Well, I woke up today and I went to work. Just like usual. Then I came home...again usual. And then I sat around...I'll give one guess...yep...usual! Now i'm still here and it's almost 10:30. I still haven't done anything all day!! I talked to Dez for about 5 hours...that was the only interesting thing that happened all day. Now i'm downloading The Butterfly Effect. I'm gonna go to Jimmy's now cause It's time for Family Guy/Futurama. Sorry about this update....my life is only so interesting.

Peace

Stop right there, pause
Take another look
Turn me around
Until I’m thoroughly shook

Do you see something yet?
How ‘bout a lie?
Does it hurt for you
To look deeper inside?

Look right through me
Did you think you could fix the past?
Or is it something about your future,
Another question you never asked?

Shake it harder
It doesn’t ever mend the doubt
But if you a little harder
I can help figure it out

Hey look it’s you again
Still not feeling alive?
Just go on and look,
You’ll find no surprise

My answers rearrange
But do they ever change? No!
Maybe you come to me
Just looking for a show

Did you think that I was human?
Cause I still can’t mend your heart
But you just don’t listen to me
Because I told you from the start

Look right through me
Did you find anything yet?
Did I change your crooked views,
On how you thought your life was set?

Shake me harder
I’ll never find a reason why
You took your life for granted
So put me down and let me lie

No more of these endless questions
We’re trying so hard not to fall
I think it’s time to put away
Your Crystal 8 Ball

Micah Pilson 2/6/04

By the way...this is not for any of my friends in particular. This is a reflection of events that happened a long time ago before I knew anyone who even reads this...well....with the exception of maybe Jimmy

SO....a lot has changed since I last updated. I guess I can start with friday..... Boring day as usual....worked till 3, came home took a nap, grabbed a shower, got ready and headed down to Fav's for comedy night. That went well minus the fact that I didn't get to get on stage....Damn it!!! Those guys were NOT funny!!! Anyways, after sitting through that and waiting for Jimmy to get out, I decide to call Kevin up and tell him were going to the Lost Kangaroo. So he meets me down there and asks me a very interesting question. "Dude did you make this official yet or what?" I said no, she lives 10 hours away and that'd probably be hard on her. He said "Do you really like this girl?"....yes...."Then be a man dammit!! You know she's head over heels for you, and you feel the same way" Apparently him and Dez had a long conversation the night before about me...she was to the point where she had directions to my house pulled up on her screen. "It's all in his hands, the ball is in his court" Ok then...what do I do now? So needless to say, I've got a girlfriend now. A girl that i've never met, and that lives 10 hours away from me. Hell, I think it's romantic....if you disagree then keep your comments to yourself!! Anyways back to friday night....We Ixnayed the Roo idea and me and Jimmy just went back to his house, while Kevin went home. Saturday, woke up, talked to my new girlfriend, watched Pirates, got a call from Steven Hussey. So he was in town and him and Kevin were at his house. I head on over to hang out for a little while with him, kevin, DJ, and lindsey. After I left I headed over to Boone's house and hung out with him and childers and some other folks. Apparently I'm all set to go to Tallahassee the end of the month, cause they're going up and I'm gonna hitch a ride. So that's it so far. I talked to Dez for a while last night and of course Fuck Ass was complaining about me...and other shit like usual. Whatever dude, get over it. I'll be around all day probably so If anyone needs me just holler.

Peace!!!

Imp

So i'm bored.....really bored. But hey what's new!! My mom sent me some new pics of Big 8 and such and that's cool. I'm waiting for Dez to get back from her errand so I can talk to her more about the whole incident last night. I was so worried....I threw up twice....and after she told me that nothing had happened I just broke down. I felt so bad...she has to go through so much shit and all I want to do is be there for her. But I'm stuck in this hell hole, with no clear way out. The most horrible thing about all of this is that she thinks she has something to be sorry for. She was sorry she called and woke me up at 2 last night....she was sorry that she talked to me for an hour. Darlin, if you hadn't....I would've been upset.....very upset. So I'm tired today....big deal. I'd rather go a week without sleep and no exactly what's bothering you and what I can do to help, than have 5 minutes of sleep while you're hurting. I'd do it for all of my best friends....and this is you we're talking about. Come on, don't apoligize babe....there's no reason to.

You know you're amazing right??

So work wasn't as bad as it was yesterday...as a matter fact it was way better......No dropped steaks, no burned hands....awe yeah, good day. Had a nice surprise with Jimmy and Kevin strolling into my place at about 9:45, oh yes...it was time for Chapelle's Show. I love wednesdays, Chapelle's Show the Family Guy/Futurama. Anyhoo, we had a good time...I got pissed though cause some dude was talking to my mom online. My mom said that her son was up watching tv and he said "Isn't it past his bedtime?" OH HELL NO....That was the end of that story. I got back to my dad's house and found out that some Fucker is messing with Desiree....ok I'm really tired of this shit happening cause she doesn't deserve it so here.... AHH, shut the fuck up asshole!!! You have no right to call her stuck up, look at everything she's done for god's sake!!!! Man, they need to quit that shit. So I had a decent convo with Kristina....yay!!!!! Flannely!!! Then I remember that ....shit...Candice is gonna be fucked up tonight....holy shit girl, tell everyone I said hey and I wouldn't hurt you to come see me this w/e. Jesus, you're gonna be in Clearwater and you can't even stop in to say hello....fine!! So Ed made my day today workwise....he burnt the living hell out of this pizza, and said it looked like Fiestada....HAHA!!!! I haven't heard that word since elementary school...remember the stop sign shaped mexican pizza?? That was fuckin awesome. So anyhoo, got an e-mail from Dez, that made the rest of my day....she's still amazing....and will never cease to be!!


I hope everyone has a good one, I'll be around for whatever purpose you deem worthy

Micah

Lets see here, I guess putting your hand on the grill burns you cause mine hurts like hell.....ugh. Anyways, long day at work today, the drains backed up on us and I had to wait until a plumber came to do dishes. Needless to say I just got home. Mike dropped to slices of pizza on the ground, I dropped a steak sandwhich....fuck me. So anyhoo, I got another boring ass day ahead of me now, I'll probably do my usual 6 pack and family guy/futurama with jimmy. I'll be around if anyone needs me. BTW Dez, wake up so I can talk to you!! I haven't been able too all day!

Tuesday's are never fun, nor are they ever interesting in the least. Well, I guess I could say that work was pretty interesting to say the least. Mike's squirt bottle fight....Dolly Pardon.....Wierd shit happens when you least expect it. Anyhoo, got a call from Kristina today...I guess I'll talk to her after she's ou of dance. Desiree's of to the coast, Candice is out with her friends for their b-days...what's a loner to do? I guess I'll just listen to "Crow" eat this Mac and Cheese...and wait for something interesting to happen.

Peace

"Yeah my pen is a Pistola"

Have you ever been diving and found a rare artifact or a pearl....but your line is too short you can't reach it? Have you ever found someone so special to you, but they live so far away?? Have you ever found something so precious through your binoculars and then realized that there's a canyon in between you? Have you ever found such a beautiful soul that you don't even know what to do with your own??........I have.........and it's a beautiful question. An incite to what I should be doing with my life....a warning of things I could've been a part of long ago....it's beautiful.

So I woke my ass up early this morning for another fun filled week of work. I get to work and cut onions and this time I nearly died....they were so bad. I was crying and couldn't breath, it sucked! Anyways, I got to cook today since one of our guys is out for today....It's always fun being behind the line and cooking it up. I get done at about 3:30 and drove home to my mom's house to find a package...who is it from...from my Desiree of course!! I open that bad boy up and first find beads.....lots of them...and they're huge! So I find a note inside and read it, then notice that this note smells great.....awe yeah she sprayed it.....ugh, one way to get me going real fast like. Anyways so there are two parts to this box, as I open up the other part I slide my finger under the tape into what feels like a puddle of Vaseline....I smell it and it's sugary....hmm.....open it up....of course it's a king cake. So now I'm home at my dad's chillin out eating cake, can't get my nose out of this letter....Can't wait till she gets out of dance. Anyhoo, hope everyone has a good one. I'll be around.

Peace!

Another boring day....just sittin around watching the superbowl with my mom and Randi. Drinkin some brews and chillin. I hoe everyones had a good w/e....I heard the Sugarcanes made it to finals, and that's awesome. I'll be around if most of you need me. Desiree, you know I'm waiting on you!! Candice, you my girl and I hope you have a better night.

Peace

You know that feeling where you just want to see someone so bad you don't know what to do with yourself? The one where you keep trying to click on different things to occupy your time, but you've already seen that e-mail or webpage 100 times today. Well, yeah that would explain me right now. I wish that I could hop in my car right now...drive ten hours....just to actually see this girl I can't even righteously say I know. She's amazing, Candice was right....never a dull moment. The first chance I get, I will be there.....Can't get this out of my head....

Woo, last night was fun....I'd say for all of us. I wanna know about this power hour C-money....you never called me like you were supposed to! During my nap today I had an amazing dream.....lets just say it involves a special certain someone in MS. Well, I left my phone at Mike's house so I need to go over there sooner or later to pick it up. I'll be online if anyone feels like dropping a line. Peace!

Imp

So this week I've done nothing but work my ass off, make some stupid choices, and ultimately screw myself just like usual.

It ends with me sticking my tail between my legs and asking people to forgive me. I really hope Candice is ok, it really sounds like she's dealing with a lot more than just my stupid bullshit. As for Kristina, I hope that this incident can just be thrown out the window because it's really not anything to be not talking to each other for. I guess I should just do this....

I'm Sorry...I fucked up, just like usual. I don't deserve a thing from either of you. But i'm hurting due to my own stupidity. Please forgive me.

Ok....now that I got the sad part of it over and done with. I've actually been finding things to do to occupy my time instead of sitting around. Hanging with some old friends and such. I really am starting to severly antsy about meeting Desiree. I'm feeling like a little kid.....she keeps telling me that I'm great at taking how shitty a day she's had and totally making her just stop and smile. It sucks for me, because I'd like to be there to see it. I'll have my time soon enough. Everyone go buy the new Incubus cd on tuesday...you won't regret it!!!!

It's called "A Crow Left of The Murder" ...a murder being a flock of crows. I love this CD so much that it's not even funny.

Mike comes home tonight so I'm sure we'll be partying it up all w/e cause he's got the house to himself.....I smell severe trouble!!!

So anyways, I hope everybody has a blast this w/e...I wanna see some pics Kevin!!! Ok, I'm gonna get going now so I'll leave you guys with a thought....

"Far from perfect is where we find those that are perfect for us"

Desiree said last night that she's far from perfect, and that's just what popped out of my mouth.....I guess it makes sense considering that no one is perfect.

Jesus Christ On a Bike, I've had it with this week. It just sucks....is it my fault? I guess so partially. On one hand I have a huge misunderstanding that proves unforgiving for the time being. That sucks hardcore, because I'm really missing that certain someone and I'm waiting for the chance to make it up to her.

On the other hand I have Kristina, who apparently can't take a joke. So I sent ONE thing to Desiree that Kristina had said about ME. Desiree makes a comment about it in her journal with I quote "HAHA, jk" after it. (for those of you playing the home game...that means just kidding) So she read it and freaked out. THE COMMENT WAS ABOUT ME....NOT HER!!!! Why first of all would you let it bother you? And on top of that, it was a god-damned joke. AHHH!!!

So anyways, on a lighter note.....I'll be having a nice w/e alone because everyone is going to tally for a huge party. Yay, Angela is 19....happy birthday if you even bother reading this. Anyways, I hope all of my friends have a fun w/e in tally. I miss it so much. Mike's coming home this w/e so I do have that to look forward to.

I tried to do something cute for Desiree this morning and it got ruined by her roomate....Thanks a lot!! heh, jk. I'll find another way to make it work. She named the lizard Daffa..HAHA!! I win! So anyways, I'll get going for lack of anything more interesting to say. Hope everyone has a good night and I'll be around if anyone needs.

Well.....lets see here. Nothing has changed since yesterday so.....therefore I don't really have anything new to say. Umm.....I really need to find something to do.

Whew, long day. Work from 9 to 5....on no sleep. That's fun let me tell ya. Then a lot of other bullshit. No fun either.....let's see what else I can do today that sucks. On a positive note, I'm enjoying working. My people at Fav's are the fucking greatest and I really wish I could take them up to tally with me. Just open up a chain up there. Damn, that'd be the shit. Anyhoo, hope everyone has a better day that I've had....call me up or something folks.

Alright so this might help everyone out in a strange way......just do it.....please

What's my full name?:
My Birthday?:
My Eye Color:
My Hair Color:
My favorite color:
My favorite food:
My favorite drink:
My favorite animal:
My favorite sport:
My hobbies:

What am I normally doing on a Saturday?:
What am I good at?:
Am I talented?:
Goodhearted?:
Open-minded?:
Funny?:
Mature?:
Honest?:
Devoted?:
Am I dependable?:
Dedicated?
Have I ever made you mad?:
If so, when?:
Have I ever made you sad?:
If so, when?:
Best moment with me:
Worst moment with me:

(opposite sex, fill out)
Have you ever had a crush on me?:
If so, when?
Can you say that you love me?:
Why/Why not?:
Am I beautiful/handsome?:
My best feature:
Am I a good kisser?:
Have you ever had a dream about me?:
Am I worth being "proud" of?:
Am I "hard to get"?:
Am I in your league?:
Have I ever turned you on?:
Have I ever made you get "butterflies"?:
Have we ever had a romantic moment?:
If so, describe:


(Everyone)
Are we close?:
Have you ever been jealous of me?:
If so, when and why?:
Have I ever been jealous of you?
If so, when and why?:
Am I smart?:
Am I creative?:
Ambitious?:
Popular?:
Emotional?:
Depressive?:
Annoying?:
Do I frustrate you?:
If so, how?:
If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
What is my 'character flaw'?:
In 5 words or less, describe me:

Hey all, just figured I'd update for the w/e. So life is still going good, I guess me and Desiree are officially in "like" with each other...hehehe. I really wish I could just hop in the car and drive ten hours to MS to see her...
But then again....I have to stay focussed on work. I'm starting to miss all of my tally people...kind of like a backwards home sickness....gotta keep my head in the game. I'm wondering where Candice is at right now cause she won't tell me or Des where she's at. Hmm.....oh well. So. we got the circle complete tonight. All the people I really care about are talking to each other and happy now. Kevin still wants Melissa though, and I feel bad. There's a part of me that thinks that she thinks this is my fault that they broke up. That I was the one that pushed Kevin into breaking up with her. I really never meant to do that at all, I just wanted whatever would make him happy and at the time he seemed like that was what he really wanted. Well, I'll get over it. I miss Collin, Carlo, and Josh too, good times a plenty when my boys are around. Alright well...as Des would say...Se ya'll on the flip side PEACE OUT!!!

Opening Credits: "The Love Below (intro)" Outkast
Waking Up Scene: "Lift/With Love We Will Survive" Flickerstick
Car Driving Scenes: "Lowrider"
High School Flashback Scene: "Gladiator Theme"
Nostalgic Scenes: "Perfection Through Silence" Finch
Bitter/Anger Scene: "People=Shit" Slipknot
Breakup Scene: "Break Stuff" Limp Bizkit or "On My Own" The Used
Regret Scene: "Blue and Yellow" The Used
Nightclub/Bar Scene: "Ghetto Musick" Outkast
Jam the Freak out song: "Pictures" System or "Highway Song" System
Fight/Action Scene: "Mofo" U2
Sad/Breakdown: "Buried Myself Alive" The Used
Scary Scenes: "Resident Evil Theme"
Death Scene: "Amazing Grace" via bagpipes
Funeral Scene: "Dust in The Wind" you're my boy blue!!
Cheer Up Scene: "Smile" Flickerstick
Mellow Scenes: Spies "Coldplay"
Dream About Someone Scene: "Let You Know" Hoobastank
Falling in Love Scene: "Anything" 3eb
Sex Scenes: "Spread" Outkast
Ponder/Contemplation Scenes: The Batman Theme (the old one)
Chase/Hurry Scene: "Project Mayhem" Finch
Happy Love Scenes: "Stellar" Incubus
Happy Friends Scenes: "The Tourist" Flickerstick
Closing Credits: "Amsterdam" Coldplay

1. What time is it? 1:14pm
2. Name: Micah
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate: James Micah Pilson

4. Nickname: Imp, Mars Attacks, Fred
5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake: Didn't have a cake.....sorry
6. Tattoos: not yet, got it drawn out though
7. Hair color: Dark Brown
8. Looks: 5, 8" 130 pounds, decent tan, dork
9 Piercing: None
10. Eye color: Brown and green
11. How much do you love your job: I love my job to death, best job anyone could ever ask for
12. Hometown: Bradenton, FL
13. Birth Place: Houston, Texas
14. Favorite foods: Can I just enjoy food in general?
15. Ever been to Africa? Nope
16. Been toilet papering? Yeah
17. Love someone so much it made you cry? Yeah
18. Been in a car accident? Yep, thanks Mr. D
19. Croutons or bacon bits? why can't you have both, yo?
20. Favorite day of the week? Thursday, I don't know why
21. Favorite word or phrase: "Douche Bag, Fuckin A, I'm Just Desireein" (hahaha, right back at ya)
22. Favorite Restaurant? Fav's, and anything Chinese
23. Favorite flower? Yellow Roses
24. Favorite sport to watch? Paintball, FSU Football
25. Favorite Drink? Miller Lite, Corona, Mountain Dew
26. Favorite ice cream? Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough or anything Blue Bell just about (awesome answer Des)

27. Favorite fast restaurant? Wendy's
29. What color is your bedroom carpet? Like greyish brown.....blech
30. Have you ever failed your drivers test? Nope, got a 100% But I did fail my permit test once
31. Before this one, whom did you get your last e-mail from? Candice....
32. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Best Buy
33. Which state in the US would you like to visit? MS
34. Most annoying thing people ask me: Are you home because you failed????
35. Bedtime: Whenever I feel like sleeping?
36. Who will respond to this survey the quickest? probably whoever's as bored as I am
37. Who is the person that saw this that is least
likely to respond? Des, cause I got it from her
38. Favorite TV show(s)? Futurama, Family Guy

39. Last person you went out to dinner/lunch with? Andy
40. Ford or Chevy? Niether
41. What time you finished this survey? 1:23 pm