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new journal [30 Jul 2004|10:26pm]
yeah so i got a new journal. im no longer using this one. <3


www.livejournal.com/~let-it_burn_x0x/
if you got a username comment me and ill add u
* ask yourself why

lonq survey stolen from johanna -- april 8th* [29 Jul 2004|07:51pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | my band _ d12 ]

IDENTIFICATION
*1. Name: christine hill
*2. Natural Hair Color: dark dark brown
*3. Hair Color Currently: brown faded red highlights i dont even know lol
*4. Eye Color At Birth : dark brown
*5. Eye Color Currently : --^
*6. Height: 5`2 1/4
*7. Glasses/Contacts: yes // n0pe
*8. Birthday: july 27th 88
*9. Sign: lEo
*10. Current Age: 15
*11. Siblings Names: none --
*12. Location: par|in jersey 732
*13. School Attending: swmhs - year 2
*14. Current Grade: red . s0ph
*15. GPA: likE a 1.2 haha no idk?
*16. College Plans: go to rutgers maybe? or somewhere in the city or r.i not to sure really dont care. just wanna make it out of swmhs first
*17. Planned College Major: culinary arts(cooking)
*18. Planned College Minor: poetry
*19. Any Piercings: 2 in each ear .. i want my tongue . nd belly button done
*20. Any Tattoos: nope 18th birthday im gettin 2

SOCIAL LIFE:
*1. Girl Friend(s): manda . jess . mel . dee . sara . neeti . casey . jenn . cindy . melissa . casey . kelly . jess . heather . tori . livia + ( names in no order)
*2. Guy Friend(s): dan . kenny . cioci . richard*** lol . arnold . mike . andy +
*3. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nopes
*4. If No, Current Dating Partner: umm no lol
*5. Current Crush: yeah its really nice too cause the person actually likes me**
*6. Hobbies: tv // sleeping // running // walking in the rain
*7. Pager: ummmm nope
*8. Are You Center Of Attention Or Wallflower: i have no idea
*9. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: n0thin et . gettin hyundai elentra i think
*10. What Type Automobile Do You Wish You Drove: doesnt really matter right now
*11. Would You Rather Be With Friends Or On A Date: right now kinda on a date but i love my friends so both lol
*12. Where Is The Best Hangout: depends on my mood . the mall most likely tho
*13. Do You Have A Job: nope . gettin one in the summer i think


PERSONAL:
*1. Who Is Your Role Model: my aunt heather
*2. What Are Your Pet Peeves: pants above the ankles(dont ask) . my white sneakers getting mud on them . having my bed being made
*3. Have You Ever Been In Love: idk . people said they think ive been but its me you know so idk ima say no lol
*5. Have You Ever Cried Over The Opposite Sex: yeah more times then nessacary
*6. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no not at all
*7. Have You Ever Lied To Your Best Friend(s): yeah .. everyone lies
*8. Ever Wanted To Get Revenge on Someone Because They Hurt You: yeah i guess .. havent we all
*9. Ever Been Cheated On: yeah ...
*10. Ever Said I Love You To A Significant Other: yeahh
*11. Rather Be Dumper Or Dumped: the dUmpEr
*12. Rather Have A Relationship Or A "Hookup": relationships -- hookups are nothing
*13. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: starting to think i do
*14. Ever Liked Your Best Guy/Girl Friend: yeah
*15. Do You Want To Get Married: yeah when im older
*16. Do You Want Kids: yeah when im older
*17. Do You Believe In Psychics: noperz
*18. Do You Believe You Know The Person Who You Are Going To Marry At This Point In Life: no i dont think any one does.
*19. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Body: my stomach .. its flat and i do nothing to get it that way haha
*20. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Emotional Being: idk. but ive been told that my eyes say alot of words that my mouth can not
*21. Are You Happy With You: sometimes then at times im not
*22. Are You Happy With Your Life: yeah sure
*23. Are You Scared Right Now?: in ways . yes
*24. Depressed?: no just stressed
*25. If You Could Change Something In Your Life Right Now, What Would It Be: nothing. everything happens for a reason
*26. Say Something To Someone That May Or May Not Read This That You've never Told Them, But Need To: rich .. your always gonna be there somehow someway

FAVORITE:
*1. Sports Team: yankees
*2. Room In house: kitchen - bedroom
*4. Guy's Name: michael jacob
*5. Person to talk to about your problems: manda . sara . idkkkkk lol
*6. Song: leave(get out) - jojo
*7. Movie: finding nemo. mona lisa smile. the sandlot. anger management. + older movies
*8. Actor/Actress: chris rock. eddie murphy // julia roberts. jLo. mandy moore
*9. Beverage: pepsi twist
*10. Candy: milky way!!
*11. Family Member: grammas + aunt
*12. Salad Dressing: original ranch. caesar. 5 cheese italian(yummy)
*13. Blanket/Stuffed Animal: my cheesecake factory teddy bear lol
*14. Favorite quote from a song: too many
*15. Day of The Week: friday
*16. Color: baby blue. pink, orange
*17. Perfume And Cologne: tommy girl. love spell. moonlight path -- armani. burberry touch
*18. TV Shows: friends. my wife and kids. degrassi. the fairly oddparents. rockos modern life. sex and the city
*19. Flower: tulip
*20. Fast Food Place: burger king. wendys
*21. Game: javanoid - palace - blackjack
*22. Teacher: mrs bulla - 3rd
*23. Love Song: back at one - brian mcknight
*24. Clothing: thonq - socks - basketball shorts
*26. Vacation Spot: florida
*27. Person To Give Advice To: manda
*28. Person To Get Advice From: sara

>> THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE U:
*1. Cried: yeah
*2. Bought Something: soda from quik chek
*3. Gotten Sick: dont think so
*4. Sang: yeah like every song lol
*5. Eaten: yeah
*6. Been Kissed: yeah - dan on the cheek
*7. Felt Stupid: duhhhhh
*8. Said I Love You: yeah to my friends
*9. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them, But Didn't: noperZ
*10. Met Someone New: dont think so
*11. Moved On: kinda
*12. Missed An Ex: noperZ

~~~~~~~~~

RED
What is love? i have no idea. whatever the hell you want it to be
Name 3 things you feel very passionate poetry. my friends. my family
Does fire fascinate you? kinda
Do you have a short temper? at times ..
Are you a friend to dragons? sure why not
Are you very warm hearted? at times
Do you feel intense emotions? at times

ORANGE
Are you bright? hahahahaha
What are the three most wholesome things you've done lately? i have no idea
Is vibrance a good characteristic to have? sure?
Are you rich in self confidence? noperZ
Are you rich in vitamin c? haha dEe vitamin cEe!! haha
Is lala orange your favorite rainbow bright character? i used to love all rainbow brite things

YELLOW
Are you a very happy person? at times i can be
Do you like the sun? yeah
Do you ever feel utter and complete joy? at times
Do you feel like the volume in your life is all the way up? its on about 12 out of 20 haha
Do you feel warm inside when you hug people? some people
If you were a care bear would you be cheer bear? noperZ
Are you lemon scented? hahaha thatd be pretty cool

GREEN
Are you incredibly lucky? nope
Are you easy going? kinda i think
Are you very mischievious? i dont think so
Are you very lusty/sexy? not to my knowledge
Ever find a four leafed clover? noperZ
Are you fresh like mint? sure lol
Does nature speak to you? haha thatd be so cool lol

BLUE
Do you love to look at water? some water
Are you calm/relaxed? right now. yes
Is it very difficult to upset you? nope
Are you at peace? umm i dont think so?
Are you comforting? sure lol
Are you well balanced? no
Are you content? n0

PURPLE
Are you royalty? nope not even close
Are you very free spirited? idk? what the hell kind of questions are these
Are you conceited? yeah
Do you have a passion for indulgence? chocolate
Are you a grape? would u like me to be one?
Are you a purple horseshoe? no but i am a lucky charm ;) lol

PINK
Are you less than intense? depends
Are you incredibly feminine? sometimes but at times no

BLACK
Do you absorb everything possible? yeat times
Are you incredibly energetic? at times

GOLD
Are you expensive? sometimes
Are you worth it? maybe

~
Comment!
1. I hurt: my leg yesterday
2. I love: my puppy =] lol
3. I hate: beds that are madee
4. I cry: when im stressed
5. I fear: clowns
6. I hope: this iish is over soon its to long
7. I sadden: when i hear bad news?
8. I feel alone: when i hear others talk about the guys in their lives
9. I kill: 2 get some milky ways right about now
10. I talk: a l0t
11. I listen: to my gramma
12. I break: my locker
13. I see: white poeple?
14. I smell: like gym eeww
15. I taste: orbit gum
16. I work: never?
17. I remember: retarded as hell things
18. I hold: back my fear
19. I hide: and you go seek and count to 50
20. I pray: that this quiz stops asking retarded ?'s
21. I walk: like a duck
22. I drive: um nope
23. I read: poetry
24. I burn: candles
25. I breathe: air
26. I play: games
27. I miss: my aunt
28. I touch: things
29. I learn: from my mistakes
30. I feel: happy right no
31. I know: im confused right now
32. I say: words?
33. I dream: about love
34. I have: a disfunctional family haha jk
35. I want: to know the truth
36. I fell: going up the stairs haha
37. I wait: for things that'll never happen
38. I need: passing grades
39. I live: in a hellhole
40. I kiss: people

C~

1. what colour are your kitchen plates? mostly paper
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? nothing really
wheres number 3?
4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? monopoly. candly land
5. FAVORITE MAGAZINES?seventeen. ym. lucky
6. FAVORITE SMELL? mens cologne. yummy
7. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? i g0tta peeeeeee
8. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR? purple
9. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? 1-4
wheres 10?
11. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? chocolate but vanilla like body spray and stuff
12. Do you like to drive fast? i dont drive
13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? used to
14. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? scary
15. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? my grandmas dad. he seemed like a cool cat lol
16. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? vodka - smirnoff - stolis
17. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN & YOUR BIRTHDAY? you asked this already 7/27/88 leo
18. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? no i dont eat brocelli
19. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? pro chef
20. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE? my natural hair color
21. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? n0
22. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? full
where 23
24. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? no
25. WHAT IS THE WORD YOU MISTYPE MOST OFTEN? lol
26. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? way too much
27. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 7 - 21
28. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? my mom . no baseball
29. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR? not having anyone to love when im older
where 30-32
33. FAVORITE CD? bsb!! nd hilary duff nd my mixed cd's
34. FAVORITE TV SHOWS? u asked this already
35. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD? depends
36. HAMBURGERS OR HOTDOG? cheese burgers
37. FAVORITE SOFT DRINK? pepsi twist
38. THE BEST PLACES YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? miami w. manda lmao haha um the cruise
39. SCREEN SAVER? idk im on my grammas puter
40. BURGER KING OR MCDONALDS? bk
41. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU ADMIRE? my gramma. my mom. my aunt
42. WHAT IS THE HARDEST THING YOU'VE EVER HAD TO DO? let go of someone i truly cared about
41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD? yodels. french fries. pretzels. salt water taffy. crabs. salami. subs. +



haha sorry i told you itd be long but its fine i guess. so today was kind of a blah type of day
hR - just sat around talked to tori and jenn as usual
1 - took vocab quiz. watched shrek. got averages. another d the caesar packet and journal messed me up the most.
2 - geometry wasnt bad mr nem was cranky
3 - watched selena. got our averages i already knew mine tho
4 - accounting was alrite. we had to go to another room. talked to meghan and dan and cioci the whole period
lunch - it was kinda boring but it got better. the girl who paul always stares at sat at our table. wow was that an experience in itself lmao.
6 - library. didnt get that much info. too tired. just sat around most of the period. caught up with val on some stuff. thats its really
7 - bio just went over a sheet and watched a video for the rest of the period
8 - gym we played volley ball against the team that came in 4th place in the tournament cause we came in first(19-4 record yes!!) lol currie playe don that team and they still lost i think lol. oh well we rock its proven haha. oh well.
after school - waited for 20 minutes for tina to pick me up but yeah she didnt so i walked home in the pouring rain. but kenny stayed after with me for most of the time it was nice. i enjoyed it alot =] i packed cleaned and ladi dadi da and walter drove me to my grammas and ive been here since. oh well so yeah thats it. im gonna go and be cool and stay online for like 4 more hours haha. im such a loser. oh well. i dont expect comments on this cause its so long.

2 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

its april 2nd - happy late april fools [29 Jul 2004|04:10pm]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]
[ music | leave(get out) _ jojo ]

yeah so i really really havent updated in a while. punishment you know kidna really havent even felt like updating but i guess today i will.

umm ... hhmm... well do topic by topic i guess ..

1. friends - me and the lovely jamie wojcik are no longer friends. personally its not even bothering me that much its just stop being so immature that people are talking to me eeww blah blah blah w/e god get over it please its really not that serious. just you really need to learn to get over yourself. and oh yeah im the one being so immature yeah um ok. if you insist im not even gonna bother because this is such a gay topic anyways. and jamie please dont bother commenting i dont wanna hear it thanks. in spanish we got a ''crew'' now haha its tiny tuts(me) hooters(kc) none(manda) size b(melissa) nd thumbelina(jess) haha gotta love em.

2. boys - oh geeze this topic can get a little messy but ill talk about it cause yeah its my journal and i should be able to do that. so yeah im guessing alot of people already knew that i liked jd and we started talking alot and like he knows i like him but it gets me so mad how he talks about the girl he likes. like that person you know i love you to death but yeah you get where im coming from. we had talks bout it already so w/e i really dont care. but yeah i do like him and its weird cause i have no idea why im even attracted to him but i am and i dont wanna be cause he doesnt like me. im ''not his type'' w/e ill find someone sooner or later

3. school - could be alot better but spanish i think i brought my grade up to like a higher f or possibly even a d im hoping cause i really dont feel like taking spanish again next year. geometry we had 2 quizzes on friday and i think i did really good on them. im hoping i did really good on them. that class just makes me so madd cause how if you fail one think can your grade go down like 24 points? seriously oh well. yeah those are the two classes i failed last marking period and i think i did alot better in them this marking period. bio im doing alrite in still. english is still good. accounting im aceing that class. history no sweat easy . in gym our team is the best one in our class. our record is 16-3 so im really excited about that. oh well im but yeah im just worried about spanish and geometry. yeah so i was gonna be jv baseball manager too but i decided not to do it cause my school work is more important rite now cause i kinda actually wanna make it out of 10th grade but w/e spring break starts next friday and i just cant wait. oh yeah i forgot to say. im doing a bio term paper rite now its actually not that hard to do all i got left to do is hand in my outline - do my final paper and my oral presentation everything should be done by the end of this motnh so that all good with me. history were getting our term paper stuff this upcoming week b4 spring break i think? and mrs jaremba said shes not gonna give us that much to do over spring break so thats good too.

4. sweet 16 stuff(yes i know its far away but still) - the whole thing is going good we ordered the last little bit of stuff i think so i know im not going to be stressed over that. i mean theres little things left to get but we'll worry about that later and im glad im just getting that stuff out of the way so im not stressing later. yeah thats really it on that topic haha

5. family - everythings fine. you know we have little fights and our big fights but yeah w/e idc. im going to my grammas next thursday nite for spring break just gonna chill there for a while get my hair cut on friday who knows but i know im gonna have fun i really dont know


umm ok yeah so i have no idea what else to do paragraphs on lol. but um me manda kc and melissa went out to fridays last nite haha we had so much fun. TOILET PAPER. 15 PACKS OF SUGAR haha wow and so many others. love ya girls <33 so we had off of school today and so you know 3 day weekend for me !! whoot whoot haha im such a weirdo lol. um lets see what else is going on oh last nite me tori and jon were on the fone. omg that was so funny CAN YOU NOT FIND? IT COULD GET A LITTLE LONELY YOU KNOW!! I THINK YOU NEEDA PLAY WITH IT MORE haha oh geeze wow. love you 2. um yeah so im gonna go cause this is a long update and i have nothing much more to say. so yeah bye. comment on w/e you want idc <3


love you always -
- christine leah

4 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

its march 19th [24 Jul 2004|02:56pm]
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | i dont wanna know _ mario winans f/ p. diddy ]

alrite so i havent updated in a while cause ive been punished. but today im allowed on the computer so i figured id update. nothing super duper exciting has happened. i passed a spanish test finally tho. got a 62 out of 63 only cause i missed two accent marks. guess its not bad. todays a snow day. i agree with dEe tho about today. it was a waste of a snow day cause the snows melting and its not even good snow for snowballs. oh well so i think tonite im going to the play with danielle. so thats good i guess.

lately ive been stuck btwn two guys and its really hard cause i like both of them alot but its like the type of thing where you know that they both dont like you. idk? and f.y.i one of the guys is not rich. but maybe things'll get better with that situation or i just gotta move on.

yeah so earlier today i was going thru peoples journals just seeing what ive missed cause of being punished and i looked at someones journal im not going to any names but yeah i know me and the person have grown apart alot but still i know they were talking about me in the journal. but they didnt mention my name. seriously just say my name for christ sakes. idc if you dont wanna ''offend'' me or w/e it is you think will happen just say it please. you make comments to me in class that aren't rite ok. but yeah thanks.

oh yeah last weekend me and paul went to the mall. haha it was good. like yeah it started out boring cause no one was there. but it got better. paul looked for a cowboy hat the whole time. lol. we sat down in the pizza place while we both ate. caught up on stuff. it was nice to have a decent convo with him. i missed the talks. thanks for it all paul. member im always here. but yeah the search for the cowboy hat was hysterical. no stores hadem but when we were in jcpenneys he was tryin on hats and i thought i was gonna die from laughing lol. but it was funny. the last store we went to was rainbow and he found this hat haha omg it was great. he wouldnt get the lime green sunglasses to go with the hat tho. i was mad but it was funny. my mom took us home and she liked pauls hat haha. she must think me and my friends are pyscho. well we are but yeah.


lately ive been doing sweet 16 planning stuff and its going good. cant wait. lol. its gonna be so fun. i cant wait for everything to just come together. enough of that topic.


so im gonna go cause yeah i have ntohing else to say and im quite frustrated. bye


christine leah*

2 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

lonq time no talk -- march 8th [22 Jul 2004|08:21pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | you give love a bad name _ bon jovi ]

alright so its been a while since i updated.

last week we had hspa's testing tuesday - thursday so i got to miss 1-3 period and then friday i missed 1st. so that was pretty decent i guess. i had fun with getting to go to school late. one day melissa's mom drov eme to schoo, another day heathers mom drove me, then another day i had to walk cause i couldnt find a ride. but its all ok me tup with amanda and dEe that day when i was leaving quik chek. umm friday i had gotten my tickets for the talent show and by that time i was already mad cause me and rich had gotten into a huge fite on the fourth i think? idk i think it was yeah yeah yeah it was ok. so that nite i couldnt get a hold of amanda to get me a ride to the high school for the t.s so i went out with my folks then they dropped me off. got home a lil after 10:30 the show wasnt bad but it wasnt worth 8$ to see it you know? haha all the jokes form it. too funny <33 but um lets see saturday i dont even remember what i did but i know that i looked at sweet 16 stuff and then i got into a fite with my folks about going to dEe's for a lil while but i wound up going. had fun there. tori, kristen, heather, danielle gorman, paul nd w0j were there n obviously dEe. lol. mom picked me up at 930 cause of our i fight i guess? idk. saturday ws the usual go to shoprite come home do chores blah blah blah. but yesteday me and rich made up i guess. yeah things between us are better were at least on speaking terms so i guess its all good on that note. today i got into a fight with my mom then my dad came home and we all got into a fight. what a lovely day. blah no progress reports at least today. but yeah during that whole event i realized that i had some sort of feelings for chuckie and i told him haha what a dork i am but its ok with that. ive been planning my sweet 16 too which is kinda exciting but i know that im gonna be stressed when worst comes to worst cause yea thats just me lol

i dont really know what else to write about.
if i think of anything ill write. <33


ps - i really really hate people who are walkin in the middle of the hallways and then just stop and then you run into them and they give u a dirty look. ugh i kant that like 25 times today. jesus people you have feet to walk with if your gonna stop go to the side of the hallway. thanx


love you always --
-- christine leah <3



2 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

its march 2nd -- [21 Jul 2004|04:15pm]
Toy Story -- Youve got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead,
And you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said,
Boy, you've got a friend in me
Yeah, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You got troubles,
and I got them too
There isn't anything
I wouldn't do for you
We stick together, we can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
but none of them
will ever love you
the way I do
it's me and you, boy

And as the years go by,
Our friendship will never die
You're gonna see it's our destiny
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me


i had to post this song idk i guess i was in the mood. its the song jenn played for me with her candles hehe. i love u babe. your amazinq. i had a great time at ur party!!! mwa



christine leah*
* ask yourself why

its march 2nd -- [21 Jul 2004|04:15pm]
Toy Story -- Youve got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead,
And you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said,
Boy, you've got a friend in me
Yeah, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You got troubles,
and I got them too
There isn't anything
I wouldn't do for you
We stick together, we can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
but none of them
will ever love you
the way I do
it's me and you, boy

And as the years go by,
Our friendship will never die
You're gonna see it's our destiny
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me


i had to post this song idk i guess i was in the mood. its the song jenn played for me with her candles hehe. i love u babe. your amazinq. i had a great time at ur party!!! mwa



christine leah*
1 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

hip hip hooray ! its march 1 [20 Jul 2004|04:14pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | yeah _ usher . luda . lil jon ]

lol dont mind the subject - just im excited. its like 60 degrees out and im just happy. dunno why really but yea lol. yea so i havent updated in a while. umm idk if anything new has really happened. umm oh last nite i had jenns sweet 16 haha wow that was so much funnWELL YOUR MOM TASTES PRETTY GOOD! haha. wow so funny. jenn you looked so pretty!! anyways. kinda moving on from rich so that good. ummmmmm im so stuck idk what to say.

aahh oh i got my scheduele done and then today i got called down to guidance my my counselor was like we have to put you in general so you dont struggle in cp blah blah blah im like w/e floats your boat. ugh w/e i hate that it makes me feel like im stupid. aahh your not smart enough to be in a college level class so were putting u in a stupid ppl one. hhmm thanks. w/e

besides that ive been pretty good. not to many complaints. haha unusual rite? lol. oh me and my momma went shoppin on saturday. it was fun. thursday i was sick. guess its arite lol.


so thats how it goes =)
im going. update later

christine leah*

1 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

dates off dont mind -- feb. 8th* [15 Jul 2004|08:50pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | numb _ linkin park ]

this entry really isnt gonna have a point just thought id let alot of my thoughts out --

so umm lets do the friends situation first
[x] manda
for some reason it seems like ive drifted from her alot and its really all because of her being in play. like yea i know shes got friends there just it seems like shes too busy anymore. w/e idc cause i kno shes still my bff but yea who knows just really really seems weird. things'll get better i know they always do but yea. w/e

[x] speaking of one of the crazy four - lets just do the crazy four
um yea we've just all fallen apart really. i miss it sooooo much. we used to be so increidbly close last year and now its like crap. its like theres nothing more of us and it hurts cause like last yr we would go to the mall and just have the best couple of hours. non stop laughs and everything. the moths in my thin mints*danielle stealing the lip gloss*so many more its just like you look at us now and you never ever ever wouldve guessed we were that close. you kno? like last yr they were my strength and no doubt that they still are but like it changed alot. i really miss it. just want that friendship back.

theres other friends i could update on but i just dont feel like it


my heart situation
[x] the lovely one - every1 should kno the name
well its been about 6 and a half months and im still sitting here alone in a dark corner waiting for my escape. alright well lets see. yea he still has my heart and i want it back. he was acting kinda weird in a good way and now it just weird in a um how do you say weird in a really really weird way. if that makes any sense at all. and its like the more i get over him the more i fall in love with him. and ive just been so confused lately over it and its not helping me any. none in the slightest bit possible. i mean i kind alike someone else but idk? and even though maybe later on ill be mentally over the lovely one i dont think ill emotionally be over him. you know? just like valentines day is right around the corner and im sadly hoping something mite happen then. but it wont i know it. w.e not going to continue cause that could go on forever.


the hell hole we call school --
hhmm escuela(school for the dipsticks that didnt kno) hasnt been going too good lately. i really havent been appplying myself and i know that in the end im just gonna wind up screwing myself over but i realize it when its too late. well some of my grades have been doing better geometry i brought my grade up to a c+ but spanish i went down alot but some of my other classes i did go down in. history i stayed about the same. really needa start doin my homework in that class. i cant afford to not do it. cause thats whats killed me the last 2 m.p's bio i did a little better in which is good. i really thought i did better but w/e it doesnt work. just needa keep my mind focused on school but ill do better next m.p i promise -- ill hold u to it lol


umm really have no idea what else to update on just needed to let that out so arite ttyl thanx bye

10 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

too much alone time [14 Jul 2004|04:17pm]
[ mood | stressed ]
[ music | have you ever? _ brandy ]

long time no talk. updates on alot of thinqz. -- dont mind time or date its wrong most likely its the 3rd of feb.

me and dee are friends again - im glad too . thanks dee ily vs4l

ummso lets see mike broke amandas heart and today i was abouta hit him cause i was just so mad. idc who reads this and idc if your friends with him he knows so w/e buzz off. umm yea like first the talk went all calm and then i just got so frustrated. tori was there she said it looked like i was gonna hit him. so yea i was walking away with ehr and then i was like gonna turn around and go for it. but i didnt. dont think folks would be happy if i got suspended for beatin the crap outta some guy. so its all good. but other wise my day was good. played bball in gym. walked home in the pouring rain. it was so cold. hairs still wet but it all good. came home did my homework talked to amanda came online and poof here i am. just thinking watchinq tv. in espanol we got new seats and im in the retart row!! haha todays class was half way decent tho. sorry it was out of order i just remembered it lol.


valentines day is going to be another lonely one im only wishing for the best and i dont think the best is cominq but its ok. i guess.


im gonna go got nothingmore to really say.
-x- love you alwayz -x- christine leah





happy birthday roy

* ask yourself why

a letter to my friend* [07 Jul 2004|09:00pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | you are the wind beneath my wings ]

danielle freeman.

this isnt going to be something for forgiveness cause thats not what im looking for right now. i just needa let this out. yea so you were acting really weird lately and i would ask whats wrong and you would say nothing but you were so frustrated and i knew you didnt wanna talk so i didnt push it that far and just kinda backed away. so yea when i got home today i decided to read your journal tho i figured you didnt update cause you hadnt in a while. but i was wrong you did update. it was all good till i saw my name and it said that we were no longer friends. at first i was completely shocked and then i read everything i have to say was in your blurty so i closed out of your journal and traveled over to my blurty. one more comment was in it. i knew its the comment you left about what you had to say. so i read it and my eyes started to water and then i went into the bathroom and i saw black eyeliner running and the trail that tears had made while falling down my face. it wasnt easy to take it all in at one time. my parnts called me into the living room and i guess they noticed something was wrong only since i was crying and i didnt wanna talk about what was wrong i just kinda jumped around about what it was and they wanted details i just couldnt say them. so i went back to the computer and just kidna sat there. my fone rang it was amanda she noticed that something was wrong and i just started crying and i told her what was wrong and i was just like crying and crying. she called you and told you that i was on the fone with her and just that i was upset and you said that you still loved me to death and etc. and i mean i loved hearing that but what is that really gonna do? so we eventually got off the phone and was supposed to clean my room but i just sat there and cried. sooner or later the tears stopped and i kinda just stopped and thought about everything. i thought about all the laughs we had through the couple of years of our friendship the fights the laughs the inside jokes you know everything. and it just left me empty. and i was like how could best friends forever just stop and end so fast like a bullet shattering thru glass and just expecting everything to be fine having a new one jsut replace it. thats not the way things work. alright so yea i got online and talked to people cause i was just so upset and they had no idea what to say and truthfully neither did i. at all. i was speechless. i really just wanted to talk to you about it but you had in your journal that you didnt wanna talk so i figure its best not to say anything. truthfully none of this was going to be written but this journal describes me writes my events, my life, my actions, the truth. so yea here it all is. im sorry that things just had to end this way. its not the way all good things should end. just the thought of losing one of the only people in life i could ever confide in one of the people that was always there for me one of the only people you believed in me thru everything is just completely gone now. theres a hole inside just seeming to grow bigger. the laughs that we had were like kodak moments - could never be repeated cause they just would not be funny and just completely priceless. so yea i had actually written a better entry then this but blurty is gay and deleted it all so this is just my chicken scratch repeat of the other one. and just ugh idk. im not going to try and make something better if this is the way you need it. if a friendship never reappears ill always remember everything. im always gonna miss you danielle thats a fact. no ones gonna replace you in my life. i love you to death still. ill always be there for you when you feel like you have no one. but maybe one day some good will appear and we'll make it thru the rain. you never know now a days. you were and always will be one of my best friends. i dont care if you comment i just hope you get around to reading it. i love you


love you
christine leah

* ask yourself why

venting entry. read if ya want [03 Jul 2004|05:58pm]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | cry _ mandy moore ]

yea so the title says - venting entry read if you wanna <3

yea. so it just seems like the world is going against me right now.

im stressed out completely over midterms. i miss my family. i havent been as close with them lately. kinda like hiding in a shell cause i feel everything is stuff i gotta work out myself. theres so much going on with feelings. im just so confused. im in a fight with jamie and its just bothering me and it shouldnt but it is. just everyones changing and i hate change. at times its hard to even tell who my true friends are but i kno deep down who they are its just weird. you kno? yea so school was just crap. i felt like screaming the whole day cause i just didnt wanna be there and i didnt want anyone around me really. so before the bio exam(7th) i was in the hallway with sara alana brian and neeti. and i just put my head on saras shoulder and brian like threw me against the locker saying something and sara was just like shes not in the mood stop brian apologized eddy came over. my eyes started to tear and i just started to cry. and eddy was like who do u want me to kill and stuff and then eddy just like put his arms around me and talked to me and it felt good to get a hug from him. just cause i kno hes there for me. and it wa slike a security hug. it was nice. sara dragged me into bio and i was just crying. i stopped crying tho and i went to go sharpen my pencils for the exam and brian was there and he goes whats wrong you look like you just got done crying and i just shook my head no and hes like alright i guess you dont wanna talk just i hope u feel better and i was just like thank you brian. at least he cares a little to ask. so in the beginning of the exam i thought i was alright. i wasnt. i started crying during it again. but it only lasted a little while. wen i got done with the exam i just put my head down and slept. walkin ghome was hell cause it was so brutally cold. i was crying walking home for a little. then when i got home i just started crying and i cryed for a while. but the one thing that made my day was getting the invite to jenn's sweet 16. dunno why it just made me happy. so i kinda looked over my history. i wasnt in the mood to so i just stopped. and yea that was my lovely day. blah

yea ps by the way - im completely sick of miss baber. i just wanted to like beat her sneseless today even tho there wasnt a comment i really just wanted too cause shes just like her. and ugh shes so annoying her voice gives me headaches. she just needs to stop and go play in traffic on the parkway during rush hr. or like idk just do something so she can die and i dont have to deal with her crap anymore.`


yea comment w/e idc. its all yippee skippy i guess
update more later. <3


christine leah*

7 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

update entry thingy -- [08 Feb 2004|08:47pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | numb _ linkin park ]

this entry really isnt gonna have a point just thought id let alot of my thoughts out --

so umm lets do the friends situation first
[x] manda
for some reason it seems like ive drifted from her alot and its really all because of her being in play. like yea i know shes got friends there just it seems like shes too busy anymore. w/e idc cause i kno shes still my bff but yea who knows just really really seems weird. things'll get better i know they always do but yea. w/e

[x] speaking of one of the crazy four - lets just do the crazy four
um yea we've just all fallen apart really. i miss it sooooo much. we used to be so increidbly close last year and now its like crap. its like theres nothing more of us and it hurts cause like last yr we would go to the mall and just have the best couple of hours. non stop laughs and everything. the moths in my thin mints*danielle stealing the lip gloss*so many more its just like you look at us now and you never ever ever wouldve guessed we were that close. you kno? like last yr they were my strength and no doubt that they still are but like it changed alot. i really miss it. just want that friendship back.

theres other friends i could update on but i just dont feel like it


my heart situation
[x] the lovely one - every1 should kno the name
well its been about 6 and a half months and im still sitting here alone in a dark corner waiting for my escape. alright well lets see. yea he still has my heart and i want it back. he was acting kinda weird in a good way and now it just weird in a um how do you say weird in a really really weird way. if that makes any sense at all. and its like the more i get over him the more i fall in love with him. and ive just been so confused lately over it and its not helping me any. none in the slightest bit possible. i mean i kind alike someone else but idk? and even though maybe later on ill be mentally over the lovely one i dont think ill emotionally be over him. you know? just like valentines day is right around the corner and im sadly hoping something mite happen then. but it wont i know it. w.e not going to continue cause that could go on forever.


the hell hole we call school --
hhmm escuela(school for the dipsticks that didnt kno) hasnt been going too good lately. i really havent been appplying myself and i know that in the end im just gonna wind up screwing myself over but i realize it when its too late. well some of my grades have been doing better geometry i brought my grade up to a c+ but spanish i went down alot but some of my other classes i did go down in. history i stayed about the same. really needa start doin my homework in that class. i cant afford to not do it. cause thats whats killed me the last 2 m.p's bio i did a little better in which is good. i really thought i did better but w/e it doesnt work. just needa keep my mind focused on school but ill do better next m.p i promise -- ill hold u to it lol


umm really have no idea what else to update on just needed to let that out so arite ttyl thanx bye

* ask yourself why

my desert like weekend .. [17 Jan 2004|07:36pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | thats what she said _ bsb =/ ]

dont mind the title. it just means it was blah. alright so school on friday was alright i guess. its never nothing to brag about but yea alright whatever. watched the lion king when i got home and i cried lol ok i only cried cause of when simbas dad dies =[ its so sad alright so my parents got home and we went straight out. we ate at the cheesecake factory. food was alright. we exchanged my shower radio. happy about that. so i watched whos line is it anyway and fell asleep around 11. woke up this morning about 10:00 didnt actually get outta bed till like 10:30 tho. its ok i guess. i went online for a lil. then did bio review sheets. got ready and went out with my folks. came home did random things. and la la la. see i have no life oh well its alright i guess. im gonna go nothing more to update on.

christine leah*


quote of the day on a dark cold silent and lonely night. the only sound anyone can hear. is the sounds of one or multiple hearts breaking.

1 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

snow day ... [15 Jan 2004|06:54pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | drowning _ backstreet boys ]

so today was alright i woke up at 6:30 cause my stupid fone just had to ring and im too lazy to answer it guess what it was a fax call *yippee* rolls eyes - so yea went back to bed cause i figured there was no school since my mom wouldve woken me up by then. i woke up at like 9 30 and just roleld over and fell back asleep lol. mom woke me up at like 10:30? or a little later not to sure. so later on i went online got breakfast. talked to amanda. ate lunch. watched finding nemo while doing bio review sheets(midterms blah) . came back online for a few. went to go clean my room and i watched part of the south park movie and home alone 2 lost in ny. i went to go eat dinner and finished watching home alone 2. i worked on my geometry review sheets and then went to go look for my lion king tape. even tho there was the box of disney movies guess what. the lion king wasnt in its box. very very mad. my dads going to best buy after bowling to pick it up tho. so its all good lol. problly going to have school tomorrow =/ i hate school. means one more day of baber. but today was one less day of her and her preppy oh im the cheerleading coach and i hate everyone who isnt a cheerleader. especially christine cause she turns her head for one second and its the biggest sin in the world. plus im a blonde(no offense to other blondes) so im too oblivious to the world and whatever i say is right. and nothing i do is wrong. and im dumb and i look like i just got off of trimspa and im fake and blah blah blah. plus i sit there with my thumb up my crack trying to figure out what to do cause im a crap teacher who cant do ish for herself and my students especially christine wants to shove a pencil threw my eye cause shes not a cheerleader and she envies me because i dont treat her as good as my cheerleaders and football players. yes thats how i feel any objections to it guess what I DONT CARE!!! shes the worst teacher ive ever had. so yea um. getting back on the main subject. so yea im back here now and im just talking to people online. i forgot to mention i was helping jenn pick out dresses for her sweet 16 and the dress i picke dout she loved lol =] and roy was helping me pick out dresses today haha. it was great. alrighty i guess thats really its. ttyl. love yas


christine leah*

6 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

[14 Jan 2004|10:26am]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | hanging by a moment _ lifehouse ]

omg so madd.


alright so um lets see im in accoutning and do last period lets see. miss baber decided to direspect me in front of the whole class. by saying things and i got very very very mad and just like wanted to shove a pencil thru her eye. so yea just a tiddle bit frustrated with her because im not a bleepin cheerleader she hates me. so yea whatever idc tecahers dumb. she can blow my dipwhick.. blah blah blah

2 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

let the rain fall down .... [13 Jan 2004|10:26am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | my baby _ bow wow f/ jagged edge(again) ]

so hhmm lets see friday i went out to dinner with my parents and just stayed home didnt really feel like going out. i wasnt feeling to good. so saturday went out with the folks during the day and then me and amanda went to the movies. we saw my babys daddy and we met up with some people and saw the movie together. her dad drove us home after the movie and then i just watched movies that nite and then i fell asleep. sunday went to shoprite with my mom and just studied my stuff and cleaned my room and did some other chores. nothing to exciting.

yesterday in school was alright. english went fine. geometry just learned new things. spanish did silent work. accouting teacher wasnt there-went online ''cuddled'' with dan haha ilu!!! umm lunch went alright. history ''took it easy'' according to cioci we did our group projects and got back our quiz grades. i got an 88 not to happy about it cause i had extra credit thrown in there but its ok. bio // lab just talked took notes went over worksheets. the normal. then i walked home with sara and just chilled for the rest of the day really.


so me and jamie are getting closer again =) yAy!! ilu jamie!! yours is def. bigger then his haha.
me and paul are talking again - just a stupid fight you know

im gonna go. update more later



christine leah*

1 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

[09 Jan 2004|04:03pm]
i dont care if the journal looks bad to you ...
i like so yea its staying
4 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

keep on whisperin in my ear .. [09 Jan 2004|03:51pm]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | what i like about you _ lillix ]

so these past couple of days have been okay i guess. nothing much to really complain about. went to the boys frosh game yesterday. we won. beat monroe yippee*. lol rich never wound up playing. hes an amazing bench warmer haha. jk. oh well. ill just wait until baseball season as he says lol. haha me and casey had fun at the game. so i got home like 5 20 or so yesterday. ate dinner. studyed came online. talked to kyle. yAy!! lol. and feel asleep at like 10.

talked to dan in accouting today. found out his gramma did ok with the surgery. =)=)=)=) . lunch was ok. just talked. history took an open notebook quiz thing. bio we finished up our egg lab thingy. i popped the egg. lol. gym was alright just played pinball. i got hit in the thigh twice i got hit in the stomach but it was ok. stopped at pizza heaven walking home. it was really cold. haha. called up melissa and got to talk to arnold lol. hes happy that i like his hair now i guess it took time to adjust to it? idk. so yea im kinda mad at what someone wrote in their journal but w.e life goes on.

my eye has been hurting for like the past 2 days and idk why cause theres nothing there. stupid eyes. so yea i guess thats it im gonna go finish listening to music.



christine leah*

* ask yourself why

last year ... [04 Jan 2004|07:17pm]
ok so last yr half of frosh year. haha lemme say it was one amazing year. so heres the list of ''exciting'' things from last year

[[x]] mr pazinkos science class - only up here cause i made friends (casey, dan, heather) and we just had so much fun in that class. the water spinny thing. getting in trouble. bill nye the science guy and just so many more

[[x]] april 11th-13th i guess mainly the 12th - me dan and caseys ''therapy''chats. haha so many good times from that. splat. its all over. need help cleaning up. haha. 3 musketeers for life i love you guys to death

[[x]] dees party at ruby tuesdays in the mall. haha juno details are needed it was great

[[x]] june 25th - didnt go to school no exams. slept late. had visitors(haha) got my summer started right.


--------------summer of `03-----------------
[[x]] my trip to vegas was great except my period but stuff happens but it was an amazing trip. couldnt have asked for much more on that vacation.
[[x]] the cruise - wow just enough said. me and manda had such a blast. met so many people. cameron,brock,chris,patrick,danielle,amanda,rich,gerry,tommy,mike,mike,savannah,katie,lisa, the hott guys in the beginning haha amanda. god we just had so much fun. took my mind off of everything. it was perfect. there were so many laughs. -the marriage game. rich sitting in the puddle. no jumping in the pool. pimp room. the luggage falling. and so many more that was the best week of my life. hehe
[[x]] miami with amanda haha. OMG PEOPLE WHO SPEAK ENGLISH. the bus stop. pizza boxes. fighting over cereal. our room at the end. and so many more. haha such great times down there. omg where is the love just came on amanda !!!!! hahahaha WHERE IS THE DRUGS. lmao. <3

so soph. yr started and the highlight was pep rally haha with our float and then me manda and mel after school with the tape and figner puppets haha. such a great time. danielle and her slippers. haha

i know theres no tmuch after pep rally but it was just holidays and etc. haha just it was and up & down yr. and i love my friends to death for being there every step of the way.

people joined the world and people left
friends turned there backs and some stayed true
tears were shed and hearts were broken
some had their hearts mended and experienced love
memories were made and laughs were heard
things in life faded and some still remain
but thru it all we all had some inner strength
to let us hold on - 2 0 0 3
what does 2004 hold. you decide


fate doesnt choose you. you choose your fate ...
1 try and figure it out* ask yourself why

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