. While kevin made fun of her the whole time. Went and met laura at larrys and kevin war intimatly statring at this mailbox haha. We walked back into town and then he called and alec and teddy came and they were skating and what not and we found abottle of piss and it was weeird man. They broke a bottle -shrug- thats whats up. My tummy hurt cause i was nervous -blush- they all left and we went inside and waited for my mom. we talked and then she got home and brought us to Julies house. We hung around and ate and we were gonna go on a rrrreeeeeaaaallllyyyyy long walk but we ddn't end up getting very far. Cause we were all scared of bears and stuff haha we went to jiffy, got water and ice cream and stuff and then went home, We talked to julies sister and her freind and we were all fighting and going crazy and Christina punched me in the face, my lip was bleeding and she cracked my tooth :( loser :( that all ended and we talked more, ate more, and then slept eventually.

Thursday - I had this crazy ass dream that I as helpng all these crazy people with bunnies escape from a buncha insane horses t'was weeeird. We talked about dreams and then ate and talked to people and then packed up julies drums. Lauras dad came and picked us up, we had to put julies drums in the car and i had to sit n between the two seats in he middle of the car hehe it ruled. Thye dropped me off at my moms and i had t clean the park across the street. 4 condums, 2 dime bags, and a duck. It was grrrosss...I saw geri and her sister and they helped out and then i talked to darrin about siting and they left asnd then i went inside and changed and walked to lauras. I got there amnd we had band practice. It was cool they sorta made up a song and tried to get some lyrics and stuff idk it's knda weird, writing with people around, it's gnna be knda hard to sing my own feeling idk we'll see. I'll get used to it. We did that fr a while then went to shoprite haha. We got all these jelly bellys but it was messed up because we didn't want that many. So we put them back haha t'was funnnnny we went insane in shoprite and then i kept leaving the video camera places hehe. Left. walked and taped hehe. Sam had to leave with her monsterous amp haha and then we ate cookie dough talked and stuff and then went to sleep.

Friday - Woke up like a bajillion times in the middle of the night. I like, cant sleep at lauras house anymore haha. At like 5 we all wokeup at the same tme and i was like "why the hell are we all awake at 5 in the morning?" Yeah so we wke up later on, at like 11 and then we walked into town and met kevin eddie and steven. Went back to my house because i had to change and stuff. We were hanging out then then i guess julie and laura were yelling at eddie when steph came so they left and went to lisas house and kevin was mad and i felt bad cause i felt like it was my fauklt. I had to leave to go take pictures of my sster and mike and what not and then when i wen ouside kevin julie and laura were there and we all went to memorial and sat on the roof and stuff. Carolyn erica and some girl were there wth dave and adrian so we were gonna play some trick on them but we didn't -shrug- left eventually and went back to my house. Kevin had to leave because he had to buy a TV or something and me julie and laura went in and hung around. Laura left to take a shower and stuff then julie called her mom and convinced her to let her stay here. We talked about emo things and then Laura came. We went for a walk and put coins on the train tracks and then went to CVS and bought spagetti o's and ramen! woo hoo. Went home and ate but i had a really bad headache and my tummy hurt and bleh not cool. Ate and then Laura left because she wanted to sleep in her bed and then me and julie listened to music and then watched "A Beautiful Mind" then talked and went to sleep.

Today - Woke up and then went to go eat bagels wee. We talked and my mom came yhome and started doin all this stuiff with eggs and what not then laura came over and my mom taught us how to blow eggs hehe it was crazy. Then after we did that we went and got out cons from the tracks haha they ruled man. Got back home and started to dye the eggs hehe it smelled sooo gross but whatever. We hung around wih the eggs but then julie and laura had to leave. Chistina his me in the face with the car door which hit the camera and opushed it into my eye and it hurt sooo bad. Matt Marsden came and was like uuhhh are you okay? lol whatever. Went back inside, made thank you notes, talked to people and then started this shiiiit. Yeah, i should really update everyday and this would be alot easier. I have to go to a 2 hour long church thing tonight bleeh whatever im leaving in the middle or something woho bleh...i wanna sleep. All my freinds are in chaos.


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Is it worth it, can you even hear me?
that keep me in

Blleeh long dont read this [04 Apr 2004|10:25pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | The Get Up Kids ]

Monday - Honestly, since this was 2 weeks ago, i don't remember anything that happened other than that when i was in advisory i showed Mrs Presnal my note cards and she was all like " you did it completely wrong" and i had been a pretty bleh mood already that day so it pissed me off and then she said like i staped this thing on the wrong side of the folder? who the hell cares? flip it over. So i i was crying and she was hoding my folder while i was restapling it and my hand were shaking 'cause i was soo pissed and she was like "careful you'll staple my hand" and i was so close to saying yeah that's what im trying to do. Whatever so i was pissed and crying and then she sent me to the bathroom and ui came back and she gave me a piece of choclate abnd i wanted to shove it down her throat so she choked on it. Anywho! then i had to go to mrs kanes to take a quiz cause i missed it and i was still crying and she said i didn't have to take it but i tred tio and she gave me clocolate too and im like "jesus christ why is everyon e giving me chocolate" and mrs kane was like "'cause we're fat" and that kinda cheered me up, she's nice. Took the quiz and couldn't concentrate so didn't egt anything done really but she said it was okay. Left for 8th period and i had to call my dad to tell him i had softball tryouts and i left and then went and found julie and i was crying and we talked for lie 20 minutes in the bathroom and she helped tons and then i went back and tehy were just playing some game -shrug- whatever. The rest of the day, happened. Softball tryouts were fun, it made me happy to throw and stuff again'cause that kinda stuff makes me happy 'cause im strange. Softball's really the only althletic thing i;ve ever loved so much and that actually puts me in the kinda mood where you're just happy to be there and always happy to be playing it. I was hanging out with megan and this girl chelsea who's tonsa fun. It was cool, the coach is nice. Went home and did stuff -shrug- same old same old. Ally and Kevin broke up. It was hard being in the middle. I definatly didn't want them to break up 'cause they seemed sio good and stuff but i guess it had to happen someday. I felt bad for both of them especially ally 'cause kevin dumped her and stuff and i was trying to not chose sides and things like that. The kevin said something about liking em and it made me feel really bad. I didn't think it'd really be a problem 'cause i figured i could stop myself from liking him. He was the kinda kid who you always thought about, and had a crush on, but you knew it didn't matter because he had someone else and they were really good for each other and everything and i had always been able to push it out of my mind, no problem, but now it was like, within my reach, i figured i'd be able to restrain myself. Talked to him alot, idk...whatever man. Slept.

Tuesday - Went to school until 4th period then they sent us home and it was during home and careers. Mrs Motyka wouldn't klet us leave because they hadn't called us yet and she was fluippin like "can't go in the hallway! the aligators(lisp) will get you!" so we're like uhh yeah bullshit and me and chelsea started swimming in the "river". Left and went to my moms house. She was home 'cause she wanted to clean and stuff all week so she took the whole week off. She was gonna bring me to Laura's but she was afraid throads were gonna get bad later and didn't wanna make my dad go back out so she brought me to my dads and i hung out for the day watched TV and cleaned alot cause i wanted to finish before people cqme on saturday and stuff and the dirtyness made me upset. Cleaned up mostly everything and showered and what not -shrug- dad got home eventually bleh that's not cool hehe. I was upset that there was no softball :( talked to kevin more...sorta baaadd cauuuse it was getting harder. Slept

Wednesday - Two hour delay. We were in the library for enlgish and Presnal was showing us some extra credit thing we could do and on the back it said "Mans itch leads to wife shors of scratch" and i was like what the fuuuuck. Anywho. Had tryouts in the snow! Mann it was insane and soo fun cause i was all like running around and being all hyper hehe i love softball. The snow was crazy too. I dont think i've ever played softball in the snow hehe. Well there's a first for everything. Went home and talked on the phone i think. Just hung around being cold and what not. Slept eventually.

Thursday - One hour delay. They suck man. Rar. Presnals retarted and wants us to know about our government even though no one gives a shit. Took a ss test, got a 65. Bleh. I need to get it signed. Had tryouts and i didn't do all that wonderfully 'cause i just kept fucking up. Got cut. Meeh. Kinda sucked yeah but whatever. Went skirt shopping with my mom for confirmation and got this really kick ass skirt. -shrug- i'm hot. Went to wendy's and stuff then came home. Momma went upstairs to watch TV and i stayed downstairs. My sister called and was like mom come pick me up at BK, 10:25 'cause i got my guitar and i dont wanna carry it. So she said she would but then she fell asleep and i was on the phone with kevin and all the sudden he doorbell rings at it's 10:30 and im like shiiitt and Diana's like "my momma forgot about me!" and acted all sad haha. My mom felt bad. I hung out with her and she played me her new song yay. Pop star. Hung around and went to sleep.

Friday - Woke up and hung around, showered, and went to Lauras. The weather wasn't even bad but they cancled school and we were hanging out. I made up my mind that I definatly liked kevin and i was feeling pretty bad and stuff and i told her about it. We talked about being groupies for bands woo hoo! lol. That was cool. I had to leave and go to confirmation rehearsal. I was really pissed off and i was soo close to crying at the rehearsal but then i didn't because i didn't want my mom to bring me home after so it was over and i was mad and i walked into Lauras house and they were all hyper and at first i was like okay good they'll cheer me up but then Julie asked if i was alright or something and that alllways makes you cry you know? So i started crying and knew they wanted to be hyper and stuff so i felt bad but whatever. They can deal haha. So then i got over myself and we were doing stuff and her mom rented the storm of the century for us weee. Hung out and stuff then went to sleep.

Saturday - Woke up and watched the movie 'cause we just didn't the night before cause we're the coolest girls ever. Watched it and it was pretty peachy and coooool man. Diana and Toni came and picked me and Julie up. They dropped me off so i could do stuff then at like 3 diana came home and we got ready to go to my dads. He came and got us eventually and we had to go hang out with my grandparents. Then we went to Cafe Amore or whatever after Beverly was through sucking up to me. She's cool but seriously, you dont gonna go to that extreme lol. Went to dinner and i got pasta and stuff and talked to my sister alot idk. Left eventually and my dad brought us home to my moms. Diana went to mikes and stuff and I hung around and then went to sleep woo hoo dont i have a pitiful life.

Sunday - Woke up and had to clean and stuff for my relatives. Bleh i dont like family things. Cleaned and was helping my mom and people started coming and she was sort of upset because she wasn't ready and stuff and i was like "mooom dont worry about it everyone's just happy to be here and stuff" and i sounded like a 60 year old woman but whatever maybe i am! Anyway. People were here and at some point i was hanging out with Diana and Mike and meh mike was being pretty nice to me which is cool because he's usually a complete and total dick :) Hehe so eventually we had to go to the confirmation which was blaaah but i saw kevin on the way there and screamed his name but he didn't hear me haha oh well. Well the it sucked because we had to go early and just hang out at the school and thats not how i want to spend my weekend >:o my sponser had to like hold on to my shoulder or something which was weird and i didn't like it. Whatever the ceromony thing happened and then i had to bring the stupid gifts up and go like "be sealed with the holy spirit" i might have been a little more enthusiastic about it if they didn't force me to go to ccd for like 8 years of my life rar. I was so happy it was finally ooovvveeerrr. Went home and ate stuff and hung around called people and talked idk stuff like that. diana had left and went to pace so bleh i was alone and stuff just talking to people. It was okay. Had to go to my dads and talk to grandparents and stuff. I had family rraarr. I got alotta money though opps! hehe. Meh did stuff slept.

Monday - I honestly have no idea what happened today. It's like it's drugged away in the back of my mind. bleh. I wrote all over my hand, thats all I remember. Hmm.

Tuesday - And the mind block continues. Tuesday to me, did not exist.

Wednesday - Meh the day went. Just like other days. Yup. Kevin gave me a huggg which was cool 'cause i love him. Lauren was there to pick him up and she wasn't wearing shoes yay. El natural. 8) Me laura and Julie were gonna just hang around outside till her mom came but they called laura and julie to the office cause they're stupid and they called their parents and asked about changing plans or something cause they're stuuuppiiiddd. Stayed in the library then went outside and her mom was there. Explained and made her not mad or whatever. Went to sneakers to boots and what not. Laura got new cons and then we went to lauras and watched the new drive thru video and it kicks man kiiicks. Hung around then Julies mom brought me and her home cause thats were we sleep. did stuff and went to sleep muah.

Thursday - Meeh presnal told us the draft was due soon and it's too sooon. Whatev. The day went and then me and Julie stayed after with kevin scott eddie tyler and teddy. They were skatin g and we were taking pictures waha. some were coming out really awesomely. yay. Kevin ollied over and teddy and i got an alright picture of it made me happppy. And then Kevin asked me out. And i got really excited and happy and stuff and said yes but after i felt really bad about ally and knew i had to talk to her about it or something. So eddie likes to ruin things for the rest of the world so he walks up to me and Julie and is like “Kevin said he was gonna ask you out before you leave today” and Julie’s like “Way to ruin it” and I said “yeah and too bad he already did it” so then she looked at me as if I was the biggest dick in the world and was like “why didn’t you tell me?” and I felt like she though I wasn’t gonan tell her but I waaasss. So I talked to her about it on the way home and Kevin kissed me but I didn’t know he was gonna so I kinda turned and felt bad haha. So me and Julie walked home and hung around and talked then later on my mom brought her home -shrug- same old same old. So i had to talk to Laura and stuff so i did that and then i got Kevin to talk to ally and i felt horrible 'cause i figured she was mad even thoguh she said she wasn't :\ this sucks. Bleh. slept.

Friday - School was boring. Walked home with Kevin Alec Teddy Laura Julie Jen. Eddie and Scott eventually caught up at burger king..(I cant fucking do anything right this sucks so bad the whole fucking rest my journal entry got deleted I hate computers so fucking much ahhh)we were just hanging around but then ally came and i was so nervous and i felt really really bad cause it seemed like she hated me :( i dont like that feeling. So i was kinda afarid to be all close with kevin for fear of ally beating the shit outta me because she could kiiilll me. Then he got mad and thought i didn't lie him and i told him i did and stuff and i think i made him feel better. So we hung out and then kean and mike came over at some point and were hanging out with julie and jen and laura and stuff and they were making fun of alec oh geess. yeah but t was funny cause all day they were jumping into the bushes but kevin hurt his back :'(So we hung aroudn and then later one kevin left :( and then jen's mom came and picked me her julie and laura up and brought us to juleis and dropped kean and mike off at keans. Me Julie and Laura hung around and went on a walk and we talked and saw these 6th graders and we were like DAMN! we've hung out with so many oeople today..woowies. So anywya we walked and talked about emo stuff like we do, went home and moved a chair into julies room haha itwas crazy we were lkie HALT! up two more stairs halt! haha it ruled. We were too lazy to put it the right ay though -shrug- sp it remained sideways and most comfortable :) i fell asleep really early 'cause i was tried and they hung around and eventually went to sleep.

Saturday - Woke up and flipped cause i was like where the fuck am i...hmm so anyway we shared dreams ;) cause we're cute like that. talked and stuff till laura had to leave. hen me and jkulie were home alone and we were blasting coheed and then we searched her house for wood and we painted on the pieces it was awesome causewe did thrice and coheed and we're gonna do TJT or something cool like that. So we did that and then her om got home and was like "THE WORLD IS OVER WHAT IF THE PAINT WENT THROUGH TO THE CAREPT!!!" and i was lkie aw your mom rules haha anwyays. we hung around then michelle brought us to my house after julie took a shower. but laura was all pissed off and i felt bad so i made sure my kom let her stay over hehe i love lauuura. So we got to my house and i took a shower and evetually laura came during my shower? and i was like is laura heer? and she poped out of the corner and i was like whoa! so anyways we hung around and watched rock my world woo hoo. So laura felt asleep during it and me and julie stayedm up and then talked alot and then laura woke up and she ddidn't feel good so we brought her mom at like 1 in the morning uuww fun. Then we wenty to slep when we got home mmhum.

Sunday - Woke up abnd laura was feeling better so she came over then kevin did and he was all like wow im outnumbered hehe so anyway we were hanging out and we went on the train tracks finding dime bags and then kevin exploded a beer can on the bridge and then he dropped a TV into the river but it didn't break blaahhh so we watched it sorrowfuklkly float away. so we kept walking and then we saw these peoplemin a car and they were probly getting stoned haha kevin found some flare thing -shrug- he loves explosives :* hehe so we were walking back and he truied to set it off but it didnt work bleeh. Hung around then laura had to go to softball practice. She left and we went and found eddie scott and tyler. hung out with them at bk then the bank. urger king i was playing snake haha it ruuuled and then julie went to find out if laura was back at my house again but she wasn't so she waited but then came to find us again because she didn't wanna lose us so we went to the bank and they were skating but then laura called eddie's cell and she was all upset and we felt really bad so we tried calling her back a few times. she didn't answer when i called so i left a messege which later found out i sounded really bitchy during and felt bad oi vay i suck so then we went and met her on south street extension adn stuff and we had a happy reunion. we hung out at my house and stuff then at like 5:30 me laura eddie and kevin started walkign towards lauras house because kev and eddie were getting oicked up at larys and we were walkign back to lauras. Lauras mom came and picked us up caue she wasn't sure what we were up to so then she offered to give eddie and kevin a rdioe but they didn't really wantit so we went home and we hung out at lauras and then my dad came and got me at 7. Hung around and then slept eventually.

Monday - Bleh nothing really happened. I kept presuring myself to watch the astupid woodtsock movie and finally did or something and didn't go on IM. did that and then didn't feel like doing it anynore so i was just hanging out on the phone and stuff and i did the pictures things of people skatin g and it was pretty awesome. idk i hate school. Slept eventually.

Tuesday - I interviewed Mr Johnson today haha. he's all like no drugs for me i didn't even know people smoked, yeah right MJ. So Kevin gave me this note and i was really happy yay. I loove him hehe. So the day went and then i got home and beverly gave me these things wthat had my name on it it was weird haha. Yeah spent most of the tim e doing my outline andit was pissing me off major and i didn't even get my rough draft done which is bad ugghh i hate thiiis. Slept later, really late cause of fricken bleh i hate school.

Wednesday - Emily laughed so frickin hysterically in frecnh it was so funny. Soemthing about this kids facial expression haha she was so red and like tearing, ghaha she rules. I gave kevin this note i wrote him hehe. Yeah so during health i went to the office to call my kom cause i wanted to go to lauras after school. I saw this girl cleaning out her locker and megan was there and they told me she was moving and i was like oh my gosh im gonna miss you so much and i didn;t nkow who she was haha iof well. So i called my mom and she said yeah and i was like yeah and she said we needede to talk or omsething so then i went back health sucks big ones. Bleh the day goes on. In art erica was all sad cause of that girl who was moving and i felt really bad. I was looking at all the funny pictures of people in the line island yearbook haha that was entertaining. Yeah so idk science and math both suuuuck. At the end of the day i liked waited for kevin and then he left and i went with laura and i found this night journey's book and brought it to mrs conti mmhum. ima cool girl i am. So we saw her mom and then we went to her house and hung aorund. We were outside in the rain fighting eahc other with scarves and umbrellas haha. We hung out then later on went for a walk in the rain and it was soo cool ebcause i got soaked and i was goin crraazzzy because i love rain weee and we were talking about touring ansd it just ruled major. Went home and to larrys and bought jelly beans hehe then hooome. My mom yelled at me for being "religiously racist" even though we just call julie jew because hers names all...jew? get it? yeah you better. -shrug- did stuff slept.

Thursday - dont't really remember the day. When i got home i was talking to laura and julie or something and they were both in bad moods or something so then i was and i had my period and i was POed and talkign to kevin and he like though i hated him because i wasn'y acting enthusiastic ans then i felt even worse i love him to death so i tried explaining it and stuff then DIana a came home we talked alot and i told her about him and what not and she's like oohh so idk whatever. SHe went out, and i talked things over with kevin and it was cool and i was happy and then i started making my element out of jelly beans and it looked stupid and my mom was bad it was bad and stuff then i finally producesd something less that halfway horrible and went to sleep.

Friday - My mother disowned me. I woke up and she's like you better be down here in 10 second or you're walkin to school so i was like "FINE!" and she's lie "FINE!" so then she slammed the door and i was lkie fuck i don t wanna walk. so whatever i got up and then ready and then had to shove my elemnt in my back and thn i left asnd was listening to the juliana theory. I got most of the way to school then she saw me and dropped me off and was like blaah wake up better. So then the day happened and i was super hyper for the first few periods then 4th perod we had gym and i ran alot and was all crazy ang i got really hot a sweaty and i felt sick and i could ahrdly breath and i felt like i'd been on some gross pill and it was really bad so at lunch i smeled and i didn't feel good and i was really hot and kept putting my snappkle on my face and stuff. I got deoderant to not spell bad and then bleh idk stuff happened presnal's mad cause i didn't hand in my rough draft egh die i finsihed my vocab test during advisory and kevin con is really nice yeah so what if i cant spell his last bname. okay so the rest pf the day happened nad i was happy i didn't have to do my thing in schience and we watced a movie in math which was weird cause it's not suppose to happen that way haha. Went to Mrs Talor and she gave me ablank referal to give to my momma hehe yay. Helped her clean up and stuff i love her haha. Then went and found people and walked to town. Laura Julie Kevin Alec Teddy Jen Geri Anya Sarah John squared. It was fun but when we got there we had to leave and stuff but waited for anya to lave then left and then we all started walking. We saw kevin and them again so i said bye to kevin and stuff and then ran after them. It was me laura julie geri and sarah at lauras house and then her mom brought us to the pool and we wen tswimming but i was trying to out on a tampon and i canty do it :( i suck i know but ugh it was horrible. Finally sorta got it in and then went in the pool. Got out later on with laura and sarah and we went into the showers hehe it was cool we made up this awesome spansh thingy that we're gonna tape eventually. Julie tried to tape it but she couldn't because we couldn't get the video camera to work. hatev then i did and i was like wow loser haha. so we left eventually and dropped geri and sarah off at geris and then we went to my moms house and stayed over hehehe. Hung out watched the 7th garde movie and slept.

Saturday - Woke up and i was like it's so late we were gonna leave 2 hours ago and my moms like nah we';ll just stay later so im like yeah whatever. Ate begals and then went to salvation army and then to kohls and walmart haha it was crazy we had the video camera and everything and we shoped and bought bclothing woo hoo. Then we couldn't find my momma so we called her from the rag shop and then we were waiting for her and laura and julie ran and bought a bottle of sprite and then we found her and went to mcdonalds then dropped julie off and then laura and then iwent home, hung around and di not to much of anything. Worked on julies christmas presnet yes i know im a bitchy jerk so what?! -sigh- did that and then went to sleep...read before that though yeeeah.

Sunday - Woke up and my moms like 10 mintues and im like noo an hour cause i forot to change my watch bleh it was annoying. Woke up and got ready but she was mad cause i smelled and stuff but anyway we went to church and i read during her rehersal thingy and then chuirch was alright, i can deal with going on dayds lkie palm sunday and easter and stuff. So afterward we went to ihop and then this girl threw up all over and it was grosss... got seated and ate then left and my momma couldn't fine her credit card but later the ihop guys was like yeah i had it loser... so she dropped me off at my dads where my sister accused me of stealing her glove? bleh i diiiidn't. she elft and i hung around and did nothing all day -shrug- uugghhh but i updated my journal and it didn't work and then all these stupid things were getting on nerves and i wasn POed so i ironed all my clothing haha and idk i just did stuff and slept. Laura's a genius, i had forgotten irons existed, im way to modern.

Monday - Woke up and hung around the house ate then took a shower and went to lauras. We watched the drive thu video more and then walked to town to rent a movie and i wanted to see kevin soo we got there and sawe people but kevin had just left :( :( rented a movie and we had been videotaping everything it was funny haha. yrah so we rented texas chainsaw masecre and then got pizza and went back home to lauras. Watched the movie and then at like 5 mark came and we secretly videotaped him and wahahaha well i did anyway lol so we watched her guitar lesson and then finished the movie ate and went on another walk with the camera haha ngihtvison all the way. we were going insane. Went back inside and hung out till julies momma came. After that me and laura emo chatted then watched tv and roseanne and then slept.

Today - I slept really bad but thats okay because laura slept good and thats what counts. I woke up like a trillion times in the middle of the night but eh s'akll good. woke up giot ready and then my dad picked us up and we went to the mall. He dropped us off and we went to FYE then to some stores to find clothes. didn't find anything and then he came and then we wen tinto aeropastale and bought capris and bathing suits yay who gives a shit what store it is haha none of tose poser salvation army shirts i;ve got the old school shit haha. So anyway bougnt stuff and then dropped laura off i got a starting line cd weee still have to watch the dvd part haha. o anyways got home tried on all my clothes and then talked to kevin cause i hadn't talked to him in a long time and i miss him mucho. Talked to julie and she said the thing sucked but could have been begtter if she had been feeling better. -sigh- idk just hung out all day on the phone ate and then did more random stuff. My dad might teach me quitar - shrug- we'll see. he's gonna get us those sweatshirts...he better. Yeah but im tired and i've alreadydone this whole entry and i had to do it again andf im tired so im gonna read and sleep cause im a cool girl. Goodnight.





An Angry Apple: unless it was some guy that you met on a street corner?
failurebydsign97: yea true
An Angry Apple: lol
failurebydsign97: lol but it wasnt!
failurebydsign97: i found him in a sewer
An Angry Apple: ninja turtles!
failurebydsign97: HOW DID YOU KNOW IT WAS THEM?!?!
An Angry Apple: heheheh
An Angry Apple: then told me
An Angry Apple: they're on my ceiling
failurebydsign97: =-O how could they?!
failurebydsign97: tell them.. NO MORE FRIDAY FREEBEES
An Angry Apple: okay i did
An Angry Apple: hehe
An Angry Apple: ...seriousky
failurebydsign97: lol you were talking to your ceiling.. hm
An Angry Apple: they talkl back though
An Angry Apple: i swear


I don't want you to love me any more than enough.
that keep me in

hmm long time [14 Mar 2004|04:57pm]
[ mood | determined ]
[ music | Saves the Day ]

Tuesday - Rice Day! No no, monday was rice day, but we celebrated on tuesday 'cause of no school Monday oh my! So at recess we brought the rice out and we were throwing it at everyone is was sooo fun haha. We threw it in this puddle and then Julie threw her whole dog in haha. We were running around and flicking it and Mr Peters made Julie tghrow hers out even though she just went back and got it again haha. I still went around all day and threw it...screw principals 8) At the end of the day i poured the whole rest of the bag on scotts head and it was all over the ground it was soo funny. Got on the bus and went home. Went inside and wrote myself notes for why i wasn't in school and wouldn't be for the next couple days and then my dad came and picked me up and brought me to the mall. we got pizza and it burned the roof of my mouth so the skin kept peeling which wasn't cool. Went into the movie and saw a preview for harry potter and got super excited :) Watched the movie which was sooooo good and i loooveeed it sooo muuuch like you have no idea. I cant wait to buy all of them hehe it's gonna be so awesome. Then im gonna sit Julie down to watch them all 'cause they rule. I was crying aty various parts :[ when the movie was over we went to H+M and got me a jacket that rules and i look "sexy" and "intreging" in hehe. Went home and din't even turn on my computer because i was tired and i had alotta homework soo just got to work and then went to sleep.

Wednesday - School was okay. I had to keep getting my homewrok from all my teachers and i kept telling them that i had a family commitment that i didn't want to talk about and acted sad haha. The bitches fell for it wahahaha. Hung around all day. Braided pete's hair haha and did other stuff -shrug- went home and hung around a bunch then later Jimmy picked me up and brouhgt to confirmation thing. Got there and was in a class with Alex Nick and Shannon K. I argued with the teacher about cursing and stuff then i asked the priest during my confession if cursing was a sin and he said no uit's just impolite. Went bck into the room nad Mrs Kelly was reading ghost stories and i wasn';t paying attention woo hoo. Went home later and did stuff then went to sleep cause i didn';t have to do homework woo hoo!

Thursday - Woke up and hung around waiting or my mom who packed me this monsterous lunch haha then she drove me to the church and i got out of the car and she's like "okay get on the bus" and i was like "no, no one's on the bus yet" and she's like "yes they are! they're all there!" so i getb oyut and walk towards the doors and the guy's like "everyone's in the church so i almost flipped my mom off haha she was laughing. Then she honked the horn and backed up cause she forgot to give me my permission slip thing. Went inside and saw Tilly and Annie so i went by them. Shane and Alex were there too. Made my blanket most of the way to the retreat cause ui gotta get that shuit dooone man. Got there and met all the people and thy were alright. They broke us into groups and the only person from my school with me was shane which was alright. Had to pay some game and get across the gym which was annoying and piintless. Then we played this other thing and when i got out i had to go and do face excersies which creeped me out a bit. Hung around and did all the stuff. The Frier fred dude was weeird man he had this weird laugh and we're nose and stuff creeped me out,. At lunch with annie and talisa and then when everyone went out for "freetime" we stayed inside and played jenga and the piano. did other stuff for the rest opf the day. It really wasn't all hat bad, beats scvhool at least. Ir wads funny cause at the end of the day we aoll went to get on the bus and i tripped when i got on and sat down and tilly was laughing hysterically cause she did as impression of freddy haha it was cool. on the bus home listned to the Beautiful mistake and when we got there walked over to the middle school and met Julie. She was deaf for a inute then i got her attention. Went inide cayuse i had to pee and then we ate and stuff in the bathroo. we decided to ask kane if he'd give us bus passes for the latebus cause we didn't feel like walking home. He told us to go to the officve so we did got bus passes and then went on the late bus to my houise. Hung around made crosants and went for a walk all arou8nd and took som pictures. Went under the bridge by cablevison woo creepy. we were talking about the water and how awesome it was and about how we wanted summer and stuff like that. Walked to stanly demmings and talked about other stuff boys and what not then went home. Got packed up and ate and then went to Julies house. Did stuff and then eventually fell asleep.

Friday - Woke up and got ready hung around and it was cool to watch Christna go to school an her bus and stuff cause we didn't have to go! woo hooooo! It was beach day haha so it's funny cause we were bundled up snowboarding and they were in like bathing suits hehe. Rode to Belleayre (finally spelled right) and listned to music and tallked and saw all the cool stuff! Got there and it was cowowowd so we got changed and then went out and down and up and down and stuff it was awesome. We had to stay with her dad the whole time but whatever it was awesome. There were alotta little things you could go up the sides of the trails and through the woods that were bumpy asnd stuff. I fell a buncha times which wasn't cool but oh well. It was cool, ate lunch and then went back out cause we're awesome. My pinkey started to freeze and i couldn't feel it and hardly mve it. Stayed till closing and my pinkey hurt really bad, it hurt till after we evenh got home cause it had been sooo cold like insane. Went home and When we got there hung around ate and then went to grease. Sarah came and then we went and picked Laura up. She toldus all about the day and then grease staerted! It was awesome like seriously it was amazing. The acting was so good andthe signing and cody was really good. It's cool that freshman got the lead this year. He was amazing. Saw alec's older brother asnd stuff hehe and chris was really amazing too hehe. I just loved it so much and got really excited about high school even though iim not gonna be in the play or anything lol but still it;s gonna be soo good. Went home to my house and told my mom about it, then just chilld\ed and went to sleep but i was really soar haha. Slept, yeah.

Saturday - Woke up and hung around called Laura and she said she was gonna come get me, tok a shower and cleaned my closet, she was late picking me up and then we rushed to get julie and then went to her b-ball game weee. me and Julie walked around kings the whole time caue we hadn't been there in soo long and we missed it tons man. Showed each other all the stuff then we saw laura and her finger hurt cause the ball hit it or something and it got all swollen up. When the game was over we went to lauras for a bit and later wnet to the mall to see secret window which was sooo good may i add. i loved it. went back to julies house and we were alone there for a while and then her dad and mom and sister came home. hung around did stuff ate looked at all these pictures of julie when she was littkle and in elemantary school and stuff god i lov3 that girl to death. It was like flipping through her whole life hmm. Got her dad to bring usd to merchent square where we rented Almost Famopus. went home and watched it and i love that movie so much rar it;s so good. went in the kitchen and gave laura ice to put on her finger and then she fekll asleep in the living room and me and julie stayed up talking for a while about a buncha stuff. Got laura to wake up to go sleep 9in the other room then we went to sleep...i wasn't that tired but i feel asleep eventually.

Today - Woke up and told them about how in my dream laura had this weird rokm with all these girly clothes in it and stuff and thenscott and dillon were there and scott was wearing these weird blue shorts and dillon was roaming he house and then pete asked me to marry it him and it was weeeird man he spun me around and everthing haha. other stuff in the dream idk it was cool. ate and then we got picked up by my dad and went to my house to pick up stuff then to lauras to get her guitar5 and shoprtie for food. Got back to my dads and we waitied for sam and she came we hung out i gave her a tour and then we had band practice! it was cool but sarah couldn't come which wasn't. we actually got started on something which is aweasome cause i really wanna get this show on the road! sort of styarted with the song but idk what im gonna do about the piano part cause im messed up and stuff. Sam had to leave so we went upstarted and hung out til her parents came. we ate and killed animals and then she left and me laura and julie startred talking about having this huge sale thing at our house to buy all sorts of stuff.and we're excited man. they left and i hung around and started this entry which tok me quite a while to write because i haven't updated in forever haha. I have tons to do tonight which sorta sucks because well it just doesn. my confirmation is on sunday...woo hoo...yeah so atr least i dont have to deal with ccd and chaur and stuff anymore yay. hmm gonna go do some of those things i need to do. make a list first though of course hehe. Goodbye!


An Angry Apple: im a geek
uradush666: same here my email stats with gekybandkid
uradush666: and i also play nonstop online games
An Angry Apple: hehe woo hoo...but seriously...im the biggest loser
An Angry Apple: im worse than that :-[
uradush666: hehe
uradush666: wat u do
An Angry Apple: read and crochet
uradush666: well i am going to band camp beat that




Gooooo grease lightning goooo grease lightning go

2 burned down the walls that keep me in

-sigh- [08 Mar 2004|06:46pm]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | Brand New :: Deja Entendu ]

Sunday - Woke up and went to church. It wasn't too bad because I haven't gone in a while and i felt really bad 'cause my moms all religious and stuff. As long as she doesn't expect me to keep going every week haha. It was sorta weird, because ever since i was little i went to the same mass and all the same people went and sat in the same place. When i went back after almost a year it was still the same people, and i noticed how eahc of the families grew and changed and i wondered if they remembered me, and remembered watching me grow up. Went to home to my dads and ate breakfast then just hung out a while. Talked to Tyler and this girl Lezlie They're cool 8) Laura came later and picked me up. We went o her house and hung out, ate, and then Julie came. We went on a walk into these woods place by her house and there was a huge cliff. We were walking an it and taking pictures and stuff and posing and I went into this cave thing and then we left Laura's swetahirt on this branch and went to Larry's haha. Got food then on our way home we saw Travis and since it was pre rice day we threw rice at him and just about every other palce we were on our walk but anyway i was sitting on his wheelchair haha it was coool then we went and got Laura's swetashirt and back to her house. Kept trying to make her closet cool then her mom drove us home. We stopped at my moms to pick up the book for julie and then when julie left and went into her house i was all emo and thinking abiout how i'll neer know what it;s like for her to walk into that house everyday and go to her room or whatever or what it's like to live there and what it has been like all her life, no one ever knows anyione that well. I mean even if me and julie are as close as we are, we still cant get inside each other brains. Went home and did things, think i worked things out with eddie :) :) :) eventually went to sleep.

Today - Woke up and it was late so i figured there was no school. Laura called and woke me up after i'd fallen asleep again and asked if she could com over so she didbn't have to go to jersey which was cool by me. I layed down and tried to get to sleep again and wasn't really paying attnetion to anything and then she sneezed so i lifted my head and she was there and i was like "dude i was aake the whole time ididn;t even know you weer there lol" so it was funny. I got up and we hung out and then watched a buncha TV and went to shoprite, got snackums and sanitary napkins :o then came home and wathced more TV. We watched Th X-files movie and tyhen this movie "Rock My World" it was awesome haha. Hung out and then she left. Since then i'm just hanging out talking to people and thinkingh that i reaaalllyyyy wanna go to the high school and im reaallyuy pissed off cause of some things that suck and how i really want things to be cool with this one kid but nooo that's definatly not gonna end up happening and if it does then it wbe till like high school rar. I hardly wanna even talk to him ever again but i wanna try so hard to stay friends with fo life,. rar. Whatever. Gonna go eat something, my dad's annoying see ya.


nesteaboy91: i called my teacher a fucking whore and only got a lunch detention




You know, you know I love you so.
that keep me in

hmmsad?noojustweird [06 Mar 2004|11:42pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Snoooreee snoooreee ]

Friday - My mom woke me up at 2:30 in the morning to give me cough medicine because i guess I was hacking like crazy. Woke me up again at 6:12 and i got up and ready, she was in the shower when i went downstairs so i laid down on her bed and fell asleep. She woke me up at 7:12 and was like umm okay im like 2 hours late but thats okay! lol so she dropped me off at school and i hung out till they let us in. It was crazy hat day or something so when i went down to delta everyone was wearing weird stuff. I didn't have one so Mrs Taylor gave me one to wear and i looked so ghetto lol. Hung out and then went to homeroom. Took a french quiz that i think i did okay on. went to library in english and im really not sure exactly what she expected us to do but she really wanted us to work so idk i was just doing random stuff. I met that Georgia girl who Mrs Peters said I was so much like which was cool because I like to see who remind people of me. She looked cool, and she dressed like I used to in 6th grade and I wondered if she'd dress like i do now when she get into 8th, i guess we'll just have to see. SS was boring did my homework and Mr Johnson was talking about famous people and he said that this one person was one of the most popular people in american history and i thouhgt it was funny because i'd never even heard of him. Couldn't have been that important, i cant even remember his name now. hmm. Home and careers was okay. I went to 7th grade lunch at some point and Dillon was wearing this wig and stuff and i didn't know who he was and then him and Scott were on the platform thing going insane and spinning around in circles reaaallly fast and Dillons "hair" was flying all around him. Then Scott started running around the cafeteria taking everyones hats with this big lepracaun hat on like some evil green theif dude it was funny. He's weird. Gym was okay, as okay as basketball can be i guess. Lunch I did my math homework and hung out. AA was alright, pete's strange. cha cha cha charmin? meh. That class is odd. science i went to the library and took a test and then math was alright. After school went to the buses to say by to everyone and got my pen from scott. i think he was mad that imade him go back to his locker. meh. that things my pride and joy, nicely clipped to my pocket at this very second. -nuzzles pen- anyway. So i said by to everyone then went to the front and saw everybooody just hung out for a few seconds and walked to town with jen geri and julie. Went to BK and this candy store and then to my house hung out more in town and found ally eddie dillon tyler and rob, hung out wiht them till eddie dillon left and tyler was left alone haha then went home and tyler was gonna come with us i think but he just sort of went ahead so eh whatev. Jen got picked up me geri and julie hung out and later geris mom came and picked us up. We went to the highschool and we were alittle early so we hung out a bit found anya and went to the pool. The lady looked at us really bitchy from the start and was like "what are you guys doing here you need a parent" so we're like "are you serious? is there like an age we can get in alone" and she was like no no no you need aparent" so we were pissed so we were asking people to help us get it and finaklly someone did and we went swimming! It felt sooo good to do into that water like you have no idea how awesome it was. Just swimming...ahh it was beautiful. So we only got to stay there for lie an hour and then we went to the locker rooms to get changed and stuff and we did and we were taking pictures of us all in the shower haha with bathing suits on dont worry so we did that and we were singing and stuff haha people looked at us funny then left and tried to find my mom and this lifeguard guy dropped his stuff everywhere and was like fuuuck haha. couldn't find my mom anywhere, saw kevin pink, looked for my mom more and then finally went to call her by the poool agian and she was there and i talked to the life person and he knew my sister which was alright and then went to get in the car and whatnot. Dropped anya off and then geri and then julie came and was gonna sleep over but then she didn't and i went oher house and slept over. Twasn't too exciting, both really tired, -sigh- swimming was so good. Slept.

Today - Woke up to Julie pulling the covers off me and giving me the phone cause it was my mommy and i talked to her then me and julie got food and talked to laura a bunch then she took a shower and i started making brownies with her sister haha we took out all the chuncky chocolate in the brownie mix cause thatr stuff aint no good! Laura came and got us and we went to altos! never went to the new onea nd it was awesome cause i got to play the pianos but it really upset me that they didn't have one regular piano, they were all keyboards god it made me upset. Then we went to staples and i got a binder thing and then we went to this carpet place where we played with legos and rolled on big mounds of carpets! oh joy! and then we went to pizza hut got food and went to Lauras, passed Travis's house where he was rolling around on wheelchairs haha. Larry's. On the way we were thrwoing this bouncy ball all the way down the road it was awesome haha and throwing erice all over the palce. Was on the way up to Lauras when he mom came down and stuff then went to my house. Hung out and had emo conversation then Julie left and my mommy came home...she bought my index cards woo hoo and im just hanging out talking to people. I was in a really weird mood cause i was thinking everyone didn't like me for a couple minutes idk it was weird. And me and ally were talking about how much we miss this one kid...and i really really do. Like i'd do so much to just be freinds with him again and have it not be weird and annoying and idk i just felt like i could talk to him about everything and i just totally lost him and i just got really upset. Wish i could make things right. This hasn't been the most chipper night, hmm, i think i'll go do happier things. Julie might have a job at deep sea...yay.


MixtapeApology: gots to go
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I want you to know that,
I miss you,
I miss you so.
that keep me in

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